don't mind the weather 
makes me feel better
don't care if I shiver 
mouth is all bitterly sweet
from all of the tea

smoking on pressure
you are a treasure
ill do whatever 
you want me to do 
ill do it for you

don't mind the weather 
makes me feel better
don't care if I shiver 
mouth is all bitterly sweet
from all of the tea

hunker down 
fall asleep
go ahead and breathe

fall asleep
go ahead and breathe

tea [Prod. idealism]

#1
@domerrz
@victxrw
@mental

[@domerrz]
every night, i'm waking up
wonder why you given up, dont give a fuck 
i've been hurt a thousand times, i've been struck :/
people that I shouldn't love, I shouldn't trust

out of time and out of love running out of luck
and it all comes from my heart, if i lose this one then im done

i hate being stuck so i had 2 give it up
how'd u say u win
u been stuck at 10th
but u think ur number 1

[@victxrw]
i thought u were bluffing
eveything i did for u, it feels like nothing...
all this violence i cnt handle, pushing and shoving
look at it from a different angle, make up for smth

feels like im in a pit of darkness @_@
feels like im trapped inside this carcass
of my past self, im never perfect :/
tell me baby was i never worth it?

(was i rlly worth it, no?)

(i was never perfect, oh)

spotify

#fromtheheart w/ victxrw (mental)

big cypher with some of my frIends ^_^ (tysm for the support recently)
thank you guys for being apart of this ily <3
@rewind214 @222bino @valberrie @law16lie @29cengi @1kidsora @lifegiverr @lukebike @breakupbreakdown @mis4ortune @sawlvy @ilyexotic @nvrfallen @noahsuri @bloodl3ak @alrunaxo @xternalz @sshiro @user-241106459 @i6neiru @gloomed
mastered by me ofc c;
s/o @gaugemountedthisone for mixing lukes vocals <3
s/o @tzunahmie for helping out aswell <3
s/o @yureiclub + @souls0ciety <3
prod @metisxx + @ton_bo0 <3
timestamps:
0:17 - 0:51 (me)
0:52 - 1:08 (rewind)
1:09 - 1:25 (vin0)
1:26 - 1:43 (valberrie)
1:43 - 2:00 (lawlie)
2:01 - 2:17 (cengi)
2:18 - 2:34 (kid sora)
2:35 - 2:52 (etterna/life)
2:53 - 3:09 (lukebike)
3:10 - 3:26 (breakupbreakdown)
3:26 - 3:43 (mis4ortune)
3:44 - 4:00 (sawlvy)
4:01 - 4:18 (eczotic)
4:19 - 4:35 (nvrfallen)
4:36 - 4:50 (noahsuri)
4:51 - 5:26 (bloodl3ak)
5:26 - 5:43 (alruna)
5:44 - 6:01 (xternalz)
6:01 - 6:18 (shiro)
6:18 - 6:35 (mika)
6:36 - 6:52 (i6neiru)
6:53 - 7:09 (gloomed)
7:10 - 7:44 (me again)
lyrics will be on genius or sum too much text smh

talk about it cypher

talk about it cypher + rewind, vin0, valberrie, lawlie, cengi, kid sora & more (metis x tonari)

i tried something different 
mastered by me <3
we mixed our own vocals
featuring one of the ogs @noahsuri <3
produced by @whereisnomu ^_^
[hook]
yeah, you always complained i was never enough.
you turned me down everytime i tried showing you love.
you never pulled me through you would always shove.
what will you do when i decide to give up?

i swear everytime you call my phone i get anxiety.
leave me alone, writing thoughts in my diary.
it's too dark can someone shine their light on me?
i bet you never once even thought of me.
[noahsuri]
i think you never once even thought of me
quit playing baby what you want from me
pick up the phone yeah im falling to me knees
when im reminded of you i feel so weak

i really hate seeing old memories 
cuz everytime i do my mind cant compete
yeah all i wanna do is get back on my feet
but its so hard if you push away from me

i really like u but u push away, u dont feel the same at all
you were the part of me i wish that never left
you were the part of me that i never had

and thats why its so hard to let go of you
but i know the right thing for me to do
i feel weak without you
i dont wanna be without you
[hook]
yeah, you always complained i was never enough.
you turned me down everytime i tried showing you love.
you never pulled me through you would always shove.
what will you do when i decide to give up?

