got that old 9tails vibe, but with unique vocal effects

old asf thing from the vault w/ @torvamia <3 

luv yall thank you so fkn much for the support lately. shit gives my life meaning

dnt wake up ft. torvamia (methboiswag)

watch the leaves fall on my legs 
as i wait and let the time pass
seasons go my life's still a mess
why did i put my life in both ur hands?

fading away disappearing fast
all of ur love for me like a crash
why did this happen is this a test?
i hate u for making me hate myself

im cutting my wrists breaking my bones
stuck in my head, stuck in my home
laying awake all night long
lookin at u thru my phone
lonely everyday i do the same
sit on my chair and i rot away
while i keep dreamin bout u 
and the way u were dressed that day
im cutting my wrists breaking my bones
stuck in my head, stuck in my home
laying awake all night long
lookin at u thru my phone
lonely everyday i do the same
sit on my chair and i rot away
while i keep dreamin bout u 
and the way u were dressed that day

don't even bother callin my phone
i changed my number and im goin ghost
i hate the life and the way it goes
im well today but tomorrow nobody knows
different drinks, cigs and a bloody nose
that's the way the sad ones roll
losing track, of how many tracks, 
i pulled of doing song after song
song after song
tens in a row 
and im losing control
losing compusure 
destroying my soul
im just hopin that in peace i will go 
cuz~

im cutting my wrists breaking my bones
stuck in my head, stuck in my home
laying awake all night long
lookin at u thru my phone
lonely everyday i do the same
sit on my chair and i rot away
while i keep dreamin bout u 
and the way u were dressed that day

cutting my wrists, breaking my bones (young taylor)

produced: tiedforsilver
feat: greenwood 
artwork: my amazing gf <3

lyrics:

( i would give anything to walk by your side again, alone my hands are trembling and i would make the sun drown)

i would give anything
to walk by your side again
the loneliness is dragging me 
further in the dark and now i cannot pretend 
that i can take the suffering
when your not around i’d rather be dust in the wind
alone my hands are trembling
i would make the sun drown to bring you back my friend

(greenwood)

keep you safe, i don't know if i can manage
i whip it fast, sip it slow, its fucking static
guess you were right, never more than just an addict
i compensate, i overdo it fucking manic

all of that in my life though
i just really wanna go home
call you drunk from your friends phone
straight passing out at the dial tone
i don't what this life's worth
guess i don't see what you see (don't know what you mean)
nothing ever came easy when i'm face down in the deep

compensate i never get it right
run it different in my head like just the other night
see the mist and all the people on the other side
i know you're there and i don't even have to wonder

(epitome)

i do not have the time, nor a good alibi 
to explain why, how nothings been going right
i could roll the dice, but that would waste the time
of you and i, no need to try to chance it now

this loneliness as left a frown
on my face, it’s dragging me down
to the ground, now underneath where i can’t even hear a sound

i would give anything
to walk by your side again
the loneliness is dragging me 
further in the dark and now i cannot pretend 
that i can take the suffering
when your not around i’d rather be dust in the wind
alone my hands are trembling
i would make the sun drown to bring you back my friend

i would make the sun drown w/ greenwood (tiedforsilver)

lyrics

when atleast 1 don’t want the best for each other 
but words and what was taught keep them under
the wings that once brought close the lost souls in to cover
now cause more hurt but he still calls her his lover

as she falls back in to a state of sleep paralysis 
he crawls back in to her mind in hopes it’s healed to bliss
but these dynamics bring out the worst of what we call our flesh
the dreams mixed with torn down aura bring out masochistics

i don’t wanna see u cry no more she tells him sweetly
but i saw you tagged along you were moving way too freely
he’s hers to keep there’s no going 2 ways bout it
2 similar acts but if one does it then the others astounded

she needs it, craves it it’s all that she could know
perspectives can’t be seen if your own is broke 
he understands and for that reason he finds a way to cope
suffocating every moment in her presence, he can’t grow

and sure he cares, but he’s unaware of the damage that will construe 
blinded by his weakness, not every man can tell that truth
but there’s a darkness 
lense tinged with slight grey and blue 
it’s painted red in her eyesight
there’s no escaping her view

plenty years under the belt and if youd check youd see the signs
victims known to slump, no problem plucking out the spine
youll say its fine theres time I guess the aftermath is quiet
but then shell lie still in your eyes theres nothing more divine

she lies

she lies. (jolst x splashgvng)

~2300~

produced by me

mix + master by Jake Mannix

granite

<3
soundcloud.com/eoin-disney

Eoin Disney:
i wish it was the right time
i wish you were right there
i miss you in the nighttime 
i miss you when i'm scared
told her listen to the starlight
as i kiss you from the moon
and when you glisten in the sunlight
you're shaping shadows in my room

Greenwood:
the shades been drawn for so long
i dont know why i've been here
a summer passed without your laugh
i still hear it so clear
i wonder why it happens now
left to figure out
how the pieces of me suffocate in the weeds intact
told you that its good, its getting bad

listening to rover in your attic
sleeping in til 6 i know it after
i had marked the page to save the passage 
something about the pain that doesn't happen
i wonder if your neighbours figured out at all
i wonder if you saved yourself at a cost of what we lost

Eoin Disney:
i wish it was the right time
i wish you were right there
i miss you in the nighttime 
i miss you when i'm scared
told her listen to the starlight
as i kiss you from the moon
and when you glisten in the sunlight
you're shaping shadows in my room

