HOW TO MAKE A MONSTER: SYNTH & SPITE VERSION

Lyrics:

i used to decorate my bruises 
glitter smearing all over my bad ideas
with strawberry gloss and smokey puffs
turns out wanting freedom kept me cuffed
glitter smearing all over my bad ideas

they called me sugar, they called me sweet
but never asked what’s underneath
killed my confidence, then called me friend
isn’t that how monsters are made?

dead fairies in my room
dead fairies in my house, (they can’t fly)
guess if you want to love, you have to be willing to die

dead fairies in my room
dead fairies in my house, (they can’t fly)
guess if you want to love, you have to be willing to die

i lit a candle in their coffins
just to see if their ghosts would dance
they went crazy, like all my ex-girlfriends
then vanished when i took a stance

i stitched my mouth with safety pins
to keep all my monsters within 
but damn i look so pretty when i bite
and smile with cyanide

i buried her
the girl who glowed
under pink skies and clouds of smoke
now all that’s left
is teeth and thread—
a myth reborn
from all she bled

dead fairies in my room
dead fairies in my house, (they can’t fly)
guess if you want to love, you have to be willing to die

dead fairies in my room
dead fairies in my house, (they can’t fly)
guess if you want to love, you have to be willing to die

i used to be so nice, 
but everyone took advantage
made a joke out of me
now i'm the one bursting into laughter (hahaha)

everyone i ever  loved 
slowly pulled me apart 
now fairies are dying inside of me
like a pixie plague of dust

isn’t this how monsters are made? 
i don’t know who i am without all this pain

isn't this how monsters are made? 
i don’t know who i am without pain

isn't this how monsters are made? 
i don’t know who i am without pain

DEAD FAIRIES (Demo)

Lyrics:

 i think i was born different 
a little magical, a little rare
 like while people star-gazed
 i saw worlds in my head
it felt lonely 
that no one could understand

 i’ve never been able to be  fully here 
because half of me died  before i was ten
 i’ve never known  a life without grief 
but i promised myself  i would create something out of it
 and despite the downfalls
 i followed those dreams 

the emptiness  echoed so loud 
that i fell in love  with designing sounds
 but a part of me  is still there  by the door  
waiting for someone 
to come home 

i was too young  to know betrayal  
the way i did 
some days i wish  i just got 
to be a kid
so i think it’s time  to return to her  
and seek out justice for all the times
 everyone pretended  they didn’t notice
i was getting hurt

the emptiness  echoed so loud 
that i fell in love  with designing sounds
 but a part of me  is still there  by the door  
waiting for someone 
to come home 

no one loved me hard enough
 for me to believe it 
i became an orchestra of longing
to be found— except no one ever did

so i tucked my thoughts  so deep within 
i woke up one day  and i was out of reach
it was different once i turned sixteen
and my wounds became  
displayed on my skin

the emptiness  echoed so loud 
that i fell in love  with designing sounds
 but a part of me  is still there  by the door  
waiting for someone 
to come home 

i murmur spells 
while the world sleeps
 i still got magic
growing inside of me

i murmur spells 
while the world sleeps
 i still got magic
growing inside of me

GRIMOIRE (Demo)

Lyrics:

my blood is cold, 
my mind is bright 
i’m a runway-walking
 warning sign

rocking my black dress,
 hell’s bells chime 
revenge tastes like power — 
now i’m beautifully malign

 i used to cry myself to sleep 
now i lick blood off knives 
(like it’s cherry lip gloss )

 i look so pretty when i bite 
i kissed God then left him behind 
your prayers won’t reach my high 
my female rage is undressed
 the whole earth shakes in fright 
tell me how does it feel to be
 deeply horrified?

 i sleep during the day
 and haunt men when it’s dark 
 feral wolf 
i’m more than just a bark
(mary jane laced with violet flames)

 i’m no longer that girl you contained
 sexualized and vandalized
 i’m the ending you deserved

 i look so pretty when i bite 
i kissed God then left him behind 
your prayers won’t reach my high 
my female rage is undressed
 the whole earth shakes in fright 
tell me how does it feel to be
 deeply horrified?

 tell me, how does it feel
 to have your fate in someone else’s hands? 
your dignity distilled
into venomous wine 
you made a monster 
isn’t she great?

 tell me, how does it feel
to press on your buttons 
 and collect poison in packs
 you covered me in wounds,
 but i eat my enemies like snacks

 i look so pretty when i bite 
i kissed God then left him behind 
your prayers won’t reach my high 
my female rage is undressed
 the whole earth shakes in fright 
tell me how does it feel to be
 deeply horrified?

