noxpox - companero

Erica—am I, or only a hush inside my head? https://www.tumblr.com/eneagore/793024499461341184/erica-lighthouse-with-no-shore?source=share

I stared into my own eyes. The bathroom mirror offered no story—only a duplicate of myself. I resembled my father, a likeness I wanted no part of. All I really wanted was to capture my mother’s features: to let her smile settle on my mouth, to keep my skin like hers, to overturn my father’s image once and for all. Yet I couldn’t push past these tasteless eyes, these impure, insignificant retinas.
With toothpaste I traced my name on the glass, but it felt borrowed, not mine. I spoke it aloud, faster and louder, until the syllables frothed into meaningless sound and my guttural voice fizzled out. I wiped the mirror clean. The reek of urine made my stomach twist, as did the sight of my naked, sweat-slick body. No shower could wash away such disgust.
I wanted a mind less congested, to stop thinking about all this. Why was I even standing there? Was I truly trying to piece my family back together? Deep inside, a hostile hydra writhed in my gut, and I felt ashamed of the solitude coiled within me. I longed to drain every drop of this poison from my body—emptying myself, leaving nothing behind.

Written, arranged, produced & designed by Enea Gorè
Mixed & mastered by Enea Gorè. Recorded in my bedroom studio, Spring 2025.

Istrumentation:
acoustic guitar, electric guitars, synths, theremin, vibraphone, keyboards, pads, kalimba, drums by Enea Gorè

Special thanks to: Anna C. for waveform artwork.
And my cousins for being the subjects of the artwork and cover.

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