prod by https://soundcloud.com/luv_armor
featuring https://soundcloud.com/nvr_nvmbr 
& https://soundcloud.com/whatevenisreal

(she said “i feel relieved when u cry”
& “i need you to die”
“yeah i need it tonight”
i’m gonna drain my life w/ my knife
& i mean it tn, yeah i mean it this time)

i cut my own arteries
just so you could see that it’s hard for me

you left a scar on me
can’t call this harmony 
(woaahhh ohhh oh)

she said “i feel relieved when u cry”
& “i need you to die”
“yeah i need it tonight”
i’m gonna take my life w/ my knife
& i mean it tn, yeah i mean it this time

agony for a year & a half
used to fear it so bad
now it’s all tht i have

you call me a prick
but you can’t tell me shit
yeah, ‘cause look what i did
baby, i’m still a kid

i made a mess in my head
yeah, i’m full of regret
i just wish tht i said
something i really meant

(i know that it nvr ends
..it just won’t enddd)

she said “i feel relieved when u cry”
& “i need you to die”
“yeah i need it tonight”
i’m gonna take my life w/ my knife
& i mean it tn, yeah i mean it this time

yeah, i’m fiendin’ tonight
& i’m bleedin’ inside
& it’s freezin’ outside when i look in ur eyes
& i started to cry when you told me goodbye

(ohh-oh-oh-oh
..what a wonderful life…)

take my bones & break ‘em
you’re my haven but i’m so mistaken
all your luv left me forsaken
& i can’t take it, yeh, i can’t take it

(she said “i feel relieved when u cry”
& “i need you to die”
“yeah i need it tonight”
i’m gonna drain my life w/ my knife
& i mean it tn, yeah i mean it this time)

need you to know I mean it this time
i’m overly cautious there's cracks in the ice
no one should have to see what's inside
i'm thinkin I might have to end it tonight

i really need you by my side
it's the first time that I've felt emotion in life 
& the way that I felt was so airy and bright
as the smoke filled the room
we were out of our minds

i wonder if you're evil inside 
or if I can just wipe memories from my mind
yeah, you really changed me inside
i feel haunted by memories of you when I'm high

you know I really need this tonight
so keep leading me deeper with your golden eyes
as I'm torn between love and just taking my life
intangible time I embrace suicide

i don't care about myself as long as you're good
27 club, always knew that I would
put myself first, i probably should
but leaving the earth never sounded so good

…leaving the earth nvr sounded so good
…leaving the earth nvr sounded so good

cracks - luv armor x br//oken

monsterz

i know i’ll never be good enough
i lost all your trust
relapsing on these drugs

i’m off of adderall & alcohol
there’s too much damn collateral 
my ass was wrong
i guess we’re incompatible, unnatural

i guess i can’t stay mad for long
your dad was wrong..

i was your best mistake
there’s nothing more to say
i’m sick of these rainy days
cut me with razorblades

vodka, promethazine
you mean so much to me
i think i need therapy
she said she’s scared of me..

take my bones & break ‘em
i feel so mistaken
shoot me in the head & i’ll be saved, yuh

all this fuckin’ damage 
got me feelin’ stranded
i’ve been stuck in hell & i can’t stand it

you got me like “god dammit”
suicide, i’ve planned it
i’ma take my life, just not forgranted

she found my fuckin’ body
then decides she wants me
i don’t give a fuck
‘cause my best friend haunts me..

you ain’t got nothin’ on me
they call this shit a ‘hobby’
i’ma kill us both, like kamikaze

1943, the way i’m shootin’ Nazi’s
i know that soon i’ll be dead
but you still can’t stop me

i know i’ll never be good enough
i lost all your trust
relapsing on these drugs

i’m off a couple xan’s & ativan
you know i love this contraband 
this contraband

i’ve got cuts all on my hands
all this damn sufferin’
i just need to repent
forgive me for my sins..

