ignored (prod. arey x johnny friend)

When I Look At You

sad
-
You're always in my dreams
Get the fuck out
Cuz I still dream about you
Cuz I will never let go, of you
You will always be burnt in my skin
I will never let go
I will never let go

I saw you yesterday
Did you see me too? Cuz I saw you
I wonder what you thought when you saw me
Would you wanna talk if I walked up?

Never Letting Go (Jack Marlow) (Demo)

produced by me :)
no copyright btw





lyrics:
feel like nobody
and nobody needs love
making new friends
and then them cutting me off

oh hey streetlight
you're more important than me
you're shining bright
and i'm the one that is hiding deep

does nobody like me
i need somebody 

maybe it's all my fault, i'm sorry
why do you ignore me?
tell me why and if its the reason that i'm so lonely
is my fault, i'm sorry
feelings of betrayal gonna haunt me
haunt me
maybe it's all my fault, i'm sorry
why do you ignore me?
tell me why and if its the reason that i'm so lonely
is my fault, im sorry
feelings of betrayal gonna haunt me
haunt me

and i'm the outcast, that quiet kid
that only talks when he's feeling it
feelings are weaker than before
and my hearts just beating for me who swore -
that im never giving up, never going down
im the only one that can turn it all around
feeling like the words left me behind
but i know somewhere, i can still climb
to the top, not falling off
not feeling fake, and fall in love
being myself, i know its though
but i know i can do this up above
a happy life and to know what's right
to not get caught up in this fight
better days shining so bright
even through the darkest times



oh i go through darkest times
she don't wanna hear what's on my mind
hate it when i talk cuz i waste time
even though i know that i'll be fine

bloodstained coat sat by the fire
i can be all that you desire
i really hate the distance but it's dire
but i'll see you again inside the mire

oh i guess, i guess that we really meant nothing, nothing
really thought we were something, something
my phone was never buzzing buzzing

streetlights always kept me awake
stay up in the park until 8
throwing rocks at the near lake
but i still see your face



does nobody like me
i need somebody 

maybe it's all my fault, i'm sorry
why do you ignore me?
tell me why and if its the reason that i'm so lonely
is my fault, i'm sorry
feelings of betrayal gonna haunt me
haunt me
maybe it's all my fault, i'm sorry
why do you ignore me?
tell me why and if its the reason that i'm so lonely
is my fault, im sorry
feelings of betrayal gonna haunt me
haunt me


i guess it was my fault
now we became bygones
nothing that i did wrong >:(
we never would've gone long

everything will die out
now i'm filled with your doubt
laying in my bed just for you as i sit and watch the rain pour down

my fault ft. evergxrden

blacked out in the end,

and now i'm falling back to hell again,
blacked out in the end,
and now you savin' me from
all of my sins,

tapped out for a minute in the backseat,

laid down because all
my problems catch me,
this is the final goodbye,

i said that a minute might be too long,
but you said that my thinking was
just dead wrong,
i guess this calls for goodbye,

(and now i'm tapped out,
in the backseat)
(started thinking that
everybody just hates me,)

(and now i'm tapped out,
in the backseat)
(started thinking that
everybody just hates me,)

blacked out in the end,

and now you savin' me
from hell again,
blacked out in the end,
and now you savin' me from
all of my sins,

[distant]

okay i know that i'm not perfect,
(not perfect)
need somebody tellin' me
that i'm worth it,
(you're worth it)
sayin' life is good and that
i really deserve it,
otherwise i know i'm worthless,

now i'm sittin' here
sippin' on my root beer,
(root beer!)
i'm failing all my classes
better luck next year,
now my mom's mad,
and my dad's ticked,
what did i do,
to get myself caught up in this,
i see the light and now
you wanna call me,
now it's blacked out,
i really need my mommy,

i know
i know
i know, ooohhhh

blacked out in the end,

(blacked out in the end)
and now you savin' me
from hell again,
(you're savin' me again)
blacked out in the end,
(i'm blacked out in the end)
and now you savin' me from
all of my sins,
(from all of my sins)

i'm telling you bro,

and it's just like
(5am)

