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calm luh 2023 open thingy prod @xxkingad

quiet down
smoking on this loud
i can't hear a sound
she like what u doin now
let's get outta town
bby i need u now

oj
mix w/ moscato
straight from the bottle
cell buzzin hits for a follow
so many ppl ion even know steady hitting up my phone 
imma get 2 it tomorrow
why is it tomorrow
blue and red when i want like tecca
heads up, i already kill w/ no effort 
yes sir
girly give me top, no header
letter/let her
louis, gucci, prada, fendi
baby ill get u a bentley
split up a check like my family
rest of u niggas too friendly
AD turn me up
if i pop a p3rky 30 ts good enough

if i pop a perc30 ts good enough
wait 1sec right there i’ll take my dose rn and double up
im throwin’ up
it don’t matter how im moving’
what i’m doin’
you’d still shoot me down 
even on the ground, ik you’d still be shootin’
ur stoppin me
i’m not sure what’s wrong with me
im not who im meant to be
and that fucks with me mentally
heavily
sippin moscato, shizu he poured it out str8 from the bottle
i walk outside and get top from a model
i don’t feel shit cuz i’m numb and im hollow
numb and im hollow

i said by the way
u too fine to be sippin on some chardonnet
how about u come slide my way for cabernet
you know im geeked up when you wear that lingerie
i got time today
and i know you got time to waste
i said u too fine to touch
im giving you this trust
i can give but it aint much

muted w/ residential. & epitomeoffailure (adturnup)

lyrics ⬇️ 

its been a lot to bottle up what ive become
ive came to terms with what id done a year ago
but i forgot how we had met and how it crashed and how it burned
you said it would all be worth it in the end maybe wed learn

what i wanted ended faster than i hoped for
its been exhausting my whole memory straight folklore
yea i see dreams along my hall
its been weeks since we last called
maybe i should write it off
i would rather lay than talk

i take anger out on everybody that dont deserve it
but when its wearing off i promise you ill feel like a burden
so when im hurting really bad ill make sure they know im alright 
i did everything i could with what i had i tried fight

but it aint go to plan whenever other thoughts arrived
it made me realize how i wasted all my time

In 2019 i was lost and then i packed my bags im gone
you can’t remind me how i felt unless you slash me with sword
hold tight yea hold tight yea hold tight to me tonight
i have an awful feeling this will be the last time i cry

so if it is please don’t remind me i wont be there tomorrow 
and i regretted when you caught my only shot my only arrow

its only fair tho
i was at my lowest point and i was acting like a scarecrow 
i dont care no

act like you know me like you know how it goes
on the daily
just a microdose 
i think im coming close
please save me


you hate me, i know I been wrong 
im sorry im sorry
full sprint i been on the wrong road
ill hurry ill hurry
hardly what you know you deserve
i wish i had all of that
car crash it hit the curb 
it could be worse-that family okay




yea, way way too quick its a blur
i can’t conjugate i slur
i told my parents im at work- work
think i need a clerk- clerk
before its gets way worse
cuz i can foresee what im talkin bout im jus waitin my turn

my stomach burns -burns
i flip and turn -turn
in my sheets
i cant sleep

hold tight (under the maple tree)

produced by @nevermadeithome & @prodjolst ✨ 

when you open your eyes 
there’s a message from me
it says “good morning baby girl”
and “how did you sleep? 
did you pack yet? can you call and when are you free?
and im sorry i was fucked up the whole week”
i’m adjusting, feeling this is not normal for me 
i feel disgusting but i’m cool whenever we speak 
you love your coffee, i’ve always been more fond of a tea
you love your hockey, i’m learning girl just be patient with me, please 

and stay happy cus you’re moving tomorrow
so pack up all those mugs
return the books that you borrowed
it’s a double edged sword i know there’s some sorrow
but your dad’ll be fine
i know it sucks but you gotta go
5 nights on the road with a carload 
on the way to BC just avoid all the potholes
when you’re in your tent all alone with a bottle
and you’re lookin up at stars
i hope you know that your moms right there 

when you’re down baby please will you tell me?
i’ve been gone lately, i know it doesn’t help things 
don’t feel bad girl it’s not your cross to carry
i’m under mud from the weight that ive buried
you’re honestly fucking pretty damn amazing
a lots changed but i’ve always said the same things
“its not fate” i tell myself, then it kills me
you honestly will never know how much youve helped me :( 

when you open your eyes 
there’s a message from me
it says “good morning baby girl”
and “how did you sleep? 
did you pack yet? can you call and when are you free?
and im sorry i was fucked up the whole week”
i’m adjusting, feeling this is not normal for me 
i feel disgusting but i’m cool whenever we speak 
you love your coffee, i’ve always been more fond of a tea
you love your hockey, i’m learning girl just be patient with me, please

canada (nevermadeithome x jolst)

lyrics<3

girl you tore up that apartment
when we started growing cold

someones daughter, needs a father
but he left her all alone

left the bar when i was carded
wasent 21 years old

took my heart, now its discarded
whyd you use it as your own?

