We’ve reached book IV in Rupert Clervaux’s series of “Zibaldone” audio diaries, at which point we find him telling a different kind of story. 

“The first three all had very specific themes, while this one feels a little bit looser and doesn’t have just one thematic thrust,” he tells me, which maybe explains why listening feels a bit like annotating. I’m underlining, emphasizing, drawing arrows from here to there, highlighting symbols and noting motifs, realising, questioning, eureka-ing. An impressionistic meaning’s been encoded in and we’re lucky to be given the space to play that most poetic and boundless of all mental games: narrativization. 

There are no wrong answers, but Rupert offers some clues either way. If there’s any cipher here it’s “something like a meditation on the concept of ‘depth’––in all its connotative forms.” Think below the surface, (the) underground, yawning oceans, being ‘down in the dirt’, soil, roots, rootlessness, pulling at the dregs, collapse, profundity, stable and unstable horizons, distance, perspective, intuition, not to mention relative opposites: to be shallow, to be above, to be beyond. 

It’s got me thinking of Bresson’s “Bring things together that have as yet never been brought together and did not seem predisposed to be so.” His: “Dig deep where you are. Don't slip off elsewhere.” Rupert has realized these—two favourite goals of mine!—here. 

This is music that catches you at your own periphery, gives pause, has you offering a little “huh” to, asking “I wonder why” to. Again, it’s got me musing on another mindworm, this time from New York publisher and multi-sensory reading room Dispersed Holdings: “Feeling-making-knowing feedback loop; cartography of feeling; water as text, read to know the land beneath and around it, and body as reader.” 

Is it ok to offer up these other contexts out of context? I think so, because Zibaldone IV articulates a similarly swirly tone. Like, we’ve got Rebecca Solnit talking through Kropotkin’s “Mutual Aid” and later calling out to Michael Ruppert a ways away, and “Easy Rider” is playing in the wings. We’ve got Susan Sontag magically contextualizing Mariah Carey with poet Thylias Moss triangulating in order to sketch out (Rupert again) “something a little more interesting than wilful eclecticism or that laboured and patronising kind of pop-savvy.” 

Are we following? Whether yes or no Vanessa Bedoret follows on with a performance of a performance of Moss’s 'Water Road’: to be once or twice removed, via strange transitions, purposeful confusions, and, suddenly, seagulls. We’re on a boat with Ingeborg Bachmann—and how I wish I could actually be! But maybe thanks to this music I can as literature, films, friends, lethargy, coincidences, little mental links, eternal wormholes, lingering notions come together to imagine something better. 

Text by Natalia Panzer 
npanzer.com 

Artwork by Coline Cornélis 

Music by Rupert Clervaux 

with 
Vanessa Bedoret: voice and violin on Thylias Moss #2 
Eben Bull: trumpet and electronics on Mutual Aid and Departure from England 
Isis O’Regan; voice on Departure from England 
Nick Taylor: electronics on Chthonic ’97 
Ben Vince: saxophone and electronics on Chatsworth ’17 

Artwork by Coline Cornélis 

Warm thanks to James Marrs, as always, and Natalia Panzer 

Vanessa recreates and reads an excerpt from ‘Water Road’ by Thylias Moss. Isis reads ‘Departure from England’ by Ingeborg Bachmann (translated by Peter Filkins). This record is dedicated to both poets––with great respect and deep admiration.

02. Simple Food For Our Simple Taste

Taken from the album 'Behold' released as LP and Download

Oren Ambarchi & Jim O'Rourke: 'Behold A (exceprt)' (EMEGO 176)

Saturn

A journey through the architecture of consciousness, where silence transforms into wisdom and thought into light. Each composition unfolds like a secret in the infinite mind, weaving echoes of creation, balance, and transcendence. The listener is invited to master perception itself, to dissolve boundaries, and awaken inner eternity.

Symphony of Creation

Track for EXO compilation, record out on Ekster.(http://www.eksterlabel.com/EKS007-EXO)

Trooper

It's been a long time since I did a remix, and I've only ever done one before. And I've wanted to do another one for a while, so here's something I knocked together for you (yes, I'm talking to you). On another note, I sure as hell hope I've done this tune justice as the original is so beautiful to me. 
UPDATE: I've added another sample to this, to make it just that little bit cooler (20% if my calculations are correct). I wanted to put it in originally but I wasn't sure if it fit at first, now I've done some tweaking and it now should appeal to my fellow Bronies. I'd say that now this tune is a somewhat abstract representation of Fluttershy's spirit, gentle and peaceful.
Samples (obviously) taken from Autechre - Flutter, and MLP FiM episode 1, but I will be very impressed if you spot the other sample that I used ;) 
Artwork is not mine (I'm not too good at drawing Ponies), it belongs to <a href="http://yikomega.deviantart.com" rel="nofollow" target="_blank">http://yikomega.deviantart.com</a>/. I hope he doesn't mind me using it, and I'm happy to take it down if he asks so. 

EXTRA UPDATE: I've taken the liberty of remastering this track. I just thought it needed it, since I think the old snare was rather poor and the bass was a bit lacking before. Said problems have been fixed now.

Autechre - Flutter (Shy remix by Nosnibormada)

A vivid aural voyage with clever panning, bouncing chords & whirling lead lines. Taken from the collaborative album between @gigi-masin-official & @tempelhof on @hell-yeah and @cascine. 

Read more & buy: http://www.stampthewax.com/2016/05/25/premiere-gigi-masin-tempelhof-labyrinth/
Listen on Youtube: http://bit.ly/gigi-tempelhof-labyrinth

Listen on Youtube

Gigi Masin & Tempelhof - Labyrinth (STW Premiere)

https://czaszka.bandcamp.com/album/emo-dub

Friends

‘Bioschismic’ 
“Time becomes plastic. Your experience of time morphs................And when you come out of it, on the strong days right before the next scheduled infusion, all of that time compresses into blurry waves of noise.” Xeni Jardin

Time is defined by and within the human experience yet the dominance of ‘linear’ time prevails. We are inextricably linked with time, ‘Life’ is measured in time.

Depending on particular situations our experience of time can be elusive, appear stretched, accelerated, and on occasions all too specifically in synch with defined parameters. Audio recordings, film, Internet, and photography are some of the means by which we choose to mark ‘times’. Such documentary methods signify our need to externalise particular events and also to activate memories.

‘Bioschismic’ is created solely from audio and photographic documentation of Xeni’s time spent receiving chemotherapy. The repetitive drip drip rhythm of the toxic chemicals measured in precise doses over a specific period of time provide the prospect of extending (life) time. Time is the dominant force yet the effects of the drugs change the experience of time to a space that is other worldly - a different time zone - a schism within and for life itself. 
Cosey Fanni Tutti

‘Bioschism’ - inspired and made possible by Xeni Jardin

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www.coseyfannitutti.com 
www.xeni.net

Nominated by ICA  www.ica.org.uk

This work is part of ICA SOUNDWORKS - www.ica.org.uk/soundworks
http://soundcloud.com/icalondon/cosey-fanni-tutti-bioschismic

Bioschismic

Taken from the album Relax and Implode out on 16 October 2020.

Video: https://youtu.be/6_7tVCh_3MQ

I Care About You, Just Not Right Now

Single edit from the 'In Ferneaux' album, out 2/26/2021.

Blanck Mass - Starstuff (Single Edit from 'In Ferneaux')

Moving away from Soundcloud.
https://n-o-s.bandcamp.com