linktr.ee/ripavah
enjoy <3
lyrics:

~

on my way to fixing mental health
and i cant find myself,cause im unfindable
its like, everyone i know says im getting better but 
im still struggling to get up out my bed i need

everyone around me's tryna leave me for fame
not noone in particular bitch im going insane
guess ill move on to the next, so get out of my lane
and every friend that i meet just seems to leave me in pain

im fucked up, in my god damn head
and if i keep this up, i might just end up dead
and im thinking bout the reasons where i needed to leave you
and i cant find them now, so theres no reason to see you

im a fighter, you're a liar
wouldn't pick you if it was even dire
i'm not really sure about the times
it took me even longer to realize

im a fuckin dissapointment ):
i think u can relate too
we're stuck here with the same view
we're not here with the same tools

out the current squad
in with the new gang
when im with my new friends
i never feel the same again

...

everyone around me's tryna leave me for fame
not noone in particular bitch im going insane
guess ill move on to the next, so get out of my lane
and every friend that i meet just seems to leave me in pain

im fucked up, in my god damn head
and if i keep this up, i might just end up dead
and im thinking bout the reasons where i needed to leave you
and i cant find them now, so theres no reason to see you

instagram

new friends again (taymxru)

li.sten.to/getoutmyhair
prod reesoo + xmichaelwarren


lyrics:~
im everything you wanted, hey is this not enough?
you love me for my actions, yeah you love me for touch
but that's really true, it's not exclusive to you
i hate you for yourself, you know i hate you for you

but im not

stuck inside my hatred where i can't read what's in my brain
i've been feeling funny i've been feeling all insane
trying to feed my problems, but i can't find myself
cause im still stuck in this hell, and it's real hard to tell

i hate to see you cry so just get out my hair
and i just guess that you're alright
guess that i'm not aware, it's like
cause i, don't know what's best for you

i don't care about your problems i don't care about your ex
it would be so kinda awkward if he went and got a text (it's like)
you ain't really love him so let's go and teach a lesson
beating up that fucker makes me feel so paralyzed then

and i hate, that you're not here
and i need, to see what's next

know that you're not, and i know that you're fake
and i've been losing friends to my own ways
i'm just bearing the past, reminiscing so fast
and i hate myself cause i'm still coming last

i hate to see you cry so just get out my hair
and i just guess that you're alright
guess that i'm not aware, it's like
cause i, don't know what's best for you

i don't care about your problems i don't care about your ex
it would be so kinda awkward if he went and got a text (it's like)
you ain't really love him so let's go and teach a lesson
beating up that fucker makes me feel so paralyzed then

get out my hair

other platforms

get out my hair (reesoo)

li.sten.to/spirit
enjoy <33
lyrics:

spirits flying high yeah you made it fucking hell
living out my life got no one to fucking tell
dont feel like myself yeah i didn't mean to yell
you know that i'm fine yeah i hope that you're not well

spirits flying high yeah you made it fucking hell
living out my life got no one to fucking tell
dont feel like myself yeah i didn't mean to yell
you know that i'm fine yeah i hope that you're not well

spirits lie, that's my vibe, am i right no
you're my light and i'm happy that we're all good
pack it up the cities done, come and see what we'll become
now im fixing all my issues that i didn't fucking cause, yeah

packing up my bags because i'm rad
fuck this cities fucking trash
yeah i got a lot of baggage
i dont know if you can, but i cant hide my spirit

spirits flying high yeah you made it fucking hell
living out my life got no one to fucking tell
dont feel like myself yeah i didn't mean to yell
you know that i'm fine yeah i hope that you're not well

spirits flying high yeah you made it fucking hell
living out my life got no one to fucking tell
dont feel like myself yeah i didn't mean to yell
you know that i'm fine yeah i hope that you're not well

spirit (siem spark)

li.sten.to/strawberryperfume
ig: @ripavah

Strawberry perfume, your scent, it makes me happy again
I know that you're wrong you don't need to pretend
Look past all my flaws never reaching the end
Perfect you're my all we ain't playing pretend

Run, till we knock 'em all over
Life's been good I've been looking for my clover
I can't live tomorrow if I'd stopped I'd be a loner
Thinking bout the past I ain't quitting till it's over

I've been tryna fix my shit, I'm just tryna make sense
Avoiding all the bad damn trips, I'm not tryna quit this
I'd be lying if I said I'm glad you're gone
Life feels so long when we can't play our songs

But time goes faster by my side
Tryna match all the feelings I love those highs
But I guess it pays off when we take our time
Writing bangers in the crib I'd love that life

I've been living life all alone
Waiting for you to call my phone, yeah
I'm just tryna live or I'll die
Couldn't find my phone cause I got too high

Strawberry perfume, your scent, it makes me happy again
I know that you're wrong you don't need to pretend
Look past all my flaws never reaching the end
Perfect you're my all we ain't playing pretend

Run, till we knock 'em all over
Life's been good I've been looking for my clover
I can't live tomorrow if I'd stopped I'd be a loner
Thinking bout the past I ain't quitting till it's over

I've been tryna fix my shit, I'm just tryna make sense
Avoiding all the bad damn trips, I'm not tryna quit this
I'd be lying if I said I'm glad you're gone
Life feels so long when we can't play our songs

strawberry perfume

strawberry perfume (siem spark + heyrick)

https://li.sten.to/dreamsss
ig: @ripavah

My dream is close
Murder and death she wrote
I read her like a book
Confront a bitch, she's shook