ADDERALL

BLEACH

it’s such a shame that you’re in pain
& i’m to blame for all the rain
my hands are stained, i’ll go insane
there’s much to lose, but much to gain

there’s beauty in the silence
& tears behind my eyelids
i think i need some guidance
or something to revive us

i remember everything you said back in Dec.
like, “i hate you Nvmbr”
you better watch your fuckin’ temper

it’s freezin’, i’ma shiver
i’m drownin’ in this river
i can’t seem to forgive her
but i know i can’t forget her

i keep fallin’ down like autumn
right back to the bottom
of this bottle, gin i swallow
i think i’m drownin’ in my sorrow

there were angels around me
(there were angels all around me)
their aura surrounds me
(in their love i’m drowning)

i’ll say goodbye
one last time..
i’ll pay the price
when i look in your eyes..

it’s such a shame
that you’re in pain..
& i’m to blame (i’ll take the blame)
for all the rain..

the state patrol found me on 338
(in a ditch down by the lake)
you still had nothin’ to say

(you watched me dig my grave
you watched my dig my grave
what do you have to say?)

it’s such a shame that you’re in pain
& i’m to blame for all the rain
my hands are stained, i’ll go insane
there’s much to lose, but much to gain

there’s beauty in the silence
& tears behind my eyelids
i think i need some guidance
or something to revive us

i remember everything you said back in Dec.
like, “i hate you Nvmbr”
you better watch your fuckin’ temper

i know you don’t remember
but you burnt me down to embers..

prod by me

i’ve got my back against the wall
i stand, but i don’t stand that tall
there’s not much of me at all

(there ain’t much left
smoke in my chest)

i keep my chest filled up with smoke
only way i know to fuckin’ cope
when did i lose all of my hope?

(my hopes so gone
i’ll hit the road)

somewhere along this lonely road
i wish i wasn’t left here on my own
you know, i swear i’m so damn cold

(i’m cold, i’m cold, i’m so alone)

my hearts like winter
i can’t forget her
i feel so bitter
so i drink liquor

my hearts like winter
she’s luv’s nvmbr
& i luv this liquor 
but i can’t forget her

i’ve got my back against the wall
i stand, but i don’t stand that tall
there’s not much left of me at all
they watch as i just fuckin’ fall

my lights won’t guide me thru this fog
i can’t see a fuckin’ thing at all
where did i go so fucking’ wrong?
…so fuckin’ wrong..

it’s below zero & i’m so cold
this shit gets old, i’ve got no home
u break my bones, yeah u break my bones
you’ve got a heart of stone
well my hearts pure gold!!

i’ve got my back against the wall
i stand, but i don’t stand that tall
there’s not much left of me at all…

where did all the time go?
guess i spent it with my eyes closed
iPhone, yea the screen it makes ur eyes glow

God’s light softens the sky
& my mind goes to a place i don’t like…

..

yeah ur such, such such such a fag
& it’s such a drag
i put that on dad or Mr Krabs
& a prejudice, give a fuck bout that
lil bitch, you can’t talk shit like that

et peur lumuier
et peur du ombré 
je me demande a quai ce cere
put that on quai cere

i’ve got my back against the wall
i’m cold as fuck, but u weren’t involved

you know i’m so damn cold
there it goes, put that shit on go
talk that shit, lil bitch, ur broke
‘least i got a soul, yeah this shit gets old

…yeah this shit gets old

COLD

INVISIBLE

GLASS HOUSE

dark necessities
there is no remedy
i need drugs to fuckin’ sleep

i have an evil tendency 
to ruin things that i fuckin’ need

awful weather
let’s die together
you were my treasure
but i lost that pleasure

you love violence
i love dyin’
she hates my guts 
but i’ma buy her diamonds

new horizons
sense’s heightened
i love the feelin’
there’s no tryna hide it

no tryna fight it
painful climate
the sun it burns
so i’ll stay inside, yeah

awful weather
let’s die together
i need your love
it burns like embers

i remember mid December
you’ll surrender 
you love Nvmbr

dark necessities
please put my mind to ease
it’s gettin’ hard to breathe

& i can’t sleep
too afraid to leave
yeah, i’m scared to leave
i know you’re scared of me

awful weather
blood on my sweater
it could be mine but i can’t remember

i love violence
you know i’m dyin’
she don’t care, yeah she don’t mind it

awful weather
i can’t stand the pressure
i wrote her letters & she gave me lectures

she wore sweater
now i can’t forget her
but i can’t remember 
if she makes things better

PETRICHOR

nvr nvmbr

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