im at chipotle eating a bowl to this rn 👻

real

lyrics: 

look it’s 4am and she’s still outside 😬
she’s taking 2 more shots but she says she’s fine 🙂
she’s a crazy girl 
tryna have a crazy night ❗️ 
but it’s alright i’ll stay right by ur side ❤️
i gotta match that 
hit the L i pass that 😆
i just downed da bottle now i think i’m having flashbacks 🙈
she’s playing songs in the car 🚘 
that make her feel like she’s a star ⭐️ 
i know that she could do anything… 
she could go far 
she got da world in her hands 🌎 
she could do it she can 😎
i know she wanna go big 
but i’m not in her plans 😳
so i’m just holding her hand 🤝
and i tell her it’s fine 
i know this isn’t forever 
but i know we’re alright 😌

rouri404 

living like we only really got 1night2chill ❄️
no i never said much but it’s time2spill 😭
i feel , just wanna hold u down 2night 🙈
feel u by my side 2x 
living like we only really got 1night2chill ❄️
no i never said much but it’s time2spill 😭
i feel , just wanna hold u down 2night 🙈
feel u by my side 2x 

sevendsr 

i feel da pain in my chest 😫
and it gets hard everyday 
i look u right in the eyes 👀 
and know that u ain’t the same 😔✋🏾
and there’s no one to blame 
there’s no one to BLAAAMMeeeee 🤪 
the faults in my name ☹️ 
OH GOD the faults in my name 
5 shots down but i ain’t done yet 😈
there ain’t a single decision this night that i will regret 🤣
they want a glock in my head 🔫
they want a knife2myneck 😳
i knew that they never liked me i just didn’t know that u were next 🙃 
but what do i do when u won’t tell me the truth 
and i can’t find a reason just 2 focus on u 🥱
and when things just crumble 2 da ground 😮
and i just don’t want u around ☹️
and it’s 4 in the morning 
i can’t dream no 💭 
i can’t sleep 💤 
if u really cared about me 
u would set me free 🥲 
ik u like the madness 🙄 
makes u real happy just 2 bring me some havoc 🚨
imma keep running just 2 escape the blackness 
im cleaning the brush i think i’ll start a new canvas 
📋
new life ❗️
i think it’s good 4 me to start a brand new life ❗️
light me up a joint just so i could get a clear mine 🧠 
look in the mirror i think imma get my things right 
but i keep thinking baby what about that 1night …

rouri404 

living like we only really got 1night2chill ❄️
no i never said much but it’s time2spill 😭
i feel , just wanna hold u down 2night 🙈
feel u by my side 2x 
living like we only really got 1night2chill ❄️
no i never said much but it’s time2spill 😭
i feel , just wanna hold u down 2night 🙈
feel u by my side 2x

1night ft. rouri404 prod@michaelwarren x @tornno

prod me

i been taking melatonin just to get some rest
it rlly hurts me to see you like this
i cant even stand on my own 2 feet

im losing time
my body's weak 
thought you were mine
im so deceived 
want me to throw everything away
im out of patience and i cant take it all
im losing time
my body's weak 
thought you were mine
im so deceived 
want me to throw everything away
im out of patience and i cant take it all

everything you said 
went right over your head
i wont get up if you break me down again
you leave my messages on read
i think you're better with me dead
is this how u want everything to end
but i cant take anymore
im falling down on the floor
i hate these thoughts running thru my head
thought we were better as friends
you like to say its the end when
things haven't started
my heart cant take this damage
things went exactly how you planned it 
i dont know how i managed to stay alive this long

i been taking melatonin just to get some rest
it rlly hurts me to see you like this
i cant even stand on my own 2 feet

im losing time
my body's weak 
thought you were mine
im so deceived 
want me to throw everything away
im out of patience and i cant take it all
im losing time
my body's weak 
thought you were mine
im so deceived 
want me to throw everything away
im out of patience and i cant take it all

losingtime

fuck yew !
#Prince



lyrics:

V1: (sc0ttryan)
leave me on the sidewalk
tell me i should go home
fuck is that bout ;/
idek home
(when u took control, n i didnt know
when u took control, n i didnt know)
n i wish u dead or in jail
locked in a cell or
rotting in hell
i cldnt tell u
hope ur happy with him
i never win, oh
i never win
i never win

