Payload (snippet)

v v v
yeah i know
no one knows my name
but i keep on trucking 
i just hope the work 
pays off or fucking something
but if it dont i wont be suprised
hell or nothing and left to die
stayed up every night for a year straight
studying my mixing and studying my membrane
always thought that i was fucking insane
never had no one to relate to, yeah yeah
never had no friends 
still fucking dont
i always end up alone again
and thats my fault too
i push them away
i push them away
please dont put any worth to my name
i swear to fuckin god i dont deserve that shit 
yeah im just a sad ass girl trapped in her room and shit
never leave my room unless i really fuckin have to
i dont know
i dont know
every night i smoke, man it got me feeling slow mo
throat burns, red eyes, and i feel like shit
feel like i wanna crawl in a hole and dip
say you really dont want me to do that
if you really dont want me to, please try and stop me
(try and stop me)
(try and stop me)
uncomfortable like always
always fuckin sweat
always fuckin stress 
about some dumb fuckin shit
always miss my boyfriend
always miss my dad
just wanna feel decent
how hard is that?
how hard is it to feel like im normal?
how hard is it to feel like im clean?
how hard is it to feel like kai?
how hard is it to feel alright?
aye, aye, 
no one knows my name
but i keep on truckin
i could just repeat that shit 
but i feel like workin
and i feel like nothing
hopefully im something
maybe ill find out one fuckin day but
not soon
yeah i was in marshall and u called me
said ur in asheville, can you meet me soon?
and i hit u back, said "im down, im down, im down"
always really am but you dont understand
look at twitter once then you go and advance
babe i think your heads clouded give me a chance
you look fucking flawless how you are boy dont trip
ay one grand for a trip (one trip)
just to hold my boy in my arms real quick (real quick)
yeah its real fucking tuff long distance relationship shit
yeah but its real love thats the shit you dont get.

hell or nothing (pekarot)

i don't believe that you heal in time
why not confront it now n make it truly die
before it bottles up and effects your life
but all i can say is
send memes
the sorcerer lost his stone in the rough
and the petals that cover it aren't filled with luck
and my lungs are collapsing
my head's filled with gunk
and i fucking accept it
it's beautiful stuff

it's fine cause i build back come the seasons
it's quite alright a cycle for a heathen

i don't believe that you heal in time
why not confront it now n make it truly die
before it bottles up and effects your life
but all i can say is
send memes
the sorcerer lost his stone in the rough
and the petals that cover it aren't filled with luck
and my lungs are collapsing
my head's filled with gunk
and i fucking accept it
it's beautiful stuff

[evergxrden]

oh its beautiful stuff
i can't get enough
as i grow when the wind isn't rough
have i suffered enough
and i don't think it's much
as like everything burdens my mind
she don't wanna hear what she's done to me
her words crawl in my skin right underneath
i fall onto my knees as she butchers me
her face always peels when she's hungry

aye what did you say
i keep on burning
im under the way
lighting the bridge
as i cover my face
grab all my bags and 
im leaving her place
she wanna cry
she wanna lie
but i send memes
tell me to die
she grab the blade and cut out my tongue
this is her way of saying i'm not enough

[hero]

i don't believe that you heal in time
why not confront it now n make it truly die
before it bottles up and effects your life
but all i can say is
sen̤̣͇͗́d memes
send meme̺̤͙̺̽̾̈͡s
sͪ͐̒͏̻͖̺ë́͗͏̮̖͇̲͇̬nd mĕ͖̤̓̈͒͟mes
ś͑eͥnd̺̬̪͓̕ ͪ͊͏̼̙̬̳̩̬͍͚m̲͈͖̜̭̆̽̍͡eme ̨̳̫̲̳̗̹͍̆s̢̹̗̰̐ͦ
senḓ̶̪͚̻̲̪̖̒͌̚ ̨͇͍̲̞ͨmͪ̂̇̃͏̫͖̟ė̼̯͉̳̮͎̙̤ͤͮ͡
en̸͉͉̭͙ͥd̢͉̫̭͕͖̳̋̊̅̿ͅͅ ͖̤̦̲̀̀̚m̘͇ͭ͡e̴͇̱̭͇̫̤̺ͥ̎̊mͭͬ͐́͏̲̙̜̠̰͓ę͎̹͖̘͚̭͚ͣ͐s̨̝͚͕͗̿̃
e̡̟̙͉̤̖̟̫̊̇̊̏ͅn̮͉̜̥͇͇͗͞d̝̖̓̓͘ ̵̥̟̝͖̰͈̻ͩ͑ͣͨm͈̘̻͉̼ͪ̔̇͢ȩ͉̱ͦ
e̖̤̘͍͙̯ͤ̆͌͡n͕̖͓̼̹̗̗̹̊̆͝d̴̗̜ͦͯ͑ ̜̦̯̼͍̈́ͤ̓́͘m̴͖̙̘̀̄͊ͅe̢̜̝ͬ̊
Ɇ̴̛̬͚̱̔͋̄₦̷̯̥͖̟̦̈́̐̾Đ̸̨̘̳͖͎̹̳̞͎̅͠ ̴̡̫̖̼͉̲̪̖̗͍͋̽͌̓́̂͆̌̚͘₥̵̜̙͉̩͙͛͌́̑̎̆͊͆Ɇ̴͔͇͉̺̹̯̌̆̃͛͜ͅ
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end me