Go and take your mask off, show the real you
All your issues they're obvious, girl you're see through
I'm a prick and a bitch, and I'm screaming fuck you
All the times that we talked and I couldn't stand you
You fucked my dreams up, that's what it seems yuh
Drown away in your sorrows, you're such a screw up
Never once in your life would you ever show up
But one thing that I promise, I never loved ya

Take my soul, yeah it's tragedy
Hey but being with you, that was mad of me
But I'm not the worst
While I'm fighting all my struggles, you're all coming first
Cause you're my dream girl
Feeling so close to a dream world
This is just the beginning
No it's not the end

Go and take your mask off, show the real you
All your issues they're obvious, girl you're see through
I'm a prick and a bitch, and I'm screaming fuck you
All the times that we talked and I couldn't stand you
You fucked my dreams up, that's what it seems yuh
Drown away in your sorrows, you're such a screw up
Never once in your life would you ever show up
But one thing that I promise, I never loved ya

dreams

dreams (foy, ayoley & dynox)

https://li.sten.to/tonguetied
ig: ripavah

I know, unknown to you I'm a psycho
Hating my feelings, you might go
Leave all of your bullshit in the past now
Pull up to your block and you get gunned down

I hate confrontation cause I'm tongue tied
I just do whatever cause it feels right
Might just make a new wave do what I like
Fuck the stupid people who hate both sides

Not the one, not the one, no I'm not the one
Not the one, no I'm not the one
Yeah yeah yeah yeah

I'm depressed, and upset, it's a checklist
Thought about those times where we had shit
Now I got a one way ticket I'm a misfit
Do you think that you're worse you did that dumb shit

Now I'm feeling so tongue tied
I moved on to get the bag and change lives
All I want is for you to admit your lies
Hope when I die that someone can make time

All I want's a fucking real purpose
Locked up, tied up, in a cage it ain't worth it
Do you even comprehend this
I don't care if you do, cause I do, and I'm certain

I know, unknown to you I'm a psycho
Hating my feelings, you might go
Leave all of your bullshit in the past now
Pull up to your block and you get gunned down

I hate confrontation cause I'm tongue tied
I just do whatever cause it feels right
Might just make a new wave do what I like
Fuck the stupid people who hate both sides

tongue tied

tongue tied (prod. atmoz, sebvalum, shxde)

https://li.sten.to/lotus
ig: ripavah

welcome to my life
lyrics:
Lotus, I've been getting better let me show ya
Smash an empty bottle to the dome
I've been feeling like I've grown up
Better than ever cause I'm about to blow up

I've been in my feelings lately but I hate that shit
My situation yeah its dire but I played that shit
I've been feeling like I'm crazy on a tightrope
Reminiscing things that I'll achieve my rivals cant though

I'll say fuck her, sell out shows so she knows she's wrong
Make a million off a sound so I made this song
Yeah I know my fans are coming yeah its been so long
Manifest about the future cause I stayed so strong

Lotus, you know it
I've been on a tangent for a year but I ain't ever fucking show it
I just know my fame is close but I think I've been on the wrong path
Happiness and Adderall, the two things we should all have

You ain't shit yeah you a bitch
I'ma make a jump right to the top then i'ma clinch
Shitty ass artists sign to labels then they're gifted
Imagine what would happen if my music got the same thing

Fuck the poppin sound, and fuck to who's around
I'ma make a wave of other artists with my sound
I wont fix my problems if I don't aim for the ceiling
blacked out drunk, that's a shitty fucking feeling

Fuck you to the past, I'm glad it didn't last
I'ma speed to number one or I'll just fucking crash
I'm glad I'm fucking back just for a while I've had a barrier
Sprouted like a lotus I'll just shout out to my haters

Lotus is strong, lotus is fire
Lotus is weak, lotus is crying
I've been drowning lately listen here's a happy ending
Feeling like a boss, and I'm looking like a real king

Red eyes, feel low
So high, so low
Might cry, oh no
Lotus, blossom

I ain't succeed in a minute
Love this life forever bitch you know I'm not quitting
Avah feels on fire bitch you know that I am winning
Take over my life I wasn't happy where I'm headed, oh shit

I've been in my feelings lately but I hate that shit
My situation yeah its dire but I played that shit
I've been feeling like I'm crazy on a tightrope
Reminiscing things that I'll achieve my rivals cant though

I'll say fuck her, sell out shows so she knows she's wrong
Make a million off a sound so I made this song
Yeah I know my fans are coming yeah its been so long
Manifest about the future cause I stayed so strong

avah

lotus

lotus (dercept x ayoley)

li.sten.to/gladimoveru
ig: ripavah

lyrics:
I'm a mess up, pure disaster
She said she love me but I'm thinking she an actor
But now I'm better, cause I'm not with her
Everyday I woke up it's a pure disaster

She made my heart turn blue
You're hiding from the truth
I didn't know what to do
I'm glad I'm over you

Dropped out so I'd feel the fame, fucked up cause I hate your ways
Blacked out don't know what to say, fuck you hope you felt the shame
Bygones will be bygones but I never loved you anyway
Do you see what I became

I'm so messed up
I was lost in the fake love

Glad that I'm over you now
Every single time when you're name comes up, I'm fucked up, hate it when you're around
Caffeine fueled, I'm a fool I'm just tryna blow up maybe go a couple more rounds
Give me one second, just hear my sound, used to fuck up convos that made me drown

