Stop Calling Home w/ brecken [prod.mxtthxw]

Shout out brecken and casperrr for working on this with me

heyyou w/ brecken & casperrr

prod dash 

sample from whiplash
lyrics ⬇️
theres not a future thought in my head oh well
well i could tell you what i want next 
but you would yell
yell at me for my best
for secrets that i had kept
then wonder why i aint slept
oh well
think this is something i cant repeat
keep stoopin low
you gonna find me out in a ditch
i dont want you to know
i dont think i dont think i can be seen like this
id rather you go tell everyone im just in an abyss
stuck out in the snow
way too cold so i couldnt flinch oo

think my lil brodie jus hit em a clip
360 y y hit on yo miss
and he doin damage so that you cant stitch
all of the stuff that you wish he aint did
act like my wifi aint runnin so i could just possibly find me some rest
act like this wachu been wantin
honestly please come be my guest

white paint on my whip
all of my vices green
i dont want you to trip
but i dont wanna you to cling
like what do u mean

well its pretty easy if you would just listen just for a minute 
i could tell u how i really have been 
like walkin to finland
thats how the distance feels between us when you get tempted
if i had wishlist you wont get it
ill throw that lil promise over the hedge

hits like a comet covered in ship
if we woulda saw it it would be sick
hints like a comment you wont forget
but we had a problem thats what we missed
covered in star dust under the mist
woulda been harder not to be hit

barley had started when you had dipped
hate you departed think we had skipped
my head been clouded hate to admit
i hope these feelings diminish they cant replenish
you act like a skit but this now a show
like where did u go
if i had a blick then i woulda blown
like you didnt know

and i cant explain how im feelin alone
every night i feel like theres not a phone
no where to reach
nowhere to be
part of me feel like im left out to bleed

finland (dash)

lyrics

fall in love with me again
wait in my coat while i smoke cigarettes
and plan to watch the sunrise, but fall asleep instead
i want to hold you like i used to
i want to tell you that i love you
we killed the tree and ripped the roots

and for now im no one
for now im no one
for now im no one
for now im no one
now im no one
now im no one
(x2)

i miss those nights 
cuddled up during the winter we're soul tied
my brains succumb to the wither on both sides
like fuck tryna forget her
cuz now im packing my bags
im building the bags under my eyelids
and you're too attatched
and im way too sad for it to be august
and yesterday holds memories that im losing
i dont remember much nowadays
i dont remember much nowadays

fall in love with me again
wait in my coat while i smoke cigarettes
and plan to watch the sunrise, but fall asleep instead
i want to hold you like i used to
i want to tell you that i love you
we killed the tree and ripped the roots

and for now im no one
for now im no one
for now im no one
for now im no one
now im no one
now im no one
(x2)

for now, im no one (p. muzcean)

deadwood collective

Lyrics
-=-=-=-
I don’t even wanna go outside
I just wanna stay right here in my room
A thousand chemicals
Consuming everything I do
I try to show it’s all for you
But these intentions never prove
I have my back up to the wall
And I can feel it falling through

Into the quick sand
Feel it like a sixth sense
I’ve been feeling sick since
You said that you miss me
Plucking the six string
I’m feeling misery
Tryna find a melody
To show you what you did to me
Anxiousness a tendency
That tends to get the best of me
I bite this fucking tongue until it splits upon my bloodied teeth

I don’t even wanna go outside

Nah I’ma keep that shit right here
Stabbing my back u don’t fight fair
No time shared
Like why care
Flippin the script and I’m taking a rip from
I don’t know
I don’t care
You don’t even care when I’m right here
Like right here
I’m right here
Girl can’t you hear me I’m right here

