tumblr w/blair

blow my brains out

demons
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Lyrics:

damn damn u btches is demons
how do u want us to see this
damn i cannot believe this
all of u btches is demons
demons (6x)

they made me think im the issue
but look at the shit u been up to
got me rethinking so much now
think u so much better than everyone else

so get off ur high ground u hurting yourself
in ur delusion like u cant be helped
all of ur ego oh u try to hide it
dont think u even trying

always so fake ur a shell of yourself
act so repulsive but no ones surprised
tryna prove something u wasting your time
fcked in the head yea theyre crossing the line

you're lost, so far out
and u don't realize
everything that you've become

damn damn u btches is demons
how do u want us to see this
damn i cannot believe this
all of u btches is demons
demons (6x)

all of these fckin demons
make them go away they're not leaving
watch them descend into demons
should've just trusted that feeling
demons (6x)

thought im unempathetic but look at u
far gone, leaving everything behind
slowly abandoned all your values
always tryna be better its poisoned you
disconnected from the world living in your own mind
u can't feel anything anymore
do u know what u saying do u hear it
yea u hurt in the soul we can feel it

damn damn u btches is demons
how do u want us to see this
damn i cannot believe this
all of u btches is demons


demons

carvee w/g0re4ngel :0

prod. fiftyzeros <<<<

sorry i got lazy and didnt upload last week 
ill upload tmr again to make up for it, hardclip song today ill post some sceneish stuff tmr 

see u xxx

i dont get your concept

produced by me

@avoidr
yeah-uh, the pains getting greater
you dont know, yeah you love me harder
yeah-uh, the numbness getting better
you dont know, i dont wanna live no more
i put a knife to my heart, i've been dying now
killing myself, bleeding out losing all of it
you really thought that i'd be living in a world like this
thats kinda silly of you to pursue im out of it

@lexanax
still pursuing all of it
i said its a waste
come find me in the dark
i really miss your face
i could give you my heart 
if it would make a difference
i could choose to belive 
but it's all just fiction

@avoidr
hell nah, you thought im living in a world like this?
oh girl, you dont know what is going on
help me, im stuck inside of this endless loop
nightmares, thats what im trying to be living in

@lexanax
everything you say is a complete contradiction
wanting me to stay, 
then you're leaving without saying 
i've been losing sleep, 
all my dreams are haunted
said you wanted me, 
yet you don't like who i am

@avoidr
im so stuck inside an endless loop
i dont know if im holding on
im so stuck inside an endless loop
i dont know if i can trust you now
i put a knife to my heart, i've been dying now
killing myself, bleeding out losing all of it
you really thought that i'd be living in a world like this
thats kinda silly of you to pursue im out of it

@lexanax
still pursuing all of it
i said its a waste
come find me in the dark
i really miss your face
i could give you my heart 
if it would make a difference
i could choose to belive 
but it's all just fiction

@avoidr
thats kinda silly of you
thats kinda silly of you
to pursue im out of it
to pursue im out of it
thats kinda silly of you
thats kinda silly of you
to pursue im out of it
to pursue im out of it

out of it

out of it w/ LeXanax

prod @tnfmb 
master @ldlad

lyrics

nothing ever goes right, and i feel so dead 
cameras flashing all the time, i am such a mess, i wnna be dead
think i found what i lost, find my body down the cross
think i found what i lost, come on sing along
every thought's a secret, you better hide it
baby you can keep it, you will never find it 
lay me down like a dog, let me ro-o-ot
hate my brain, its my fault, i need go-o-od
every thoughts a secret, im better when i keep it 
if you steal my heart girl, you can always keep it
idk where to go, life is pretty alone, i feel so cold, im gonna cry in the snow
murder me how u want, i be running out of luck 
you look so pretty cut, now youre dripping blood
i dont feel regret, but i still feel sad 
i can never have, what you always have 

everyday is scary, pretty when im buried
can never be happy, destroy me gladly 
for me youre not hard  girl, i dont wanna lose you 
locking up myself, i still feel better when im with you 
i can never lie, bottle these emotions can't explain
youre all i think about but im in so much fkn pain 
and for you i would change, and i hope you see me change
but i cant explain, i dont wanna stay the same