(i look so pretty when i bite 
 strutted deadly through the night
i look so pretty when i bite)

PRETTY WHEN I BITE (Demo)

Lyrics:

i remember leaving 
quietly closed the door 
i didn’t say goodbye to you 
i was too tired out

i took all my journals
left most of my clothes
i couldn’t fit 6 years of my life
and drag them to the airport

we got married
somewhere in central park
i had dreamt of new york
for so long

but once i got there
it never felt like home
just my blood packed in a suitcase
for 11 months

if time heals pain
why does it still hurt the same? 

if time heals pain
why does it still hurt the same? 

i still like the sound of the rain
the way it clobbers the ground
and touches it just enough
to melt and spread around 

i recall our fire escape
and my old college town 
and the way you would burst into tears
while i was holding it down 

i left my friends and went to New York
i had no job, so i had no choice 
and i cried on the bus, flooded the floors
from beginning to end of the road

once i arrived, i wanted to go 
brooklyn was nice, but it wasn’t my home
6 roommates and i, smoking some dope
hotboxing the place, sliding the slope 

if time heals pain
why does it still hurt the same? 

if time heals pain
why does it still hurt the same? 

for those 2 years and a half 
something in me just shut down
surviving your fluctuations
like fall leaves tinged with brown

every winter
i died a little more 
and by the time summer arrived
i just didn’t care for the sun 

some parts of it were fun
like the smoke in my lungs 
but most days i just wanted to run 
undo the love that was already done 
my body was there, but my mind was gone
it wasn’t just you, we both did it wrong
‘cause you pulled the trigger, but i held the gun

if time heals pain
why does it still hurt the same? 

if time heals pain
why does it still hurt the same?

HOTBOX (Demo)

CHAINSMOKE (Final Final Demo)

Smoke & Mirrors

WELL IT IS HEAVEN  IN PARADISE
PASTIS AT SEVEN EN TERRASSE
AN ANGEL IS PASSING SUR LE TROTTOIR D’EN FACE
LIFE WAS A BLESSING IN DISGUISE

YOU’VE COME A LONG WAY
IT’S BEEN A LONG DAY
NOW YOU’RE IN HEAVEN IN PARADISE

HEY HAVE A MANGO IT’S ON THE HOUSE
DANCE A FANDANGO WITH MICKEY MOUSE
NEVER SAY NEVER DIEU EST DANS LA PLACE
SILENCE ET FERVEUR UN ANGE PASSE

YOU’VE COME A LONG WAY
IT’S BEEN A LONG DAY
NOW YOU’RE IN HEAVEN IN PARADISE

IT IS HEAVEN IN PARADISE
PASTIS AT SEVEN ABOVE THE STARS
NEVER SAY NEVER YOU NEVER KNOW
ALWAYS IS OVER YOU HAD TO GO 

YOU’VE COME A LONG WAY
IT’S BEEN A LONG DAY
NOW YOU’RE IN HEAVEN IN PARADISE

YOU HAD THE WORST YOU HAD THE BEST
AND NOW YOU GET ETERNAL REST
AT LAST
RELAX RELAX RELAX…

HEAVEN IN PARADISE (Lyrics)

      Hello everyone and thanks for stopping by and listening! This song I wrote back in 2013 and it was just another love song with my favorite color in it for my wonderful wife! Can anyone guess what my favorite color is? Blue is correct! I've written many songs with the color blue in the title like: "Blue, Blue"; "Somewhere In Blue"; "Heavrnly In Blue"; "Big Blue Tree",  ect, ect, well it goes on and on. It's jazzy and easy listening and with NO A.I. can you dig it? I think the inspiration for this one was me asking my lovely wife why she is seldom in blue, or something like that. This is another of my jazzy love songs with a Latin rhythm to it. Charlie sang it beautifully. This song was written in the tradition of "The Great American Songbook". You know, like Gershwin, Berlin, Porter used to write. Very old fashioned but I remember I added a Sitar to it to give it that dreamy sound and I think I used heavy echo on Charlie's vocal at some point in the song too! 

VIDEO - https://youtu.be/XxGVYr1urs4

      The video I put together last year at some point in time but can't recall too much about it, just a beautiful woman in a beautiful blue dress. It drops tomorrow on YouTube, be there or be square! Not too much audio or video effects in this one. After "Broken Mirrors" I think we needed a light fluffy little love song with my favorite color in it! One can't get too depressed, you know! Thanks again and take care!🙏😎✌🏼

“SELDOM IN BLUE”

TAKE THE STARDUST FROM THE SKY,    
TWINKLE IT AND SPRINKLE IT IN YOUR EYES,   
WHY IS IT I,     
SELDOM SEE YOU IN BLUE? 
     
WHEN YOU SMILED AT ME THAT WAY,     
SPARKLING SAPPHIRE AND OCEAN SPRAY,     
WHY IS IT I,   
SELDOM SEE YOU IN BLUE?   

