Jenny you were my
Jenny you were my

You were short and sweet like our conversations
But threw up hands in ya litigations
I wish I knew more

You’re the reason I stepped in a church
Untied shoes and an untucked shirt
I never been here before

Ending things was odd
Cause I’m still in love with ya sister and talk to ya mom

Jenny you were my first
And you hurt the worst 
Jenny you were my first
And you hurt the worst

I was scared to see
what love could do to me
Jenny you were my first

Your sister cried when she saw my face
Jumped in my arms giving all of her weight I
I’ve never felt so alive

Yeah I don’t know what I’m supposed to do
Cause this is my first time letting go of you too
Wish I could turn back time

Ending things was odd
They say if I wanna see you again to get right with god

Jenny you were my first
And you hurt the worst 
Jenny you were my first
And you hurt the worst

I was scared to see
What love could do to me

Jenny you were my first

They all have their reasons
They say if I wanna see you again to go talk to jesus 

Jenny you were my first
And you hurt the worst 
Jenny you were my first
And you hurt the worst

I was scared to see
What love could do to me

Jenny you were my first

Jenny, u were my first

maybe god is vindictive and mean / LA / 2/10/21

I pick up with no caller ID
Just to have someone talking to me
These days I feel so alone
Dopamine hit from a ringtone
I pick up with no caller I

Watch the world through broken glass
Funny how the time don’t pass
Life is short days are long
(all these days are long)

Dinner’s done a healthy plate
Meal for one in the microwave
It’s still cold I read it wrong

Reread the times from the box in the trash can 
I know them by heart like the back of my own hand
Room feels still til I hear the beep 

I pick up with no caller ID
Just to have someone talking to me
These days I feel so alone 
Dopamine hit from a ringtone
I pick up with no caller I

Watch the world through blue light
It’s fire red and cold as ice
But I can choose what I see
(block out all of the sad)

Distract myself with video
Entertainment where ever I go
But I stay home no where to be

The sun is up then the moon is out
Time ain’t nothing but numbers to count
Room feels still till I hear the beep

I pick up with no caller ID
Just to have someone talking to me
These days I feel so alone 
Automated love through a phone
I pick up with no caller I

You keep on trying to steal all my info but I’d give it to you for free
Social security whatever you want as long as you’re talking to me
Please don’t hang up just yet oh wait did you forget my zip code state and city?
Stay on the line my cell service is fine I’m not breaking up are you with me?

No caller ID

Don’t hang up on me no caller ID
No problem with me no caller ID
Don’t hang up on me no caller ID
No problem with me no caller ID

no caller ID

a really good day, first one in a while / LA / 7/1/21

Beat ‘Em Up- taeg0crazy x W00Badass

I hate you I need you
I can’t stand to see you
Honey money

You start it you end it
You’re such a pretender
Honey money

I heard them say that you look average
They wanna doll you up in plastic
Men in suits say what you’re worth
Baby girl i know that hurts 

I wish that I could help I’d say you should come over
But I push you away anytime you get closer 
Just numbers on my phone why can’t I get the courage
To share you to my friends but then I get nervous

When will someone like you come my way again?
I hope you take your time

I hate you I need you
I can’t stand to see you
Honey money

You start it you end it
You’re such a pretender
Honey money

You love to make me feel so stupid
I wish I could know how you do it
Convince me that you’re so important 
My cries for help you just ignore them

But if I had my way I’d send you back to you came from
When you come around you tell me I am the insane one
You make me feel so nervous as if I am unworthy 
Putting me to work you always get my hands dirty

When will someone like you come my way again?
Cause I’m ready for you 

I hate you I need you
I can’t stand to see you
Honey money

You start it you end it
You’re such a pretender
Honey money

honey money

too tired to keep going on 3/18/21

I’ve found a new home under the bus
Self deprecation is my personal touch
My sky’s so gray and your grass is always greener
But you couldn’t tell with my sunny demeanor 
Put on your brave face go greet the day
Tuck all your worries and your sorrows away (tuck them back there)
Get your heart off your sleeve no one wants to see that (get em outta here)
Now could you be a good boy and go make em all laugh

I wish I did not
Wish I would quit
Wish I could stop completely hating myself 

I have a hard time taking pats on the back
Look where you’ve started kid and look where you’re at (I’m in the same place)
It all depends on exactly who you ask
but if you ask me I always hold myself back (let go)
Nothing I do could be good enough (nothing)
I’ve taken my faith and I’ve placed it in cuffs (lock him up now)
I’m a slave to my fear I’ll do anything he says 
He keeps me so safe I wanna live on the edge 

I can be whatever you want but you refuse to see
Between happy and sad if you focus on one it’s all you’ll ever have
It’s all you’ll ever have

I WISH I COULD STOP COMPLETELY HATING MYSELF

Everyone on here’s talking shit like they got nothing to do
I’m on here sucking so much dick like I’ve got nothing to lose

I can’t wait to write a song about fame and how I hate it
You can keep up watch me bitch and complain bout how my day went 
While I’m eating lunch inside of a plane I’m so damn jaded but I gotta know

Baby do you like me?
Ever so slightly?
Do you wanna follow every move that I make until your heart breaks?
Baby do you like me?

Maybe I’ll bleach my hair and do something you’ll probably hate
Maybe I’ll stress out in the mirror turning my hair gray
Maybe I’ll cut out all my carbs and you can watch me degrade
Maybe I’ll shame myself to skipping just a few meals a day

I can’t wait to write a song about fame and how I hate it
You can keep up watch me bitch and complain bout how my day went 
While I’m eating lunch inside of a plane I’m so damn jaded but I gotta know

Baby do you like me?
Ever so slightly?
Do you wanna follow every move that I make until your heart breaks?

Baby do you see me?
Do you wanna be me?
Do you wanna follow every word that I say so you can fight me?

Baby do you like me?

Baby do you like me should I do something different
Tell me what to do I just need your attention
Baby do you like me I can be more neutral
Tell me what to do I just need your approval

Baby do you like me should I do something different
Tell me what to do I wanna be your religion 
Baby do you like me I can be more neutral
Tell me what to do I just need your approval

Baby do you like me?
Ever so slightly?
Do you wanna follow every move that I make until your heart breaks?

Baby do you see me?
Do you wanna be me?
Do you wanna follow every move that I make so you can fight me?

Baby do you like me?

copyright ok, tyler forever u sluts

baby, do u like me? (please for the love of god just say yes)

i scream consistently, back to back, into the void
no return no copy, no nothing, not even the faintest noise
see the void has closed, all alone, my chance I must’ve missed it
because I'm forever missing, forever gone, forever needing one more single  minute
separated by everything, consumed by everything 
I become nostalgic of the good and the bad, the absence and the addition
so here I am again, at the top of my lungs reciting

short stories to tell yourself, when no one else will listen.