The dreams are washing away
I stand still and watch it all change
As the shop keeper locks up the gate
And I promise you it’ll all be ok

To your faraway voice through my phone
I wanna say, you’re still not alone
And I meant every word, and I still do
And I wrote this song just for you

But I put the phone down and I put my cigarette out
Cause I know when things end we must accept them
And we’ll go on, we’ll move ahead
And there’s no point in hiding in bed
Cause it won’t change
Please don’t change
You can’t change for me

You say you fear intimacy
Or maybe you’re afraid to feel free
But you tried, I’m not the first or the last
You’re a pattern of an issue, an impasse

The events we go back through casually
Like it’s a stranger’s case study
But what the fuck?
You did this to me
I still love you and you did this to you and me

So I sit back down, I’m sober now
It doesn’t help anyhow
And I know that nothing will really help this
As I look back on this weird year
You know it’s been so strange
And I have changed
But you’ll never change
You can’t change for me

And I’m closing and locking the door
To put it back like it was before

Vocals, acoustic guitar, bass, midi - Kate Pierce
Drums - Zach LeWinter
Session engineer - David 'DP' Price

You Can't Change

Sometimes I feel we’re at the end
Let it rewind, let it begin
Would we end up back here again
Would I still run the way I ran

I know that I am like a mother with no child
How can all this heart and soul be so denied
And my God let this evil run so wild
And make me watch the light leave your eyes

The cycle is endless as the wreath that surrounds
Tied together by the spiral around
The world until the end of it all
The present is now, the future is now
And one door closes, then another one starts
And nothing is dead, it’s just a change of the heart
And we can’t unknow the ones we already know
So take your fate and go

Our closed off hearts will not heal anything
And denial is worse than being mean
And I ask God – how can I deserve this?
And the answer is I probably did

Some people’s lives have no meaning
Synchronicity won’t intervene
And deny the feeling
And deny your love for me

So now I’m alone with my tarot card spreads
The lies and falsities are forming webs
Did you build it all up just to tear it all down
I silently ask when there’s no more sound from you
The sound of your voice and your beautiful eyes
Are burning still in my mind
The love we had, can we ever get it back?
Was it something I did or something you lack?

Vocals, acoustic guitar, bass, midi - Kate Pierce
Drums - Zach LeWinter
Session engineer - David 'DP' Price

2 Of Swords

We’re on the bridge, you’re in my car
Almost to my studio, it’s not far
You’re from the South, and I am too
What other useless facts can I tell you

We’re in my house, give me a kiss
Just to relieve some awkwardness
We’re in my bed, and you’re in me
How long should I lie here before I can make you leave

I practice
The subtle art of being emotionless
On a regular basis
It’s a shame for me to have to admit to it

So you leave town, we’re on the phone
Why not, for so long I’ve been alone
And I hear laughter
You say that we’re here to save each other

And we’ve got so much in common now
That I start to care, cause hey, what the hell
And then we talk 4 times a day
I can feel my life begin to change

Cause I practice
The subtle art of being emotionless
On a regular basis
It’s a shame for me to have to admit to it

You’re in my heart, and on my mind
I think about you doll, all the time
You’ve got your hooks, and they’re in deep
A future with you is all I can see

And we’re in love, you say you love me
It all worked out so easily
And for once I’m understood
You came out of nowhere and changed my life for good

But I practice
The subtle art of being emotionless
On a regular basis
It’s a shame for me to have to admit to it

There's so much emptiness
For you now, I will quit


Vocals, electric guitar, acoustic guitar, bass - Kate Pierce
Drums - Zach LeWinter
Session engineer - David 'DP' Price

The Art Of Being Emotionless

Countless nights
The raging beast has won the fight inside
Let me find the right page
This tiny notebook’s all I got to keep track of the days

The same routine
They’re back and forth and up and down the stairs with the gear they’re carrying
This touring band
Has come here all the way from Oregon

He’s talking strange
Bantering the whole time at me from upon the stage
And it’s a laugh
Why would he include me in the act

But when it ends he’s right there at my side
Asking to come home with me tonight
I act surprised
Pretending just to buy myself some time

And don’t tell him
But here is what I really was thinking

When I turned and finally really looked at him
Something hit, something locked it in
As I studied his face, a stranger to me
Just another worn out rock star wanna be

His clear green eyes had me wondering
If I’m staring at my future husband

Vocals, acoustic guitar, bass, magnus electric chord organ, midi - Kate Pierce
Drums - Zach LeWinter
Session engineer - David 'DP' Price

