no more fucks to give, I love the title!!! Well done!! :)

Under the skin, there’s a flicker of ache : how beautiful :)

Wicked song love it…amazing artistry!!!

"I used to set myself on fire just to keep you warm" to NFT- that is  personal growth my friend ; ) LOVE LOVE LOVE this !

Sweet song! Basically 95% of the folks at my office :)

Hi. Thanks for listening. I’m a writer and producer who uses AI tools to turn my words into music. From broken bones to broken hearts to beautiful love (and loss). All these songs are written by me and deeply personal. If you like what you hear, please hit LIKE and REPOST. I don’t monetize my music but I do hope it can reach someone else out there going through life’s ups and downs. Thank you.-Nova J

Analog

“A song about living a good life and letting those you love the most know how much they mean to you; that you are always with them after leaving this world. The very talented BeSinger kindly provides guest vocals on this song. Be sure to check out his music and follow - link below.”

when I turn to rust. 

When I turn to rust
Take my very last breathe 
Pour water over my flames 
And take my soul with me 

When I turn to rust
I’m always with you
When I’m in the dust, you were my whole life
Before I turned to rust 
You were on my mind
Everyday, everywhere until the end of all time

When I turn to rust
The coffin will fall into the dirt 
Pennies for eyes and ferry man money 
A life with love well lived I’ve learnt

When I turn to rust

© heart house and the new kindness. 2025

Written, performed*, recorded, produced and mixed by heart house and the new kindness. 
*with guest vocalist BeSinger (https://on.soundcloud.com/LHqqJEfBLmTJVEza8) 
Mastered by DOLBY

when I turn to rust. (w/ BeSinger)

WASTING TIME by NOVA J

Same street, same house, same silent war
I don’t remember what we’re fighting for
Your eyes cut through me like icy air
If we’re honest, I just don’t care

Too exhausted to scream and shout
Lost count of what you’re angry about
Is this what love’s supposed to be—
Rotting in silent misery?

(We have a life, we have a home
But it doesn’t feel like my own)
(Wish I could be somewhere else
Wish I could be with someone else)
(“But youuu…”)
Anyone but you…

OH, who CARES?
IF I FUCK AROUND
OH, who CARES?
IF I BURN IT DOWN
DOESN’T EVEN MATTER, OH
DOESN’T REALLY MATTER
AS LONG AS I’M…
WASTING TIME…
WITH YOU… OH…
OH… WITH YOU

I hate the guest room where I’m confined
I pay the bills here, don’t I?
I don’t even hate you, don’t wanna cry
I just don’t care if you live or die

What have I become? Casually cruel
A special kind of monster when it comes to you
When I’m alone, I’m scrolling my phone
Searching for a stranger’s bed, not home

(I used to be like Lego man
Everything is awesome, yes I can!)
(Wish I could be someone else
Wish I could be with someone else)
(“But youuu…”)
Anyone but you…

OH, who CARES?
IF I FUCK AROUND
OH, who CARES?
IF I BURN IT DOWN
DOESN’T EVEN MATTER, OH
DOESN’T REALLY MATTER
AS LONG AS I’M…
WASTING TIME…
WITH YOU… OH…
OH… WITH YOU

We look so perfect on Instagram
Picture-perfect happy man
Our fake smiles make me sick
But I can’t leave—I’m chicken shit

OH, who CARES?
IF I TELL A LIE
OH, who CARES?
IF I SAY GOODBYE
DOESN’T EVEN MATTER, OH
DOESN’T REALLY MATTER
AS LONG AS I’M…
WASTING TIME…
WITH YOU… OH…
OH… WITH YOU

DOESN’T EVEN MATTER, OH
DOESN’T REALLY MATTER
AS LONG AS I’M…
WASTING TIME…
WITH YOU… OH…
OH… WITH YOU

WASTING TIME

Crossroads

REARRANGED by Nova J

She says you’re quiet, deep, refined
But there is sadness on your mind
She calls you brilliant, says you’re wise
But there is pain behind your eyes

You found a woman who loves you still
Who holds your hand, who shares your will
But time moves fast, and things have changed
Maybe we’ve both been rearranged

(mmm-mmm-mmm)

You keep your sorrow locked inside
Behind the hurt, behind the pride
What kind of past can twist so tight?
And still feel present in your mind?