COOL AS A SOOTHING SUMMER RAIN,        
OR A HAUNTING REFRAIN,         
A CRYSTAL MIST FROM HEAVEN,           
YOU ENVELOPE ME IN BLUE, 
                  
STRANGE WHENEVER I’M WITH YOU,  
MY GREY WORLD TAKES ON A DIFFERENT HUE,    
WHY IS IT I,   
SELDOM SEE YOU IN BLUE?    
PLEASE TELL ME WHY,   
ARE YOU SELDOM IN BLUE,
IN BLUE,     
IN BLUE,    
WHY ARE YOU SELDOM IN BLUE?     
             
BY JIM VALDES
 © 2013

"SELDOM IN BLUE" (VIDEO - https://youtu.be/XxGVYr1urs4)

Lumière du matin

💙 FRIDAY FEELINGS 💙

"Never Let Go" - A heartfelt Japanese ballad about love, hope, and never giving up

The scent after rain brings back memories of your smile. Even when we're apart, your voice keeps echoing in my heart. This is why I never let go.

This song captures the beauty of Japanese emotions through vivid seasonal imagery - from rainy afternoons to starlit nights. A tender love song about holding onto hope and the people we cherish.

🎵 Genre: J-Pop/J-Rock Ballad
💭 Theme: Love, Hope, Perseverance  
🌟 Vibe: Perfect for Friday night reflection

LYRICS:

雨上がりの匂いが
君の笑い声を思い出させた
曇った窓に描いた丸は
すぐに滲んで消えたけど

踏切の向こう　青く光る信号
渡れないまま　風が先に行った
置き去りにしたはずの夢が
背中を押すみたいに鳴り続けていた

迷い続けた足跡は
間違いじゃなかったって
君が言った気がした

僕が諦めない理由は
昨日の涙を無駄にしたくないから
君がくれた言葉が
まだ僕を呼んでいるから
倒れてもまた立ち上がるよ
この手が届くまで

夜の隅で見上げた星は
手のひらほどの小さな光
だけど確かにそこにいて
僕の闇を少しだけ削った

誰も気づかない声でも
君には届く気がして
空に投げた

僕が諦めない理由は
君が信じてくれた日々のため
ひとりじゃないと思えた
その瞬間が僕を動かす
どんな風が吹いても
消えない火を抱えて

もしもすべてを失くしても
胸の奥に灯る光が
僕を君のもとへ導くから
歩き続ける

僕が諦めない理由は
まだ見ぬ未来で君と笑うため
痛みも不安も越えて
その笑顔に辿り着くため
倒れてもまた立ち上がるよ
この手が届くまで

ENGLISH TRANSLATION:

The scent after rain
Reminded me of your laughter
A circle drawn on the clouded window
Quickly blurred and disappeared

Beyond the railroad crossing, a blue traffic light
While I couldn't cross, the wind went ahead
The dreams I thought I left behind
Kept ringing as if pushing my back

The footprints of my wandering
Weren't mistakes after all
I felt like you said that to me

The reason I don't give up
Is because I don't want to waste yesterday's tears
The words you gave me
Are still calling out to me
Even if I fall, I'll stand up again
Until this hand reaches you

The star I looked up at in the corner of night
Was a small light the size of my palm
But it was surely there
Cutting away a bit of my darkness

Even a voice no one notices
I felt could reach you
So I threw it to the sky

The reason I don't give up
Is for the days you believed in me
The moment I felt I wasn't alone
That moment moves me forward
No matter what wind blows
I hold an unextinguishable fire

Even if I lose everything
The light glowing deep in my chest
Will guide me back to you
So I keep walking

The reason I don't give up
Is to laugh with you in the unseen future
Beyond pain and anxiety
To reach that smile of yours
Even if I fall, I'll stand up again
Until this hand reaches you

---
🎧 Perfect for your Friday night playlist
💫 Share if this touches your heart
🌸 Experience Japanese pop-rock with English understanding

#FridayVibes #JapaneseMusic #NeverLetGo

Never Let Go

Lyrics: 

The American dream was more like a nightmare, 
But it kept calling, so I gave it a shot. 
At first it was hard, then it got harder

I’m an island girl born from the ocean, 
But I heard a buzz and it never stopped.
 The loudest city made me go quiet

I didn't always have a bed to lay in
so i had to choose between a home and my dreams

I can still hear the sirens when I close my eyes, 
I left the ocean for that concrete jungle life.
 I gave it my youth, my pride, my blood, my time
Now I’m back home, but the ghost of New York  still
haunts me sometimes.

I met a girl and everything changed
Not for the better, but for the worse. 
She was extroverted and colorful, 
Showed me love could be a curse.

