Chill/depression

Sad times

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Sadness

'Bitter Blue '
coming soon...

Prod:
@93feetofsmoke

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And i still remember 
Your hands in my hair
And the fireplace in December
And time's forever changing
But i still feel the same for you
I just wish you felt the same way too

I don't wanna waste you time 
And i know you have a better life
But it's stuck inside my head 
And i don't wanna leave my bed

So just tell me you want me 
Tell me you need me
Tell me you'll come back
And you're never leaving

I was eighteen when you loved me
And now i know I'm twenty-something
But I'm still hoping that you'd come home
And tell me everywhere that you've gone

eighteen (prod. 93FEETOFSMOKE)

Spyro <3 PS2 (Prod by Foxwedding)

[Prod. Kamikaze] 
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Lyrics:
Ain't  Nobody  really fuckin with me like they  always say
And all these people hit me up but I know that they be fake,
I'm Gonna grab the lawn mower and finally cut off all you snakes 
I just wanna one day finally get up out this place ,
But that's always been the dream, same shit  a different day,
So I pop a few xans and  try to eliminate this pain,
But it's never gonna change, and I'll always feel the same
I don't know what to do  my life is looking plain,
Never feel excited and it's always been this way
I wanna make it out  I wanna get up out this rain 
And Say you had my back but always saw  me in this pain,
I'm tired of this shit,  and I'm so tired of these days,
Sleepless nights, anxiety, just  ain't no good for me,
Wanna tell my problems but nobody listening,
Sleepless nights, anxiety, just  ain't no good for me,
Wanna tell my problems but nobody listening , yeah

Ain't nobody listening, yeah,
Ain't nobody listening, yeah,
Ain't nobody listening , yeah, 
Ain't nobody fuckin care,
Ain't nobody fuckin care, yeah
Ain't nobody fuckin care, yeah,
 Ain't nobody fuckin care yeah,

So I smoke up all this dope and I always check my phone,
Every 5 minutes even though that I'm alone, 
Nobody hit me up I'm always feeling like a ghost
I just wanna find some peace but nowhere feels like home,
Always smokin up  and sippin' on some styrofoam,
Yeah I got this guap and that iPhone rose gold,
But that don't mean I'm happy I'm just feeling so alone,
I just want somebody who would listen and can cope,
I don't know what to do cause I can't trust a soul,
Sippin all this lean but still  these problems overflow ,
I Ain't got shit to lose like I'm on death row 
Say you understand but you don't even fuckin know 
Every day I wake up and I'm always feeling low,
I just chase this dream and hope that one day I will blow, 
I've just had enough And hope that one day this can stop,
I'll just keep on working and grinding to the top, yeah.

nobody

produced by @ihateshinigami
engineered by heartbreak jake and shinigami
written and performed by macho randy and shinigami

I'm so sorry for what I did last night at that party with her :(

SHINIGAMI & MACHO RANDY "IDK why I'm like this"

credits:

@4evergone
@charlieshuffler
@kellbender
@pxlm
@supachefm
@guccihighwaters

i will never be a memory

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a place where i belong [feat. supachefm!] (prod. 4evr)

V1
Its been like
3 months of no talking
Walking by myself
No more eyes to get lost In
Keep on looking back all the time 
Ill be honest
I hate being alone
at least I got my conscience
Since u left me here
locked up in my room
writing all these songs
Wake up evey morning 
and turn my computer on
Because how else do I deal 
With these thoughts of u and me
I was on the clouds
Now im spiralling into sea
I wrote a message for u
But I couldn’t send it
I regret it
Yuh
Im sorry I’m pathetic
Whats this caught a sickness
and won’t be getting better
The sun might be shining
But it feels like rainy weather


Pre chorus
I trynna keep it on the low
I trynna get u off my mind
I trynna keep my feelings inside
But its hard sometimes


Chorus
I thought with u it might work out
But I guess I was wrong again
Im not sure what it is with me
I’ve never been good with friends
I thought with u it might work out
But I guess I was wrong again
it doesnt matter who u are
Soon we’ll come to the end


V2
Its been about a year
Since we last spoke
Trynna stay clean but need more soap
letting out pain with these words I wrote
Dried up tears and a bit of soar throat
feelings that had were beginning to rot
Starts off good then it suddenly stops
Ya but ill leave it in the past
Now the futures all I got


Bridge
All of these girls, they got me picking sides
Falling in love is like my kryptonite
Don’t know what to do 
No I can’t decide 

Am I meant to be alone?

