Hi. Thanks for listening. I’m a writer and producer who uses AI tools to turn my words into music. From broken bones to broken hearts to beautiful love (and loss). All these songs are written by me and deeply personal. If you like what you hear, please hit LIKE and REPOST. I don’t monetize my music but I do hope it can reach someone else out there going through life’s ups and downs. Thank you.-Nova J

Analog

WASTING TIME by NOVA J

Same street, same house, same silent war
I don’t remember what we’re fighting for
Your eyes cut through me like icy air
If we’re honest, I just don’t care

Too exhausted to scream and shout
Lost count of what you’re angry about
Is this what love’s supposed to be—
Rotting in silent misery?

(We have a life, we have a home
But it doesn’t feel like my own)
(Wish I could be somewhere else
Wish I could be with someone else)
(“But youuu…”)
Anyone but you…

OH, who CARES?
IF I FUCK AROUND
OH, who CARES?
IF I BURN IT DOWN
DOESN’T EVEN MATTER, OH
DOESN’T REALLY MATTER
AS LONG AS I’M…
WASTING TIME…
WITH YOU… OH…
OH… WITH YOU

I hate the guest room where I’m confined
I pay the bills here, don’t I?
I don’t even hate you, don’t wanna cry
I just don’t care if you live or die

What have I become? Casually cruel
A special kind of monster when it comes to you
When I’m alone, I’m scrolling my phone
Searching for a stranger’s bed, not home

(I used to be like Lego man
Everything is awesome, yes I can!)
(Wish I could be someone else
Wish I could be with someone else)
(“But youuu…”)
Anyone but you…

OH, who CARES?
IF I FUCK AROUND
OH, who CARES?
IF I BURN IT DOWN
DOESN’T EVEN MATTER, OH
DOESN’T REALLY MATTER
AS LONG AS I’M…
WASTING TIME…
WITH YOU… OH…
OH… WITH YOU

We look so perfect on Instagram
Picture-perfect happy man
Our fake smiles make me sick
But I can’t leave—I’m chicken shit

OH, who CARES?
IF I TELL A LIE
OH, who CARES?
IF I SAY GOODBYE
DOESN’T EVEN MATTER, OH
DOESN’T REALLY MATTER
AS LONG AS I’M…
WASTING TIME…
WITH YOU… OH…
OH… WITH YOU

DOESN’T EVEN MATTER, OH
DOESN’T REALLY MATTER
AS LONG AS I’M…
WASTING TIME…
WITH YOU… OH…
OH… WITH YOU

WASTING TIME

PARANOIA by NOVA J

Paranoia, paranoia… (paranoia, paranoia)
Someone’s gonna take what’s mine… (what’s mine, what’s mine)
Paranoia, paranoia… (paranoia, paranoia)
Someone sneaking up behind… (behind, behind)

Sunset on the beach (beach)
Peace is out of reach (reach)
Paranoia sapping joy and
Inner voices screech (screech)

They whisper in my ear
The sound is crystal clear
Terrified of rising tides
And drowning in my fear (fear fear fear fear fear fear fear fear)

Paranoia, paranoia (paranoia, paranoia)
Someone’s gonna take what’s mine (what’s mine, what’s mine)
Paranoia, paranoia (paranoia, paranoia)
Someone sneaking up behind (behind, behind)

Paranoia… (paranoia)… paranoia…
can’t escape… (can’t escape)… can’t escape… 
Paranoia… (paranoia)… paranoia…
it’s my fate … (it’s my fate)… it’s my fate… 

Steppin’ in the sand (sand)
I can’t see the man (man)
Every stranger looks like danger
Blood stains on my hand (hand)

They whisper in my ear
The sound is crystal clear
I’m looking all around
But nobody is here (here here here here here here here here)

Paranoia, paranoia (paranoia, paranoia)
Someone’s gonna take what’s mine (what’s mine, what’s mine)
Paranoia, paranoia (paranoia, paranoia)
Someone sneaking up behind (behind, behind)

Paranoid… (paranoid)… paranoid…
can’t escape… (can’t escape)… can’t escape… 
Paranoid… (paranoid)… paranoid…
it’s my fate … (it’s my fate)… it’s my fate… 