I'll die in this room (wraithontheporch)

dont go tweaking
i know that
these things tend to fix themselves
im bleeding on your porch
and we both know
you shouldve asked for my help
watch me break through as im burning up loud
and i wont fill my hand if you just gonna bite down
its a bummer and its way too much to talk about
now im flicking ash off everytime you turn to pompeii

i dont know how im still freezing
blunt came with the pharoahs curse
breathe it take the edge off
im so drunk right now cant even close my mouth
3.5 inside of this blunt im fried
shit might take me out
and i dont know, baby where you going
feel the blood in my face just falling down
i hate myself when youre not around
and now im in the party like
oh my God
i know that you said that just to turn me on
my heart shedding layers later ill be gone
but if nothings getting better then whats the point of staying
im slowing down
i can feel the hold inside my chest grow to fit the shape of your sweet smile
but if nothings getting better then whats the point of staying

and i dont know, baby where you going
feel the blood in my face just falling down
i hate myself when youre not around
and now im in the party like

dont go tweaking
i know that
these things tend to fix themselves
im bleeding on your porch
and we both know
you shouldve asked for my help
watch me break through as im burning up loud
and i wont fill my hand if you just gonna bite down
its a bummer and its way too much to talk about
now im flicking ash off everytime you turn to pompeii

you hate the lyrics but girl i know you love the sound
a tragicomedy it feels like i been stepping on a rake
this broken heart's another foot inside the ground
you took the cast off and didn't even find a heart to break, like how
ironic how the marijuana breaks me down
it hurts my lungs like ow, like ow, like how
if i keep on going down this road then you won't follow, right
baby did i get that right
visions blurry but i think i see the city lights
you said you really want this for my life, right
now amiro in the party like

oh my God
i know that you said that just to turn me on
my heart shedding layers later ill be gone
but if nothings getting better then whats the point of staying
im slowing down
i can feel the hold inside my chest grow to fit the shape of your sweet smile
but if nothings getting better then whats the point of staying

and i dont know, baby where you going
feel the blood in my face just falling down
i hate myself when youre not around
and now im in the party like

feed u w/ kiddamo (p. under the maple tree)

lyrics ⬇️ 

its been a lot to bottle up what ive become
ive came to terms with what id done a year ago
but i forgot how we had met and how it crashed and how it burned
you said it would all be worth it in the end maybe wed learn

what i wanted ended faster than i hoped for
its been exhausting my whole memory straight folklore
yea i see dreams along my hall
its been weeks since we last called
maybe i should write it off
i would rather lay than talk

i take anger out on everybody that dont deserve it
but when its wearing off i promise you ill feel like a burden
so when im hurting really bad ill make sure they know im alright 
i did everything i could with what i had i tried fight

but it aint go to plan whenever other thoughts arrived
it made me realize how i wasted all my time

In 2019 i was lost and then i packed my bags im gone
you can’t remind me how i felt unless you slash me with sword
hold tight yea hold tight yea hold tight to me tonight
i have an awful feeling this will be the last time i cry

so if it is please don’t remind me i wont be there tomorrow 
and i regretted when you caught my only shot my only arrow

its only fair tho
i was at my lowest point and i was acting like a scarecrow 
i dont care no

act like you know me like you know how it goes
on the daily
just a microdose 
i think im coming close
please save me


you hate me, i know I been wrong 
im sorry im sorry
full sprint i been on the wrong road
ill hurry ill hurry
hardly what you know you deserve
i wish i had all of that
car crash it hit the curb 
it could be worse-that family okay




yea, way way too quick its a blur
i can’t conjugate i slur
i told my parents im at work- work
think i need a clerk- clerk
before its gets way worse
cuz i can foresee what im talkin bout im jus waitin my turn

my stomach burns -burns
i flip and turn -turn
in my sheets
i cant sleep

hold tight (under the maple tree)

gravel road 
driving home
every pothole in wisconsin
people grow
i dont know
if we have much in common, anymore

iv been one with the silence
only you can fill my void
promise that im trying
promise this was not my choice

cuz all that i know is defeat
white flags, running back to places iv seen
i know this damn movie by scene and Frame
and characters names
turn it off

its been hard to be honest
i hate whay iv done
left at the bottom
im one with the mud
was never the fondest 
of showing you love
but ill still deposit
your rent every month

half of these problems 
i did it just to make you mad
if im not an option
dont say you will take me back

phone screen just faded black
i couodnt call
board up my windows im sick of your cold
youre passive aggresivly gaining control
remember that halloween
i made you my home

babe its not you it was me
self inflicted wound where i bleed
you had all that i need
if these walls could feel tension theyd scream

a movie i’ve memorized [jacob vallen]

-Hustler’s Prayer

Legacy

Yeah, I been ridin’ through the storm

rock bottom

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