Misery and Despair

deftones - mascara

deftones - sextape ( slightly pitched down )

cherry waves - deftones

lyrics:

I try my best but I’m still fucking it up
your scent is poison and it’s fucking my lungs
the thought of trying makes me wanna give up
try to do everything but it’s not enough

I need a hand, just a little reinforcement 
cuz I’d do anything to make you feel important
show you that your special, I tried and you ignore it
I been lying and you know it
The love is lying dormant
I hate waking up and not knowing my importance
The effort isn’t showing
The hate is getting potent
Can’t look up at the clock, my time is getting shortened
I been fighting for my life wondering when the fuck they’ll notice

tryna open the doors, can’t find an escape
maybe it’s karma or maybe it’s fate
start to think I’m the problem and I shoulda changed
i wanted things and I got them but I’m still the same
I wanted to be someone you could depend on
Someone to be there when you need a hand or something else
A shoulder to cry on when you’re not well
I wanted to be that, can you believe that?
After everything I’ve done
But I could never be that, am I dumb?
I been shooting for the moon,stars,and the sun

I try my best but I’m still fucking it up
your scent is poison and it’s fucking my lungs
the thought of trying makes me wanna give up
try to do everything but it’s not enough

I need a hand, just a little reinforcement 
cuz I’d do anything to make you feel important
show you that your special, I tried and you ignore it
I been lying and you know it
The love is lying dormant
I hate waking up and not knowing my importance
The effort isn’t showing
The hate is getting potent
Can’t look up at the clock, my time is getting shortened
I been fighting for my life wondering when the fuck they’ll notice

potent

lyrics:
won't you take my hand
give me one last dance with you
one more chance will do
I'll be the man you choose
I'm far too late
but I can't move on
you dance with him but it's to our song

I guess I'll go
I'll run away
accept that our love is a memory
just a memory
ohhhh ohh oh
out my head 
can't get no rest 
I rather be dead cause it's all
just a memory

I'm far too late
but I can't move on
you dance with him but it's to our song

I guess I'll go
I'll run away
accept that our love is a memory
just a memory
ohhhh ohh oh
sit back reminisce again
seems I cannot make amends
showed you love until the end
now its just a memory
sit back reminisce again
seems I cannot make amends
showed you love until the end
not its just a memory

imxero - memory

lyrics:

I don’t really like to say what’s on mind
feel like my hands and tongue are tied when I’m with you
when I’m with you
(x2)


you said “talk to me when you need it”
what’s the point if you don’t mean it?
too many missed calls
give me a reason
you don’t listen when I’m grieving 

I’ve been looking left and right for a reason
get excited when you’re leaving for the weekend
ima make a couple bands off the feeling
I just need a pen and paper, I don’t need them

tell me where you at when I’m hurting?
I can’t say a word without feeling like a burden

(yeah yeah yeah)

always feeling uncertain
gotta cut em off, close the blinds and the curtains

you don’t know what you do to me
fuck round with my head like you can’t believe 
I’m fine, I’ll be better when you fucking leave

(yeah yeah yeah)

I don’t really like to say what’s on mind
feel like my hands and tongue are tied when I’m with you
when I’m with you
(x2)

tongue tied

produced by grayskies

lyrics:

it takes time to materialize your fantasies
in due time i'll find myself a remedy
or write songs, obsessing bout the melody
i'm headstrong but it's bout time that it gets to me

i shut down and shut my mouth
tryna save some face
a clenched jaw and a sweat drop

bout a second fore i break
if it all falls down
just know i gave it my all
til there was not more i could take
i don't call
and now they're saying that i changed up
it fucks my brain up
(x2)

they don't even try to see where i'm coming from
cuz when i needed it more, i had no one
but i don't even blame em for it
yeah, i would never shame em for it
i'd hate but i can't afford it

i'm way too focused on me
i'm giving into my hopes and greed
but they try to paint like it's much worse than it seems
and they wonder why i'm tearing at the seams
i try to bear it til i

shut down and shut my mouth
tryna save some face
a clenched jaw and a sweat drop

bout a second fore i break
if it all falls down
just know i gave it my all
til there was not more i could take
i don't call
and now they're saying that i changed up
it fucks my brain up
(x2)

break

produced by grayskies

lyrics:

I still save a seat for you
it’s just out of habit
I can’t remembered what happened

it’s like I blinked then you’re gone
it’s not the same place without you
don’t think I forgot you
why does it feel so wrong?
hate to go on but I got to 
My words never got through
and they won’t cuz you’re gone

there’s this void inside my chest
inside my head, I can’t fill it
don’t know the last thing I said,
the last thing we did
why couldn’t I cry that day?
no tears streaming down my face