Ahhhh La Lie

I see my fear in stranger’s faces
Scream your name in quiet places 
Every choice is laced with doubt (doubt doubt)
My own voice can’t drown it out

Paranoia, paranoia (paranoia, paranoia)
Someone’s gonna take what’s mine (what’s mine, what’s mine)
Paranoia, paranoia (paranoia, paranoia)
Someone sneaking up behind (behind, behind)

Paranoia… paranoia… paranoia…
can’t escape… can’t escape… can’t escape… 
Paranoia… paranoia… paranoia…
it’s my fate … it’s my fate… it’s my fate… 
Paranoia… paranoia… paranoia…

PARANOIA

REARRANGED by Nova J

She says you’re quiet, deep, refined
But there is sadness on your mind
She calls you brilliant, says you’re wise
But there is pain behind your eyes

You found a woman who loves you still
Who holds your hand, who shares your will
But time moves fast, and things have changed
Maybe we’ve both been rearranged

(mmm-mmm-mmm)

You keep your sorrow locked inside
Behind the hurt, behind the pride
What kind of past can twist so tight?
And still feel present in your mind?

Now I speak instead of bite my tongue
Not to fight—just to be known
You wear your scars like battle wounds
But so do I, and mine still bruise

(mmm-mmm-mmm)

I was just a kid
(mmm, ohh)
You were hurting too
I was just a kid
(mmm, ohh)
I didn’t see you
But now I do

REARRANGED

ANALOG by NOVA J

In my dreams I’m back in ‘93
In the office, computer-free
Fluorescent lights and rotary
Full of vintage machinery

Oh, I long to be analog (analog)
Yeah, I long to be analog (analog)

Off the grid
Analog
(Off the grid
Analog)

Yes to corded simplicity
No to scrolling anxiety
TV static serenity
In my dreams I’m back in ‘93

Yeah, I wanna be analog (analog)
Oh, I wanna be analog (analog)

Off the grid
Analog
(Off the grid
Analog)

In my dreams I’m trauma-free
Blur the bad that happened to me
Rose-colored glasses, simplicity
In my dreams I’m back in ‘93

Oh, I long to be analog (analog)
Yeah, I long to be analog (analog)

Yeah, I wanna be analog (analog)
Oh, I wanna be analog (analog)

Yeah, I wanna be analog (analog)
Oh, I wanna be analog (analog)

ANALOG

THERAPY by NOVA J

Tell me how you hurt…
Tell me of your pain…

Tell me how you hurt
Tell me of your pain
Tell me for an hour, and
Next time tell me again

(and again. and again. and again. and again.
and again. and again. and again. and again.)

and again. and again. and again. and again.
and again. and again. and again. and again.

Just talk. Just talk. Just talk to me.
Cry again. Lie again. Try again—please.

Do you wanna go to therapy?
Or just spiral endlessly?
Do you wanna go to therapy?
Or just keep on telling me?

Tell me how you hurt
Tell me why you cry
Tell me every detail,
Then replay and rewind.

(and rewind. and rewind. and rewind. and rewind. and rewind. and rewind. and rewind. and rewind.)

(and rewind. and rewind. and rewind. and rewind. and rewind. and rewind. and rewind. and rewind.)

Do you wanna do the therapy?
Or keep unraveling with me?
Do you wanna heal through therapy?
Sometimes I wonder—who is saving me?

Just talk. Just talk. Just talk to me
Cry again. Lie again. Try again. 

(and again. and again. and again. and again.
and again. and again. and again. and again.)

(and again. and again. and again. and again.
and again. and again. and again. and again.)

THERAPY

NFT  by NOVA J

Mmm, I’m running on empty again,
Heavy eyes, heavy heart in my chest.
Soul so tired, I just need some rest.

Sunlight through the window but it feels so gray,
Woke up drowning in the words you said yesterday.
Your poison in my veins but I won’t let it stay,
I’ve been carrying this weight till my back nearly breaks.
All your chaos and your noise, I’ve got nothing left to take,
So I’m closing off the hurt, letting silence have its way.