Greenwood:
light we couldn't see but i'm sure that its hitting
i'd be down for a week, i'd be down for a minute
see the scope of your life when its already finished
kinda strange at the end, feeling like the beginning
and i know what you'd say but i'm glad that you didn't
put my life on a shelf for a job and its killing
cause i've been fucking up
i just need to come around
figure out the proper way to hold you but its different now
i just couldn't figure out

time had taken hold of me, bury me
take control like its kerosene 
in my head its invisible, what's that mean on a principle?
when its dark i could speak but i regret it so easily
if you promise to forget i'd tell you just what it means to me
to be out again
fucked up with the sound effects
heard he made it overseas i hope he knows i'm proud of him
happy so we call it that
second summer came to pass, i've been working late
cause no ones waiting for me coming back

cycle through the lens of the moment
i couldn't see what was coming
i tried to fix it when its over 
cause i thought that it wasn't

Eoin Disney:
i wish it was the right time
i wish you were right there
i miss you in the nighttime 
i miss you when i'm scared
told her listen to the starlight
as i kiss you from the moon
and when you glisten in the sunlight
you're shaping shadows in my room

Bloom (w/ Eoin Disney)

Big shoutout to @fleshgolem for mixing shizu's verse! <3

1st - @dylaanlotus
2nd - @strivemusicau
3rd - @shizukesaaa
4th - @noxious-nights
5th - @soulfadexo

Hold up, that shit my bad
Put that all on my back
I don’t get along with that bitch but I don’t fight back
Write a couple songs about that shit just tryna take the pain
Write a couple songs about that shit just tryna get away
Know that I can’t find a way to love without it hurting
Up in my head I don’t give a fuck you did me dirty once again
I’m done
I’m done
I’m done
all the times you said you’re numb

Tell me what the fuck is happenin
Everybody’s turned to savages
Half of you started panicking 

Twitching in the floor just let me drop
tell me I’m the one even know I’m not 

I guess
this could be the end
I guess
everything is for the best

How can I trust?
How can I try?
Establish my own in my timeline

Oh no
Now I think I’m running solo
I know I’m reaching for the end zone

Oh no
Now I think I’m running solo
I know I’m reaching for the end zone

eyes rest
wake up
dread cycle
fucked up, shouldn’t tell me I’m your idol
slitted wrist stupid kid, suicidal
only wish ion fold under my goals
bitch you really dont know shit ‘bout me anymore
so all we do is fuck and smoke, you’ll come and close the door
chilly breeze beneath us freeze the feelings left before 
forevermore severed connection as I hit the floor

I found my soulmate had to be far away
like the sky told me my smile has to be paid
hope the day I see you wont be too late
you keep telling me that you wont leave

I love you and you tell me that you feel the same
deep down I hate that im not really there
you know it doesnt mean that I love u less
wish u were here when you tell me to sleep

what did I do to deserve you?
what made you love me like you do m?
why do you think I’m the one for you?
I know I could be so much better

You thought I would play nice
Like following blind mice
To break I’m like thin ice
That I won’t suffice
It’ll never fly through
Why’d you feel so blue
You made it here too
I don’t wanna know what’s new
Gotta get the money, money
I don’t need you honey, honey
Even if you want me, want me
Imma get some bitches on me
And don’t you even dare
Why’d you even care
Even if you try again
We’ll be everywhere

savagery w/ dylan lotus, strivesad, shizukesa, noxiousnights & soulfade [+ splashgvng]

Stay Home

lights in the dark
feeling sick when you talk
was it easy to know?
is it easy to walk?
i feel weightless
gather dust in the basement

pressed in your clothes
act like nobody knows
that you made it to august to wake up alone
as its breaking
haven't spoke in the days since

i've been cautious and sober
he died in october 
he said that hes fine 
now the lights flicker slowly in bayview
couldn't face that they made you

i could finish early it could get so cold
raining in the summer and it takes me home
felt it more than life and how'd i let you go?
let you go

and the light doesn't know that im still here
but i'd rather take it away
and everythings all so familiar 
and i've not a thing left to say yet
better than watching
better than watching you pretend

Familiar

beautiful guitar -> @safeatlast

Lyrics:

jaded in the backstreets
she'd hit the gas flyin past me
5 guys girl ur trashy
9 shots like who put me in the front seat
ay
guardin on my playlist
wired up on go while the tape spin
kind face but he a rapist
no name
no face
still complacent

this girl's not home
but she is all i know
i'm reaping all i sow
just bury all i wrote
where after?
this girl's not home
but she is all i know
i'm reaping all i sow
just bury all i wrote
where after

-

where after
where after
where after
where after

where after
where after
where after
where after

this girl's not home
but she is all i know
i'm reaping all i sow
just bury all i wrote

where after?

where after? (prod. safeatlast x hero)

first of many to come this year <333

lyrics

You found me among the fallen leaves that once were great
You took me in to your home and I put on a face
The moment is where I try to be, behind me, all erased 
At least I’ll try, can’t kill a tide that never wants to wave

I’m fallin in and out of love with music but I don’t take no breaks
I just keep it going coz if I stop the ground will shake 
The world around me is all that I despise but I can trick my brain
But I can’t deceive myself when i say I wanna keep u safe

I know your heights so I know you fell
I see your eyes, know you turned to hell
I hear your cries, hear them loud and well 
And if your stuck, you hear the ringing bells

The way u see me is how I wanna see myself
That’s why it’s so hard to say I love, I’ve just held back how I’ve felt
It's just the life of sacrifice, I know exactly how you felt
When you gladly watch the world you live in melt

fallen leaves

fallen leaves (purc)

hero#1234 on discord if u need a friend.
https://discord.gg/RU7YPvM3CC
song every 1-2 weeks
beat every week

@onebigwoopsy
@timeless-archive
@miserygxrden

where after? (prod. safeatlast x hero)

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