She made my heart turn blue
You're hiding from the truth
I didn't know what to do
I'm glad I'm over you

She made my heart turn blue
You're hiding from the truth
I didn't know what to do
I'm glad I'm over you

Dropped out so I'd feel the fame, fucked up cause I hate your ways
Blacked out don't know what to say, fuck you hope you felt the shame
Bygones will be bygones but I never loved you anyway
Do you see what I became

glad i'm over u

glad i'm over u (mcx)

li.sten.to/stillalive
@ripavah on instagram
@1avah on tiktok

this one has a hidden meaning behind it, enjoy

lyrics:
You don't get how I really feel
It's been about a year since it all felt real
Stuck inside my head with no second chance
I wanna go back where I know who I am

Staring up at the sky so bright
But I just hate when the sun goes down
There's so many stars, I can't bear to see them all
I can't wait for the day when they fall

And I need a doctor
And now I know it I am so sure
Cause now I've fallen in love with her
And now I see why I'll stay on earth

Still alive, I don't know what cured me I was hypnotized
I don't need to dream cause I can fantasize
Losing track of time
It's been about a year since I had lost my mind

Still alive, I don't know what cured me I was hypnotized
I don't need to dream cause I can fantasize
Losing track of time
It's been about a year since I had lost my mind

Patterns, in the grass in the sky
Good karma or bad karma, I'll just drop psychs till I die
Do you really feel what I'm saying, feel like there's a ghost in your eyes
How could it come this way, to a point where I lost my mind

Back then, I wouldn't have to feel this way
Alone inside my head, and I'm asking why, and I'm asking why

And I need a doctor
And now I know it I am so sure
Cause now I've fallen in love with her
And now I see why I'll stay on earth

Still alive, I don't know what cured me I was hypnotized
I don't need to dream cause I can fantasize
Losing track of time
It's been about a year since I had lost my mind

Still alive, I don't know what cured me I was hypnotized
I don't need to dream cause I can fantasize
Losing track of time
It's been about a year since I had lost my mind

still alive

still alive (cian x 80root x heyrick)

li.sten.to/stillalive
feat. @k4dn
@ripavah on instagram
@1avah on tiktok

one of my favs, much love to kaden so proud of how far you've came

lyrics:
Money can't buy happiness
But I'd rather drown in a blacked out Benz
I found the way, to solve the pain
But I'll just keep my secrets

Ima go and crash out, McLaren whip windows tinted
And ima spaz out, bitch is so pretty she's limited
On the lookout, we catch an opp then they're finished
And ima pass out, ain't made a hit in a minute

Crash, I ain't really say shit back then, cause my heart it was made of glass
Now it's burned to ash, staring at the cars on the overpass
You say that it doesn't matter at all
But I'd pick you over myself, myself, cause you're my all

Thought that we were forever
But we been spreading apart, maybe It's for the better
I wish that we were forever
But every time I think of you, I start feeling pressure

In my bones and I can't fucking take it
Feeling better than ever but still been breaking
You said that we were forever, that didn't mean shit
Now I'm falling apart in a basement

Crashed out, I hope you find your new boy in the street face down
Put him on a shirt, he in a better place now
Used to not listen, but now maybe you could make out
What I have to say

Ima go and crash out, McLaren whip windows tinted
And ima spaz out, bitch is so pretty she's limited
On the lookout, we catch an opp then they're finished
And ima pass out, ain't made a hit in a minute

Crash, I ain't really say shit back then, cause my heart it was made of glass
Now it's burned to ash, staring at the cars on the overpass
You say that it doesn't matter at all
But I'd pick you over myself, myself, cause you're my all

crash (feat. kaden.)

crash (w/ kaden.) [cian x 80root]

li.sten.to/stillalive
feat. @lyrahhs @kuriositylol
@ripavah on instagram
@1avah on tiktok

before you ask, yes it is a spongebob reference in the chorus
(self produced)

lyrics:
Waterfall
From my heart
My heart

Listen up, I do not give no fucks
I'm at the brink of myself, this life it feels like it's hell
And I can't love myself, I hope my dreams will tell
I know that I'll make it big, if you just stay with me through the pain

Waterfall, tears a sweater from my heart
Fuck this world it feels so different, yeah I hate that I'm alone
Packed my bags, a paid vacation yeah but when can I come home
Fuck this music shit I'm gone, left the old me in this song

Waterfall, tears a sweater from my heart
Fuck this world it feels so different, yeah I hate that I'm alone
Packed my bags, a paid vacation yeah but when can I come home
Fuck this music shit I'm gone, left the old me in this song

And I can't seem to tell the truth, It hurts inside to say to you
You're perfect in your heart, and I am not but can you stay with me
This ain't love, I know it's not, I wish we'd knew right from the start
So I didn't need to tell you that I was stupid so consistently

And I (and I)
And I (and I)
Hope you can catch a break (catch a break)
I know (I know)
I know
It's all my fault, all my mistake

I don't know what road to take
I'm so sick of the games you play
But I still want you and I hate it
I hate it, god I hate it

And I'm so done with your bullshit you're a nuisance
I'm so stupid always losing
Like oh my god I'm annoying my own poison
Your a serpent, I'm a burden, woah

Waterfall, tears a sweater from my heart
Fuck this world it feels so different, yeah I hate that I'm alone
Packed my bags, a paid vacation yeah but when can I come home
Fuck this music shit I'm gone, left the old me in this song