I used to set myself on fire just to keep you warm,
But those flames died out and I won’t get burned anymore.
You keep on talking but I can’t hear a thing,
I got my heart on lockdown, you don’t get to come in.

N-F-T — no fucks today,
I’m saving my soul, keep your drama away.
N-F-T — no love lost today,
You can’t steal my peace, I ain’t payin’ you no mind.
No fucks today, I’m numb to the pain,
Nothing you do is gonna make me cave.
No fucks today… no, no fucks today.

There were nights I couldn’t sleep, replaying every lie,
Gave too much of myself, left me bone-dry.
I built a wall out of all of the tears I cried,
Now your words hit my wall and they stay outside.
Every scar that you left turned to armor I wear,
Now I step through the fire and I don’t even care.

It took losing everything for me to draw the line,
Now I’m done with the battle that was never mine.
You keep on pushing but I won’t bleed again,
I got nothing to lose and nothing left to give.

N-F-T — no fucks today,
All your venom and hate, I brush it away.
N-F-T — I’m done hurting this way,
Took back my heart, now I’m keeping it safe.
No fucks today, I’m free from your chains,
You got nothing on me, watch me walk away.
No fucks today… no, no fucks today.

Under the skin, there’s a flicker of ache,
A part of me wonders how much more I can take,
I’d rather be numb than burn in your flame.
(Ooh-ooh)
I remember the hope that you stripped away,
Now the well has run dry, there’s no more to drain.
In the darkness I found I could light my own way,
I felt the fear in my veins but I let it decay.

N-F-T — no fucks today,
I’m claiming my space and I’m finding my way.
N-F-T — no more debt to pay,
You can’t make me feel guilty for walking away.
No fucks today, your shadow can’t stay,
I let it all go and I’m healing today.
No fucks today… (hey, hey) no fucks today.

No fucks today, I’m not giving in,
No fucks today… that’s the state I’m in.

I CAN ONLY DO MY PART by NOVA J and MADRE

Easy to blame
To point, to shame
Words like knives
Still cut the same

But I’m done with your spin
I breathe and look within

I can only do my part
Keep my peace, guard my heart
Tend the fire, feed the soul
Take a breath, not control 
In a world that falls apart 
I can only do my part

(hmmm… hmmm…)
(hmmm… hmmm…)
I can only do my part…
do my part…

Rushed through life
To dodge the ache
Busy hands
Still hearts break

But now I stay
Let your noise drift away

I can only do my part 
Keep my peace, guard my heart 
Say less, listen deep 
Lay down what I can’t keep 
In a world that breaks apart 
I can only do my part

(hmmm… hmmm…)
(hmmm… hmmm…)
I can only do my part…
do my part…

Rush the mantra…
Mantra’s a light
Soft and low
Calling me back
To let it go
Breathe in still
Release the fight
This is all I need tonight

All things end
Even stars go dim
But I’ve made my peace
With what’s within

I can only do my part 
Keep my peace, guard my heart
Be a light, not a flame 
Choose the truth, not the game 
Even when the world falls apart 
I can only do my part

(hmmm… hmmm…)
(hmmm… hmmm…)
I can only do my part…
do my part…

I CAN ONLY DO MY PART

I just wanna be free by NOVA J and MADRE

Woke up in the woods again
Sky so still, no sign of wind
Your face in firelight fades
But I still hear what you didn’t say

Breathin’ in the golden air
Nothin’ moves, I’m barely there

I don’t wanna be happy
I just wanna be free
Don’t wanna be perfect
Just don’t wanna bleed
I don’t wanna be happy
I just wanna be free
Don’t need a reason
Just need to be me

Oh oh oh oh…
Just need to be me
Oh oh oh oh…
Just need to be free

City dreams, they blur and fade
Got no heart left to persuade
I used to wish for better days
Now I just want peace that stays

Built a shield inside my mind
To block the noise I couldn’t fight

I don’t wanna be happy
I just wanna be free
Don’t wanna be perfect
Just don’t wanna bleed
I don’t wanna be happy
I just wanna be free
Don’t need a reason
Just need to be me

Oh oh oh oh…
Just need to be me
Oh oh oh oh…
Just need to be free

River at my feet
Wind don’t speak
Sunlight fades
But I still seek

Do you feel it too?
That hunger we hide?
The one that never dies—
The one we feed inside…

Oh oh oh oh…
Just need to be free
Oh oh oh oh…
Don’t wanna bleed
Oh oh oh oh…
Just need to be me

I JUST WANNA BE FREE

It’s time to talk about AI…

THE BATTLEGROUND IS CULTURE by Nova J

(Is this the death?)
(Is this the death of humanity?)
(Or the beginning?)
The battleground… is culture.
The battleground… is culture.
The battleground… is now.

