allostatic load - fail better, heal faster

lyrics:
And at long last the time has come
To watch the water watch it run
Away from us back to the sea
But we won’t ever see a thing
Cos it moves faster than u think
Can u picture skating rinks
And sliding at the speed of light
Just like we did that summer night,
Do u recall just what u said to me
Do u realize what it means
Maybe not but that’s okay
I might have to go away
cos I can’t take much more pain
am I getting in the way
i’m distraught and now my thoughts are eating away at my brain

And could u see
the look inside my eyes the moment you got out and stared right back at me
How could it be
My stomach starts to cramp when ur around and start to speak, am I a freak
I hope it’s me
That you can’t help but notice when you’re walking down the street, I hope it’s me
But could it ever be
Well I don’t really know but do I wanna know or just keep wondering

I wrote ur name big in the dirt
And collapsed because something hurt
But I don’t know just what it was
It took my breath it took the sun 
Out of my eyes for just a sec
And scared me shitless so I checked 
to Make sure I still had a pulse and it was slow, oh that was close
And u ran over just to check on me
And u kissed me on the cheek 
But now it’s been a couple months
And u have disappeared for what
Maybe im too daft to see
maybe ur in front of me
Maybe I should stop looking, maybe I should stop looking

And could u see
That for u I’d tag along, just for you I would do anything
How could it be
did u find somebody else already, find somebody much better than me
Wish I was free
So I could move along already, I know you’ve been hiding just from me
But could it ever be
The thought that haunts my brain so often, the reason I would give u all of me

and could you see (demo)

lil song i produced cos i was bored lemekno

circles

A song paying tribute to the eggs Mum said we all came from growing up as kids. A beautiful piece of unique nurture. Love ya Mum

The Eggs

Pure maternal love
Pure power of nurture
Uniqueness sown
Each shell a picture we own

Brave brown egg first
Wise white seeds second
Third speckeldy thirst
Forth Tan found pleasant

Each of us always the best egg on Earth
Seeds of ourselves with pride for our worth
Best spreader of love known to existence
Unconditional nurture so fear finds resistance

Total belief in just what we are
Each egg the best human life hearted star
Empowered by label of virtuous good
Self belief in ourselves
Pure pertinent childhood

No matter what's said
Reply always love
Mum cares for those shells
Subtle Penguin like purse
Best spreader of love known to our land
Mother made eggs
True taker of hand

Best spreader of love known to man
Thank you Mum for preening good plan

The Eggs

how do you tell a girl you really like her eyes?

this is not as good as it could have been but im building a new computer and will lose all my demos so i decided to top this one off and post it!! :p thank you for listening

lyrics:
i'm never really happy with anything that i do
i always feel like someone else could've done it better
i know that didn't rhyme i just wanted to say
that i feel this way every fucking day
of my life

but it's ok i know that i'll be alright
and maybe one day i'll feel like i did something right

something right [demo]

Taylor wrote this awesome guitar riff that we made into a song. This is us practicing it for the first time and I'm so glad it sounds this way with all the instruments. 
Listen to the finished recording of this song here!
https://open.spotify.com/track/6LyA6defawzVyvPdL3LqIK

Space Again (Demo)

end of my life.

Scruffpuppie - Gone

lyrics:
broken love
has no trust
winding down
i see now
the pillars were made of 
flour and sawdust
fragile and sandy and it's making me cut
off all of the ties i have strung along and i
cry

fissured fuck
taking drugs
so careless
floral dress
sewn from soft cotton it makes me feel rotten
drowning the bugs making them all fall in love
drowning all of the bugs
making them all fall in love

flour and sawdust (demo)

floating

A LOT OF TRACKS PRIVATE!
due to getting more taken down. I can only keep some up that won't get strikes, message me for links to private songs if you really want :)
FOLLOW BACKUP ACCOUNT: @nokeebackup thank you
I'm not @Scruffpuppie

Scruffpuppie - Gone

Nokee