Pain Paints Paintings

Dax - Suffocating

[Verse 1]
I got cuts on my name from the battles I lived /
Scars on my soul, but I still don’t flinch /
They threw dirt on my grave, but I bloomed from it quick /
Took the hits, didn’t break, now I bleed like a script /
They don’t know ‘bout them nights I cracked /
When the silence hit louder than the lies I masked /
When I stared in the dark with a hope mismatch
Scratching at the surface /
But I still swung back with a Word I stashed /
I done prayed when the world went numb /
When the prayers hit walls and the air went dumb /
But the Spirit showed up like “Son, don’t run” /
Now I rap with a fire that could burn your lungs /
I ain’t fold when the game turned foul /
I just leaned on truth when the fear got loud /
Still walked through the flames in style /
Ten toes in the pit with a heavenbound vow


I Ain’t Folded Yet

### **[Intro]**  
Lord, Im not Even Worthy,
for To Carry Your Cross
Across My Back
Crown of
Cross on my back but the weight never fold me
Walk through the fire, never got cold feet/  
Scars on my skin but the blood still holy /  
Ain't duckin’ no war, if it’s up then just show me /  

### **[Verse 1]**  
Giant killer, broad sword, pressure made my palms sore /  
Nightmares in my mind, got me schemin’ like a crime lord /  
Came up out the trenches, wasn’t bred to be no sophomore /  
Pain turn to hunger, every plate I took was hard-fought /  
Plugged to the Source, no extension, ain't no cord here /  
Spirit on me heavy, got me movin’ like the Lord near /  
Blade cut the whispers, I ain't listen to the fear talk /  
Devil try to test, gettin’ stomped like a steel-toe /  
Blood on my hands, still they washed in the river /  
Used to grip iron, now my weapon got scriptures /  
Runnin’ through the valley, but my steps feel lighter /  
Hunted by my past, still I walk like a fighter /  
Thinkin’ ‘bout the nights I was stuck in the cell /  

Hold It Down

### **[Intro]**  
Storms came, but I walked through the rain /  
Ain’t no shelter,
just lessons ingrained
From the struggle, I crafted my name
Built a castle from shackles and chains

### **[Chorus]**  
Had to stomach the pain, took the flex and never bent /  
Felt the world on my spine, every dollar got spent /  
Kept my pride in a vault, had to guard every cent /  
But the weight of the past made my pockets repent /  
I ain’t run from the dark, I went straight through the pit /  
Sword of Spirit in hand, I let Scripture equip /  
Every demon that pressed, I just severed in clips /  
Ain't no duckin’ the smoke, I inhale when it hits /

GRIP A FIST

“What If I Fall”
[Intro]
What if I trip, what if I fall? /
What if I lose it, lose it all? /
Would you still ride when the whip ain’t mine? /
If the tank on E and the stars don’t shine? /

[Verse 1]
God, this ain’t workin’,
I’m scratchin’ the surface /
Heart full of burdens,
but feelin’ so worthless /
Tryna find purpose,
but drownin’ in curses /
Devil been lurkin’,
I’m duckin’ his serpents /
know that I’m far from
the man I should be /
Sin in my skin like it’s
stitched in the seams /
Faith in a war with
the weight of my deeds /
Prayin’ for peace,
but I’m haunted in sleep /
They tell me that grace is
enough for the fall /
well Tell me why guilt still
got me pinned to the wall? /
I done lost love I done lost trust /
I done lost blood tryna gain too much /
What if my past is a cage I can’t leave? /
What if my de-mons are
chained to my feet? /
Lord, if You hear me,
then give me a sign /
Show me Your light In-my-Life
‘fore I run outta time /

[Chorus]
What if I trip, what if I fall? /
What if I lose it, lose it all? /
Would you still ride when the whip ain’t mine? /
If the tank on E and the stars don’t shine? /
What if I break, what if I drown? /
What if the walls start closin’ now? /
Would you still stand when my back on the ropes? /
Or would you fade when the curtain get low? /

[Verse 2]
Tell me, do you see
a monster inside? /
Or a soul that’s just lost
tryna swallow his pride? /
I been on edge, I been on fire /
Climbed up a ledge,
put a noose to the sky /
Memories burn like
tippa Cigarettes Ash /
Pain in my blood, I can’t rinse out the source /
Battlin’ thoughts that I never endorsed /
Tuggin’ on ropes that was severed before /
All of these nights where I stared at the ceiling /
Wonderin’ why I was left in the trenches /
Had me a Bible, but faith came in inches /
Wrestled with God like my name was in Genesis /
Tell me you love me, don’t tell me you leavin’ /
Tell me you see me, don’t tell me you need me /
What if I never become what I dreamed? /
What if the future ain’t built for a king? /

