broken 💔 by the way

follow my girlfriend @novagarden

TRECH:
in my suicide note i wrote
that if any motherfuckers want smoke
id choke 
i stay fucked up
i’m so hung up
on the fact i ain’t shit
but a fuck up
all my friends have overdosed
even though i ain’t there yet, bitch i’m close
in the meantime
i’ll stay locked in my room 
away from sunshine

take cover in a substance
i hate the taste
down it like its nothin’
how many hits can i lick before i tap out?
how many
drinks can i sip before i black out?
imma test my limit for the last time
please stay with me on the hotline
i’ll call u back when i feel alright
but tomorrow never comes
a life is finite

NOVA:
i can’t stop takin’ hella pills
but im not addicted 
i just do it for the thrill
acid tabs sitting on my tongue
but don’t worry ‘bout a thing
i just do it for fun
glassed eyes in the mirror
lookin’ at myself
thinkin’ ‘bout why the fuck i do this to my health
paranoia got me grabbin’ shrooms off my shelf
try to stop me
i cant let you bitch
so go to hell

TRECH:
i feel nothin’
to feel somethin’
but im a fucking slave to the chemicals
ive been 
straight huffin’
i wake up in panic attacks from my dreams so
take my mind away
my eyes fell down the drain
these tear drops act as rain
try to flush away rinse away my pain

shards of glass

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shards of glass (feat. nova garden)

prod. me x @hiraethsry

And I will love you 'til I'm broken by the weight
Of everything I've ever wanted and how it all has your name
I am trying, I am shaking, I am crying, I am breaking
Every second, every minute, I'm so tired, why's it raining
Baby, kiss me just to kiss me, not to take me home tomorrow
I am drunk and I am bleeding in your apartment, in the shadow
Of what we were when we were young
And you don't remember my name
And I'm so sorry, and I'm so sorry

And when I'm leaving, I'll pretend like I don't give a damn
But it's been four years, I just wanna hold your hand
It's been four years, don't know who I fucking am
Oh, oh
And when you're begging me to stay, I'll never listen
I guess it takes four years to know the difference
You knew me better than anyone and you hated me
So how the fuck am I supposed to love myself

And I will love you 'til I'm broken by the weight
Of everything I've ever wanted and how it all has your name
I am trying, I am shaking, I am crying, I am breaking
Every second, every minute, I'm so tired, why's it raining

I am drunk and I am bleeding in your apartment, in the shadow
Of what we were when we were young
And you don't remember my name
And I'm so sorry, and I'm so sorry

YOUDONTREMEMBERMYNAME

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i know i’m always overthinking, love 
but what can be done?
i was sedated when you broke my trust
you say it’s my condition and- 
but i don’t give a fuck
these constant comparisons turn me to dust
so tell me all about him
do you laugh hard when around him?
do these shackles that i’m bound in make you think that i’m not enough? 
im pathetic
but you wouldn’t get it
that's tough
it’s AvPD but i blame it on luck

can’t take drugs cause anxiety kills me
go smoke spliffs with your friends 
envy fills me
i am sorry for how i am ugly
in your shadow i sulk
i’m nobody
i self isolate for days 
now i cant get out of bed without crying
draining all my veins out is the way i talk to the reaper without dying

i know i’m always overthinking, love 
but what can be done?
i was sedated when you broke my trust
you say it’s my condition and- 
but i don’t give a fuck
these constant comparisons turn me to dust
so tell me all about him
do you laugh hard when around him?
do these shackles that i’m bound in make you think that i’m not enough? 
im pathetic
but you wouldn’t get it
that's tough
it’s AvPD but i blame it on luck

medical exam fetishist

ly caspy <33

lyrics:

waking up the same as u left me
pillies to the brain, i got plenty
tell me run away in the bentley
take away the pain that u fed me

im in the function
n i cannot function 
lung combusting
repercussion
u on sum fuck shit
playing me, percussion
~death wish~
blood gon drip my neck like issa necklace
name on top my wrist, look like a setlist
wake up, bake the bowl, this shit not even breakfast
eating breakfast
i be on my dread shit
blood gon drip my neck like issa necklace
name on top my wrist, look like my setlist

{casperrr}
i tried to run
but i an't fast
tried to fight 
but i knew i wouldn't last
these feelings
kicked my ass
but there's no way
i am ever going back 
wake up
drag myself outta bed again
face up
tryna face my oldest fucking friend
sadness
i think this is the end
timeless
im afraid i have no time left 

putting all my songs on her playlist
goth bitch
stare me in me eyes and
she looks flawless
falling 
deep into a faucet
i ain't notice
wore my heart on my sleeve
until you came and u broke it

