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close your eyes and sleep

DANCING IN THE DARK w/ ANTI-LIGHT [p6inkillr]

lyrics :

[@imsorryhori]
at everything i always loose
i think its time to tie the noose
i am so fucking uncool
bloody razors make me drool
you said you hate when i cut
but you do it too
lets kill ourselves together
girl we dont got shit to loose

she dont care about my health
left me alone by myself
she dont care if im doing well
she wants to hang me by the shelf

at everything i always loose
i think its time to tie the noose
i am so fucking uncool
bloody razors make me drool
you said you hate when i cut
but you do it too
lets kill ourselves together
girl we dont got shit to loose

im gonna cut you up tonight
my right hand mans a rusty knife
tonights the night that we both die
ill hapily say goodbye
lalala i am not fine
why are you acting suprised?
taking all these drugs
to speed up the time where i fucking die

[@killminakami]
i’d tie a belt around my neck
put a plastic bag over my face
i wish that i could have u back
want someone to make sure im safe
i’ll drown in insecurities
if u asked me to i’d kill myself
need someone for security
i just wish i was someone else

tell me to leave my bags are packed
i just wanted u to hold me til the world collapsed
scene girl n i wish that u would love me back
make my heart race have a heart attack
n theres no other way that i couldve known
i was learning from mistakes wish i couldve grown
n u want me gone now im dying all alone
smash my head open leaking on the snow

cut my wrists open like what did u tell me?
i just loved u so much n i thought u felt me
thought i fell in love but from the sky im falling
know u wont answer but i’ll keep on calling

bloody razors w/ minakami (p. takuori)

p. @ineysound
mix by me wear headphones paweasssseeee ok

spaace.‸.

lucky lucky!!

5:00 am. 
i wanna feel all over your body
 wanted to say that imn really sorry
i saw your texts and they're pretty naughty
so lets get drunk and lets fucking party
really wanna really wanna really wanna get high
really wanna really wanna really wanna fucking die
i wanna see i wanna see i wanna see if i can i fly
i think ill jump i think ill jump im gonna fucking jump tonight
really wanna really wanna really wanna get high
really wanna really wanna really wanna fucking die
i wanna see i wanna see i wanna see if i can i fly
i think ill jump i think ill jump im gonna fucking jump tonight
i wanna feel all over your body
 wanted to say that imn really sorry
i saw your texts and they're pretty naughty
so lets get drunk and lets fucking party
i wanna feel all over your body
 wanted to say that imn really sorry
i saw your texts and they're pretty naughty
so lets get drunk and lets fucking party

imgoingtofuckingjump

ft. https://soundcloud.com/503scoob
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IK (Feat. 503scoob)

prod me

this one is more experimental

lyrics:

i watched her bleed
i saw her scream
shes like baby lets cut n fk all night
im like damn you a freak
but thats aight with me
were gonna die tonight
we ridin down the highway
everything feels sideways
i still ask for more
and we crash by a fking lakeside
im torn to pieces
no more fking repeats
were gonna die tonight

why do you have to exist
maybe you should perish

fk you all
i hate you all
let me rest
death shall come

i watched her bleed
i saw her scream
shes like baby lets cut n fk all night
im like damn you a freak
but thats aight with me
were gonna die tonight
we ridin down the highway
everything feels sideways
i still ask for more
and we crash by a fking lakeside
im torn to pieces
no more fking repeats
were gonna die tonight

BL33D

ilybeam produced this

hardclip cope is real, see u next week :S

looks could kill and everything

prod robert6beats

flyin higher than the ceiling
i cnt see shit wi all these needles in my eyes
im so infected
cut my body i don feel shit
goin deeper is this masochistic? or suicidal?
but i don feel it?
uh idfk
n idfc, im self-destructive,
when i look in the mirror i don recognize me, self-agnosic
self-diagnosing cuz i think im goin crazy
yeah swear ill fkn go psychotic one day off the benzos im takin
i mix it, cuz idec about livin
idk but its toxic
kms now, im a fuckin ghost bitch
i like to test things, yeah, yeah, thats why my wrists are fkn leaking, n ill stop breathing
yeah too many things gone wrong for me to evr heal
n im like everdead n still forever here
i shouldnt be here, no
idk wtf im on rn
but i think i took too much
yeah it feels so good
can u see it in the way i walk
don talk please yeah
im peacefully leavin this earth
i was reachin, but nobody helped
thats fine, im ready to forget
four xans n a canvas to paint red
my razor n many more pills
more than enough to be painless
yeah cuz i cnt fkn take this
so ill go, take my life, i don wan it
im a failure, i tried my hardest
no more fkn hearts left
oh no, im scared to be heartless
im so used to bein in pieces
but i want this ye
no more time here wasted
im sorry i was here to begin with
n im sorry im choosin to leave
but ill nvr be the girl i wanna be
n ill nvr get clean
not worth it, i cnt be healed
i became everything i feared

everdead

uhhh yeah i make music bc its my only escape from myself ig <3

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she/her

everdead

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