It fucks my brain up. Bout a second till I-

criminally underrated 🙂‍↔️ otuka the 🐐

i cant tell if its a girl or a boy in the back

back in business

produced by elavy

lyrics: 

tell me what you think about when you're laying in bed
tell me all the things you ever wish you could've said
tell me everything you'd like to do before you're dead
tell me that instead
tell me your regrets

tell me what's on your mind
tell me your biggest fears
tell me what you think of when no one else is here
tell me what you would say if no one else could hear
there's not a single soul besides us my dear
x2

tell me what you want
what would you do for it?
something that you lost but now you're used to it
no matter the cost
just tell me what it is
get anything you want, if you got life to give
I'm stuck and I can't get out
can't remember my way in now
the ceilings caving down
can't remember when I last heard a sound
too late for saving now but I'd rather swim than drown
my heart is pacing now
be quick cuz I'm fading out

tell me would you self yourself for some cash flow
a little dinero, you don't gotta say no
you want it, just say so
no need to aim low
don't worry bout a halo baby
you're not an angel

tell me your regrets
don't hold 'em back
tell me what you wish you said
no strings attached
searching for something you need, something you lack
I think I understand why you still can't relax

tell me what's on your mind
tell me your biggest fears
tell me what you think of when no one else is here
tell me what you would say if no one else could hear
there's not a single soul besides us my dear
x2

tell me your regrets

lyrics:
won't you take my hand
give me one last dance with you
one more chance will do
I'll be the man you choose
I'm far too late
but I can't move on
you dance with him but it's to our song

I guess I'll go
I'll run away
accept that our love is a memory
just a memory
ohhhh ohh oh
out my head 
can't get no rest 
I rather be dead cause it's all
just a memory

I'm far too late
but I can't move on
you dance with him but it's to our song

I guess I'll go
I'll run away
accept that our love is a memory
just a memory
ohhhh ohh oh
sit back reminisce again
seems I cannot make amends
showed you love until the end
now its just a memory
sit back reminisce again
seems I cannot make amends
showed you love until the end
not its just a memory

imxero - memory

tell me how it feels to fade away

produced by malcriado 

lyrics:

oh to feel your hands run through my hair again 
to hear you call my name id do it all again
to feel your warmth and body on my skin
to have someone around to call a friend
is that too much to ask for? shall I beg?


I can’t forget 
you know that it’s killing me inside
cuz it should’ve been me instead that night
wonder if they’ll remember me when I die
but we’ll never know 

to hear you call my name id do it all again
to feel your warmth and body on my skin
to have someone around to call a friend
is that too much to ask for? shall I beg?

skin

short outro

lyrics:

Even if it takes a little while
Learned from my mistakes to make you smile
Doing everything to make you proud

I just want to stand right by your side
Watch our hands slowly intertwine 
Let your life turn into mine
Until we’re one and our souls align

even if it takes awhile

produced by grayskies

lyrics:

it takes time to materialize your fantasies
in due time i'll find myself a remedy
or write songs, obsessing bout the melody
i'm headstrong but it's bout time that it gets to me

i shut down and shut my mouth
tryna save some face
a clenched jaw and a sweat drop

bout a second fore i break
if it all falls down
just know i gave it my all
til there was not more i could take
i don't call
and now they're saying that i changed up
it fucks my brain up
(x2)

they don't even try to see where i'm coming from
cuz when i needed it more, i had no one
but i don't even blame em for it
yeah, i would never shame em for it
i'd hate but i can't afford it

i'm way too focused on me
i'm giving into my hopes and greed
but they try to paint like it's much worse than it seems
and they wonder why i'm tearing at the seams
i try to bear it til i

shut down and shut my mouth
tryna save some face
a clenched jaw and a sweat drop

bout a second fore i break
if it all falls down
just know i gave it my all
til there was not more i could take
i don't call
and now they're saying that i changed up
it fucks my brain up
(x2)

break

produced by grayskies

lyrics:

I still save a seat for you
it’s just out of habit
I can’t remembered what happened

it’s like I blinked then you’re gone
it’s not the same place without you
don’t think I forgot you
why does it feel so wrong?
hate to go on but I got to 
My words never got through
and they won’t cuz you’re gone

there’s this void inside my chest
inside my head, I can’t fill it
don’t know the last thing I said,
the last thing we did
why couldn’t I cry that day?
no tears streaming down my face

I wish I could say goodbye- bye- bye 
would I feel the same?
or would I get peace of mind? - mind - mind
wish we could go back frame by frame
take it all away
one more time

but we don’t get what we ask for

why am I breaking down
I’m feeling it now
there’s no use in hiding when no one's around
I’ll figure it out
I won’t make a sound
I’ll keep it to myself like it’s all I’m allowed
I still save a seat for you
Only if I knew 
We’d be stuck like glue
Til the end

it’s like I blinked then you’re gone
it’s not the same place without you
don’t think I forgot you
why does it feel so wrong?
hate to go on but I got to 
My words never got through
and they won’t cuz you’re gone

still save a seat for you / don't worry about me

still save a seat for you

enjoy the funky little intermission. 
take a break, dance a little, breathe.
back to work i go but we'll be back soon,
all love always.

