WHEN THE FUN RUNS OUT
BY NOVA J

(5, 4, 3, 2…)
(FUN!)

[Verse 1:]
For so many years, I kept cryin’ the same tears
Self-inflicted torture, on repeat, on repeat
A toxic cycle, full speed, no relief
And you wanna know something dumb?
I did it all for the sake of “fun”

[Pre-Chorus:]
Yeah, it’s fun when it’s new
’Til it sucks the soul outta you
Crazy shit you swore you’d never do
When the fun runs out, got its hooks in you

[Chorus:]
(When the fun runs out)
It always does
(When the fun runs out)
You’re outta luck
(When the fun runs out)
You say you’ll quit
(When the fun runs out)
But that’s just bullshit

(FUN!)
(Prey it, light it, puff it, slam it / Crave it, thrill it, ’til you kill it)

[Verse 2:]
For so many days, I kept diving in fake waves
Shots of water I craved
But the lifeguard never came
Wanna know something dumb?
I kept drownin’ just to feel numb

[Pre-Chorus:]
Fast forward, now life’s a living hell
Think “more fun” is the fix? Better sit a spell
I got bad news—hear me yell
Addiction ain’t a game, it’s a trip to hell

[Chorus:]
(When the fun runs out)
It always does
(When the fun runs out)
You’re outta luck
(When the fun runs out)
You say you’ll quit
(When the fun runs out)
But that’s just bullshit

(FUN!)
(Prey it, light it, puff it, slam it / Crave it, thrill it, ’til you kill it)

[Bridge:]
Round and round, it pulls you in
Think you can play and win
But when the fun runs out again…
You lose, you lose, you lose, my friend

[Chorus:]
(When the fun runs out)
It always does
(When the fun runs out)
You’re outta luck
(When the fun runs out)
You say you’ll quit
(When the fun runs out)
But that’s just bullshit

(FUN!)
(Prey it, light it, puff it, slam it / Crave it, thrill it, ’til you kill it)

(FUN! FUN!) 

(FUN!)

WHEN THE FUN RUNS OUT

THE LIKES OF YOU

The kings of violence

Lyrics:
You gave me roses in the rain
Wrote my name in the stars again
Told me I was your everything
Built me castles out of pain

You saw a queen, I saw a cage
Smiling love, but filled with rage
I tried to fake it, play the part
But I was hollow in my heart

You gave me gifts, you gave me peace
But I felt empty, couldn’t release
Tried to force it, tried to stay
But I was fading every day

But something in me wouldn’t light
No matter how you held me tight
It wasn’t fair to let you dream
When I couldn’t feel the same

You gave me love I couldn’t match
Built me up and had my back
You gave your soul, I gave you lack
And I’m sorry…
I just couldn’t love you back
No, I couldn’t love you back

I wish that I could turn it ‘round
But my heart never made a sound
You were perfect, that’s a fact
But I still couldn’t love you back

You gave me love I couldn’t match
Built me up and had my back
You gave your soul, I gave you lack
And I’m sorry
I just couldn’t love you back 

You loved me more than I deserved
I left with tears, not to hurt
You gave your soul, I gave you lack
But I just couldn’t love you back

No, I just couldn’t love you back…

I Just Couldn’t Love You Back

In the Arms of Morpheus

When the sun wakes me I don’t feel any warmth
I don’t feel any joy in what the day will bring
Let me return to my slumber
I’ll try to ignore the alarms shrill ring

I want to fall into the arms of Morpheus
I want to lie in the embrace of my dreams
I need to escape my waking days 
They can pass in a haze
Until I am wrapped in the arms of Morpheus

I don’t want to see the light of day
I don’t want to hear the early bird sing
I don’t want to read what the papers say
My bed is king – the light my eyes sting

I want to fall into the arms of Morpheus
I want to lie in the embrace of my dreams
I need to escape my waking days 
They can pass in a haze
Until I am wrapped in the arms of Morpheus

The day it brings pain
The night brings relief
Do I have to go through it all again

The day brings back life cruel reality
It brings back all the mess and the waste
It brings it all back with true clarity
And shows my optimism has been misplaced

I want to fall into the arms of Morpheus
I want to lie in the embrace of my dreams
I need to escape my waking days 
They can pass in a haze
Until I am wrapped in the arms of Morpheus

The day it brings pain
The night brings relief
Do I have to go through it all again

The day it brings pain
The night brings relief
Can’t my dreams stay with me and remain


Thanks to my great friend (rediscovered)  Sandy - for providing the title and chorus - Tombe dans le bras de Morphee

In the Arms of Morpheus

Let Her Be

[Intro]
It doesn’t seem much
a flame or a fall
some blackened ends
you learn to call
a beginning

We think to burn is loss
but ask the oak
or any moss
that lives on fallen things

[Verse 1]
She doesn’t need you to work the ground
just to stay when storms come down
redemption’s not a second chance
it’s staying in the aftermath

You rise with or without the ask
not for praise just for the task
love isn’t loud—it holds its place
even when it knows it breaks

[Chorus]
Redemption is not balm or bending
it’s doing better
after failing loud
It’s rebuilding for that last love
not just showing up
but rising up
because you’re meant to

[Verse 2]
She’s not the lesson you get to learn
she’s moss on stone soft and firm
you be oak stand slow stand tall
she’ll come to you
or not at all

[Chorus]
Redemption is the risk you take
the only chance you’ll ever stake
It’s not to win
it’s to become
a man she trusts
when trust won’t come

[Bridge]
Be the crazy horse
let her be the wild deer
don’t chase don’t corner
just be near
let her come as she is
when she is ready
and not one moment before

[Final Chorus]
Redemption is being
what you weren’t before
it’s loving her
as she is not more
It’s being oak
and letting her be moss
quiet strength
and sacred loss

Let Her Be

This song is another true story inspired by a conversation I had with my astrologer friend @DJShAnkAri. We were talking about my garage sale blues, (Pluto Blocked My Path - 
https://on.soundcloud.com/tywNJmqaPIonULWAFy) and she shared some insights about my chart, mentioning Pluto blocking my path and Uranus striking my Sun. I wrote both songs after that conversation. But what really sparked this song was when she started talking about how humans act like machines without even realizing it. She shared a funny story about her broken refrigerator handle and how she and her son Aurélien would constantly forget it's broken and try to open it the old way.

