https://li.sten.to/lotus
ig: ripavah

welcome to my life
lyrics:
Lotus, I've been getting better let me show ya
Smash an empty bottle to the dome
I've been feeling like I've grown up
Better than ever cause I'm about to blow up

I've been in my feelings lately but I hate that shit
My situation yeah its dire but I played that shit
I've been feeling like I'm crazy on a tightrope
Reminiscing things that I'll achieve my rivals cant though

I'll say fuck her, sell out shows so she knows she's wrong
Make a million off a sound so I made this song
Yeah I know my fans are coming yeah its been so long
Manifest about the future cause I stayed so strong

Lotus, you know it
I've been on a tangent for a year but I ain't ever fucking show it
I just know my fame is close but I think I've been on the wrong path
Happiness and Adderall, the two things we should all have

You ain't shit yeah you a bitch
I'ma make a jump right to the top then i'ma clinch
Shitty ass artists sign to labels then they're gifted
Imagine what would happen if my music got the same thing

Fuck the poppin sound, and fuck to who's around
I'ma make a wave of other artists with my sound
I wont fix my problems if I don't aim for the ceiling
blacked out drunk, that's a shitty fucking feeling

Fuck you to the past, I'm glad it didn't last
I'ma speed to number one or I'll just fucking crash
I'm glad I'm fucking back just for a while I've had a barrier
Sprouted like a lotus I'll just shout out to my haters

Lotus is strong, lotus is fire
Lotus is weak, lotus is crying
I've been drowning lately listen here's a happy ending
Feeling like a boss, and I'm looking like a real king

Red eyes, feel low
So high, so low
Might cry, oh no
Lotus, blossom

I ain't succeed in a minute
Love this life forever bitch you know I'm not quitting
Avah feels on fire bitch you know that I am winning
Take over my life I wasn't happy where I'm headed, oh shit

I've been in my feelings lately but I hate that shit
My situation yeah its dire but I played that shit
I've been feeling like I'm crazy on a tightrope
Reminiscing things that I'll achieve my rivals cant though

I'll say fuck her, sell out shows so she knows she's wrong
Make a million off a sound so I made this song
Yeah I know my fans are coming yeah its been so long
Manifest about the future cause I stayed so strong

avah

lotus

other platforms

lotus (dercept x ayoley)

prescription pills

overthinking

prod slicky

@oldcollin

luv u niz

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/oldcollin/instigate
https://open.spotify.com/track/75TBDR2qvO0UOR8TNCa3ej?si=c0801757b7d74861/

picture taken by @luckiwitch on instagram

instigate (p slicky)

wrote a song about a weird world i created in my head lol.

lyrics

Just check in on your cell phone 
Youll be home by curfew 
We dont have that much time 
Should be getting dark soon 
You can raise a blind eye 
Tell em that its not you 
But they know 
Yeah they know 
Yeah they always know 

And the soldiers they march with their guns 
In a place that is harsh and its void of the sun 
Now your scared that you cant go outside 
So you run 
But theres nowhere to go
Yeah theres nowhere to go 

Just check in on your cell phone 
Youll be home by curfew 
We dont have that much time 
Should be getting dark soon 
You can raise a blind eye 
Tell em that its not you 
But they know 
Yeah they know 
Yeah they always know 

And im scared to say
That ive run out of options and theres no one to save me 
So wont you stay 
I just hope that you dont become one of the ones that blame me 

Yeah cuz right now im just confused wether i should turn the lights out
Or if i should keep on going its not nice out 
I dont like what i see
Wish that i could have a better world but that shit aint free

Yeah and now i wonder
What this world has come to
And every summer i just wanna know who you run to 

Whered you go 
I dont know 
Hope that they dont get you soon 
Had so many fucking dreams
Coulda took us to the moon
And now i know that your gone 
Fucking hate the month of june 
Thats the time that i lost you