Is technology boosting creativity?
Or killing off originality?
Everything you see,
Everything you hear,
Came from a thought,
In between the ears

Absorbed by the net,
Now wired in code,
Ones and zeroes
Overload
(Ones and zeroes
Overload)

And now it’s back
Half-baked and cloned
No blood, no soul
No skin and bone
Just a quick fix
From a dopamine machine
When did music become
A video game?

The battleground is culture
The battle is now
The battleground is shifting
We gotta ask how
Is this the death of humanity?
Or just the beginning somehow?
The battleground is culture
The battleground is now

The battleground is shifting
We gotta ask how
Is this the death of humanity?
Or just the beginning somehow?
The battleground is culture
The battleground is now

If I tap keys instead of ink and pen
Am I still a writer then?
When spellcheck scripts my inner monologue
Am I the maker?
Or the catalog?

What if the tool becomes the voice
And stories bend without a choice?
The dreamer fades
the screen’s the star
Do we forget who we are?

The battleground is culture
The battleground is now
The battleground is shifting
We gotta ask how

Is this the death of humanity?
Or just the beginning somehow?
The battleground is culture
The battleground is now

Not just a song
A declaration
A line drawn between
Truth and imitation
A soul you can feel
Or a hollow simulation
The battleground… is culture.
This is the confrontation.

Is this the death? (Is this the death?)
Is this the end? (Or just a test?)
Is this the death of humanity?
Or something else instead?
The battleground is culture
The battleground is now

The battleground is culture

ARE YOU WEIRD? ME TOO by Nova J

(Ooh-bah, dah-dah)
(Ooh-bah, dee-dee)

Happy Hump Day, handsome
Feelin’ dry as a desert anthem
Wishin’ I was trippin’
But I’m sober as a dry was slippin’

Ever wonder what it’s like with a dwarf?
I think I might be… dwarf curious, of course
Pretty Little Lady, three-foot fire
Biggest beaver west of the muddy mire

Mind in the gutter, yeah, can’t deny
Got questions that make angels cry
Get my mind out the gutter
But it’s warm down here, why even try?

(Ooh-bah, dah-dah)
(Ooh-bah, dee-dee)
(Ooh-bah, dah-dah)
(Ooh-bah, dee-dee)

Wheelchair Granny rolls with pride
Army of lesbians at her side
Beautiful Bettys on a joyride
Don’t block the road, don’t even try

Trendy then, twenty years ago
Now it’s vanished like a late night show
Sometimes they hit, sometimes they flop
But I keep on writing, can’t make it stop

‘Cause Madre’s lovin’ it, I won’t quit
She’s the winter bird-feeding kinda spirit
Makes life better just bein’ around
A quiet saint on this messy ground

(Ooh-bah, dah-dah)
(Ooh-bah, dee-dee)

Mind in the gutter, thoughts run free
Pink Dino starin’ back at me
No eyes, no lies—just mystery
Am I okay? Depends on the week

Are you craving sushi?
Are you? Are you?
Fatty tuna, holy glory
Some fish look just like feet

This office visit was supposed to be routine
Now I’m strapped into a giant X-ray machine
Quiet death rays beamin’ through my teeth
Gums receding, but at least they’re clean

Producer’s rude, kill my groove
Mood’s gone south, can’t approve
You’re 32, go catch a flight
Toodle-oo, London’s callin’ tonight

(Ooh-bah, dah-dah)
(Ooh-bah, dee-dee)

I’m grouchy too, maybe feelin’ blue
But there’s sushi dreams and sky so true
Is that a dog or a tiny pony?
I swear that bird just winked at me slowly