last ditch, i rest my eyes in a parked car
so sick i left my wine on ur bar cart
time ticks and love will leave u with a dark scar
words slip and i think you just took it too far

where do we go?
im stuck on the outside
been losing control
been losing my damn mind
but you’ll never kmow
our loves on a faultline
turn me to stone
when im gazing at ur green eyes

baby i think thats toxic
maybe you think im all wrong
one word and im changing the topic
suprised myself that im moving on

yet u coiodnt care less
7 days same clothes got a loose neck
i was down on my own like a reject
pardon my problems i feel like a nuisance

last month i saw your mom in that walmart
on lunch i shed some tears on my carhartt
as kids we measured heights and left a door mark
we grew quick it’s such a shane we didn’t go far

fault line [jacob vallen]

Lyrics ⬇️ 

hey dont remind me of this
hey dont remind me of that
it don’t surprise me that i had it all and then it kicked the can
i wish i aint care if you laugh
i care about their view too much
and idk where i stand
but im tryna be in the palm of ur hands

baby thats way too much
& i couldnt hold it if both of my hands held out
and i dont mean to say too much
i couldnt think why you want me to be around
you told me i did enough
but it really don’t compare to all that you done
and maybe if i was in love then i woulda chose you over drugs

you dont know what it means to be addicted
i was conflicted i was so broke
i think you sense it i was inflicting all of the
damage in all my bones
but that was my mission you wouldn’t get it
that was the only thing up in my home
other than dishes i had been washin just to get out of their face be alone

(halfhearted)

yeah i’m not alone when im up in the night 
voice in my brain said im crossing the line
coulda been worse but im barely alive, put down my weapon you sharpen your knife 
didn’t know any better,pull me apart by the holes in my sweater 
put a stamp on my letter, wait seven months but you still won’t answer 

lost and was found in the town i was raised in
praying on my downfall give em entertainment 
right hook to the jaw leave him right on the pavement 
for the last few months i been feeling like im vacant

i get racks and they know
family upset when i walk in the room
stuck on the times i was passing the bowl
but look at me now i found peace in my soul

(brecken)
you got a peice of my soul
i want it back like asap
you wanted me to go home
left you right there ima walk back 

told me that id get evicted if i ever got a place of my own

but i been here 4 months cuz i dont listen
honestly dont think you think i could grow

month four w/ halfhearted (dash)

prod. by @wraithontheporch

@AVXiD
look where we are
funeral suits in the back of the car
tastes like tar
but i like it
oh i love it
i wander the dark
feeling this hitting my heart
(i love it)
peel off the flesh like its bark
(i love it)
you know that i’ve been marked
(i love it)
i'm stuck looking up at the stars
(i love it)

i smell blood in here
can you tell me why that is
the scent of rotting tissue
blows in thru the window

@enyusroom
the organs, they fill up this ball pit
visions they haunt when i’m shutting my mouth quick
(empathy slipping away)
is that what i’m made of?
am i just really a monster?
i’m fading like smoke in the cold
was i ever solid or constant?
i followed to dig up my tomb
i feel like i’m holding the grudge here

so stop it now
watch me
wipe off the blood from the biting
i'm closer now
to the edge
to bury those screams in the silence

the hunger for blood made me
change how i move on this earth now
rip me apart in two
drain out the source as the lights drown

funeral suit (wraithontheporch)

lyrics ⬇️


figurative language



im lonely as often as you’re in my head
thoughts been depleting my every last breath
and i know
last year was cold 
reminds of every time i never told you so

said that i couldnt love you like the other ones in my past
you also told me if you dropped me you would never want me back
did that for a month
now its been minute
used me as crutch
til you left cuz you were livid

cut ties with ur enemies cuz ur trippin i could not
then ill be with my homies til im dead and ima rot
maybe everything you said to me was way wrose than you thought 
way too heavy like an anvil please oh lord just wish me gone

wish me gone
ima leave the same second you push me off
you made dive me off that cliff and i hit the bottom i hit the rocks

wheres the applause
 i thought you wanted me out of the universe up me in the stars
somehow it always feel dark
wish i could tell you that i could restart
but i can’t 
every night you talk to me i feel like you want me to feel like i’m an ant
step over me like the part in the pavement 
i feel like you want me rant


i ran out on everything you tried to fix cuz i couldnt pick up ur hand
watch me go down the list as everything i want just wont go to plan
i roll in the rubble and sticks i know that they can’t understand 
if you gave me one more wish then i would wish that i was them

i cant play pretend
cant go through all this again i know ill get revenge
eventually ill explain to everyone what i did
what i did

you scraped away that memory on skin with 
broken glad
tempted to exempt myself from everything i had

dont remind me of that addiction 
everytime i was there in an instant

now atleast where im at im reminded I exist 
sorry that its killing me i wish that we could live

pushing me and honestly i hate when you persist
but i been here ever forever so i cant even resist
i wish that every night you went out when u been drinking outta line wit all ur friends

switch up the top i don’t wanna slip
im off the bottle i wish i had bliss
i was out fully far in the abyss
if we departed id turn to a man and realize that everything you did was

switch the topic (everest)

honestly never really processed you were gone, but day by day i get closer to accepting it.