BLACKED OUT (W/ A DISTANT VOICE) (IOF)

This song is for my parents, I hope you like it :)

Dream, my head
I'll be like you one day
See, what I can
Take notes of how you dance
Dance, we will see
One day you will fly
And I will tell stories about your whole life
The people that made me so wise
But that's in a while, we got plenty of time

In all of my struggles
In all of my pain
I always have light
Yeah
I always have them
They make me feel wanted
They make me feel loved
Without them I'm nothing
Without them I'm lost

One day you'll be like a memory
But inside my heart, you will always be free
You made me feel special
You made me feel loved
For that I am thankful
I will always be yours

one day (Prod. Proyecto Alice)

*thank you to @lxstboymusic for adding a verse to this song! make sure to check out his music

lyrics -‌ ‌written‌ ‌by‌ ‌@backyardbeetle and @lxstboymusic
produced‌ ‌by -‌ @jxsiebeats
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lyrics:
i can feel the bones in my chest 
crumble under the weight
when i say that i got no stress 
you can see me lying through my face
yeah i got this in the bag but i dont though
putting all my feelings all up in my songs bro
i dont even got a check i dont need one though 
all you people are crazy oh

yeah its cold
i dont even know
i cant even feel like the snot in my nose
trippin through this path like you dont even know 
i aint been the same snice i been through the snow
yeah you wanna go back in time 
you cannot fix that 
yeah you know that i will never change 
i know you hate that

[lxst boy]
i know you hate when i get sad
locked in my room, write these tracks
i'll never feel the same
pressured, crushed under this weight

yeah
weight is getting heavy
overflowing and i'm sinking
gotta build myself a levy
to hold the tears back
and my fears back
and im miserable
and i feel that
i'll never feel ok
and i will never change, uh

i can feel the bones in my chest 
crumble under the weight
when i say that i got no stress 
you can see me lying through my face
yeah i got this in the bag but i dont though
putting all my feelings all up in my songs bro
i dont even got a check i dont need one though 
all you people are crazy oh

i can feel the bones in my chest 
crumble under the weight
when i say that i got no stress 
you can see me lying through my face
yeah i got this in the bag but i dont though
putting all my feelings all up in my songs bro
i dont even got a check i dont need one though 
all you people are crazy oh

- backyard beetle and lxst boy 2021

backyard beetle - stress w/ lxst boy (prod. jxsie beats)

shoutout dysphoric, go check his stuff out

finally i drop a godlow song(i have like 10 in my drafts) its just a motivation thing

lyrics

mæsk
u see me now
dont feel me tho
coming back but feel im in a funeral
i got my hopes all up
coz now they talking down
its not the same
it never was
its just a different mouth

uh talk to me 
ill awfully pretend 
that i am honest but like honestly i’m lost inside my head
things better unsaid
exchanging words now what i dread
i use them all for beats i hear, no i dont do it for the bread

uh fuck it losing all my soul
losing all my consciousness
its seeping through my dome
things now coming back that never mattered to me before
thought i distanced my self from the past but now look at what we are

my brain is filled with memories and fucking battle scars
not giving shits now what i bleed 
ill fucking rip apart
every single person on earth who caused me hurting, i dont wanna hear ur version
ive been burden from the very fucking start

ooo now
this is what i do now
if you fucking knew me
would u still be around

me say mumbo jumbo 

dysphoric
i’ve felt it all from the very start like my heart been blocked and shattered into shards
everything they said to me it’s ripping me apart
like there’s a target on my back just focus on the mark
no way no sir i cannot keep my word
trying to choose my path my vision has been blurred
not a single word 
that you said 
to my face 
has been heard
try to find solutions they all seem to be absurd

what the difference between win and loss if it’s at a cost
how come when i take all these shots they just seem to get blocked
why am i reaching when there’s no one there to help me up
these visions fucking with me they come and go so abrupt-ly 

there only here to corrupt me
shocking how the realization struck me
i have a feeling that i must leave 
i must leave

ooo now this is what i doo now
if you fucking kneww me 
would you still bee around

if u knew ft. Dysphoric (Eric Godlow )

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