i swear everytime you call my phone i get anxiety.
leave me alone, writing thoughts in my diary.
it's too dark can someone shine their light on me?
i bet you never once even thought of me.

the wounds you left

on spotify  >.<

the wounds you left + noahsuri (nomu)

prod: @loveismisery
mixed: @andremoire & @1vacy 

Lyrics

@andremoire
Yeah I'm done with all the lies
You have zero fucking dignity
Stop acting like youre shy
You say it's so damn hard to put up dealing with a guy
That's funny coming from a bitch who said she wished I died
Glock on my left yeah you know I stay strapped
Dont fuck with me or that breath gon be your last yeah
Eyes on me cause they know that Im crazy
I think I miss you bad yeah as of lately

@1vacy 
i just hate tha fact tht u where lying
baby i was trying
i just hate tht feeling i was sitting all in silence
i just feel like crying 
but i just sit and bare it because 
atleast i aint dying

embarrassed

vacy & arrivals - embarrassed (kyoa)

@ddertbag

i dont wna talk to u, cause u toxic
and i got voices in my head nd they talkin
she gon slide up in my dms cause im ballin
i jus been hanging on the edge think im fallin
dont know how to stop it

she callin up my phone
but i cant pick up
ima stay wit my bros
no i cnt switch up
im in my room recording songs while smoking swishers
she bad asf nd she wanna take a picture

she not important 2 me yea she just a filler
these girls b fightin over me jus like they bidders
if her ass fat u kno she the winner
stackin all my racks they stand tall like a pillar

i walked into saks n spent a bag on some clothes
yea they be textin me i cant fw these hoes
#2k23 yea ima go up wit my bros
this money comin in everyday u already know

she callin up my phone
but i cant pick up
ima stay wit my bros
no i cnt switch up
im in my room recording songs while smoking swishers
she bad asf nd she wanna take a picture

she callin up my phone
but i cant pick up
yea i be castin fuckin spells jus like a wizard
i might take yo fuckin bitch yea im the rizzler
she wna fuck but i dont een wanna kiss her

picture (ddertbag)

decided to make a part 2 for https://soundcloud.com/1akura/lost-all-i-got-02ashes-1
prod drmabeats
lyrics:

that day u told me its over
nowadays its all i think ab
ur heartt gets cold like october
cn u pls tell me wen things went right south
whts on ur mind, can u pls let it out
1 day ur fine, the next u yell so loud
idk why i cant figure this out
idk why i cant figure this out

my tears r falling the thoughts when i still think of u
tryna move on becuz i do not wanna see this thru
n all those wrds u said to me u know they hurt me 2
u lie alot i hope that karma comes right back 2 u

my tears r falling the thoughts when i still think of u
tryna move on becuz i do not wanna see this thru
n all those wrds u said to me u know they hurt me 2
u lie alot i hope that karma comes right back 2 u

when its time ill come out
from this mess out my shell
say ur fine i cant tell
(tht ur really not)
but i guess time will tell
when will i find myself
stuck in the pits of hell
(ik u never cared)

now im done stop tryin
u tried to take it all from me
yea i stopped, stopped cryin
from memories that made me bleed
yea im done stop tryin
ur somethin that ill never need
ur evil stay away ffrom me
i swear that ur heart is full of greed

whts on ur mind, can u pls let it out
1 day ur fine, the next u yell so loud
idk why i cant figure this out
idk why i cant figure this out

my tears r falling the thoughts when i still think of u
tryna move on becuz i do not wanna see this thru
n all those wrds u said to me u know they hurt me 2
u lie alot i hope that karma comes right back 2 u

my tears r falling the thoughts when i still think of u
tryna move on becuz i do not wanna see this thru
n all those wrds u said to me u know they hurt me 2
u lie alot i hope that karma comes right back 2 u

lost all i got pt. 2

@ihateukidu ^^ 

u gave me sum to believe in, you left, time to let it go
ive lost so much dont even care its time i walk this road alone
i cannot get it back
all of the times weve had
how did it get this bad
i wish id do it all again

i cannot get back x6
all of the times we had x6
x2


fuck it all i guess its over
one look at you fucked up to sober
im looking at these pictures on my phone
tears runnin down my cheek 
i cant stand the thought of me being alone
its really damaging