[Chorus]
What if I trip, what if I fall? /
What if I lose it, lose it all? /
Would you still ride when the whip ain’t mine? /
If the tank on E and the stars don’t shine? /
What if I break, what if I drown? /
What if the walls start closin’ now? /
Would you still stand when my back on the ropes? /
Or would you fade when the curtain get low? /

[Bridge]
I ain’t been whole in a long time /
Buried my past in a chalk line /
Battled my ghosts in the dark times /
Walked through the fire but lost sight /
Tryna see heaven through keyholes /
Livin’ through pain like a free throw /
Tell me you ridin’ for me though /
Or just when the dollars increase, though? /

[Verse 3]
Tell me my worth when I ain’t got a dime /
Tell me my name when it ain’t in the lights /
Tell me you down when the blessings ain’t fallin’ /
Would you still love me if I was forgotten? /
Had to lose pride just to gain me a soul /
Had to lose time just to break from control /
Had to find faith in the places I ran from /
Had to let go of the things that I planned on /
Chains on my past like they linked to my fate /
But I got a Father that called me by name /
Took all the wounds, took all the stains /
Still showed me grace when I spit in His face /
What if I fall? What if I rise? /
What if my lows only sharpen my highs? /
What if the pain was the way I was carved? /
What if my scars was a work of His art? /

[Outro]
What if my story was never complete? /
What if my failures was fuelin’ belief? /
What if my losses was lessons in seed? /
What if my fall was just faith on repeat? /

What If I Fall

(Intro)
Past echoes still press on my cortex, coded in pain
Blueprints I drafted in cages now rebuilt my domain
Exhale the ghosts that stalked me, inhale a sharper mind
I rose from places meant to break me—now I’m redesigned

(Verse 1)
I climbed out them basements where the hopeless learn to cope
Where pressure makes you sharpen every fragment of your hope
Analyzed my memories like forensic archetype
Every trauma turned to tactics when the darkness came to bite
Studied laws of power nightly, wrote ‘em into my skin
Turned the hustle to a language only warriors comprehend
Pen venomous, lineage threaded deep into the grit
I weaponize my wisdom—ain’t a syllable I spit that’s counterfeit
They tried to box my future in a blueprint built to fail
But my patterns rearranged, now every molecule prevails
This cadence ain’t for posturing—I’m surgical with truth
Every stanza splits the static while I resurrect my youth
Still with the shits, but calibrated—discipline refined
I’m a walking coded cipher with a fortified design

Codified In The Chaos

[chorus]
it’s been a long road, i remember (//)
pain in my bones made me steadier (•)
through fire and smoke, i carry on (⤺)
long journey, but i’m not alone (//)

[verse 2]
early court, cheap coffee burns (//)
visits teach what time returns (•)
she asks where i am, i don’t lie (⤺)
say i’m learning how to try (//)
pain still wants to start a fight (•)
i choose peace and shut it tight (⤺)
won’t make my child prove my worth (//)
i build her shelter here on earth (•)
tell my fear you’re not in charge (⤺)
tell my shame you went too far (//)
heart beats fast, i slow it down (•)
four-count breath, feet on ground (⤺)
storms run deep in family lines (//)
i break that curse one day at time (•)
narrow road, i stay my pace (⤺)
light still finds the darkest place (//)

Long Road Ahead

**Verse 1**  
I'm servin' truth, straight from the source, no dilution,  
Bible in my hand, I bring the real, no substitution,  
They want that cut, water down the Word to please,  
But I’m servin' raw scripture, like the purest of the keys.  
No sugarcoat, this gospel ain't for the faint,  
It's fish scale faith, no lies, no taint,  
You can taste the purity in every single line,  
Christ paid the price, now I'm servin' up the vine.  
From Genesis to Revelation, I'm deliverin' the pure,  
Every verse hit hard like a knock at the door,  
I'm the messenger, His Word, I amplify,  
No cut, no compromise, just truth in supply.

**Hook**  
I'm servin' fish scale, straight from the Word,  
No cut, no mix, every line pure and heard,  
They want that truth, I’m givin' 'em the raw,  
Fish scale gospel, leave 'em in awe.  
No filler, no fluff, just the holy truth,  
Every bar, every line, straight to the root,  
Fish scale gospel, I'm servin' 'em right,  
Bringing light to the dark, in the dead of the night.