The song is about being stuck in routines and habits, and how we often act on autopilot without even thinking. It's a relatable story about how we can get caught up in these patterns and struggle to break free. I wrote this song to highlight the humor and frustration in these moments, and to poke fun at ourselves for being so predictable. The song's catchy melody and lyrics are meant to make you laugh and nod your head in recognition, because let's be honest, we've all been there - reaching for that fridge handle and getting a big surprise! 😉 😅🤣😂

*Huge thanks to @DJShAnkAri for the inspiration AGAIN, and for being such a wonderful friend! Your stories and insights always spark something creative in me, and I'm so grateful for our conversations. Love you sis.  🫶❤️🫂😘


LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
Wake up, shuffle, brush my teeth,
Same old hallway, same two feet.
Coffee, mail, and autopilot stares,
Life’s a dance of broken chairs.
Repetition runs the show,
I'm the star—I barely know.
Reach for the fridge, routine intact...
WHAM! No handle. Cold attack.

[Chorus]
Fridge got me again!
Like a ghost in my hands, I slip and I bend.
Thirty-five times, I curse and pretend—
"I'm not that dumb!" but I'm fooled again.
We’re machines in disguise, with flesh and bones,
Running scripts on auto, in broken homes.
Fridge got me again... yeah, fridge got me again!

[Verse 2]
Aurélien laughs, then takes his turn,
Reaches out—and gets burned.
"Shit! I’m stupid!" echoes loud,
In this household of the programmed crowd.
You don’t know how deep it goes,
Till the fridge handle shows the code.
We move like ghosts in habits tight,
Try to wake, but it's a fight.

[Chorus]
Fridge got me again!
Like muscle memory playing pretend.
Open sesame—but there's no end!
Just a door that won’t bend to my mental trend.
We’re machines with dreams, but the tape still rolls,
On loops and triggers and mindless goals.
Fridge got me again... oh fridge got me again!

[Bridge]
Try to break the loop, I swear I will...
But my hand jumps out, against my will.
No conscious thought, just pure routine—
The ghost of logic, a kitchen scene.
Is it just the fridge or everything?
Are we dancing wires on puppet strings?

[Final Chorus]
Fridge got me again!
Like I’m chasing ghosts with an empty hand.
Laugh, fall back, I can barely stand,
In this tragicomic fridge-mishap land.
We’re machines with love, machines with flaws,
Running ancient scripts with modern claws.
Fridge got me again... yeah, fridge got me again!

[Outro]
"Shit! I’m stupid!"
"No, no… you're just human, kid."


Fridge Got Me Again

Une petite chanson d'amour légère pour passer l'été...Le thème des marguerites et de l'amour est un peu éculé mais on s'y est frottés quand même....C'est si joli les marguerites...
A light-hearted love song to get you through the summer... The theme of daisies and love is a bit hackneyed, but we went for it anyway... Daisies are so pretty...

The Daisy Hill
Some praise the cherry blossoms
Others the scent of lilac blooms
But I stay silent and invite you
To the hill where the daisies bloom
We loved a little and a little more
What if we dared say we love no more?
As the daisies softly tell us
Love quietly begins to crumble
If you must leave me tomorrow
Climb up here without a doubt
Where petals dance and whirl
Come give me one last thrill 
Some praise the cherry blossoms
Others the scent of lilac blooms
But I stay silent and invite you
To the hill where the daisies bloom
All the flowers are like my sisters
Wild among the rocks they grow
They know how to suffer and to sing
Even smile at passing strangers
My heart will not be torn apart
If on this hill you say goodbye
I’ll find the strength to stand tall
Among the daisies, not alone 
Some praise the cherry blossoms
Others the scent of lilac blooms
But I stay silent and invite you
To the hill where the daisies bloom

la colline aux marguerites (with translation)

The Mother’s Rebuke

A bold inversion of prayer and prophecy, “The Mother’s Rebuke” is a raw, soulful rap that lifts up the divine feminine as the source of wisdom and truth. Over an R&B groove laced with funk swagger, the track challenges the Father’s throne and crowns the Mother of Wisdom with reverence. The hook chants her beauty and flame, while the verses unfold like scripture turned inside out, rebellious, poetic, and spiritual. It’s a call to awaken, to rise from shadows of domination, and to honour the womb, the river, and the eternal flame. Both hymn and battle cry, it’s a sound of devotion reimagined.

The Mother’s Rebuke

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Hi. Thanks for listening. I’m a writer and producer who uses AI tools to turn my words into music. This became my “healthy hobby” after a long battle with addiction. I’m now gratefully sober. I’m open to collaborating with other artists. From broken bones to broken hearts to beautiful love (and loss). All these songs are written by me and deeply personal. If you like what you hear, please hit LIKE and REPOST. I don’t monetize my music but I do hope it can reach someone else out there going through life’s ups and downs. Thank you.-Nova J


Here is my music as I make it. Check out my latest mixtape, Rearranged: https://open.spotify.com/album/7sFQUJ5sNiGDXlxPUdZiFo?si=p-PofiBhT--D0BABF78tFA

NOVA J is a songwriter from the United States who has spent the last decade living and working abroad.

nova.j.artist@gmail.com