{shizukesa + casperrr}
waking up the same as u left me
pillies to the brain, i got plenty
tell me run away in the bentley
take away the pain that u fed me

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death_wish w/ casperrr (yung rospo)

Born to Die (Interlude)

lyrics:

 im being paranoid
Girl can u reassure me
That I am real as well
And I haven’t been here before
Cause im getting paranoid
Maybe just try to hurt me
Bring me to earth again
Pull me up from hell

Late deploy
Im in the trees again
But its the real thing this time
I cannot try again
They hold a vantage point
They hit my closest friend
And They would have hit my heart too
If I had forgot the vest
But When we die
Where does the conscience go
Like if I were to die too
Would i return to home
Like Would I be wrapped in peace
And Would I be next to you
And Would u be something to see
Or could I touch you too my baby
I think my favourite night 
Is The kind that’s meant to fade
The ones we take for granted now
The ones that slip away
I pray tomorrows good enough to be a yesterday
Cause half the faces I remember never look the same

 im being paranoid
Girl can u reassure me
That I am real as well
And I haven’t been here before
Cause im getting paranoid
Maybe just try to hurt me
Bring me to earth again
Pull me up from hell
 im being paranoid
Girl can u reassure me
That I am real as well
And I haven’t been here before
Cause im getting paranoid
Maybe just try to hurt me
Bring me to earth again
Pull me up from hell

Its Quiet , Too Quiet (eric Godlow)

lyrics:

you separate me from the rest
in my crematorium
i feel the burning in my chest
im still awake

but why the fuck am i still trippin up on time?
i panic on a dime
cuz my existence is terminal
driving edge of knives into my skin
im fine
you wont believe my lies
yea
yea
i wish i wasn’t discernible

i tried to drown my brain in Everclear until the damage that appeared finally killed me
i used to push the limits i was given ‘til they broke, and that decision came back to haunt me
i signed my own death warrant, my application
you be the judge, and i’ll be deprivation
abused my lungs from toxic inhalation 
need peace of mind, don’t need your medication

clotting; my blood
evolving; i’m not 
resolving; no thoughts
yea
yea
i feel invisible

so why the fuck am i still trippin up on time?
i panic on a dime
cuz my existence is terminal
driving edge of knives into my skin
im fine
you wont believe my lies
yea
yea
i wish i wasn’t discernible

Molotov Cocktail

molotov cocktail

single off of my debut album "home away from home" (track 5)
shoutout to @xona for featuring on the track :)
produced by: azure & aidanhan
special shoutouts to @bitekivibes for being the goat too

LYRICS:
murph:

i walk out in the forest
but quickly i lose the light 
and my skin turns to mould
and the birds start to fly
i thought that i was safe, in my home away from home
but as i saw the creatures running i simply do not know

s.o.s, please save our souls
i might not make it back, barricade the door
s.o.s, please save our souls
frostbite all over me im stuck out in the cold

and now you're looking at me must've came back as a ghost
i love the way there's blood splattered all over the walls
can we find a way to give me pain, 'cause i need me some more
she put diamonds on her pinky ring, i love it when she flaunts

s.o.s, please save our souls
i might not make it back, barricade the door
s.o.s, please save our souls
frostbite all over me im stuck out in the cold

xona:

i'll decide what i do now - i'm reeling in "ours"
uh, leaving the pits that i found myself
(myself)
you desired my help
but i'm sick of words when its just pure guilt
so it's on me, awfully killing my health
i'm sorry i reached this point myself
the story goes on, to build a home
where we stay safe from the cold

murph:

s.o.s, please save our souls
i might not make it back, barricade the door
s.o.s, please save our souls
frostbite all over me im stuck out in the cold
(s.o.s)
s.o.s, please save our souls
i might not make it back, barricade the door
s.o.s, please save our souls
frostbite all over me im stuck out in the cold

- if u reached the bottom have a good day/night 333+ -

s.o.s w/ xona

lyrics:

Memories I thought would last me forever
I hit back around not returned by the tether
I miss how we thought of vows in September
I hold only me thru these lonely Decembers
I thought u told me its us through whatever
But I guess its left me inside stormy weather 
I see ur face every time I feel better
Years from now ill still be sending letters
Like hi wait I know
That were not as close
As we once had been
But I guess it happens
This falling snow
Reminds me of home
Its quite the fight
But id die for it
~~
:Eric: -I love u brother ..""
~ Though Rust deformed me
she still sees me as her own
While Flames surround me
I see this could not be a home
These stage lights blind me
And they place me back in our throws
But still im fighting
To save this us we had known 
Like hi wait I know
That were not as close
As we once had been
But I guess it happens
This falling snow
Reminds me of home
Its quite the fight
But id die for it

tThe last page of tThe worst book you'v e ever read. (eric godlow)