nothing ever goes right #secret (tnfmb)

lyrics

i heard in crystal castles
You are everything i need
knife feels the diferent levels
of your sadness on my skin
everybody rots, and everybody feels alone
liek omg i can feel it on my bones
i dont wanna be a victim, im a victim of my brain
ppl think im lying, jus bcs i cant explain
i be feeling pain, the voices, already forgot
everything is lame, i'll feel better when im gone
they will never listen, they will think im crazy
everybody watching me, feel so fkn shaky
share my bones, i dont wanna feel alone
i dont know where to go, i need help from above

sadness on my skin #sharemybones (ilybeam)

lyrics 

i got buttons on my body
blind my eyes wont see me plead
when i wake up frm the party 
i regret the things i did
bae i love u but im sad 
need my knife when im depressed 
im a corpse, im a mess 
kms no regrets

lifeless eyes the lights fade im jus waiting to decay 
life was great now i cant take  the pain im feeling everyday 
lacerations, so disgraceful, everybody staying mangled  like an angel

hang me up, at the church, make my corpse pretty when it hurts
fell in love with a secret, dont wnna hide it anymore u can keep it 

haunted candyland, i fell in love with desire 
pretty when it hurts, u can kill me in designer 
i see you but i cannot fkn feel u
I wnna be alone but life is pretty when i hear you
let my corpse dance, kill me when we hold hands 
on my death bed, life is pretty all again 
i cant breathe alone, blood all on my phone 
take a trip, overdose, take the camera and pose

blow on my noseee
life is pretty alonee

lacerations #prettywhenithurts (takuori)

lyrics 

i walk alone like a dog, you mean nothing to me 
and its all my fault, kill me when i sleep
you make my heart pound, horror movie underground
never walk around, ill never be found
i can't find it, think i lost it 
i am stuck inside a promise 
youre so gorgeous, gorgeous' morbid 
end our fkn love story
walk alone, i regret, youre so pretty and dead
I will never find myself, we look so pretty in the end

basic is torture, you'll never find me boring 
dance like a monster, don't wnna be a monster

film my suicide, and it feel right
im dying, tonight 
"guess i'll take my knife"
take my life idc 
im rotting with despair
why is life so unfair?
got my blood on your hair 
that mascara 
imma run around 
grab the camera
my body wont be found 

you can find the tapes 
you'll never close the case
it was all a mistake 
i thought beauty was pain 
so i killed myself 
and i'd do it again 
why do i gotta live 
If I dont have any friends

gorgeous is morbid #walkalonelikeadog (hakari)

all plats soon shouldve been out already my bad

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love, drugs, ye, its all the fkn same to me
im so numb off so much fkn ketamine
fucked up, so fucked up evry day but its perfect
fuck im not okay i jus need some help ye
but bby look at me, like do u evn love me?
like i think if i died u would fkn laugh at me
the way u draw blood from my wrists i fkn love it
my body so fkn cut up cuz i deserve it
yeah, ive earned it n it feels so good
i love u more than fkn anythin
id do any fkn drug for u
need like 10 xans daily, take another two, yeah
n now my heart beats so slowly
when i pass out ill wake up fkn lonely
what more i needa do for ur heart?
i bled out so much theres only fkn chems in my heart

yeah, u keep tellin me tha im the one
but i think im too fkn broken
n too fkn numb
ik i do way too many drugs
we both know that
n i think u wan me dead now
ill overdose the next time tha i can, yeah
for u ill kms when i can, yeah
uh, i fell way too fkn far
too much fkn love, i cnt handle it all
i wanna fkn die
don evn remember ur face now
not agnosic, jus way too fkn high
nvr there, don remember any place
don remember my own name
n ill still take more cuz im still alive so it cnt be enough

for u ill kms!!

dm for collabs u can send opens or beats or i can prod too :3 (free ofc <33)

uhhh yeah i make music bc its my only escape from myself ig <3

18 🏳️‍⚧️
she/her

i just wanna say im not promoting any of the shit i talk about. this is simply my way of trying to survive through it all and i sing it as is. much love <3

for u ill kms!!

nvrlvd