SPOTIFY

i could never be loved (Prod. Seany OWE)

EP coming soon!! Love u guys <3
Producer @pauli-niemi

Lyrics:
v1
She want me
I know it
Even though I’m broken

When she look
at me i
see that she’s also hopeless

I notice her emotions flowing out 
Her heart is open 
Because she trust me
I think she love me

I hold her close with passion
Imagining what could happen
She acting like a bandage
she healing all my damage

Yuh she’s the one I’ve been waiting for to land on my planet
Unlike them other girls
She got my back and she won’t stab it

this is true love
No theres not a plot twist
Knowing what she’s thinking 
Yes Im friends with her conscience

Clearing out my toxins
Every time we talking
kiss me in the dark
Middle of are movie watching

U the best thing and everything a friend could be
U got my heart locked up I could never leave
Staying up late at night when we texting
My plates full But time with u ill keep on spending

C
I hate it when your not with me 
Cuz it feels like somethings missing 

v2
Imma show u everything
And everything I hide behind
Tell u my whole story
I can take u back to 99

Loving you is sequence
Keeps my heart beaten
Imma keep u warm
Even if it means I’m freezing

Used to act reckless
Then I met u
Both eating breakfast underneath moon

People think we crazy
From the stupid things we do
I love it when u weird
Cuz I know I’m weird too

Thats just how we live
Acting like a couple kids
Running with the bugs through the grass
In the mist

Girl I’ll give you everything
Thats my final offer
I can be your knight
And protect u from the monsters

Yuh

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breakfast with the moon (Prod. Slipfunc)

@sadboyprolific 
@pauli-niemi

just another sad song...

Lyrics:
V1
I’m sick of loving 
Every time it’s just a misconception
I find a girl 
and she lead me into a new dimension
Thinking bout the future
Counting out all of our blessings
And then I find out it’s all fake
And she leaves me guessing
I guess I learned my lesson
I guess we’re better ended
I wish I never gave my heart out
Dummy should’ve kept it
Just like a piece of paper
She ripped my heart in half
I guess this kind of thing is something I won’t ever have
But it’s fine
Soon I’ll just get used to it
To keep my mind off of love
I’ll just do stupid shit
I fell asleep
Questioning is anyone for me
Laying on my back using 
Music as a remedy
Listening and writing
All these sad songs
Happy for a bit
But doesn’t last long
I’m Trynna find the joy
In all this chaos
Keep on praying
for my future hope it pays off

Hook
Broke my heart I
U tore it in two
So why am I
Still thinking of u

V2
Lately it’s fuck emotions
Grab the dope and then I roll it
I’ve been tripping off the potent
Honestly I’m omnipotent 
Used to think about r memories
I cleared em like my history 
Wrote this in a grave 
To set the scene
Cuz love is dead to me
R love was one sided
I know u ain’t felt the same
I bet u relish the fact
That I fucking felt this pain
U gave me comfort
U were like my shelter from the rain
Gripping the razor blade I swear I’d never love again
I’ll keep that promise
Trust me I won’t break it
I’ll rip my heart out of my chest
And chain it in the basement
Knocking bottles til I’m wasted
Clear to see I’m changing
Rather stick to blazing
Then the dreams that I’ve been chasing

V3
I know hearts don’t physically break 
but my chest hurts
I can still smell her perfume
On my sweatshirt 
They say that time can heal
Soon I’ll feel better
But all that can heal this
Is if I never met her
Story never ends 
If the story never starts
Take these sad feelings
Trynna turn them into art
Paintbrush light stroke 
Out all of my feelings
Spitting shit typing quick
Keep writing lyrics
Take the wheel I can’t see
But keep steering
Moving on kicking out 
My past demons
And I’m not walking I’ll be running 
From this torture
I see the light
Do my best to move forwards

scars on my heart | Feat. SadBoyProlific (Prod. Slipfunc)