Waterfall, tears a sweater from my heart
Fuck this world it feels so different, yeah I hate that I'm alone
Packed my bags, a paid vacation yeah but when can I come home
Fuck this music shit I'm gone, left the old me in this song

waterfall (feat. kuriosity & lyrah)

waterfall (w/ kuriosity & lyrah) [heyrick]

li.sten.to/stillalive
@ripavah on instagram
@1avah on tiktok

solve this riddle?

lyrics:
Pour up
My heart is feeling civil
Shoot my opps down with a missile
I fucking hope you feel belittled, solve this riddle

A red dot on your head
Still alive and you're dead
Remember all the times we talked then we stopped, I ain't miss shit that's facts, blocked
Sippin' on gas got kankan's wok, and your shawty is a bitch, she my fan fan shocked

I be mentioning things to you
You don't know that my heart is blue
Life's an apocalypse (Yuh)
You got to save yourself (Woah)

You don't wanna live no life where you don't got no one else to tell
How your day was, or how the time's been
You don't wanna end up like me stuck inside of my head
Yuh, reset tomorrow, all we gotta do is

Pour up (Skrr)
My heart is feeling civil
Shoot my opps down with a missile
I fucking hope you feel belittled, solve this riddle

A red dot on your head
Still alive and you're dead
Remember all the times we talked then we stopped, I ain't miss shit that's facts, blocked
Sippin' on gas got kankan's wok, and your shawty is a bitch, she my fan fan shocked

riddle

riddle (atmoz x gommii x adxn)

li.sten.to/stillalive
feat. @yvesxtc
@ripavah on instagram
@1avah on tiktok

to make a song with my fav artist is crazy, hope y'all enjoyed this here's a tune from the deepest of my schizo mind

lyrics:
Back then, I'd say
You're way too far away
Hello kitty dagger in my hand
About to stab myself right in the chest

She be like, heh, I'm a slut for romance
Everyone be doubting, let me show them
Shoutout to the Avah fam, we're glowing
Lets grow man, hating all my enemies hope one day that I ghost them

Acting like you're on a tightrope
You're situations are not deep it's not hard
You've gone far, we're so far
Maybe we'll both make it and you'll become a movie star

Just sick of all the lies, don't apologize
No need for apologies, cuz you ain't ever see me cry
And don't you sit me down, I'll send a hundred round
You gonna ride around the town, cuz ain't nobody around

And your a sight for sore eyes, look between the fault lines
Here my fault lies, why cant you look me in my eyes
Please don't wait for me, this hate you see
Shows I'm aching please, don't help me please

Notice where your body feels most relaxed
Let that feeling of relaxation grow with every breath
You can choose to focus on counting
And become more relaxed as each number passes through your mind

I'm a slut for romance
Everyone be doubting, let me show them
Shoutout to the Avah fam, we're glowing
Lets grow man, hating all my enemies hope one day that i ghost them

Acting like you're on a tightrope
You're situations are not deep it's not hard
You've gone far, we're so far
Maybe we'll both make it and you'll become a movie star

Back then, I'd say
You're way too far away
Hello kitty dagger in my hand
About to stab myself right in the chest

She be like, heh, I'm a slut for romance
Everyone be doubting, let me show them
Shoutout to the Avah fam, we're glowing
Lets grow man, hating all my enemies hope one day that I ghost them

Acting like you're on a tightrope
You're situations are not deep it's not hard
You've gone far, we're so far
Maybe we'll both make it and you'll become a movie star

Just sick of all the lies, don't apologize
No need for apologies, cuz you ain't ever see me cry
And don't you sit me down, I'll send a hundred round
You gonna ride around the town, cuz ain't nobody around

And your a sight for sore eyes, look between the fault lines
Here my fault lies, why cant you look me in my eyes
Please don't wait for me, this hate you see
Shows I'm aching please, don't help me please

Notice where your body feels most relaxed
Let that feeling of relaxation grow with every breath
You can choose to focus on counting
And become more relaxed as each number passes through your mind

Romance
Everyone be doubting, let me show them
Shoutout to the Avah fam, we're glowing
Lets grow man, hating all my enemies hope one day that I ghost them

Acting like you're on a tightrope
You're situations are not deep it's not hard
You've gone far, we're so far
Maybe we'll both make it and you'll become a movie star

slut4romance (feat. moodyriley)

slut4romance (w/ yves) [shinyy]

li.sten.to/stillalive
@ripavah on instagram
@1avah on tiktok

lyrics:
Heartbroken, I've lost my focus
People talk down to me, and act like I ain't ever notice
Life is gray, I hope that it's not better for them
So go away, learn to be a better friend

Smoke up in my eyes, burned our ties like bridges, and the convos don't lie
I don't talk about you in my songs, I'm a menace
Fucked up then, now you fucked up everything you do
You got no life, I'm not the bad guy

What I did was right, you don't have to start a fight
I'm really a demon, I'll leave you feeling horrified
You're hateful and evil
And even worse inside your mind

I ain't trying to be mean
Ever since I met you back when i was 15
Reminisce about the times I lived on caffeine
Nowadays I see you open leave you on seen

I'm a bad guy, in a bad world
I'm becoming even worse I got a bad girl
Found my new home, it's when I'm with you
Depressed when I'm alone and that's the issue

Smoke up in my eyes, burned our ties like bridges, and the convos don't lie
I don't talk about you in my songs, I'm a menace
Fucked up then, now you fucked up everything you do
You got no life, I'm not the bad guy

