Capicú (Ft. Erb Dean)

rlly experimental icl
prod februxry
composed by me

tyt [februxry]

200 My Dash - Uzi

Get Paid [Prod. By Shawn Tha Dawn]

all black

i know what it could be so i hate what it is
prod. andyr

stay

Give Me A Reason (Prod. Pnkblnkt)

#SadderDayFreestyle | Week 1

Lyrics:

(Interview clip)

I’m so close to a different life, 
But so far from where I wanna be, 
Maybe because I am not giving all of me 
I offer apologies, 
For thinking I could leave this awfully- 
addictive art of spittin these songs
sitting here solemnly, 
Thinking back to autumn leaves and drawing parallels- 
of how the whole world witnessed the FALL of me, 
My talent was startling- 
When I had first started out, 
Mama called me *Pookie,  thats why the music “calling me”* 
no longer a new jack, 
But I’m still plugging audibly, 
used to be haphazard-
Now I act half heartedly, 
Lost that part of me (that was) genuinely driven in rap artistry
It’s been really missing and that’s hard on me.
All the happiness I spread is a lie, 
I could look in ya face a smile and still be ready to cry,
Every second I sigh, living hell, ready to fry 
every time I laugh I am really ready to die! 

(Biggie outro)

Ready 2 Die #SadderDayFreestyle | Prod. ThatKidGoran

#SadderDayFreestyle | Week 2 

Lyrics: 

(Movie clip intro) 

If I was honest, I would say I just want em to understand,
Exactly who I am, I ain't iron, I'm just a man, 
Addicted to lying, saying I'm alright while I stand watching everything that matters disintegrate in my hands ,
Innovative but damn, seems I'm more of a  coward, 
Anxiety towers, 
And I forget that I'm in power ...

My potential has soured 
My intentions were good-
I guess I have been devoured 
By what I misunderstood,
My thoughts are a flood, 

Washing the love away, with mud that stains the walls 
never understate, 
It's clear to me that none escape the jaws- 
-of the-
 Beast within me that seeks anything that could-
Bring me happiness, and shatters it, 
Leaving nothing but blood, 
Why do I devolve to sabotage?
Why do I have to horde a catalog that could bring me everything I could ever want ?
Why am I stuck climbing this Everest, forever numb, 
Missing the present wishing for moments back  that'll never come,

Apparently I need some therapy, 

I need to breed an heir, so they can breathe some air in me, 

I need a reason, cuz currently it ain't there for me..

If I don't care about nothing who TF gonna care for me? 

I remember them days, living so sparingly, 

Taking showers and starting to cry hysterically… 

Thoughts of perishing, no family to bury me… 

Empty funeral, no pallbearers to carry me… 

HOOK:
When the day still feels the night, 
Lost in the fray, too afraid of the light, 
Everything gray, 
Never pray, never fight, 
I guess I just gave up saving my life.

The Coward. #SadderDayFreestyle | Prod. Syndrome

#SadderDayFreestyle WEEK 3 


Lyrics:

I keep pushing you away, 
I don’t want you to see that- 
When you’re next to me that I need that 
I keep pushing away, 
and idk why, idk why 

>>
 I keep pushing you away, 
Although I’m feeling the opposite, 
Idk what I get out of it 
Love is a thing I cannot admit- 
(Why does it kill me to say….)
that I want you more than anything….
Maybe a part of my issue is, 
I don’t think I deserve anything, 
>>

So I think I keep pushing you away, 
Tho I  want you to see that- 
When you’re next to me that I need that 
I keep pushing away, 
And idk why, idk why 
>>
Bridges burn 
Faces pass  
Things decay, 
Nothings made to last, 
hearts can break, and I’m made of glass-
I don’t wanna die alone, 

>>
Why do I push you away 

How do I begin to tell you that I’m scared?
I never let myself feel love, 
So it’s odd when I see you right there,
like, damn- 
-can’t even breathe right when you’re not here- 
 I need you like air,
I need you like-
All the times that you needed me around- 
-and I flaked cuz I knew I might care, 
then I threw a light jab- 
Like,
“Girl, why you tripping?
Calm down, shit, it’s not a big deal!”
But I need to get real, 
I’ve got wounds, 
If I let you get through 
Maybe then they might heal, 
I make you think you’ve got close, 
Then I reveal-
Every step that you made 
Is another lightyear-
In the opposite direction, 
I wanna make your tears stop- 
But I don’t think  I know how to give affection…. 

( I keep pushing you away) 

But I think now I get the message 
The cushion I make for protection,
is now an empty bed that I rest in, 
You give me more than investment-
Why do I seem to give you so much less than? 
my biggest fear is what if this-
is what I needed to get and I missed it… 

>>
Cuz I’m pushing you away…
When  I  want you to see that- 
When you’re next to me that I need that 
I keep pushing away, 
And idk why, idk why 

Bridges burn 
Faces pass  
Things decay, 
Nothings made to last, 
hearts can break, and I’m made of glass-

I don’t wanna die alone

Pushing You Away #SadderDayFreestyle | Prod. Caspr + Saint Tomorrow

#SadderDayFreestyle | Week 4 

Lyrics:

You can live whatever life you wanna live, 
stack ya money to the sky, 
You can’t take it when you die, 
just remember not to lie to what reflects- 
In the mirror, cuz ya eyes show the proof, 
You can’t hide from the truth… 

<<VERSE:
I know what’s up… 
I overthink-  and that slows me up, 
I got low esteem, and that holds me up- 
When they asking me when I’m blowing up 
I’m like “mmmmmm”
I don’t think I’m dope enough, 
Need more time to make colder stuff- 
....just need more time, 
In my mind, I’m like “I’m old af” 
So bruh, if I make it, then I know it’s luck, 
It’s like why can’t I see what they say-
Everyone tells me I’m great, 
I got a gift, 
But I can’t seem to be present, 
I’m stuck with depression 
The pressure is telling me quit, 
Don’t really have any friends…
Close enough to me that I would be willing to vent- 
To, 
So I make music for you, 
This is the shit I admit, 

When I cry nobody knows
I can’t say how many times I considered suicide, 
But then that would mean that I would die alone…
And I don’t wanna die…
I don’t wanna die…. 

>>HOOK:
You can live whatever life you wanna live, 
Do what you need to to find
Your reason to be alive, 
just remember not to hide from what it is- 
That truly makes us you and I
You can make it if you try… 

You can live whatever life you wanna live, 
stack ya money to the sky, 
You can’t take it when you die, 
just remember not to lie to what reflects- 
In the mirror, cuz ya eyes show the proof, 
You can’t hide from the truth… 



<<VERSE:

I told to clock to wait on me… 
I’m up, I’m back, got ta  get this weight off me, 
If you out, there listening-
Just say a prayer for me… 
Cuz I need, 
All the love anyone can rain on me… 
Can’t keep this pain on me
((I must be honest with me, to be honest with you
and Honestly I do got something to prove, 
Mama and papa did not raise a fool- 
So why not make dollars from what I can do?


>>HOOK:
You can live whatever life you wanna live, 
Do what you need to to find
Your reason to be alive, 
just remember not to hide from what it is- 
That truly makes us you and I
You can make it if you try… 

You can live whatever life you wanna live, 
stack ya money to the sky, 
You can’t take it when you die, 
just remember not to lie to what reflects- 
In the mirror, cuz ya eyes show the proof, 
You can’t hide from the truth…

The Underachiever #SadderDayFreestyle | Prod. Young Taylor

Taaj Alon