4cf:
I think we got some fucking problems
Lets start talking about it 
I heard some gossip in the wind 
So let’s get Toxic about it 
Stop tweeting that bullShit with yo friends
aii
Ain’t nobody impressed 
Shots all at my head 
Ain’t take no damage I-
2 weeks in, I might vanish 
Why You asking if I’m good 
Just after fucking me over
Cause I don’t settle, second chances
How bout that for disclosure?
Can’t give a fuck bout how you been 
Can’t give a fuck bout where you is
Can’t give no fucks about nothing baby
The state that I’m in 
And I don’t never fucking win
Im sick of falling in second 
I feel you crawling in my skin
I feel the burn in my senses 
I’m feeling-
I’m feeling everything at once
Like it’s penance 
I’m s-s-stuttering 
I’m hoping that ur getting the message 
Cause that’s some real shit 
I’m just invested in getting over 
The guilt trip
Bitch I lost myself in these verses
That’s just a field trip 
And I can’t fucking take it 
Im the loser again 
Fuck being patient
What I wanted doesn’t work in the end

v2: (sc0ttryan)
and shit is different when ur outside
staring at the barrel of a gun
n i do it for fun
i might do me 
you might do you
but just know
i see right through you
all those games and petty lies
i see right thru ur disguise

tsu:
i see right through your disguise
i see right through your facade
from all the shit we had im wishing that we never met
feeling shitty and im hoping for some bigger things
fed up up up with the lies that you told me
fuckin stuck, uh uh, i dont want u to hold me
moving on from all the things you said
and your texts that i’ve been leaving back on read
i might do me i might do you
but just know i see right thru u
all these games and petty lies
i see right thru ur disguise

outro: sc0ttryan

i think ur just like me, n thats whats pissing u off
i gotta million things to do n i dont wanna talk
n i see u doin better but i know thats it wrong
yea i know that its wrong
and thats whats pissing me off
and ur prolly gettin drunk while im writing this song
and its really fuckin funny that u were leading me on
but i
im over it now
im over it now!
ill never be a loser again :O

loser + 4cf, tsuyunoshi {delto}

luh boujee baby never been a fan of the rules

prod. nico horry

hello!
no one is available to take your call at this time
please leave a message after the tone
*beeeeep*

gotta ask myself if i'm really shocked
that u won't pick up the phone
i stg that u treat me like a dog
but u won't throw me a bone
(woof woof)

i feel like i'm outta my mind
cus i could give u what i got but u won't give me the time
ever-changing affirmations, i'm patient
but i been stuck inside my head
feel like i'm locked in a basement with no escape

if u want me to be honest
i don't think that it's fair
if i'm REALLY being honest
i don't think that u care at all
but u wear it all
u got designer on ur back
but u don't share at all
and i'm losin myself
because of who?
u, u, u, u

tell me how it's different
i got nothin to prove
the situation's never changing
and it's bc of u
n i'm dead real like a heart attack
zip me up in a prada bag
is it the money or the drugs
that's got u actin a fool
luh boujee baby 
never been a fan of the rules
paid my tab n i'm tryna go
in our house it don't feel like home

i don't want it anymore
maybe i should head straight for the door

maybe i should
call a cab n get outta the city
i been tryna make my mind
but idk if u wit me
take a couple different pills
i won't care if u forget me
but i've been losin peace of mind
n it's just starting to hit me, like

tell me how it's different
i got nothin to prove
the situation's never changing
and it's bc of u
n i'm dead real like a heart attack
zip me up in a prada bag
is it the money or the drugs
that's got u actin a fool
luh boujee baby 
never been a fan of the rules
paid my tab n i'm tryna go

spotify

heart attack (nico horry)

https://li.sten.to/lotus
ig: ripavah

welcome to my life
lyrics:
Lotus, I've been getting better let me show ya
Smash an empty bottle to the dome
I've been feeling like I've grown up
Better than ever cause I'm about to blow up

I've been in my feelings lately but I hate that shit
My situation yeah its dire but I played that shit
I've been feeling like I'm crazy on a tightrope
Reminiscing things that I'll achieve my rivals cant though

I'll say fuck her, sell out shows so she knows she's wrong
Make a million off a sound so I made this song
Yeah I know my fans are coming yeah its been so long
Manifest about the future cause I stayed so strong

Lotus, you know it
I've been on a tangent for a year but I ain't ever fucking show it
I just know my fame is close but I think I've been on the wrong path
Happiness and Adderall, the two things we should all have

You ain't shit yeah you a bitch
I'ma make a jump right to the top then i'ma clinch
Shitty ass artists sign to labels then they're gifted
Imagine what would happen if my music got the same thing

Fuck the poppin sound, and fuck to who's around
I'ma make a wave of other artists with my sound
I wont fix my problems if I don't aim for the ceiling
blacked out drunk, that's a shitty fucking feeling