What I did was right, you don't have to start a fight
I'm really a demon, I'll leave you feeling horrified
You're hateful and evil
And even worse inside your mind

bad guy

bad guy (siem spark x chris marek)

li.sten.to/letthetimepass
@ripavah on instagram
@1avah on tiktok

I could split up my brain
Face this blunt, then I'll face this pain
You could shoot me in the face before I split
Take a couple hits so I cant think up in this bitch, shit I feel so sick

I'll last, let the time pass
Everyday I live I'm feeling numb,
I might fucking die but I don't know if I am done
This life just fucking sucks but I can't think if I give up
Living out a lie is not a way to have some fun
I might wake up in the morning and cry, but I can't run
Like a tab melt on my tongue
So faded, I hate it I wanna feel like when I was young

I know, I know, I don't look like a normal girl
Fucked up, fucked up, I'm not living on a normal world
Pour up, pour up, this night gon' take a wrong turn
Her eyes, her eyes, when I looked at her
Feeling like a winner cause I took your heart
Baby girl I'm faded we gon' fly to mars
Smoking on exotic and we'll fly so far
Whenever I'm with you I hate when we're apart

Ima let the time pass
I'll get past, all the times I can't fathom
Let's get stuck, so I'll sip on some copium
And pour up opium, so I'll think about going forward and we'll lay in the flowers
And we'll get lit off downers
If peep was still here we'd get lit off sour
Pull up to the party and it's happy hour
Living through my summers like a club after hours

I'll last, let the time pass
Everyday I live I'm feeling numb,
I might fucking die but I don't know if I am done
This life just fucking sucks but I can't think if I give up
Living out a lie is not a way to have some fun
I might wake up in the morning and cry, but I can't run
Like a tab melt on my tongue
So faded, I hate it I wanna feel like when I was young

let the time pass

let the time pass (prod. sogimura)

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/avah/love-letters
hope you enjoy this <3 lmk if y'all want more of this kind of stuff
ig: @ripavah
tiktok: @1avah

Oh, just give me a kiss before you go
Uh oh, I just need me a second to hold
You tighter till the days are brighter
Mental illness eats me alive, while I'm trapped and I'm stuck inside

My brain
Depression end this pain
But lil shawty makes me happy, so happy
I don't know why i was sad at the start
Take a trip and we'll fly up to mars
I hate when we're apart
I hate that you're so far
Love letters in the mail from my heart

Red moonlight, staring at the stars
Now I'll fall apart in your arms
Cause I knew that something was so wrong
Who would think the
Doctors wrong, or everyone's wrong
Who would think that you were all alone
But you aren't alone
Every time that I think I feel fake

My brain
Depression end this pain
But lil shawty makes me happy, so happy
I don't know why i was sad at the start
Take a trip and we'll fly up to mars
I hate when we're apart
I hate that you're so far
Love letters in the mail from my heart

love letters

love letters (prod. rafiki)

https://li.sten.to/whatisreal
a song abt mental illness
ig: @ripavah
tiktok: @1avah

I shined the light through the dim of the woods
What we both saw was so crazy I shook
The real you was not as mad as I was
Crying at the sky, it all seems so far

And I have second plans
I don't care about you, and your best friend
High state, take a break, go our separate ways
Blank face, with no shape, you're a fake in my brain

Am I in love with the real you
Realized how much that I mean to you
Different options, I'm not stopping till I die in hell
Fix my problems, that's my love but hate my mental health
But I came to the realization
Psychosis, my mind needs documentation
I can't live one more day with all this frustration
Hope It's fixed, so I can say that one day I made it

I'm just trying to live another day
I'm just trying to be fine (be fine yeah)
I'm just trying to live life (live life yeah)
Have you by my side

You're a straight enemy
I'm depressed and upset, can my old friends leave
Shut your face and move away, you're just trauma to me
When I blow up, I'll consider to respond to your pleads
We don't really understand about love
I can't really tell if it is all dumb
Love without the drugs is just like old love
I just touched the clouds, and I don't feel none

And I have second plans
I don't care about you, and your best friend
High state, take a break, go our separate ways
Blank face, with no shape, you're a fake in my brain

Am I in love with the real you
Realized how much that I mean to you
Different options, I'm not stopping till I die in hell
Fix my problems, that's my love but hate my mental health
Am I in love with the real you
Realized how much that I mean to you
Different options, I'm not stopping till I die in hell
Fix my problems, that's my love but hate my mental health
But I came to the realization
Psychosis, my mind needs documentation
I can't live one more day with all this frustration
Hope It's fixed, so I can say that one day I made it

What is real
What is real
Oh, what is real

what is real

what is real (prod. indybeats)

https://li.sten.to/full_throttle
ig: @ripavah

lyrics:

soaring through the stores, ayy
with my future wifey
i know she a baddie
and that's facts
uh, we gon fly to mars, ayy
and imma be a star, ayy
blow up like it's magic
get that cash

you know i'm not a normal lover
but i changed myself for you girl
blacked out i'm laying on the floor and i'm slumped
i can't feel my face, but imma pour up a drank
down another bottle, going full throttle
pull up on your block with a pink semi-auto
trips to el dorado
get rich is my motto

okay i made another banger
full throttle, yeah im in speed racer
big bag, ima get it real soon now
shoutout to my haters ima blow up be a cash cow
i hate the past now, imma skrt off in my whip (whip)
initial d dreams, windows down when i drift (drift)
in a couple years, imma outstream taylor swift
like if avah was a stock, next year all my fans are rich, yuh yuh
hol up, we gon have to make a pit stop
get this show back on the road, the highway to hell stop
wait, 3 sides to the story
going full throttle got my pride and some glory

you know i'm not a normal lover
but i changed myself for you girl
blacked out i'm laying on the floor and i'm slumped
i can't feel my face, but imma pour up a drank
down another bottle, going full throttle
pull up on your block with a pink semi-auto
trips to el dorado
get rich is my motto

full throttle

li.sten.to/nirvana

ig: @ripavah

Calm before the storm
Peace before war
Because of her my heart is warm
Left nirvana at the door

