realize +mental (maknae & sense)

og: silverstein - aquamarine
ty @llostvision for the inspo

ALSO I NEED A NEW MIC CAUSE THIS $40 CONDENSER AINT DOING IT NO MORE

lyrics:

a ring in a box but not ur dream
its not a diamond, its aquamarine
ur shocking look of self defeat
so desperate...
i think of the place where u fooled me
beside the tarmac u never came clean
im driving past the gruesome scene
I'll never forget this...

i told u I wished that i was dead
my eyes wouldn't open up again :(
i cnt believe i wasn't joking
salt n lime i taste
the sickest thoughts i cnt erase
these images wont stop provoking

u know u could
i wish u would

fall on ur knees and remove the sorrow
return the piece of my heart you borrowed </3
things u used to say
could take the pain away
but now ur gone and we're falling faster
forgetting things that we used to master
games we used to play
could take the pain away...

u packed your shit and went ahead
my mind and my soul were left for dead
i cnt believe u weren't joking
sweat rolls down my face
my bloody knuckles mark the stains
my throat is closing up, I'm choking

u know you could
(u know you could)
i wish u would
(i wish u...)

fall on ur knees and remove the sorrow
return the piece of my heart you borrowed </3
things u used to say
could take the pain away
but now ur gone and we're falling faster
forgetting things that we used to master
games we used to play
could take the pain away...

same bed, we take no precautions
emotions, regret and revenge
the last step in killing the karma
it makes sense from where we've been
the same car same songs same motions
we hold hands, relive how we met
but no talk, no reconciliation
this train's already left

did you think next April
u'd be even further away??
did u keep him faithful
how many nights did you lay awake?
n even six years later
the dialogue, it stays the same
ur 2000 miles away
betrayers never change...

a ring in a box but not from me
its still no diamond, its aquamarine
u'll never find your place of peace
u'll always regret this

fall on ur knees and remove the sorrow
return the piece of my heart you borrowed </3
things u used to say
could take the pain away
but now ur gone and we're falling faster
forgetting things that we used to master
games we used to play
could take the pain away...

art by https://twitter.com/Aioi_oNo

aquamarine cover

prod @ddertbag

lyrics

i lost again ig u just live and learn
i'll play pretend while everything will just burn
but everytime i try it doesn't go so well
so i just gotta hide (it's hard to reach for some help)

do i really have to know wanna stay where im at
can't reach where i wanna go ig im always last
nothing else to do so im wasting all my time 
i can't let it go cannot get it off my mind

scared of what's to come so i just sit back in the background 
scared of messing up so it just almost never works out
does it really matter, nothing feels the same
still i can't remember, can't recall my name

i've been stuck don't feel like going outside my comfort
i have no one else there is no help yea to be offered
slowly losing to myself im having these delusions
it just felt so real yea i fell for the illusion

#LiveAndLearn (ddertbag)

@ogpichu

i got covid.

lyrics:

look me in the eyes
tell me wht u find...
wht should i leave behind?
cuz i feel left behind :/
i'll do it all again
its the same old defense
when im pulling on a thread
its the same old end
will u still be here by tomorrow?
if i take a step will u follow?
im running outta love u can borrow </3
all my love's turning into hollow...

nd i tried 2 put it all together
i tried to run, but it feels like we're jus fking tethered
tethered by our emotions, for worse or better
but now when u speak all i feel is bitterness...

(because thats the way...)
nd i dont understand the things u do
(its meant to be #us)
when im feeling down i think of u
its crazy how i still dont have a clue
cuz this is not wht i wanna do...
yea its over and over
im sick of listening 2 u...
im stuck in october
im looking for some closure
abt u...

look me in the eyes
tell me wht u find...
wht should i leave behind?
cuz i feel left behind :/
i'll do it all again
its the same old defense
when im pulling on a thread
its the same old end
will u still be here by tomorrow?
if i take a step will u follow?
im running outta love u can borrow </3
all my love's turning into hollow...

art by https://twitter.com/Aioi_oNo

here, tomorrow (pichu)

@0arid

karson
don't worry about me
you know I got it handled
cuz I've been missing you 
and I know this is random
I cant get over you
and this is overdue 
I can't communicate
g̶i̶r̶l̶ ̶I̶'̶m̶ ̶i̶n̶ ̶l̶o̶v̶e̶ ̶w̶i̶t̶h̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶
I know it's my fault 
I always fuck it up 
no matter who it is 
why am I so dumb 
and now I fucked my chances 
I'm never enough
I took her for granted 
I'm so fucking dumb 
I don't need you by my side 
don't know how you put up with my lies 
and it's because I'm selfish 
but I cannot help it 
and I really need you in my life
keep her at a distance
little things I miss them
how'd we get so different 
you don't even listen
tell me how I fix this 
tell me how I fix us 
I call you wont pick up
I think we should break up
we fight then we make up

arid
and i cant handle all the changes
yeah i feel so faded when ur gone 
and everything i take it
always still complaining
i dont wanna start i know its wrong
yeah just leave me be
i know its hard to see
its getting hard to breathe
its straying far from me

communicate w/ arid (mxsui & luvpurp)

this song is 6 months old 😭
@resolve1k

i need a break sometimes
i can't cut our ties
i can't say goodbye
heaven knows i tried 
i will waste your time 
like you wasted mine 
why'd you ruin my mind
with the same old lies
i need a break sometimes

i see what you're trying to do and girl it will not work 
i know what you want, and thats to leave me in the dirt
so the next time, when i'm already hurt
i'll find the next one, and i'll treat her worse

cuz you know what you're doing 
you think that i am stupid 
i know i'm fucking useless
it's just too much can't do this 
you're in my way so move it 
why do you act like you're clueless
went behind my back i knew it 
don't think that i can do this

i need a break (inno)