(ohhh, just forget ab it
yea ill just forget ab it
ohhh, these thoughts r makin me go violent
ohhh, just forget ab it
i cannot forget ab it
all dese fuckn memories r rushin back makin me go violent)

u gave me sum to believe in, you left, time to let it go
ive lost so much dont even care its time i walk this road alone
i cannot get it back
all of the times weve had
how did it get this bad
i wish id do it all again

i cannot get back x6
all of the times we had x6
x2

song inspo by @whyhaze and @mental

get it back (kidu)

instagram.com/melodramalovestory
@mental
art by @tsubakinoniwa on twiter

every single second 
every single moment 
u kno that i’ll always be there for u 
and if ur ever crying and u need somebody u kno that i’ll always make time for u 
and i had my heart on lock 
but u grab the key and u twist it 
the feeling of being in love think i miss it
replay it over again 
bc ur stuck in my head 
since the day that we first met 

on and on inside my mind 
a concept i can’t find it 
a feeling i js fight with 
to no end 

its okay to cry 
look me in eyes 
tell me what u find
cuz i can’t see the light 
i js need answer 
i js need a why 
yeahh 
js give me some time 

im falling wait floating 
tell me how u feel in the moment 
i dont wna fall can’t look down
head held high im up in the clouds 

when u left me that one time 
know it was the worst time 
cried all night last night 
wait until the sunrise 
x2

every single second (mental)

Prod @m2monroe and @jichuuu 
TYSM FOR LISTENING :D
//
Lyrics:

I cant ever look, back, not now
After all you took
yeah you ran right out
I don’t want to talk
You leave me in doubt 
Yeah you left me in shock
Couldn’t figure you out
Couldn’t figure you out

Nothing’s left in my head
I cant find a way to look ahead
I cant keep living on this way
Chasing the past when it runs way

Stop looking back there’s nothing left
No taking back the heart in my chest
Just want to move on and fix this mess
What we’ve been through we can’t forget

This just doesn’t seem right
And I cant just move on
Everything feels so wrong
Now you left and you’re gone
I’m stuck here chasing the past
I didn’t know it wouldn’t last

Don’t run, don’t run away from me
So done, so done I can’t even breathe
Never could feel the same
No chance at looking behind
Guess it’s a side twist of fate
We were intertwined

I cant look back now
After all you took
yeah you ran right out
I don’t want to talk
You leave me in doubt 
Yeah you left me in shock
Couldn’t figure you out
Couldn’t figure you out

Nothing’s left in my head
I cant find a way to look ahead
I cant keep living on this way
Chasing the past when it runs way

Stop looking back there’s nothing left
No taking back the heart in my chest
Just want to move on and fix this mess
What we’ve been through we can’t forget

Nothing’s left in my head
I cant find a way to look ahead
I cant keep living on this way
Chasing the past when it runs away

chasing the past

chasing the past (jichu + monroe)

prod by @victxrw go show him sum love too :)

oh parallels carousels
lock myself in a citadel
spin around falling down
garden bells planted in the ground
and im not coming back but now im scared as hell
and its too hard for me to tell u how i felt
and now im staring down into an empty well
and when the flowers bloom i wont know how to tell

im systematic always paniced
i cant think my minds just static
my moods sporadic too dramatic
hear your voice hide in the attic
and i never wanna come back
see myself falling through the cracks
hearts racing running laps
tell myself i just need too relax
deep breaths breathe in
i just wish my heart wasnt beating

oh parallels carousels
lock myself in a citadel
spin around falling down
garden bells planted in the ground
and im not coming back but now im scared as hell
and its too hard for me to tell u how i felt
and now im staring down into an empty well
and when the flowers bloom i wont know how to tell

oh parallels carousels
and when the flowers bloom i wont know how to tell

carousel

carousel (victxrw)

ᨒ↟ ˚˖𓍢ִ໋✧.⋆˚˖𓍢ִ໋`𓇢𓆸*:.｡.

carousel (victxrw)

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