I used to be me, but I changed that day
The dots and the floaters, they can have their ways
Tryna live life, I'm in disarray
I wanna be real, but I feel so fake
Perception's feeling different, and I can't get out
I had no choice, so shut your mouth
The doctor said I'm tripping, but I'm bugging cause I'm dead; how?
I hope I'm still alive, cause somethings different in my head now

I'm gone, I'm gone
Replaced by a deepfake, Eternal heartache
HPPD tears me apart
This the first time I'm saying it; it's hard
I tried to say I'm still alive
But now I gotta rest in peace
Moving on ain't easy
Ears ringing, feeling uneasy

I used to be me, but I changed that day
The dots and the floaters, they can have their ways
Tryna live life, I'm in disarray
I wanna be real, but I feel so fake
Perception's feeling different, and I can't get out
I had no choice, so shut your mouth
The doctor said I'm tripping, but I'm bugging cause I'm dead; how?
I hope I'm still alive, cause somethings different in my head now

If you knew me back then, how am I now?
The dots and the floaters in the sky or the house
So many options, but no cure
Nothing feels real, when I'm not with her

I used to be me, but I changed that day
The dots and the floaters, they can have their ways
Tryna live life, I'm in disarray
I wanna be real, but I feel so fake
Perception's feeling different, and I can't get out
I had no choice, so shut your mouth
The doctor said I'm tripping, but I'm bugging cause I'm dead; how?
I hope I'm still alive, cause somethings different in my head now

nirvana

li.sten.to/dpdr
ig: @ripavah
tiktok: @ripavah

lyrics:

Shit I'm lost, and I don't feel like I exist
I'm inside of a simulation, it is what it is
I feel fake, cause now the colors they look gray
This universe is poison my mental illness is cliche

Whenever I'm alone, I feel like I'm a deepfake
A million fucking streams, stroke my ego, make me keep faith
Blocked all of my irls, I fucking hate those snakes
Avah up next, dpdr fueled her damn hate

I hate your fucking guts
Go get hit by a bus
I took your drugs, and now I'm lost, and I'm fucking concussed
I'm taking shot after shot if I ever lose her love
But I don't really give a fuck if you live or die, stupid cunt
Running out of time, yeah I'm running out of luck
I'm feeling less faded, pass the fucking blunt
Who are you, I'm dead, you're real, I'm not

Dpdr makes me feel like nothing
I've gone through depression and anxiety
But it can't compare
No, it can't compare
I go into an episode like every single month
I'm coming out of episodes I'm wondering where I gone
A couple months ago, I was so fucking lost
I woke up in the morning with an iv mark

Baby, you say that you love me
And you're my future wifey
Our future life is spicy, hanging by the sea
Living in a dream world with hppd, but you're all I need
Who are you again, is this all the end?
My memorys gone, please don't play pretend
Through all my mental illness
The love of my life is a 10 out of 10

But I'm too dead, to experience it
Through all the pain, and all the dread
I wouldn't need to be saved by you
If it wasn't for them

I hate your fucking guts
Go get hit by a bus
I took your drugs, and now I'm lost, and I'm fucking concussed
I'm taking shot after shot if I ever lose her love
But I don't really give a fuck if you live or die, stupid cunt
Running out of time, yeah I'm running out of luck
I'm feeling less faded, pass the fucking blunt
Who are you, I'm dead, you're real, I'm not

Sh sh sh
Shut the fuck up
Shut the fuck up
Yuh, yuh, yuh, yuh
Existential dread
Stuck in my head
When i die
Let my soul come back before that day, cause now i

I hate your fucking guts
Go get hit by a bus
I took your drugs, and now I'm lost, and I'm fucking concussed
I'm taking shot after shot if I ever lose her love
But I don't really give a fuck if you live or die, stupid cunt
Running out of time, yeah I'm running out of luck
I'm feeling less faded, pass the fucking blunt
Who are you, I'm dead, you're real, I'm not

dpdr

https://li.sten.to/restinpeace

Saturn
We did the impossible
But i found you
Look what we've both been through
The colors
They seem so vibrant in your presence
Like butterfly wings, that are iridescent
Don't need a diagnosis you're my antidepressant

I need you here right by my side
Anything you say, yeah I'm down for the ride
You got me through that day, you'll get me through my life
No matter what you say or what you do, Saturn you will always be mine

Saturn, you will always be mine
Stay with me through the gaps in spacetime
Be with my forever 
Make my mental illness better
bounded with a teacher
12/20 I found my treasure
Princess girl
Saturn, you will always be mine

