cutdeep & epitomeoffailure - i didn't deserve this (caps ctrl)

thanks to my dad for cover art again


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you don’t wanna talk, but it’s not up for discussion
clean me out your thoughts
seems you really wanna rush it
breaking it apart
while i’m here thinking i caught it
should’ve seen it from the start
i only pictured what i wanted

holding on
keep up you’re changing like the seasons
next minute you’ll be gone
and the winter air will breeze in
call it off
why help when you could watch me bleeding
i reminisce the days
the golden lights were gleaming

i could really use a day off
to clear my mind, collect my dark thoughts
turn out the lights
to hide all my wrongs
keep me alive
let bygones become bygones

ima shell of myself and that kid i was
2012 slowly realised they’re not showing up
i dunno where to go can you show me love
i dunno where to go ima no one

they’re so quick to point and judge
got me staring in my mirror
cuz i hate what iv become
must be something in my water
cuz im puking out my guts
girl you shouldn’t even bother, cuz i know i'm not enough

she won’t say it to my face
she won’t ever come around
unless i’m laying in my grave
soul is heavy she can’t pull me to the top
say a sorry to my mom
feel it leaking out my jaw

bygones (ft. halfhearted) [prodsecre x threemvsk]

Produced by Lxst Boy & Late Night Tones

-lyrics-

I stare at the walls and think about what they have seen
I missed all your calls, purposely, now leave me be
How are you so quick to apologize? (I'm sorry)
I felt so sick when it came to light
Now the memory falls, drifting down like autumn leaves

You've torn my heart
You've torn my heart

I stare at the clock, ticking down to melodies
The burned out wood, wounded from your kerosene
How are you so quick to burn me down?
You were my world till you locked me out
I picked up your call, now watch me bleed, you need to see

You've torn my heart
You've torn my heart
Say it's all my fault and take it back so you can breathe
You've torn my heart

Driftwood

Sequel to my 2020 album "Wicked". This album explores my addiction recovery and mental health battles through the lens of an apocalyptic wasteland. I hope you like<333

CLEAN SLATE. (FT. AIDEN HILTON) [Prod. OutOfPlace]

DEATH BY DESIRE

DON'T TALK ABOUT LOVE (live)

It's been a while since I did a collab so I hope you guys like it!!

Dreamer 2 w/ yungcray, brecken

w/ @lilbooj
produced by cxrter & mackk
📸: lil booj

lyrics:
(lil booj)
yeah it’s covered by a vast sea 
low brush and it’s all that surrounds me 
the color scheme grows fainter 
as we arrive now, i notice what remains here 
stumbled on the willow grown beggin for the time
but it’s normal, it’s orville
i’m guessing on the signs 
and it’s moving, irritate like sulfate 
and they’re not what they seem 
take a look like it’s outta line 

it’s why some might paint one sum 
i can, but the pressures all gone 
this old shift is continual, it’s over 
impression is plain, but it’s moving along

it’s our time, but I’m second guessing 
it’s those branches, cover up the satellite 
it’s alright, but it’s flipped on the other side 
i hope you understand it’s only meddling 

and it’s happy to send me on 
all the control that you have fought 
just don’t get too fond now 
it’s gonna get ripped away
when you least expect it 
i had to be there for the sabotage 
these semantics, i don’t think it’s worth dying for 
wrong method when we used up all the current ones
new measure, guess it’s permanent like promises 

face up, but the floor is gon’ obliterate
when night falls, take the maime
serve it on a new plate 
but the time in the frond is like its own life 
it reached in flood by the burning green in late july 
the same mode as when the sky is red and full of sunrise 
it swiftly made it through and forth unscathed 
we leave it for a couple days 
meet at the circle moat 
press the flowers, leave it in a grass note


time in the frond (cxrter x mackk)

lyrics<3

girl you tore up that apartment
when we started growing cold

someones daughter, needs a father
but he left her all alone

left the bar when i was carded
wasent 21 years old

took my heart, now its discarded
whyd you use it as your own?

last ditch, i rest my eyes in a parked car
so sick i left my wine on ur bar cart
time ticks and love will leave u with a dark scar
words slip and i think you just took it too far

where do we go?
im stuck on the outside
been losing control
been losing my damn mind
but you’ll never kmow
our loves on a faultline
turn me to stone
when im gazing at ur green eyes

baby i think thats toxic
maybe you think im all wrong
one word and im changing the topic
suprised myself that im moving on

yet u coiodnt care less
7 days same clothes got a loose neck
i was down on my own like a reject
pardon my problems i feel like a nuisance

last month i saw your mom in that walmart
on lunch i shed some tears on my carhartt
as kids we measured heights and left a door mark
we grew quick it’s such a shane we didn’t go far

fault line [jacob vallen]

eye level

U can run (Feat YGDrey705

[verse 1]
you could see it in my face when I come down
I'm like please girl give me space but still come around
I can't fucking take it I am so pathetic
constant need for reassurance that what we have is magnetic
like what did I do
or is it my mind that plays tricks on me to
like baby please tell me that you miss me too
I feel you don't care but aware that you do

[chorus]
I've fallen again
I'm in need of a friend
but everyone's fake
I try to sleep but I lie there awake
Girl please look me in my eyes and just tell me everything's gonna be fine
but it's not.

[verse 2]
summer is ending the leaves are all falling and I know you'll be here beside me
I have my doubts but I hope this works out for us baby just know that i'm sorry
If you stick along for long
baby I won't be gone
I'll get my shit back together
I'll be beside you no matter the weather

[bridge]
I can't seem to focus
the world fake a lotus
flower blossoms
love bottoms 
waiting for us to notice
don't take action i'm
i'm lackin' the drive to get the bonus
feelings vanish I panic i'm gone like hocus pocus

[chorus]
I've fallen again
I'm in need of a friend
but everyone's fake
I try to sleep but I lie there awake
Girl please look into my eyes and just tell me everything's gonna be fine
but it's not.

falling [prod. ryini]

I met the reaper in my sleep,
He don’t talk

U can run (Feat YGDrey705

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