og title when it was first posted:
couture23 - learning to sleep ft. rainfield (snow drive)

[couture23]
Learning to sleep
I had this melody that went like this
Perfect is the worst word ever created
Proves that the sky has a limit
& that everything is possible, but it's not
& if I could dream while learning to sleep
I've got this in my hand forever
& I'm running out of seconds
So when I drop will you start
I was crushed from something out of the sky

[rainfield]
I get tucked in bed with my restless legs
& my hands tucked behind my back
& when good intentions is so easily attributed
To anybody willing to cover up their ass

Learning To Sleep (snow drive)

They say pill are _____,
He's better off dead,
Thoughts in his head ,
The thoughts in his _______,
Oh doctor whats the problem,
I think theres a couple screws loose,
These pills are not prescription,
What will he do,
Popped two,
Blacking out on queue,
I need you,
Baby I need you,
I'm co dependent,
I'm so dependent,
I'm ugh...
I don't trust him,
I wouldn't love him if I were you,
She stays true,
Make my head rush like glue,
Stick to you....

I just popped two benzodiazapine,
I just want life to be a dream,
But it's like the movie scream,
I don't know who's on my team,
I just killed my ego & I'm coming clean,
I'm a sour apple but I got sweet teeth,
I just need a little ______,
Diggin into her body,
Flesh on me,
I said I'm sober but I'm on the xans,
She said it's over but she's in my hands,
She still wants me,
Benzo freak,
Pillcell geek,
I don't feel like me...

Oh doctor whats the problem,
I think theres a couple screws loose,
These pills are not prescription,
What will he do,
Popped two,
Blacking out on queue,
I need you,
Baby I need you...

Oh doctor whats the problem,
I think theres a couple screws loose,
These pills are not prescription,
What will he do,
Popped two,
Blacking out on queue...

Oh doctor whats the problem,
Oh doctor whats the problem,
Oh doctor whats the problem,
Oh doctor whats the problem,
Popped two,
Blacking out on queue...

im so dependent, i want life to be a dream

Mimics gate - Cards

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cthx3URoXOc

"you" (shouiyo) (mv in description)

Sunset Sherbert (p. Airmakkz)

0:58 w/ @airmakkz
1:51 w/ @02v
2:54 w/ @gamogo
3:17 w/ @mkbluee

cvrpge

feb clips + airmakkz, midso, gamo8k, mk blue

YelloTail (No Riko/No Rick O)

still have ur number, dialin u in my slumberrr

js a dummy prod kyna

super hype to release this one! enjoy 
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DAYDREAM

I'm just feeling so down today

 I still don't feel the same

Did I ever feel real

Have I always been this way 

I don't know but I feel like 

I'm not ok 

I feel so dead inside

Dead in My eyes

A fire deep inside

Floating

Disconnecting 

Goldfish floating I never feel like I'm sleeping

hypersexual

 but disconnected depressive drinking 

numb horny and suicidal thinking

Fem boy 

Goth 

Trans girl 

cat girl

Suicidal yeah call me whatever

 I don't give a fuck I'll say it

 I'm not ashamed to be myself 

With a devilish smile I don't fake shit

but If I start to panic and speaking frantic 

please don't leave me like everyone else I promise I  

I won't try to run away I'll let you do anything to me

if you just tell me your won't walk away

 I'll be anything you want me to be today 

I want to feel something someone anything

 please just touch me kiss me love me fuck me hurt me take me forever trap me in your personal made heaven 

I didn't want to say 

I can't love me

I'm not use to not being abused

I didn't want to say anything that something's wrong

I just want to wake up and smile but 

I woke up set on  fire 

in a world with no water

 or sound effects active 

 last night I tried to slitting my wrists again 

I tried overdosing with my horror goddess whore horse 

just another failed attempt   

Another lie to myself

 running through my brain looping on self defense

repeating to myself to the pain of stabbing eruptive mental agony living in a borderline insanity 

 I'm a piece of fucking shit

I never meant shit fuck world get high fuck live

My brains the enemy borderline sanity splitting loving and hating with knives of fire loving with bloody hearts wrapped around my dead blood warmed stained wrists clotting all the hope and exceptions I know you'll destroy before you even know I hold them out for you like a new toy 

 If I'd just die I'd be ok but I can't even see the blurry image of myself naked in the mirror 

I don't have a problem at all

I'm ripping out my hair again

I want to rip off my skin

I'm so fat I never want to eat anything

The thoughts make me gag up vomit when there's nothing in my stomach

As the world around me becomes like brittle black buttons 

 I dread the feeling cracked smile 

A expressionless face a silent tear screams and falls a numb sculpture I am displayed  

 rotten like shattered candy on the blood stained empty room floors 

The dead Space

Fuck me all night through the morning drenched in saliva and love 

As the Rabbits finds new holes to fall down 

Do we run?

I've fallen down

Do you still love me

Could I ever love me 

I want to die tonight but your body keeps me up all night

Up all night through the morning screaming and moaning 

Smiling for a bleeding eternity 

But I'm

Down again

I hate my body

Looking at my Razors again 

I shy away

Nothings going right night

It seems like nothing I try is working for me

Nothing I try to do  in this  

blah blah blah world

I don't give a fuck anymore   

Just leave me alone 

I'm just to numb to feel you

And not Dumb enough to believe you 

Your viewed in Black and white

What were you really going to do did you really think you would or could change anything 

Would you in a world full of angels and snakes

With all those I hopes the dreams you procured better not

Light a hot rail up my nose fuck the night away

What's any of this matter anymore 

Were all going to die 

So lets just die like we fuck

And spread our secrets all across your walls 

As I take all of you as I take no care for myself 

I want to burn with you forever in a quantum immortality

Seductive final activity hypersexuality  

Wake up

Want to die

I'm starving to death 

I could give a fuck less

But I can't eat anything tonight 

All I want to do is die but what I really want is just to live my life 

So fuck me like it's my last night alive 




Last Night Alive 4

Heard this song for the first time at Seven Stars Music Festival and immediately had an idea to remix it. I hope you enjoy!!!

im so dependent, i want life to be a dream

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