Thank the fish for their sacrifice
Thank the birds for their paradise
Thank the cattle, thank the grain
Thank the earth for takin’ our pain

Mind in the gutter, can’t pretend
It’s a wild world, my weirdo friend
So here’s to truth and chaos too
Are you weird?
Me too. (Me too)
(Ooh-bah, dah-dah)
Me too. (Me too)
(Ooh-bah, dee-dee)
Me too. (Me too)
(Ooh-bah, dah-dah)
Me too. (Me too)
(Ooh-bah, dee-dee)
Me too. (Me too)
(Ooh-bah, dah-dah)
Me too. (Me too)
(Ooh-bah, dee-dee)
Me too. (Me too)

Are you weird? Me too!

Doom is knockin’ by Nova J

Doom is coming (doom!)
Doom is near (doom!)
Doom is whispering
In your ear (doom!)
Doom is rising (doom!)
Doom is fate (doom!)
Doom is knocking
At the gate (doom-doom)

The world right now feels dark, deranged
The ruling power is greed and rage
Hell beings and chaos goblins in control
You look in their eyes and see no soul
(Oh-ohh, ah-eh, doom-doom)

Will darkness prevail?
Or will there be light?
Will we climb this hill
Or descend into night?
(Oh-ohh, ah-eh, doom-doom)

Empires rise (rise)
Empires fall (fall)
Just ask the Romans
They conquered it all
But the fire spread (spread)
From greed they fed (fed)
Once mighty powers
Now ruins instead
(Oh-ohh, ah-eh, doom-doom)
(Oh-ohh, ah-eh, doom-doom)

Doom is coming (doom!)
Doom is near (doom!)
Doom is whispering
In your ear (doom!)
Doom is rising (doom!)
Doom is fate (doom!)
Doom is knocking
At the gate (doom-doom)

We can battle the world
But the world always wins
There’s always a price
For our shortsighted sins
All that we think is forever is not
We could be a blip the timeline forgot
(Oh-ohh, ah-eh, doom-doom)

(Oh-ohh, ah-eh, doom-doom)
(Oh-ohh, ah-eh, doom-doom)
(Ba-da-da doom… ba-da-da doom…)

So we keep on consuming, devouring at will
Indulging our impulse for pleasure and thrill
But we must remember
And never forget
There’s a price to be paid
Someday… we can’t escape
(Oh-ohh, ah-eh, doom-doom)

Empires rise
Empires fall
Greed builds the tower
Then crumbles it all
(We never learn…)
(We never learn…)
There’s a price to be paid
Someday… we’ll burn
(Oh-ohh, ah-eh, doom-doom)
(Oh-ohh, ah-eh, doom-doom)

Doom is coming (doom!)
Doom is near (doom!)
Doom is whispering
In your ear (doom!)
Doom is rising (doom!)
Doom is fate (doom!)
Doom is knocking
At the gate (doom-doom)

(Oh-ohh, ah-eh, doom-doom)
(Oh-ohh, ah-eh, doom-doom)
(Ba-da-da doom… ba-da-da doom…)

There’s a price…
To be paid…
(Oh-ohh, ah-eh, doom-doom)

Doom is coming (doom!)
Doom is near (doom!)
Doom is whispering
In your ear (doom!)
Doom is rising (doom!)
Doom is fate (doom!)
Doom is knocking
At the gate (doom-doom)

Doom is knockin’

KARAOKE by NOVA J

My neighbors are starting to hate me
It’s 3am and I’m driving ‘em crazy
All that noise from the upper floor
Now someone’s bangin’ on my door

But I don’t care
I’m in my underwear
Microphone in my hand
Singin’ “No Man’s Land”

Do you wanna come play with me?
And sing karaoke? (Karaoke)

So c’mon by and sing along
Show me your favorite song
I’ll show you mine if you want me to
(Singing karaoke with you)
(Singing karaoke with you)

(ahh-ooo, mm-mm, oh-oh-oh)

I’m not too proud to sing alone
But I’ve got a blank space, and baby I’m home
Life can be toxic, and God bless the child
Who knows every word to Taylor’s “Exile”

If we’re a match
Let’s mess around
I’m a good catch
When I’m not spiraling down

Do you wanna come play with me?
And sing karaoke? (Karaoke)

So c’mon by and sing along
Show me your favorite song
I’ll show you mine if you want me to
(Singing karaoke with you)
(Singing karaoke with you)

(ahh-ooo, mm-mm, oh-oh-oh)

I don’t really mind
If you sing out of key
As long as you’re singing
Right here with me.
(Do you wanna come over?)
And sing karaoke?
I don’t wanna be a loner.
I’m tired of lonely.