**Verse 2**  
They chase the highs, but I'm bringin' the low,  
To the ground, where the humble seeds grow,  
Christ in my heart, Holy Spirit in my veins,  
I'm servin' 'em the Word, pure, uncut, no chains.  
The world diluted, watered down for the crowd,  
But I’m standin' firm, preachin' truth loud,  
This ain't no easy road, it’s narrow and steep,  
But I'm servin' up the faith that the Father keeps.  
Every word precise, like the edge of a blade,  
No compromise, this foundation won’t fade,  
I'm servin' fish scale, straight to the soul,  
Unadulterated truth, that'll make you whole.

**Hook**  
I'm servin' fish scale, straight from the Word,  
No cut, no mix, every line pure and heard,  
They want that truth, I’m givin' 'em the raw,  
Fish scale gospel, leave 'em in awe.  
No filler, no fluff, just the holy truth,  
Every bar, every line, straight to the root,  
Fish scale gospel, I'm servin' 'em right,  
Bringing light to the dark, in the dead of the night.

**Verse 3**  
They want the watered-down, they want it mild,  
But I'm servin' up the fire that'll wake a child,  
This gospel ain't soft, it's firm like stone,  
I’m servin' ‘em pure faith, that’ll bring ‘em home.  
No chase, no cap, just the truth of the King,  
Every word from the Lord, got that heavenly ring,  
I’m the vessel, pourin' out His grace,  
Servin' fish scale, no mask, just face to face.  
They can keep the counterfeit, I’m bringin' the real,  
Uncut gospel, God’s love they can feel,  
This is truth, raw and unfiltered,  
Fish scale faith, by the Spirit, I’m lifted.

**Hook**  
I'm servin' fish scale, straight from the Word,  
No cut, no mix, every line pure and heard,  
They want that truth, I’m givin' 'em the raw,  
Fish scale gospel, leave 'em in awe.  
No filler, no fluff, just the holy truth,  
Every bar, every line, straight to the root,  
Fish scale gospel, I'm servin' 'em right,  
Bringing light to the dark, in the dead of the night.

No Cut / Fish Scale

Verse 1 – isolation + faith barely audible]
I speak, but the air swallows it (//)
Even God barely responds (•)
I’ve counted nights by heartbeats (//)
Not clocks, not calendars (⤺)
I’ve asked questions with no answers (//)
And heard only my own echo (•)
Every whisper of faith
feels distant, fractured, slow (//)
I move like a ghost in my own home (⤺)
Every corner reminds me
of what I carry alone (//)
Fatherhood keeps my hands steady
My eyes steady, my heart contained (•)
I don’t pray for comfort
I pray to endure
To exist without collapsing
⸻
[CHECKSUM – motif]
Faith doesn’t rescue.
It verifies.
⸻
[Hook – minimal, pulse-driven]
I am here
but barely heard
God whispers
in the static of the world
I hold
I endure
I measure every breath
I survive
⸻
[Verse 2 – existential void]
I’ve walked rooms filled with people
and felt like the only soul alive (//)
Prayers sent into nothing
but still obeyed by my posture (•)
I’ve spoken to the ceiling
and listened for a reply (//)
It never comes
except as expectation
tested, stretched, strained (⤺)
I measure faith not by sensation
but by the force it imposes on me (//)
I don’t feel peace
I feel the weight
I don’t hear guidance
I hear the silence
and it shapes me
more than any voice could

VOID

**Verse 1**  
I'm servin' truth, straight from the source, no dilution,  
Bible in my hand, I bring the real, no substitution,  
They want that cut, water down the Word to please,  
But I’m servin' raw scripture, like the purest of the keys.  
No sugarcoat, this gospel ain't for the faint,  
It's fish scale faith, no lies, no taint,  
You can taste the purity in every single line,  
Christ paid the price, now I'm servin' up the vine.  
From Genesis to Revelation, I'm deliverin' the pure,  
Every verse hit hard like a knock at the door,  
I'm the messenger, His Word, I amplify,  
No cut, no compromise, just truth in supply.

**Hook**  
I'm servin' fish scale, straight from the Word,  
No cut, no mix, every line pure and heard,  
They want that truth, I’m givin' 'em the raw,  
Fish scale gospel, leave 'em in awe.  
No filler, no fluff, just the holy truth,  
Every bar, every line, straight to the root,  
Fish scale gospel, I'm servin' 'em right,  
Bringing light to the dark, in the dead of the night.

No Cut - Fish Scale V.2

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VOID

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