Now I speak instead of bite my tongue
Not to fight—just to be known
You wear your scars like battle wounds
But so do I, and mine still bruise

(mmm-mmm-mmm)

I was just a kid
(mmm, ohh)
You were hurting too
I was just a kid
(mmm, ohh)
I didn’t see you
But now I do

REARRANGED

ANALOG by NOVA J

In my dreams I’m back in ‘93
In the office, computer-free
Fluorescent lights and rotary
Full of vintage machinery

Oh, I long to be analog (analog)
Yeah, I long to be analog (analog)

Off the grid
Analog
(Off the grid
Analog)

Yes to corded simplicity
No to scrolling anxiety
TV static serenity
In my dreams I’m back in ‘93

Yeah, I wanna be analog (analog)
Oh, I wanna be analog (analog)

Off the grid
Analog
(Off the grid
Analog)

In my dreams I’m trauma-free
Blur the bad that happened to me
Rose-colored glasses, simplicity
In my dreams I’m back in ‘93

Oh, I long to be analog (analog)
Yeah, I long to be analog (analog)

Yeah, I wanna be analog (analog)
Oh, I wanna be analog (analog)

Yeah, I wanna be analog (analog)
Oh, I wanna be analog (analog)

ANALOG

Inspired by how small birds endure the harshest winter

A Robin Waiting For April

LIDAR WAVES 11 (THROUGH ICE)

NFT  by NOVA J

Mmm, I’m running on empty again,
Heavy eyes, heavy heart in my chest.
Soul so tired, I just need some rest.

Sunlight through the window but it feels so gray,
Woke up drowning in the words you said yesterday.
Your poison in my veins but I won’t let it stay,
I’ve been carrying this weight till my back nearly breaks.
All your chaos and your noise, I’ve got nothing left to take,
So I’m closing off the hurt, letting silence have its way.

I used to set myself on fire just to keep you warm,
But those flames died out and I won’t get burned anymore.
You keep on talking but I can’t hear a thing,
I got my heart on lockdown, you don’t get to come in.

N-F-T — no fucks today,
I’m saving my soul, keep your drama away.
N-F-T — no love lost today,
You can’t steal my peace, I ain’t payin’ you no mind.
No fucks today, I’m numb to the pain,
Nothing you do is gonna make me cave.
No fucks today… no, no fucks today.

There were nights I couldn’t sleep, replaying every lie,
Gave too much of myself, left me bone-dry.
I built a wall out of all of the tears I cried,
Now your words hit my wall and they stay outside.
Every scar that you left turned to armor I wear,
Now I step through the fire and I don’t even care.

It took losing everything for me to draw the line,
Now I’m done with the battle that was never mine.
You keep on pushing but I won’t bleed again,
I got nothing to lose and nothing left to give.

N-F-T — no fucks today,
All your venom and hate, I brush it away.
N-F-T — I’m done hurting this way,
Took back my heart, now I’m keeping it safe.
No fucks today, I’m free from your chains,
You got nothing on me, watch me walk away.
No fucks today… no, no fucks today.

Under the skin, there’s a flicker of ache,
A part of me wonders how much more I can take,
I’d rather be numb than burn in your flame.
(Ooh-ooh)
I remember the hope that you stripped away,
Now the well has run dry, there’s no more to drain.
In the darkness I found I could light my own way,
I felt the fear in my veins but I let it decay.

N-F-T — no fucks today,
I’m claiming my space and I’m finding my way.
N-F-T — no more debt to pay,
You can’t make me feel guilty for walking away.
No fucks today, your shadow can’t stay,
I let it all go and I’m healing today.
No fucks today… (hey, hey) no fucks today.