MARK

Desensitized

heart defect (feat Corbin)(prod letmode @spookyblack and BobbyRaps)

prod. https://soundcloud.com/tothegood

https://youtu.be/zKJHrOSRpQA


i'm searching for something it never compare
it's not really worth it
it's never the same
again and again in my head i'm a waste
i can hear what you said on that night clear as day

i broke every promise i made to myself
i severed my word but it's all for the best
i don't show any love cause they all were in bed
they were snoring so loud never heard what i said
and i swear to god if i ever am clean
i'll end up with nothing to love i'm a fiend
i'm a loner i'm toxic without much esteem
i could end up with no one not hard to believe

tell me what you want from me
i could be your anything if you'd let me
resent me 
blame for the things 
that we both had agreed 
were results we'd accepted
i don't wanna talk that long
let me get off the phone now
yelling at me i'm so wrong
i ain't really yours no more
doing better on my own
i don't gotta watch my tongue 
no
i don't really want no smoke
got enough for myself
yeah

baby do you love me
said i'm sorry
i'm being honest
need you with me always
i never call
you're hanging out with empty hallways
and now i'm never home i got the ends i wanna go make
wanna find a way to say this
i don't really know what to do
i ain't ever been so impatient
find a way to get over you
had a feeling i'd fuck it all up
knew it all would go down
didn't know i would fall into love
and it'd go in the ground
no

i would kill for the chance to go back and replay
but i'm better i swear
i can learn from mistakes
i'm searching for something it never compare
it's not really worth it
it's never the same
i'm telling myself that you meant what you said 
can't believe what you did
and you act innocent
give it up 
you're the saddest excuse for a friend 
you were all that i had and you left me for dead


mix/master by me

Clear As Day (prod. tothegood)(VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION)

green limousine

over and over ill try again 
i hate being sober
the drugs are my friends
i guess im a poser
its all pretend
i hate when its over
but everything ends

i know im a loser baby oh
i cry when our songs on the radio
if u hate me can u just say so
youre my everything girl i cant say no
i feel like shit because i wanted to
and all i miss is the way u soothed
my emotions tell me its not true
till my face turns blue 
and my heart cant move

i wish that i was a nobody
what tastes like dirt once was oh so sweet
get lost in crowds take a walk with me
im so fucked up let my insides bleed
i lie awake thinking bout my dreams
i just cant take when u look at me
my soul it breaks because ur all i need
but u cant fix what is wrong with me

poser

this album is dedicated to my friend nez

produced by me

anxiety

lyrics:

and if i overdose

well then i hope you stay alive

cus money comes and goes

but what we just dont got is time

and u i love the most

u never stray from by my side

u are my only hope

im sorry that i ever lied

to you



and im yours

im yours

how can you be sure

be sure

my dear

im sure

im gonna be here for you

and in a hundered years

im gonna be cryin tears

cus u dont know my fears

and what i feels so unclear

overdose [prod. lil soda boi]

[+] blood on my bust down.
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skele - walk it out!! (+ wellfed)

https://youtu.be/m1gGo30jcew

2 scared 2 care april

prod. bobby raps and the roommates

Believe The Lie *video in description*

prod/mix/master/cover @trechorboy
feat. @trechorboy + @nicoteenninyo

TRECHOR BOY:
she said she never really cared about me
wasting my time maybe
fuck all that shit
hypocrite 
doesn’t even come close to the way i think of you 
can’t you see 
there's something wrong with me
incapable of love
im never good enough 
but
(X2)

turns out i really wanted this shit 
i had the confidence to make moves with it so 
i went and got my bag 
all i had 
was you
fast forward four years on the timeline 
i woke up and realized all the online shit won’t help
and i still hate myself 
fuck

NICOTEEN NINYO:
is he as warm as me, holdin u on a cold night?
does he say i love you cuz it just feels right?
yeah im gone and ur okay but maybe u wont be in a couple of days
listen to the words u say
does he make u smile like me?
cuz

i only say i love you when we break up
i only say i need u when we cant make up
ill only ever call if im drunk enough
to say the things i never said
tryin to force this new girl down my throat
but it just makes ur taste in my mouth worse
i wish i could say i believe u
i wish i could fucking hate you

~i wish i could fucking hate you
i wish i could fucking hate you~

~i wish i could love just like you
i wish i could love like you do~
(X2)

LOVE/HATE

trechor boy x nicoteen ninyo - LOVE/HATE

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broken 💔 by the way

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