Fuck you to the past, I'm glad it didn't last
I'ma speed to number one or I'll just fucking crash
I'm glad I'm fucking back just for a while I've had a barrier
Sprouted like a lotus I'll just shout out to my haters

Lotus is strong, lotus is fire
Lotus is weak, lotus is crying
I've been drowning lately listen here's a happy ending
Feeling like a boss, and I'm looking like a real king

Red eyes, feel low
So high, so low
Might cry, oh no
Lotus, blossom

I ain't succeed in a minute
Love this life forever bitch you know I'm not quitting
Avah feels on fire bitch you know that I am winning
Take over my life I wasn't happy where I'm headed, oh shit

I've been in my feelings lately but I hate that shit
My situation yeah its dire but I played that shit
I've been feeling like I'm crazy on a tightrope
Reminiscing things that I'll achieve my rivals cant though

I'll say fuck her, sell out shows so she knows she's wrong
Make a million off a sound so I made this song
Yeah I know my fans are coming yeah its been so long
Manifest about the future cause I stayed so strong

avah

lotus

other platforms

lotus (dercept x ayoley)

waste (p. slicky)

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/datboiryen/doing-2-much
lyrics

Only get this feeling when I’m touching you
Can’t tell if you give a fuck about it
Got so much love for you
I can’t tell if this the wrong time to bring this up but
I really miss the way your body feel
Your bestfriend told me I was the one that’s messing up
I know I like to play I guess I’m doing too much
Yeah I’ll be back soon
How the fuck do I make these songs
It’s all because of you
I’m taking these shots right to the face
So don’t get mad if I just pick up my phone tonight
And Ima do what it takes whatever makes me feel right
Wake up drunk, pissed as fuck
Like what the fuck is my life
Yeah I think it’s time
Like maybe if we touch a little, I’ll be fine

Like hold on, wait
I can’t tell if you’re serious bae
I’m on my way
Cuz you’ve been distant, not calling me lately
I’m feeling real sick to my stomach
Everyone walks when I’m running
I’m doing my best and it’s nothing
Somebody tell me why
This shit just keeps on happening to me
I wanna (fucking die)
Don’t fucking say that
I got that devil on my shoulder screaming
You better get payback
I’m about to get with all your friends
And do you dirty like you did to me
Wake me up when this shit ends
I don’t wanna pretend no more

This shit ain’t fun for a nigga like me
I almost slipped into the streets
All these bitches slimy
Ain’t nobody healing me
Nobody doing shit for free
I need to get these feelings off cuz you know that I

doing 2 much (p. typhoon)

wrote a song about a weird world i created in my head lol.

lyrics

Just check in on your cell phone 
Youll be home by curfew 
We dont have that much time 
Should be getting dark soon 
You can raise a blind eye 
Tell em that its not you 
But they know 
Yeah they know 
Yeah they always know 

And the soldiers they march with their guns 
In a place that is harsh and its void of the sun 
Now your scared that you cant go outside 
So you run 
But theres nowhere to go
Yeah theres nowhere to go 

Just check in on your cell phone 
Youll be home by curfew 
We dont have that much time 
Should be getting dark soon 
You can raise a blind eye 
Tell em that its not you 
But they know 
Yeah they know 
Yeah they always know 

And im scared to say
That ive run out of options and theres no one to save me 
So wont you stay 
I just hope that you dont become one of the ones that blame me 

Yeah cuz right now im just confused wether i should turn the lights out
Or if i should keep on going its not nice out 
I dont like what i see
Wish that i could have a better world but that shit aint free

Yeah and now i wonder
What this world has come to
And every summer i just wanna know who you run to 

Whered you go 
I dont know 
Hope that they dont get you soon 
Had so many fucking dreams
Coulda took us to the moon
And now i know that your gone 
Fucking hate the month of june 
Thats the time that i lost you

Just check in on your cell phone 
Youll be home by curfew 
We dont have that much time 
Should be getting dark soon 
You can raise a blind eye 
Tell em that its not you 
But they know 
Yeah they know 
Yeah they always know

dystopia (johnnyfriend)

dominican fike

mastered by yaki

(will rhead ydkm evan sasha cybertrash)

hang tight w/ vaeo

production by https://soundcloud.com/prod-plxce

:)

stream/buy

rest (plxce)

I feel like a freak (p.prodswitch + gualabeatz)

brb for a while, not ready to make my next project yet, the story isnt over.

my only message is don't sell your soul, take control of your own life avah fam :)

lotus (dercept x ayoley)

avah

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