No fucks today, I’m not giving in,
No fucks today… that’s the state I’m in.

When love'll come looking

I just wanna be free by NOVA J and MADRE

Woke up in the woods again
Sky so still, no sign of wind
Your face in firelight fades
But I still hear what you didn’t say

Breathin’ in the golden air
Nothin’ moves, I’m barely there

I don’t wanna be happy
I just wanna be free
Don’t wanna be perfect
Just don’t wanna bleed
I don’t wanna be happy
I just wanna be free
Don’t need a reason
Just need to be me

Oh oh oh oh…
Just need to be me
Oh oh oh oh…
Just need to be free

City dreams, they blur and fade
Got no heart left to persuade
I used to wish for better days
Now I just want peace that stays

Built a shield inside my mind
To block the noise I couldn’t fight

I don’t wanna be happy
I just wanna be free
Don’t wanna be perfect
Just don’t wanna bleed
I don’t wanna be happy
I just wanna be free
Don’t need a reason
Just need to be me

Oh oh oh oh…
Just need to be me
Oh oh oh oh…
Just need to be free

River at my feet
Wind don’t speak
Sunlight fades
But I still seek

Do you feel it too?
That hunger we hide?
The one that never dies—
The one we feed inside…

Oh oh oh oh…
Just need to be free
Oh oh oh oh…
Don’t wanna bleed
Oh oh oh oh…
Just need to be me

I JUST WANNA BE FREE

I think I saw one in my garden the other day... ;)

Don't Be A Fred

The blues are steeped in the tradition of bawdy/dirty songs. Think of Bo Carter (my pencil don't write no more) or Lil Johnson (Sam the hot dog man). You get the idea.
Here's my bawdy blues celebrating outdoor sex.
Added as the last track on my album "All This Useless Beauty". Check it out!


Lyrics:
Ohh my girl 
She's so cityfied
But something comes over her
In the countryside
When she tells me to pitch a tent
I see in her eyes
That bad intent
She becomes a wild woods woman (2X)

Riding down the road
She says:
"Get a blanket and pull over to the side."

We're out in nature
Doing our thing!
All god's creatures they cover their eyes
Oh, the ground is so rough
Don't ya know she can't get enough
Wild woods woman (2X)

In the tall grass
Having some fun
I feel like Mother Nature's only son
Down in the milkweeds that makes me sneeze
Don't ya know she's got me on my knees
It gets so hot!
So hot!
So hot!
She never tires
(Only you can prevent forest fires)

Wild Woods Woman

Track from a short story about a ghost ship dating back to the British attack on Cadiz until modern day, as its remnants are shipped to a British museum.
From a book of short stories available here: https://www.amazon.co.uk/Odd-Little-Things-Short-Stories/dp/B095GCZNDQ

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Julieta Maldita

In this song RJ expresses his love and devotion to his woman

Don't You Ever Think About Leaving

A spiritually-coded trap spell for artists, witches, and visionaries who’ve had their work stolen, silenced, or surveilled. Mirror Protocol is your sonic firewall — bouncing back every false claim, greedy contract, and shady attempt to take what's sacred. You don’t need revenge when the mirror’s on. Just clarity, protection, and 808s.

Mirror Protocol

Hi. Thanks for listening. I’m a writer and producer who uses AI tools to turn my words into music. This became my “healthy hobby” after a long battle with addiction. I’m now gratefully sober. I’m open to collaborating with other artists. From broken bones to broken hearts to beautiful love (and loss). All these songs are written by me and deeply personal. If you like what you hear, please hit LIKE and REPOST. I don’t monetize my music but I do hope it can reach someone else out there going through life’s ups and downs. Thank you.-Nova J


Here is my music as I make it. Check out my latest mixtape, Rearranged: https://open.spotify.com/album/7sFQUJ5sNiGDXlxPUdZiFo?si=p-PofiBhT--D0BABF78tFA

NOVA J is a songwriter from the United States who has spent the last decade living and working abroad.

nova.j.artist@gmail.com

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