We shared a room, eventually got married
But I felt trapped like a coffin in a hearse. 
I pretended to be happy
 Just to be strong enough for her.

I felt clipped inside, my smile was a lie
 ‘Cause as soon as she’d go to bed, I wouldn’t stop crying.

I can still hear the sirens when I close my eyes, 
I left the ocean for that concrete jungle life.
 I gave it my youth, my pride, my blood, my time
Now I’m back home, but the ghost of New York  still
haunts me sometimes.

we moved to Pennsylvania to afford the rent
then she stopped taking her meds
by the time she crashed her car, our life was a wreck
and i didn’t have much stamina left 

for as long as i could, i stayed
i laughed at her jokes even on my saddest days
but at some point i had a hard decision to make
do i keep pretending or do i get on a plane?

so i found myself again with nowhere to go, 
no money, and in love with a broken soul 
and i still feel guilty for leaving her behind, 
I feel guilty i couldn’t cure her mind

I can still hear the sirens when I close my eyes, 
I left the ocean for that concrete jungle life.
 I gave it my youth, my pride, my blood, my time
Now I’m back home, but the ghost of New York  still
haunts me sometimes.

I can still hear the sirens when I close my eyes, 
I left the ocean for that concrete jungle life.
 I gave it my youth, my pride, my blood, my time
Now I’m back home, but the ghost of New York  still
haunts me sometimes.

Now I’m back home, but the ghost of New York  still
haunts me sometimes.

THE GHOST OF NEW YORK (Demo)

Dollar Bill from the screaming trees.  RIP “Dark” Mark Lanegan

Dollar Bill $🌞$

Frozen Brain

(Music: Hans-Michael Albers, Lyrics: Terry Reeves)
Terry Reeves:  Vocals
Hans-Michael Albers: All instruments, Arrangement & Production

Today, 22nd. August 2025, marks 13 years since our dear brother Bri succumbed to the deadly combination of leukaemia and Guillain-Barré syndrome.  Watching him through 2012, unable to do anything for himself and increasingly confined to a hospital bed is something none who loved him will ever forget.  
He has never been (and never will be) forgotten, not only for the music he created but for the force of nature he most certainly was.  In 1964, our Mum & Dad bought him an entry level acoustic guitar as a Christmas present and his progress on the instrument was something to behold.  By the time he was 18, he’d bought himself a Gibson Les Paul on HP (24 payments of five pounds and thirteen shillings per month) from Selmers in Charing Cross Road, London.  He joined a band, somehow co-opting me in as lead singer at the tender age of 15 (still a schoolboy, no less) and over the ensuing ten years, formed bands of whose line-up I was always a part, graduating from singing to percussion and eventually drums.
There being guitars laying around the family home, Tel took to playing and encouraged by Bri, never stopped.  Fast forward another five years and he too started writing songs so that by ’82, the 3 of us decided to form a band (Root Division) to play them.  It’s a truly special thing to be in the same band as your brothers and recording those songs became something Tel and me still remember with an abiding nostalgia.  No wonder we still talk about those days…
This song started life as an instrumental, written by Hans and of course, it’s brilliant as is but Tel liked it so much, he asked if he could write some lyrics and a vocal melody.  Being a generous fellow, our dear friend from Hamburg said he’d love to hear what Tel had in mind.
His basic idea was to incorporate as many references as he could to Cripple Club tracks, in celebration of the firm friendship we have formed in together recording what amounts to over 50 songs.  There may be a few of you who can spot one or two…
So this is for you, Bri.  We love and miss you, sweet brother.
(Gary Reeves)

Last Summer day reasons
Hamburg always shines
Shadows of Superheroes
Another surprise will come in time
Click toward a pension
From birth but never knew
Surprised to find a blackbird
In the flames as the music grew

Touch wood for satisfaction
CC music every day
Root of strong existence 
Step off the world to feed the phrase
Another Titan message
Titanic stories past
Image of a fraying edge
Never thought hang of time would last

It’s the time, it’s the place
It’s the only performance I can show my face

Last chance for singing
Avoid resistant tide
Pleasing distant garage
Remember 4 to 3 to 5
Stars in space that linger
Soaking up the blue
Palette of sunshine yellow
Mix to green for go - but for who?

T,G & H, Two and you!

LAST SUMMER'S DAY BLUES - CRIPPLE CLUB

Un proyecto con cierto tiempo que he limpiado y reinventado. Sonidos orquestales y cinemáticos para crear un ambiente especial.
He utilizado, sobre todo, librerias clásicas en Kontakt 8. Así como otro plugin. Para batería: Groove Agent. 
DAW: Cubase 14 Pro.
PLUGIN DE MASTERING: Ozone 11 Standard.


THE GHOST OF NEW YORK (Demo)

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