produced by yogic


lyrics:

baby listen to my voice
cuz I can teach you everything
you just gotta make a choice
don’t gotta give up anything
just the thing that brings you joy
can you hear me through 
the songs you sing
when you’re trying to avoid

baby listen to my voice 
ignoring all your issues
won’t get you out that void
keep on coping and telling yourself 
that you’re doing what you enjoy 
can you hear me through the songs you song
baby listen to my voice


they gonna tell you what you want
but I’ll tell you what you need
everything is said and done
gotta know when you should leave
but the feeling’s so addicting 
can’t let it go
all you gotta do is listen to me
be one and sink into me
I crave your intimacy 
love it when you’re in sync with me
I love the way you smile
love the way you walk around
every breath and every sound
the way my name comes out your mouth


baby listen to my voice
cuz I can teach you everything
you just gotta make a choice
don’t gotta give up anything
just the thing that brings you joy
can you hear me through 
the songs you sing
when you’re trying to avoid

baby listen to my voice 
ignoring all your issues
won’t get you out that void
keep on coping and telling yourself 
that you’re doing what you enjoy 
can you hear me through the songs you song
baby listen to my voice

listen

Bleed

otuka - alive (scrapped extended demo)

[LYRICS]

You pierced my heart right through my chest
I didn’t want this thing to end
Now I’m bleeding out my body
Would you hold me till I’m dead
Hold me till I’m dead
The blood you’ve spilled my darling
Both your hands are stained with red
So hold me till I’m dead
Hold me till I’m dead
Please just hold me till I'm-
It hurts my heart to say your name
The cadence of you brings me pain
Act innocent but you’ve got stains
Like falling glass I feel the rain like my tears
Got cuts that you might fear
We're not the same my dear
So save yourself
And get away from here
You pierced my heart right through my chest
I didn’t want this thing to end
Now I’m bleeding out my body
Would you hold me till I’m dead
Hold me till I’m dead
The blood you’ve spilled my darling
Both your hands are stained with red
So hold me till I’m dead
Hold me till I’m dead
Please just hold me till I'm dead
So hold me till I’m dead
Hold me till I’m dead
Please just hold me till I'm dead

till I'm dead

I saw your eyes looking past the sign
Felt like you were gone but your hand was holding mine
You breath slow, I'm in a place I'd never be
Said you liked the way I talked, but you never even looked at me

Yeah your eyes said more than your lips ever did
Not a lesson I needed back then
And mine still searched crowded
For the way it was back when

I saw your eyes looking past the sign
Felt like you were gone but your hand was holding mine
You breath slow, I'm in a place I'd never be
Said you liked the way I talked, but you never even looked at me
Gunmetal eyes, you stare through mine
Said it was love, but I hope that's what you find
Gunmetal eyes

I kissed the air where you used to stand
You always hated the snow, the way it made things slow
You always made things slow
You always made things slow

I saw your eyes looking past the sign
Felt like you were gone but your hand was holding mine
You breath slow, I'm in a place I'd never be
Said you liked the way I talked, but you never even looked at me
Gunmetal eyes, you stare through mine
Said it was love, but I hope that's what you find
Gunmetal eyes

Gunmetal eyes
Gunmetal eyes

Gunmetal

lyrics:

I can feel the rage filling my veins
It turns me inside out
Stuck your knife deep in my face
I love the pain I need this drought
Watch as the rivers run red
And my heads a mess
Started to let it out
Watch as I rise from the dead
You went for my head
The fire couldn't take me out

Half Empty, don't tempt me
You been looking for a reason to cut me up
You shank me, when I was in need
Smile on your face every time you lost my trust
She sat in the backseat, all night
Hand between her thighs as she tried to hide that knife
She said not to worry, baby
It might be a little pinch, but everything will be alright

Cut me up, cut me up show me my veins yeah
Throughout the night suicide is where my heads at
You took your fangs to my neck and now I'm out of breath
I took a chance with your love and I got too attached

I can feel the rage filling my veins
It turns me inside out
Stuck your knife deep in my face
I love the pain I need this drought
Watch as the rivers run red
And my heads a mess
Started to let it out
Watch as I rise from the dead
You went for my head
The fire couldn't take me out
I can feel the rage filling my veins
It turns me inside out
Stuck your knife deep in my face
I love the pain I need this drought
Watch as the rivers run red
And my heads a mess
Started to let it out
Watch as I rise from the dead
You went for my head
The fire couldn't take me out

Cut me up, cut me up show me my veins yeah
Throughout the night suicide is where my heads at
You took your fangs to my neck and now I'm out of breath
I took a chance with your love and I got too attached

ichor

Look upon Zion, the city of our solemnities: thine eyes shall see Jerusalem a quiet habitation, a tabernacle that shall not be taken down; not one of the stakes thereof shall ever be removed, neither shall any of the cords thereof be broken.

But there the glorious Lord will be unto us a place of broad rivers and streams; wherein shall go no galley with oars, neither shall gallant ship pass thereby.

For the Lord is our judge, the Lord is our lawgiver, the Lord is our king; he will save us.

Thy tacklings are loosed; they could not well strengthen their mast, they could not spread the sail: then is the prey of a great spoil divided; the lame take the prey.

And the inhabitant shall not say, I am sick: the people that dwell therein shall be forgiven their iniquity.






Isaiah 33:20-24
King James Bible

break

otuka

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