Lyrics: 

i’ve always felt alone in a crowd 
always been harder to breathe than to drown 
but i've made it this far, i don't know how 

i’ve been dreaming since i was a child
but i’ve been sleepless, trying not to go wild
and piss off the people that love me somehow

somedays i feel
like no one really knows me
what if they pack up their bags and go?

I feel 
like no one really knows me
what if they pack and go? 

no, no, access denied
don’t look straight into my eyes
i'm dead inside, flies are buzzing

i ripped open the sky, 
i’m smoking the stars
i’m built for the night, the moon is rising

i've always felt comfort in the dark
always been easier to be, 
when no one knows who you are

but i need redemption, 
true connections

it's been a nightmare since i was a child
but i’ve been dreaming, trying not to go wild
but wake up screaming, i don't know how

somedays i feel
like no one really knows me
what if they pack up their bags and go?

I feel 
like no one really knows me
what if they pack and go? 

no, no, access denied
don’t look straight into my eyes
i'm dead inside, flies are buzzing

i ripped open the sky, 
i’m smoking the stars
i’m built for the night, the moon is rising

is it better to be alone?
hide below my skeletons
is it safer, to keep myself closed?

am i doing it all wrong?
is it weaker to stay strong?
should i stop closing off?

is it better to be alone?
is it smart, to protect my core?
stay small, inside my bones
(flies are buzzing) 

am i doing it all wrong?
aren't we alive to feel it all?
aren't we here to feel it all?

am i doing it all wrong?
aren't we alive to feel it all?
aren't we here to feel?

(flies are buzzing) 

ripped open the sky, 
i’m smoking the stars
i’m built for the night, the moon is rising

(flies are buzzing)

DIARY OF A WIMPY KID (Demo)

Peace Through Suffering

Peace Through Suffering  [COtu + Belial Pelegrim]

Misk - Guilty Pleasure (Remastered)

In this piece I used an upright piano, a cello, a solo violin, a duduk, an electric guitar and strings ensemble.
Thank you for listening !

Composition: Julien Apelian
Recording studio: Audio Colors
November, 1st, 2025


Majestic Universe

Do You See

This song was created and written by: 
J J Samuel
The production, music and vocals were done by: 
J J Samuel 

#Glam/Art pop #Rock #Cello #Introspective #Vulnerability #Dreamy #Theatrical #AnxietyAwareness #MentalHealth 

 “Misunderstood” – my new track,

🌑💔 Feel the raw vulnerability as this story unfolds…
A journey of someone battling severe anxiety 😰🖤 – their daily fight to break free from its suffocating grip.
Fear spirals until they can’t leave the house, trapped in a bottomless black hole 🕳️.
They ache to step out, to show the world what they’ve GOT 🔥✨ – but judgment and overthinking every stare hold them back.
🎧

The coverart 🖼️ is meant to look like “David Bowie”  This song is dedicated to him, I tried to recreate his vocals using AI, he is national treasure and legend. I wasn’t his biggest fan but that doesn’t mean he wasn’t a great artist.  He was baritone singer able to register in the vocal range of B1 to Eb6, he was able to hit high falsetto’s using Tenor agility. He had a Very rare and unique singing style. 🎤 🎶 


Lyrics, 

[Verse 1]
I’m a humble man
with simple intentions,
I’m not perfect
And I find it Hard to fit in! 

[verse2]

Ooh, I’ll shake the sleep dust from my eyes
As a starlit dreamer, I’ll pierce the skies
Shouting my words — I’ll break free!
Let the real me shine for all to..see!

[Pre-Chorus]

Ooh, this modern circus —  
Blinding me!  
My mind’s lost —  
Can’t catch the astral tide!

[Chorus]

Ooh, I’m so misunderstood!
I feel like a stranger in starlight [Pause]
I wish they would hear the shout in my soul,
as inside I’m trying to break free!
Behind this mask — is the real me!

[Verse 3]
They’re staring again, with eyes like eager vultures
They think I’m strange, an embered pulse in a lonesome post
No, no, no, it’s not as it seems!

[verse4]

Ooh, I retreat to my home,  
Away from their harm and circus schemes.  
I won’t walk through oil-covered fields,  
Alone in my sorrow, where fear feeds,  
Swallowed by a black hole’s cosmic scream!

[Pre-Chorus]

Ooh, this modern circus —  
Blinding me!  
My mind’s lost —  
Can’t catch the astral tide!

[Chorus]

Ooh, I’m so misunderstood!
I feel like a stranger in starlight, [Pause]
I wish they would hear the shout in my soul,
as inside I’m trying to break free!
Behind this mask — is the real me!

[Bridge]

Anxiety — let me go!  
I’ll break your hold!  
Dancing to the comet’s call —  
Astral flame, set free!

[ Final Chorus]

Ooh, I’m so misunderstood!
I feel like a stranger in starlight, [Pause]
I wish they would hear the shout in my soul,
as inside I’m trying to break free!
Behind this mask — is the real me!

[End]

MISUNDERSTOOD

Firecracker is a joyful tribute to Reba McEntire, a country ballad celebrating
strength, faith, and rising after heartbreak.

Firecracker

Portugal



https://music.youtube.com/playlist?list=OLAK5uy_mwfOQttVDxfAwSONVk1iqjrsplLS8_2Ac&si=UC0WXNQTzrp6gPj9


 https://open.spotify.com/album/2UQagRzEH4BYiovFMdLjJt?si=qTsHFk-dSvOlM2uyvAi-_w


https://music.apple.com/us/song/i-ask-myself-feat-g-master-instrumental/1852865802





I ask myself (feat.G.Master).mp3

Birthday WAV

Tiny boat, big sea
No land nowhere to be seen
Gotta tiny on a big sea

Some days we row along merrily
Some days the wind blows mightily 
So happy that you're here with me

He might have been a big man
A titan of industry
But he's got an itty bitty boat just like me

Some days we row along merrily
Some days the wind blows mightily
I'm happy that you're here with me

Due north through the freezing wind and rain
Due south through the troubles of our days
Due east to a far off distant land
Your hand in my hand
Your hand in my hand

Come across a boat
Filled with refugees
Men, women, little babies
Sitting knee to knee
They got a tiny boat on a big sea

Some days we row along merrily 
Some days the wind blows mightily
I'm so happy you're here with me

I seen my father on his death bed
I heard my father, the last words that he said
Such a tiny boat on a big sea

He rowed that boat time and time again
Now I see another boat waiting for him
It's a tiny boat on a big sea

Tiny Boat, Big Sea

every villain has an origin story 💜🐙

DIARY OF A WIMPY KID (Demo)

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