I wish I could say goodbye- bye- bye 
would I feel the same?
or would I get peace of mind? - mind - mind
wish we could go back frame by frame
take it all away
one more time

but we don’t get what we ask for

why am I breaking down
I’m feeling it now
there’s no use in hiding when no one's around
I’ll figure it out
I won’t make a sound
I’ll keep it to myself like it’s all I’m allowed
I still save a seat for you
Only if I knew 
We’d be stuck like glue
Til the end

it’s like I blinked then you’re gone
it’s not the same place without you
don’t think I forgot you
why does it feel so wrong?
hate to go on but I got to 
My words never got through
and they won’t cuz you’re gone

still save a seat for you / don't worry about me

still save a seat for you

throwaway

I’ve turned through every page in the book
still don’t know if I shouldn’t or I should
cuz you taste so bittersweet 
it’s like it shouldn’t have been me
but I can’t lie to you, it feels so good

feel like I should’ve known better
is this everything I wanted?
cuz I got it but I wish that i could-

take a u-turn, let it crumble
watch it burn down into rubble 
hoping that you go and find another one of me 

bitch I wish you would
but you prolly could
(oh why?)

wish u would

Thrilliam Angels I Might Break But I Wont SLOWED TO PERFECTION

prod. grayskies

[LYRICS]
I remember what you did
You told me that you’d stay
I gave you my whole heart
And you just threw it all away
What we had it wasn’t perfect
But I still think that I’d say
I really really loved you
Even if it was all fake

And somehow I still wish you stayed

I knew we weren’t perfect
But I still tried to wait
I thought it would get better
Could you tell me if I’m late
I’m trying to find the feeling in my heart
That your love gave
This love I can’t forget
And now I realize it was fake

Oh what do I do?
I still think about you
Oh what do I do, I do, I do
Oh what do i do?
I still think about you
Oh what do I do?

I remember what you did
You told me that you’d stay
I gave you my whole heart
And you just threw it all away
What we had it wasn’t perfect
But I still think that I’d say
I really really loved you
Even if it was all fake

And somehow I still wish you stayed

I knew we weren’t perfect
But I still tried to wait
I thought it would get better
Could you tell me if I’m late
I’m trying to find the feeling in my heart
That your love gave
This love I can’t forget
And now I realize it was fake

I remember what you did
You told me that you’d stay
I gave you my whole heart
And you just threw it all away

fake

otuka - alive (scrapped extended demo)

[LYRICS]
Sometimes I wish you never came
I was fine before I heard your name
But then you came around and changed me
Now I'll never be the same
Oh will I trust again
Troubled minds am I insane?
No you're the one to blame
No you're the one to blame
Girl you're the one to-
These nights I've cried my tears go fast
I've got nothing left for me to last
I can't take no more, of the lies oh can
I lean on you before I collapse
Still stuck in the past
Oh I might collapse
Sometimes I wish you never came
I was fine before I heard your name
But then you came around and changed me
Now I'll never be the same
Oh will I trust again
Troubled minds am I insane?
No you're the one to blame
No you're the one to blame
Girl you're the one to blame

(adlibs for 2nd drop)
Am I insane? please tell me now
I might collapse, my legs feel hollow
You let me fall you let me down
I can't get up myself please  tell me how

prod. Rick Hardy

collapse

[LYRICS]

You pierced my heart right through my chest
I didn’t want this thing to end
Now I’m bleeding out my body
Would you hold me till I’m dead
Hold me till I’m dead
The blood you’ve spilled my darling
Both your hands are stained with red
So hold me till I’m dead
Hold me till I’m dead
Please just hold me till I'm-
It hurts my heart to say your name
The cadence of you brings me pain
Act innocent but you’ve got stains
Like falling glass I feel the rain like my tears
Got cuts that you might fear
We're not the same my dear
So save yourself
And get away from here
You pierced my heart right through my chest
I didn’t want this thing to end
Now I’m bleeding out my body
Would you hold me till I’m dead
Hold me till I’m dead
The blood you’ve spilled my darling
Both your hands are stained with red
So hold me till I’m dead
Hold me till I’m dead
Please just hold me till I'm dead
So hold me till I’m dead
Hold me till I’m dead
Please just hold me till I'm dead

till I'm dead

Virtue is just something that you buy

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Lyrics - "Be Quiet And Drive (Far Away)"

This town dont feel mine
I'm fast to get away-FAR 

I dressed you in her clothes
Now drive me far - away, away, away 

It feels good to know your mine
Now drive me far - away, away, away
FAR away
I dont care where just FAR - away [x3]
And I dont care 

FAR - away
And I dont care where just FAR - away [x3]

break

otuka

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