Get In, Let's Go

What can I say?
It’s such a shame
Shame on you for hustling me
Blame it on all the vets on the street

And the clean are not exempt
With blinded eyes we’re stepping over them
And it’s so unfortunate
We can do better, but we’re so much worse from this

Please don’t tell anyone that we do this

It’s in his teeth
And I know why he’s keeping it from me
Cause he wants my kiss
Maybe later I can go repent

And his lover, he snores
Just beyond the sliding door
And there goes my self-worth
Cause my chest burns and the cure is taking off my shirt

Please don’t tell anyone that we do this

Vocals, electric guitar, acoustic guitar, bass, midi - Kate Pierce
Drums - Zach LeWinter
Session engineer - David 'DP' Price

Shame On Me

I walk to cross a darkened room
Lined with dim lights and God knows who
Another night, of set after set
Twirling the rosary around my neck

So many faces come and then they go
Musicians dressed in black, guitar solos
My glass refills, I’m gazing into space
My laugh is shrill and filling the whole place

Adjust the microphones
EQ and room tone
Reverb, compression
Give me a second

And in the booth, situations on my mind
Among the staff, who’ll have me tonight
It starts to blur, I can’t recall the names
A metal band is ripping up the stage

The crowd, it stomps, glass breaking everywhere
You’re much too close and messing up my hair
It’s nearing 2am, I start to count
How long before the
Is in my mouth

Hear the cab door slam
Don’t know where I am
But here we go again
O’Farrell & Larkin

Sweet… high… your… eyes… and we are one again

This discussion’s turned argument
The smoke is gone, we don’t know where it went
How long before we go to get some more
You tell me no and look, I’m out the door

Look now it’s daylight
The man will make it right
I don’t wanna call
But there’s no choice at all

Vocals, acoustic guitar, bass, magnus electric chord organ - Kate Pierce
Drums - Zach LeWinter
Session engineer - David 'DP' Price

O'Farrell & Larkin

I’m so small with cigarettes on the sidewalk
Marveling outside myself at this
I should quit, cause in this 3-ring circus of shit
They want something from me that I can’t give, I bummed this

But I’m numb and nothing is any fun
Leather black eyeliner protection
So the freaks have become our normalcy
As a transgender lady’s flirting with me, she’s 70

It’s ok, we accept you anyway
It’s 11am and you need a drink
Sit down my friend and talk to me
We’ve got secrets we don’t share
Why not, what the hell, no one cares
And the cars whip around and the sirens blare
And you’re a regular with me

And look, we’re back in this motel
Underground Vietnamese shit to sell
He’s not my man, I don’t love him
But we’re adults in the bathroom again, black semen

And the rock star on the floor is getting high and playing bass
He’s drunk and loudly giving our secrets away
As I wait for my hit we’re threatening him
Not to tell anyone that we do this, oh shit

It’s ok, we accept you anyway
It’s 11am and you need a drink
Sit down my friend and talk to me
We’ve got secrets we don’t ever share
Why not, what the hell, no one cares
And the world whips around and the sirens blare
And you’re a regular with me

11AM to 2AM on the bar stool regular
With me



Vocals, acoustic guitar, bass - Kate Pierce
Drums - Zach LeWinter
Session engineer - David 'DP' Price

Regulars

There’s a story that goes there was once someone
Who waited for love so long that she gave up
Her heart was pure and wildly hurt
She let it all go, and watch what did occur

God knows she wasn’t that innocent
And the road was paved with intention
But I swear she didn’t anticipate this
What a crazy hell of a year it’s been

I didn’t know what would happen to me

I doubt that she was victimized
She went for it with open eyes
And we all get what we deserve
Make one wrong move and you get burned

So I ask you God, can you take it away
All I wanted was a line and he gave me a veinte
It’s was New Year’s Eve, it didn’t count
He blew the smoke into my mouth

I didn’t know what would happen to me



Vocals, electric guitar, acoustic guitar, bass, midi - Kate Pierce
Drums - Zach LeWinter
Session engineer - David 'DP' Price

The Change

Original State is singer/songwriter Kate Pierce along with a collection of studio musicians and engineers who get tangled in the web.

Following active operation from 2006-2013 and after a long hiatus, Original State Forever returns with renewed passion to preserve the legacy.  

It's a new era.

originalstateforever@gmail.com

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