Some boring, Love Stories

Spotify

Life Is Changing | Feat. raynadayz & kinshii

The Story of the Paper Boy (Prod. Moshi)

i can't sleep (Prod. Sarcastic Sounds)

in a bit | Feat. Jay $tone (Prod. Sonick)

Produced by @nekoilove

Lyrics:
Verse

I see you walking around with the cool kids
Achieved a new title, im still useless
Used to live across the street but you moved out
Everything we once did i dont do now
Used to watch stars right beside me
When i look up it reminds me
I dont know when we will talk but i hope its soon
I feel lost in side my room

Chorus

Thinking about you
I would sneak into your house through the side door
Thinking about us
Staying up with you until our eyes soar
Thinking about you
The only girl I'd ever give my all for
Thinking about us
Running after you through the down pour.

running through the rain

Now on SPOTIFY & APPLE etc.

Produced by: @otterpop123 Feat. @beabadoobee
Suggested from Martin <3

Lyrics:

Hook

Dont stay awake for too long
Dont go to bed
Ill make a cup of coffee for your head
Ill get u up and going out of bed

v1
I don’t wanna fall asleep
I don’t wanna pass away
Thinking of r future cuz 
Ill never see those days

I don’t know why this has happened
But I probably deserve it
I tried to do my best
But u know that I’m not perfect

Ive been praying for forgiveness
you’ve been praying for my health
when I leave this earth
Hoping you’ll find somebody else

Cuz ya we still young
Theres so much we haven’t done
Getting married
Start a family
Watch ur husband with his son

I wish it could be me
But I won’t make it off this bed
Hope I go to heaven so I see u once again

Ya my life was kind of short
But I got so many blessings
happy u were mine 
it sucks that its all ending

v2
Im happy that u here w me
Sorry if I tear up
When me and u were younger
U would always make me cheer up

taking goofy videos
And walking through the park
U would jump into my arms 
Every time u heard a bark

We would cuddle in your sheets
Sing me sound asleep
And sneak out through your kitchen at exactly 1:03

Sundays go to church
Mondays watch a movie
soon you’ll be alone
Sorry that u have to loose me

death bed | Feat. beabadoobee

her ocean eyes . . .

Produced by @user-949132137
Featuring @kammichaelmusic and @beabadoobee

Out on Spotify and Apple etc.

God can heal anything & everything

talk tomorrow | feat. Beabadoobee, Kam Michael (M.E.)

YOUTUBE

im used to it

ill come back to you

Producer @wrongnumberlofi

Lyrics

Hiding in my covers
I don’t get love only get wrong numbers
Underneath this thunder 
feel the rain fall on the wings of  a lovebird

I keep on falling faster
Im losing all that matters
Right now your all I’m after
I hope your my next chapter

Making 99 stops on the tour bus
Always have a blast with the four of us
Your always on my mind still my favourite
I know we’re friends hoping this year we can change it

I tried every type of sentence
But no words ever sound how I meant it
What am I when there’s so many more options
Dried eyes getting way too common

The rain on my wings. (wrongnumber)

prod. @tsuki_uzu
dont gotta be like them
You just gotta stay with me
Even when the monsters die
I dont wanna let you leave

Ya this city is a dangerous place
So I dont wanna spend our days a part
Even if I know your safe
I Hate not knowing where u are 




This whole town is numb
Cant trust in anyone
The time has come
When we barely see the sun

Found a way
Through the sewers
They would never find
Ya
 ill make sure that we never die

Hear the feet storm through the front gates
Gunshots and blood in the air ways

New world
Last breath 
For the innocent

Screams in the wind 
From the kids that I grew up with

I Dont wanna think of it

i hate not knowing where you are (.Uzu)

DNT [TRY] SHT (Tsurreal)

find the treasure in my trash.

i make whatever i want to. if u dislike it idc. shoutout the producers on these tracks too <3

DNT [TRY] SHT (Tsurreal)

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