Lyrics:

S/M, & NTR, this shit was far from proper love
you know i did some self reflecting and what i felt 
it wasn't lust
oh i been missing you and lately i can't even fill my cup
only upping
higher dosages i hope they fuck me up
don't even look at other women even now at 14 months
you've seeded so deep in my head i feel like i can't even drop
i've written many songs in past tense and i'll prolly write some more
maybe spend my whole life coping bout the girl i wanted more

i guess the chapter closed a while ago it's time to end it off
but i've got fear of letting go and i can't take another loss
i know you'll probably listen in
i know you'll probably hear this song
i'm taking something over nothing cuz your memory is all i got
a couple friends i made since knowing you could vouch
that i wasn't doing well for a while by myself
and even through it all i honest really wish you well
and if you haven't hope you get shit figured out <3

rumination (prod. whyke)

lyrics

soon ill find out this shit taste like water when its late
i hope you satisfied my face stuck gray
youre gold, but i wear silver chains
yall make sure my funeral dont happen in the rain
they counted forty arrows when they made the case
i swear these crows dont do nothing for you except get you stuck
baby my cart is low so when we chill can you bring the blunt
cause im tryna smoke
im tryna smoke so much
im not the same man that you thought you knew
how better i was

i been pouring up some purple potions gotta better my flaws
youre right that i aint get the notion but still i called you
i think you think i have it easy baby what would you do if you were me
but who is me
swear im better off writing my eulogy
im so full of me
at the same time felt a decline in the way that im viewing me
im scraping up rust off my armor maybe that way i could get clean
i feel the atoms that make my being whole just fold and rot and die
she pour out red wine but she rolling brown eyes
i cant fight this battle baby theres a thorn in my side
it feels like too much energy just to try to survivie
i got none left im giving out pieces of my soul for this shit but the songs dropping right?
the songs drop on time
i fought a hard battle but the sword has dulled through time
i put this lighter to the blunt and watch it shine
it look just like a shooting star when im passing by

soon ill find out this shit taste like water when its late
i hope you satisfied my face stuck gray
youre gold, but i wear silver chains
yall make sure my funeral dont happen in the rain
they counted forty arrows when they made the case
i swear these crows dont do nothing for you except get you stuck
baby my cart is low so when we chill can you bring the blunt
cause im tryna smoke
im tryna smoke so much
im not the same man that you thought you knew
how better i was

better i was

thought u knew how better i was

scraping off the rust (p. kaydo)

prod hollowprpl
guitar by me

lyrics


hes gone now
and all he ever wanted was to be loved
can u calm down 
lately girl i know im messing up
oh im pissed now
and i can only focus what ive done
im a bitch now
i dont think it matters anymore
shut the fuck up
i dont wanna talk about this now
i just thrown up
like 2 or three times , im coming down
im just a no one 
and ill be nothing until im dirt
theres blood in my snot
and in my lungs and it fucking hurts

it costs me my life
cuz i cant be sane again here in my mind
im alone
i see the sympathy die by the window
i really miss what we had
am i too cold?

the constants in my life arent constant anymore 
between you and me im not sober no more
i can die freely, id have no remorse
the meaning of life is to love and mines no more 
oh im horrible

hes gone now
and all he ever wanted was to be loved
can u calm down 
lately girl i know im messing up
oh im pissed now
and i can only focus what ive done
im a bitch now
i dont think it matters anymore
shut the fuck up
i dont wanna talk about this now
i just thrown up
like 2 or three times , im coming down
im just a no one 
and ill be nothing until im dirt
theres blood in my snot
and in my lungs and it fucking hurts

it’s not your fault. (hollowprpl x ash.)

Jesus Christ died so you can live, Put away your flesh ❤️

{Lyrics}

Big body
Flex big body 
Flex big body
Flex big body

I cannot waste no more time
Satan tryna hit my line
(Woah)
In Christ I’m defined
Speakin that scripture its in my mind
(Woah)
Christ is at my side
Waiting for heaven I’m in alignment
I keep my eyes vibrant
Speak the Word I wont be silent

We pullin and we bringing the wave
Christ is the king theres nothing else to say
I’m fighting demons every single day
They cannot harm me, they cant get away
Wake up in the morning, brush my teeth and pray
Making this music til i can decay
Shape by the Lord, like I was made of clay
Satan so mad man you should see his face
Demons think they slick we finna plan attacks

We got spirit weapons no we cannot lack
Where’s the way I got the map
Big body Janilaphat x2

Janilaphat (Prod. Jan)

@imhalfhearted on insta <3

“halfhearted” on spotify

gray

fault line [jacob vallen]

halfhearted

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