Just check in on your cell phone 
Youll be home by curfew 
We dont have that much time 
Should be getting dark soon 
You can raise a blind eye 
Tell em that its not you 
But they know 
Yeah they know 
Yeah they always know

dystopia (johnnyfriend)

dominican fike

mastered by yaki

(will rhead ydkm evan sasha cybertrash)

hang tight w/ vaeo

needs & wants

prod: @anem0s
Mix & Master: Musa
Cover Art by Brandon Graser

see you insides 👁️

Lyrics

Chorus:
Go waste your time
Enjoy yourself 
Don’t get me wrong 
See you insides
I say you will
Open your eyes
You did me wrong 
adore you still
Keep that in mind 
Baby I lie
You know the deal
One thousand eyes 

—
Verse:

Am I vicious 
I couldn’t tell you no,
Talkin about it till I bit my tongue 
I swear that I’m kidding 
Baby I hate it how you’re just no fun 

But i think that I kinda like it when you cut me off 
Attention so undivided, kinda feels so wrong 
I don’t know where to hide, I think I might get lost 
I could see it was wrong
I can see it  
—-
Bridge:
Memorizing, perfect timing
And you look half dead half the time
Wanna drain you, replicate you 
Like machines do, perfect design

insides (prod.anem0s)

produced, mixed, and mastered by goodbyebrody

acoustics by the goat chrismarek

*lyrics*

(mochji)
never thought you’d go missing within these pages
my mind still running for miles, though it’s been ages
we haven’t talked in a while, lost in fixations

all i wanted was change
all you needed was space
these winter nights keep getting, colder now that you’re away
did i push you too far? was all of this a waste?
fine wine and cheap cigars, harder just to conversate

(brody)
we sit and talk for a second
treat words just like a weapon
i won't meet you in heaven
fucked up, im feeling threatened

all the, past time, white lies
i'm getting in my head

new love, time flies 
won't be the last of it

(tyler)
melted lungs from another fire
light another cigarette
cause we’re going down to the wire
if it’s conflict that you want
then it’s problems you’ll get
my house is burning down but i’ve never felt so content

i’m running out of options
toxic
she said that i lost it
take me off my life support
i don’t need fucking oxygen
i don’t wanna win
and in a minute i’ll be staring at my only friend
in the reflection of a mirror
warning signs been getting clearer
and the smoke seeps through the floor
i got 15 minute then u gotta go
cause this flowers still gonna bloom through the snow

(brody)
we sit and talk for a second
treat words just like a weapon
i won't meet you in heaven
fucked up, im feeling threatened

all the, past time, white lies
i'm getting in my head

new love, time flies 
won't be the last of it

flower w/ mochji, tyler serrani

conflicted out on all plats


featuring
@jaykim1 
produced by
@n7te

www.instagram.com/zivve17/

Conflicted w/ Jay Kim

i'm back

composition, instrumentation, production all by me and @brakence

[Verse 1]
brakence
It's oversaturated
Lock in adrenaline
I'm so detached and jaded
This shit'll spread me thin

Colliding With Mars
I'm unsteady
Bypassing a firewall
I think I'm running out of options
What I'd give to say I'm not involved
Whatever changes, I remain a target

brakence & Colliding With Mars
And they're telling me "boy, you just gotta let go"
But I just stick to the ceiling like mental velcro
Cause what I thought was an answer was just an echo
I did the deed but my spirit's still in the escrow

Colliding With Mars
El problema siempre es el dinero
Yo quiero sexo en exceso
I want to shed this
Constant, unvaried
Looping hell

[Chorus]
brakence & Colliding With Mars
Fucked up, no luck
I'm in a rut
Stuck, disgusted and I'm

[Verse 2]
Colliding With Mars
I never thought to try (go, go, go-go)
Something to kiss the sky (go, go, go-go)
I'm in a thought loop using dream logic
To solve a math equation in the dark
I'm in the dark
I can't find my way

brakence
You're not my enemy
And from my head to my heart
I just can't hold it back
In the cathedral, torn and imbibed
I'm begging for stretching hands
I had the faith you'll swim through the depths
And pull me from mud to land

Colliding With Mars
Requiem æternam dona ei
Domine, amén

[Chorus]
brakence & Colliding With Mars
Fucked up, no luck
I'm in a rut
Stuck, disgusted and I'm

Brightness of Vega (feat. brakence)

@oldcollin
human resources, music trillionaire