+ @222bino
prod @yashio20k, @rewind214

GUYS IM CHEATING ON BAZ DONT LET HIM FIND OUT (HE'S ILLITLERATE SO HE CAN'T READ THIS I THINK)

@owtiss
things are never how they seem in the first place
feel like im stuck at second place
feel like im always half awake
in my dreams i see ur face

u were never what i thought u were
i played with fire and i got burned
this time it'll be ur turn
u'll see how much it hurts x2

@vin0000
im not the one
always the second
me haz hecho mierda
ahora estoy incompleto 
u broke my heart 
now i feel so depressed 
te quiero bien lejos
feeling incomplete
now im so deep
en mis pensamientos
now its ur turn
to feel how much hurts
cuz u broke my heart
ya no quiero tus besos

3 hrs start to finish :)

second place w/ vin0 (yashio, rewind)

prod by the best: https://soundcloud.com/newgarasu + https://soundcloud.com/recyclexbin
extension + additional production: me

take a picture, its a thousand different words
hundred kisses i dont miss her but it hurts
if she wants it then i got it
if she wants it then i got it
if she wants it then i got it
i dont miss her but it hurts
and the distance is a blessing and a curse
dont know how i wouldve pictured this whole thing to ever work
and now ive got bigger problems
and now its a different process
and now ive shown bigger progress
i dont miss her and it hurts
i dont miss her and it hurts

im moving on to another girl
hey, hi, hello to another girl
im on the phone to another girl
its another world, for the better, girl
and i buy her the things that she wants, i dont care what the cost is
and i buy her the ring that she wants, i dont care when its loving
and i cry on my own, when i am alone
so i hide in the phone, i type in the code, i write in the notes

take a picture, its a thousand different words
hundred kisses i dont miss her but it hurts
if she wants it then i got it
if she wants it then i got it
if she wants it then i got it
i dont miss her but it hurts
and the distance is a blessing and a curse
dont know how i wouldve pictured this whole thing to ever work
and now ive got bigger problems
and now its a different process
and now ive shown bigger progress
i dont miss her and it hurts
i dont miss her and it hurts

picture

instagram.com/0mayflower
@coldspades
@rewind214
@mental 

(may)
stole my heart and i can’t get it back
knew u were the one 
since i saw u after class 
i js wna go back 
to the day that i met u 
when i look up at the stars 
bby i wish for ur love 
cuz i can never get enough 
ur x & o’s is what i want 
its my heart in ur hands so don’t crush it
ima give u all i have
leave me js with nothing

(rewind)
when i saw u after class
knew u were the one, made my heart beat fast
so i chased ur love
i cant do it right, i cant do enough
still regret the night when i messed it up
so cold like the winter
ik that i miss her
soju in my cup, downing shots just to omit her
from my brain
i might go insane
cause i need ur love

(mental)
baby its for everything ive ever said
i can tell by the way u speak ur malevolent
i need better friends and some medicine
i need something that makes me feel like im dead again
gave u something but maybe not what u need
if its not then ill bleed, just accept that im me but,
i can tell thru every word that u speak u love every time u leave and im falling to pieces again
so tell me what u like me for
and ill tell u what i adore
cuz u just make my mind go sore
and i dont wanna fight no more

spotify

wish for your love +mental & rewind (coldspades)

victxrw: https://soundcloud.com/victxrw
metis: https://soundcloud.com/metisxx
tonari: https://soundcloud.com/ton_bo0

lyrics: (´｡• ᵕ •｡`) ♡
girl come with me i'm ridin thru ur city
i'm with the gang got all my bros with me
and i don't need nobody else
but if you're down then shordi let's go, out
i've been movin way too fast i needa slow, down
'cause all these fuckin thoughts are addin' up

mixin up the bape, yeah, i just copped the prada
singin on this shit, yeah, i'm feelin' like gaga
pop another pill 'til i reach nirvana
wake up in the morning think i hit rock bottom
movin' reckless, slide the whip too fast
friends switchin' up had to leave 'em in the past
hittin' rodeo, empty out a bag
now i flex on 'em it make me laugh
anything you want from me, girl, you're the one for me
i would empty out the sea
just for you to come here, and for me to go there

girl come with me i'm ridin thru ur city
i'm with the gang got all my bros with me
and i don't need nobody else
but if you're down then shordi let's go, out
i've been movin way too fast i needa slow, down
'cause all these fuckin thoughts are addin' up

she think that it's my fault, and i say that it's my bad
now that your gone, im with crew i'm kinda glad
i'm livin good, eatin the best, don't wanna brag
take my hand, i could show you something you never had
why don't you come with me, come to my place
i got a new crib, i'm in an estate
i'll go wherever you go starting today
all i wanna know is if you're okay

girl come with me i'm ridin thru ur city
i'm with the gang got all my bros with me
and i don't need nobody else
but if you're down then shordi let's go, out
i've been movin way too fast i needa slow, down
'cause all these fuckin thoughts are addin' up

second place w/ vin0 (yashio, rewind)

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