sɆ̴̛̬͚̱̔͋̄₦̷̯̥͖̟̦̈́̐̾Đ̸̘̅͠ ̴̫͋̽͌̓́̂͆̌̚͘me₥̵̜̙͉̩͙͛͌́̑̎̆͊͆Ɇ̴͔͇͉̺̹̯̌̆̃͛͜ͅs (ft. evergxrden) (emptychest)

i dont get to see u anymore, thats the sad part

guitar by: killedmyself
prod by me (:

i hope your doing better now
that you left me here to drown 
i wish you the best 
even tho u kept on saying it was all my fault 

so im bleeding thru the bandages 
sleeping when i shouldnt be 
eating only once a week 
living but im feeling sick 

so im bleeding thru the bandages 
sleeping when i shouldnt be 
eating only once a week 
living but im feeling sick 
bleeding thru the bandages 
sleeping when i shouldnt be 
eating only once a week 
living but im feeling sick 

i still remember ur smell (ooh~)
and i can still see ur light hair (ooh~)
i still remember ur smell (ooh~)
and i can still see ur light hair (ooh~)

bleeding

Enough ft CocoFinesse

twigs (feat. brecken & notahero) (cxrter & vito)

lyrics ⬇️

Temple in my body really breaking down
 
Running like a zombie what im chasing out
baby do you copy i been drownin out
got me drinking at my homies house hes sober now

this is something i should stop
new stuff right out the box
i know that there’s consequences to my actions 
but somehow i would never gove up

using your words as a weapon
how could i think you a blessin
Im tryna make it to heaven
you wont be there im guessin :(

if im guessin wrong then ill be grateful 
when heavin calls youll see an angel
restart my life over again
gotta push back
no im not no recycling bin way past that

but i still need some oxygen to keep movin on in this life
if i cant feel the air thats in my lungs then its not right
gotta keep going cuz nothings ever really perfect
and if it is then honestly you really did not deserve it

this is honestly just a statement but i dont
but i dont wanna pave it
i been turning the pages to make it feel like im staying
but i
think i lost me a dime
shoulda never even tried

Temple in my body really breaking down
Running like a zombie what im chasing out
baby do you copy i been drownin out
got me drinking at my homies house hes sober now

anxiety riddles me everyday 
Do you wanna hear what i really think
i feel the purpose of life is pushing ur self to yhe limit with everything 
if ya heard this know what im sayin
no purchase
no more complainin its worthless might aswell burn all the bridges

gotta get life figured out somehow 
no i dont gotta go down that route
maybe i dont like the large crowds
so ill be locked in my house 

these forest walls only uncover options
when my liscense old
I think youll find me out there hostage
ill watvh the river flow
think ill finally find calmness
and when you ask who helped me
ill say god did.

temple garden (cxrter x ryini)

lyrics

hold on, hold on by a thread
with the faintest of whispers you’ll learn to forget
love me, love me again
the world crumbles slowly but you soften the fret

/

minding my step with the way words are falling
crush me, my dreams and the things i love calling
my dearest companions in the darkest of matters
a seek i reward with the absurdist laughter

/

lately i’ve had less lately
more formed to one with the moments more date free
less on the fence i used breathing to save me
i found all of our gifts and the exploits, you might hate me

/

i want peace for us all
i feel when quite and calm
i close eyes and sense the close call
i could lose my breath in your arms

/

help me my dear i am falling to pieces
mend my body i’m ok with creases
i now know the future, just stay for the night
a day can last forever if done just right

/

minding my step with the way words are falling
crush me, my dreams and the things i love calling
my dearest companions in the darkest of matters
a seek i reward with the absurdist laughter

last line of defence

last line of defence (empty roads)

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i dont get to see u anymore, thats the sad part

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