nvm.
prod me @assperrr & @claudesdiary
additional bg vox from @claudesdiary

inspos for song:
jane remover - search party
sewerperson - the harvest

[lyrics]

*intro*
last year was the start of the end
i couldn't be here without you
but the path split again
i've got so much to value
and more time to spend
but i've been treated like shit
how could you call me your friend?

*verse*
cuz I’ve been down bad
with a fake friend
I don’t have much to say when
I’ve been waiting
for you to get it
I’ve been here for so long
to just forget it
I said no 100 times
you couldn’t accept it
I’ve been way to scared to
read the message
the last one sent
makes you look obsessive
but ur the main character
want me by your side
and break my barriers
the more we talk it gets scarier
thought u were my friend
u felt superior
put yourself first not a thought here
if it doesn't work then its not fair
and u wanna say that I don't care
but I'm your longest friend who never got scared
pick the phone up shit is still the same
here's the dial tone shit will never change

*bridge*

cuz i haven't felt this in a while
it's time to go switch up my style
I never could buy I'm on trial shit
I'm blocking the number like

*hook*
go!
they hit me back and all i said was
nvm
nvm
nvm
nvm
where did you
go! x4

*outro*
cuz I can't deal with all this back and forth
I can't commit to what ur asking for
I've tried to mend this more than once before
don't hit me up I went and locked the doors

you liked to make me your main focus
to manipulate me till I'm hopeless
you make me like shit like did you notice?
you didn't notice
you'll never notice.

spotify !

nvm. (jauntsen x asperr x claude)

written, performed, mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by remghost & deadat18
recorded @ goblin haven
art by bedhead
lyrics:
Sweetest saki ever tasted sweetest song he ever penned
Spent the whole night getting wasted use the day after to mend
Spend a bag and don't get paid and do not break and do not bend
I remember what you say and it’s the same until the end
Until the end never was your friend
Was your friend and you thought that I could mend
I never mend and everything I said
I never meant
You act like you don’t know every night where I go
Toward the light I’m psycho I hide behind the lamppost
Try and find me know you can’t though I’m already at the temple
You came running sprained an ankle left you on the floor so painful
Who would do this to an angel I know that I’ve got no halo
I’m not going up to heaven if I rest it must be below

ALL PLATFORMS

i never meant (+ remghost x deadat18)

*lyrics*

Outline On the ground
I've always been an outlier stuck in my doubt 
While you've been in your tower 
I've been a around, the world in my head, and here's what I found 
2x
I tried to reach the sky
From my lowest point
I'm always asking why
I just don't know the point in this
I don't know
Know why, it's hard to think when you're not around
Wasting my time and
Trading pennies for diamonds
There's hope in the darkness, if you look you'll find it
Open my eyelids
i'm tryna live more, and get off this island that I've made.

outline

I feel like a waste of space with every second I take
In the same old place doing the same ole thing
And I know im better than this
God show me the way or how the hell I can fix it
Im like a half broken whip on the side of the road
Dont think ill make it to where im going on this path I chose
I gave her tulips last week but man at first it was a rose
I wish you would open up I understand why youre closed

We all damaged I hate when you leave me alone I cant manage
Its like I cant do a thing on my own I need it handed
I hate me like everyone else I cant stand it
I feel like the weakest link within this whole planet
Tryna come for my character she wanna tell me what a man is
Babygirl im not hearing it I dont care about what you saying
I got bigger problems for me to worry bout
Baby yeah im scared of everything I took the harder route

And would you love me if I was down and out 
You could tell me anything baby im still filled with doubt
I dont like me or anything that I do
Im looking back in the mirror like who the fuck is you
Oh yeah I hate it hate it hate it hate it 
You could look me in my eyes I dont think im gonna make it
Please dont look surprised with all the shit im saying
At the end of the day we all

We all damaged I hate when you leave me alone I cant manage
Its like I cant do a thing on my own I need it handed
I hate me like everyone else I cant stand it
I feel like the weakest link within this whole planet
Tryna come for my character she wanna tell me what a man is
Babygirl im not hearing it I dont care about what you saying
I got bigger problems for me to worry bout
Baby yeah im scared of everything I took the harder route

And would you love me if I was down and out 
You could tell me anything baby im still filled with doubt
And would you love me if I was down and out 
You could tell me anything baby im still filled with doubt
I dont like me or anything that I do
Im looking back in the mirror like who the fuck is you
Oh yeah I hate it hate it hate it hate it

damaged [p. methboiswag+jolst]

@dylaanlotus

i gave u all the fucking world
i guess you'll never feel the same 
im done with all these fucking girls
i never wanna feel this way 

i gave u all the fucking world
i guess you'll never feel the same 
im done with all these fucking girls
i never wanna feel this way x2  

cut my wrist and burn me down 
you're all i think about
you're all i think about 
like you're an angel from the clouds 
but no, i don't wanna fall
all the time that i lost tryna find my love 
did you miss me?
cuz u left me with these scars like i was 16 
fucking crying in the car and sipping whiskey
i remember all the times that you would kiss me
that you would kiss me
oh, i don't wanna fall
all the time that i lost tryna find my love

i gave u all the fucking world
i guess you'll never feel the same 
im done with all these fucking girls
i never wanna feel this way























































































































































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