Oh together
Forever
I know it's true
Cause no one else is better than you
I would still be with you if you were a worm
Put you in my pocket, make sure that you don't get hurt
Light it up, blow it in your face, 
Little wormy going to space, let's stay at our place
Let's go into our dreamworld, I'll see you then
My soul picked the universe with you in it
There's nothing in this universe that's better than your love
I'm living in a fantasyland

I need you here right by my side
Anything you say, yeah I'm down for the ride
You got me through that day, you'll get me through my life
No matter what you say or what you do, Saturn you will always be mine

Saturn, you will always be mine
Stay with me through the gaps in spacetime
Be with my forever 
Make my mental illness better
bounded with a teacher
12/20 I found my treasure
My princess girl
Saturn, you will always be mine

Saturn, you will always be mine
Princess girl, Saturn you will always be mine

rest in peace

saturn, we did the impossible

https://li.sten.to/restinpeace

We got an evil side
We got our different lives
We talked gossip, now we blossomed
Got some better vibes
Cause in the end, it takes some time
Only disassociating in the daytime
I was tryna fly, but now I'm stuck inside
Undiscovered by labels, I feel so sublime
Cause why would they pick me?
Mentally unstable, bad image for our team
You couldn't take a gamble when they're just 19
But y'all can take a gamble when they're under 16
I'm going to lose it
I've gone through it
Ups and downs, I lost my frown
Riding round the town with you
Stuck inside my head
Existential dread
Always wonder where I went
I feel better, now I'm feeling like I'm reaching the end

Floating past the planets
So many galaxies in my vision
It's like we're bonnie and clyde
We're space explorers of the endless sky
Every floater is us 
A different universe 
where we're in love
I don't feel real when I'm stuck without you

It don't make sense
Why are we not sitting in a Benz
How have we not blown up yet
Rest in peace, now I'm copacetic
It don't make sense
All my fans know that we're the best
After rest in peace, I don't know what's next
I'm up next, get a million fat check
Don't look at me through a lens

I was floating through the stars on a spacewalk
I hit a barrier and faceplanted on bedrock
I took a trip into your love
And I got airlocked darling
I know, that I'm not real
I was so colorblind, I needed time to heal
Cause now I'm better and whenever I see you
The weather clears, it disappears

Floating past the planets
So many galaxies in my vision
It's like we're bonnie and clyde
We're space explorers of the endless sky
Every floater is us 
A different universe 
where we're in love
I don't feel real when I'm stuck without you

It don't make sense
Why are we not sitting in a Benz
How have we not blown up yet
Rest in peace, now I'm copacetic
It don't make sense
All my fans know that we're the best
After rest in peace, I don't know what's next
I'm up next, get a million fat check
I'm stuck inside my head

Floating past the planets
So many galaxies in my vision
It's like we're bonnie and clyde
We're space explorers of the endless sky
Every floater is us 
A different universe 
where we're in love
I don't feel real when I'm stuck without you

It don't make sense
Why are we not sitting in a Benz
How have we not blown up yet
Rest in peace, now I'm copacetic
It don't make sense
All my fans know that we're the best
After rest in peace, I don't know what's next
I'm up next, get a million fat check
I'm stuck inside my head

bonnie n' clyde

https://li.sten.to/restinpeace

Disassociate 24/7
It'd make u fall apart
Staring at her eyes
I'm gone, cause you're all I want

I took some time off
I wasn't fully here
Dissosciation made me dissapear
I'm seeing stars, I'm lost
And I'm living for your love
Baby, you don't need to worry cause you're all I think of
Lotus flower, in the sunlight of your skin
Our love will last forever, you will be with me till the end

Lost touch, of reality
What's real, what's fake
Filled with hate, antisocial
My life's a dream, this girl a keeper

I've been thinking bout the past
Wondering why I couldn't get it all together quicker
Back in 2020 got sick
Met Saturn I won't ever leave her
If you're disassociating 
Wake up now before it's too late
It's all the same, a hypochondriac's fame
It's like there's nothing in my brain

I took some time off
I wasn't fully here
Dissosciation made me dissapear
I'm seeing stars, I'm lost
And I'm living for your love
Baby, you don't need to worry cause you're all I think of
Lotus flower, in the sunlight of your skin
Our love will last forever, you will be with me till the end

disassosciate

disassociate

https://idm.fm/shadows

lyrics:

im on a slippery slope
got me holding on to hope
falling off a tightrope
i don't wanna sit and mope

switch up, switch up
and i'll take over the galaxy
what's real? what's fake
i don't know what has gotten into me
all my fake friends turned to LA devotees
it seems unlikely for me to leave
the city of the snow
i'm missing you more than you know
i need you most, cause im the scorpio
whenever im alone i see shadows

im crazy
nobody believes what i say
my vision look like static then it fades to grey
i got a one way ticket to the top if it goes my way 

i don't miss the past, didn't have enough haters
dream of fame, and i need that paper
fly by saturn, you are my saviour
the shadows are gone, nobody is greater bae

so get out my way
feeling tongue tied, i don't know what to say
don't know what to do when i'm feeling so fake

im on a slippery slope
got me holding on to hope
falling off a tightrope
i don't wanna sit and mope

switch up, switch up
and i'll take over the galaxy
what's real? what's fake
i don't know what has gotten into me
all my fake friends turned to LA devotees
it seems unlikely for me to leave
the city of the snow
i'm missing you more than you know
i need you most, cause im the scorpio
whenever im alone i see shadows

shadows

li.sten.to/celestialadventure

Lyrics:

Let's take a trip to the stars above
Our hearts will soar with our cosmic love
I'm feeling the heat, and it's out of this world
You make my heart race like a meteor hurl

Fly with me, and we'll take a ride
Your eyes they shine like a star in the sky
I'm yours forever, until the end of time
A celestial adventure got me feeling so sublime

Fly with me, and we'll take a ride
Your eyes they shine like a star in the sky
I'm yours forever, until the end of time
A celestial adventure got me feeling so sublime

Let's hit the road and chase the summer breeze
Me and my baddie, sippin' a strong sex on the beach
Laying down in the sand
Collecting memories

Waking up with you sitting next to me
It makes me feel like my life is complete
We're all grown up; we are finally free
Let's travel the world, explore the seven seas

Let's take a trip to the stars above
Our hearts will soar with our cosmic love
I'm feeling the heat, and it's out of this world
You make my heart race like a meteor hurl

Fly with me, and we'll take a ride
Your eyes they shine like a star in the sky
I'm yours forever, until the end of time
A celestial adventure got me feeling so sublime

Fly with me, and we'll take a ride
Your eyes they shine like a star in the sky
I'm yours forever, until the end of time
A celestial adventure got me feeling so sublime

celestial adventure

cabin fever

truthseeker

https://li.sten.to/ascensiontoheaven

yuh, yuh, yuh
yuh, yuh, yuh, yuh, yuh
yuh, yuh, yuh, yuh

delta 8, make me go psychotic
pop a pill, take a tabbb
off like 20 nootropics
stop it
paranoid i’m running from the cops
drinking carti water till i fucking drop

i, i, i wanna fucking die
i hate smoking delta 8 shit, i miss delta 9
i, i, i wanna get fucking high
jump into the mosh pit
brain feels like a mosh pit
test me, you get dropped quick, dropkicked
right hook you get dropped bitch
og kushy and cookies d8 can’t top this
consuming hella narcotics

misfit

dear jupiter

@ripavah everywhere
lyrics below
~

happiness
something to strive for
you and i
we take it out on us

take me out my love
give me all your touch

look im running, screaming, sleeping, digging through all that i had left
everybody tells me that its true but i don't know
you love me
i need to love you back

happiness, depression, baby girl it's such a rollercoaster
i don't need some money i just need you just for you
one last time
i'll take you give you time

i, i don't really know anymore
life's still shit it's a chore

but you don't care?
i know about you more
fuck this
i don't know who's wrong

and who's right
and who's life just to care about more
maybe it's you, just you
yeah for sure

look im running, screaming, sleeping, digging through all that i had left
everybody tells me that its true but i don't know
you love me
i need to love you back

happiness, depression, baby girl it's such a rollercoaster
i don't need some money i just need you just for you
one last time
i'll take you give you time

endgame (p. sunlight)

the start of something new
https://linktr.ee/ripavah

lyrics:
~

its like she rised me up from death, while i was at my lowest   
feels like im stuck in an endless loop of bad guys, and bad bad feelings
but im alone again, atleast im better off now
at best im not with her, trying to fix her mental health

but you're untreated, and that's worse
you seem to coherse me into things, im a guy so that means that you all won't help

but im trapped in life
every girl wants a guy whos like me
not really sure if they should change their id
but i don't really know if you're attracted to my team

so fuck this world, i hate my body
i hate myself, and i hate this life
so ill jump off a bridge then i guess ill die
and you're just faking it
for the clicks and the streams
you dont know what it means
just to slander for some clout you're a piece of meat
and that's all you'll be

and that's all we'll see
behind the scenes, you're a fraud and a fiend
lost my friends to the games and the soda
she stabbed me in the back ion know if i know her

but it's all for you
changed myself just to fit your standards
gave up my soul for my fix it wont hamper
all the other guys i don't get their pain, ugh

cause i don't have their problems
and i don't know how to solve them
cause im stuck in place
stuck in my body and im feeling fake

...

so fuck this world, i hate my body
i hate myself, and i hate this life
so ill jump off a bridge then i guess ill die
and you're just faking it
for the clicks and the streams
you dont know what it means
just to slander for some clout you're a piece of meat
and that's all you'll be

chamber (shadow)

prod by sunlight & avah 🖤
linktr.ee/ripavah
lyrics:

~

first she said i'll hold you
im tryna find what's next
i really miss the old you
cause im all you have left

i don't really care about you staying with me i moved on
ive been getting better ive been feeling kinda better off
thinking bout my future ive been tryna sing some better songs
im not tryna put it off but im not gonna stay for long

manifesting for the times i can see you
you're so gorgeous, girl i wanna be you
why you tryna use me get the fuck up out my face
i was asking for the times where i could take you on a date i,

feel like you i lost my balance
stuck in place im trapped on an island
running out of time im staring at the clock
why you seem to run dont get trapped up on a rock

fuck this life im dead, so ima run from this problem yeah she's in my head
so ima kill myself to this god damn song, so ima run away and stay all night long

...

i don't really care about you staying with me i moved on
ive been getting better ive been feeling kinda better off
thinking bout my future ive been tryna sing some better songs
im not tryna put it off but im not gonna stay for long

manifesting for the times i can see you
you're so gorgeous, girl i wanna be you
why you tryna use me get the fuck up out my face
i was asking for the times where i could take you on a date i,

stay (sunlight)

brb for a while, not ready to make my next project yet, the story isnt over.

my only message is don't sell your soul, take control of your own life avah fam :)

avah

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