So c’mon by and sing along
Show me your favorite song
I’ll show you mine if you want me to
(Singing karaoke with you)
(Singing karaoke with you)
(ahh-ooo, mm-mm, oh-oh-oh)
(Singing karaoke with you)
(Singing karaoke with you)

Karaoke

CATFISH by Nova J

Got a face? (Not your own)
Got a name? (One you stole)
Got a story? (Full of holes)
Got some shame? (God, I hope so)

Feeling pretty? (Only online)
Feeling wanted? (On borrowed time)
Feeling brave? (Behind the screen)
You fooled me once — but now I see

You’re a (Ca-ca-ca-ca…) catfish (Catfish)
Yeah, a (Ca-ca-ca-ca…) catfish (Catfish)
You thought you’d get away with this?
You’re just a (Ca-ca-ca-ca…) catfish (Catfish)

Five eleven
Twenty-nine
Model pics
(Not even mine)
Stolen smile
Bedroom eyes
Face-tuned deep
Full of lies

One old selfie
From who knows when
You showed up
And lied again

You were looking (looking, looking)
For tonight (tonight, tonight)
Wanna trick me (trick me with a)
Pretty lie (lie, lie)

You were looking
For tonight
Tried to take me
For a ride

When we met
I saw the truth
Not the guy
From in the booth
You flinched hard
When I said hi
You said your name
I said “goodbye”

You meant no harm? (You swear, you swear)
But all I see is vacant stares
You built a mask, played the part
Now deal with it — I know your heart

You’re a (Ca-ca-ca-ca…) catfish (Catfish)
Yeah, a (Ca-ca-ca-ca…) catfish (Catfish)
Fake as hell and full of glitch
You’re just a (Ca-ca-ca-ca…) catfish (Catfish)

Five eleven
Twenty-nine
That ain’t your dog
That ain’t your ride
Bubble butt? (Nice try)
Laughed so hard
I nearly cried

You deceived me (And yourself)
Go get help (You need some help)

You were looking (looking, looking)
For tonight (tonight, tonight)
Tried to trick me (trick me just to)
Feel right (right, right)

You were looking (now exposed)
I saw through you (strike a pose)

You were looking (now exposed)
I saw through you (strike a pose)

You played a role
You wore it well
But fairy tales
Can go to hell
I don’t date liars
With bogus names
Delete your apps
And own your shame

You’re a (Ca-ca-ca-ca…) catfish (Catfish)
Yeah, a (Ca-ca-ca-ca…) catfish (Catfish)
Don’t DM me — I ain’t your wish
You’re just a (Ca-ca-ca-ca…) catfish (Catfish)

You feel pretty? (Filter lies)
Feel authentic? (In disguise)
Five eleven? (Try five-five)
Fake the world — but not my eyes

You were looking (for tonight)
Tried to trick me (with a swipe)
You were looking (but I’m gone)
Try again — on someone dumb

Catfish

Hi. Thanks for listening. I’m a writer and producer who uses AI tools to turn my words into music. This became my “healthy hobby” after a long battle with addiction. I’m now gratefully sober. I’m open to collaborating with other artists. From broken bones to broken hearts to beautiful love (and loss). All these songs are written by me and deeply personal. If you like what you hear, please hit LIKE and REPOST. I don’t monetize my music but I do hope it can reach someone else out there going through life’s ups and downs. Thank you.-Nova J


Here is my music as I make it. Check out my latest mixtape, Rearranged: https://open.spotify.com/album/7sFQUJ5sNiGDXlxPUdZiFo?si=p-PofiBhT--D0BABF78tFA

NOVA J is a songwriter from the United States who has spent the last decade living and working abroad.

nova.j.artist@gmail.com