it's hard to be
like me
so lonely

it's not hard to see
I'm empty
---
I go to bed alone again
this pain seems to never end
i know what i crave
i know what i need
---
i need somebody to hold me tight
i need somebody to hold me through the night
i need somebody to hold me and make me feel alright
just for the night
---
it's so hard to see
the positivity

it's not hard to see
that i'm so needy

i think about the times again
when i could make it to the end
but right now 
it's not hard to see
i know what i need
---
i need somebody to hold me tight
i need somebody to hold me through the night
i need somebody to hold me and make me feel alright
just for the night

I Need Somebody

corrupt, degrade,
descend, insane
crucify
antagonize
i dance in shadow
and in light
i never sleep 
i never die

fleeting joy
call of the void
splatter, abhor
it's such a chore
it hurts me more than it does you
i will close my eyes and see
just how bittersweet art can be

ごめんなさい
本当ですか？
おやすみ
さようなら

sorry i'm not allowed
in your house
anymore

sorry for making you leak
pools of blood
on the floor

i know it's permanent
stained the walls
a crimson red

but i think it's so beautiful
as it leaves
from your head

shatter, erase,
slaughter, kill, destroy, and annihilate
remove any trace
of imperfection left in your imperfect state
beauty lies on the inside
and inside of you are shining  scarlet streaks
i must present these
paintings of purity to everyone unclean

capture this moment
with magnificent strokes
for all eternity

Paintings of Hanako

i've seen your face plastered somewhere before
in my dreams of goon sacks, surf, and emu wars
but now i can't recall its all a blur
i think i was in love, i can't remember

it was on a beach in queensland, the sky was full of clouds
the only words i heard were coming out of your mouth
saw beauty within the hardship that will lie ahead
then i spoke but i forgot what i said

oh well
it doesn't matter anyways
thoughts that i could never orchestrate
but now i have ideas no better than the pipe dreams of a child
of you and i and no one else exchanging awkward smiles
i don't think i'll ever be the same i'm not sure if i will be okay
because it won't go away it won't go away
why won't it go away why won't it go

where nobody can find us
somewhere in australia
where no one can remind us
that we don't belong

dead kokoro, it comes and goes and won't return the same
it stops and kills, it's such a thrill when it misbehaves
catching birds with shotgun shells and old 7.62
it's okay to hate me 'cause i hate myself too

////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////

the most beautiful temple that i've ever seen
plastered across the front page of magazines
in my dreams
it's calling out to me
what a scene
it wants to see me bleed

i'd rather watch it all burn down to the ground
than see it everyday and know that i must live without
okay
engulf it all in flame
what a thought
it wants to watch me rot

when i looked back i saw
a vision from the past
i let it come and gnaw
a hole straight through my back
it intertwined with me
and i found a piece of you
inside my flesh between
the things that i couldn't lose

embers and ash
from things i can not have
embers and ash
from things i can not have
embers and ash
from things i can not have
embers and ash
from things i can not have
embers and ash
from things i can not have

Australophilia / The Fire in Yamabiko Forest

"tomorrow we're skipping class to go to haleiwa
bring your surfboard or we'll leave ya
don't tell me that you're not going!
we're gonna go fuck with the tourists
don't feel bad for them
they wanna see us dead
out here it's locals only
push them off the edge"

they don't care about kamakura
or the best pointbreaks in california
don't get them started on australia
haole don't surf, i'm caught in all the mania
and i wiped out onto the shoreline
got sucked right back into the ocean

haole don't surf

PAINNNNN

Black Ops

No Funeral

Lyrics:

Why is it that you don't see what I do?
Different realities.
Why is it that when I say what I think,
Everyone hates me?

The language that we speak has been corrupted secretly to make us hate each other though we're all the same.
Everything we say is being twisted in these games we play,
No one even listens anyway.

Why can't we understand each other?
Two different languages.
Why do you even try to fit in?
You're fucking lying!

They've changed the definitions of the words we speak to make us think we hate each other now we're not the same.
Maybe if we told the truth and listened to each other then our realities would be the same again.

I'll never see, I'll never see, I'll never see I'll never see!
I'll never see, I'll never see, I'll never see, I'll never see!
I'll never see, I'll never see, I'll never see the world the same again!

You'll never see, You'll never see, You'll never see, You'll never see! 
You'll never see, You'll never see, You'll never see, You'll never see! 
You'll never see, You'll never see, You'll never see how it was meant to be!

How it was meant to be!

The language that we speak has been corrupted secretly and now the open rift I fear is here to stay.
There's no getting out of here, They're controlling us through fear,
The world will never be the same again...

Newspeak

this is a demo cover of nothing ever feels right by gezebelle gaburgably
instrumental by @nationofnoone
vocal/mix by me

i had a lot of fun making this i hope u enjoy :3

nothing ever feels right feat. nation of no one *DEMO* (gezebelle gaburagly cover)

Buscando las palabras

i never knew the others
never even knew myself
my mind is in the gutter
just take all my problems somewhere else
im just dazed and confused
i dont know what the hell im supposed to do

i dont like my music
because it never stands out from the crowd
while i know that nothing is perfect
i still hate the way all my songs sound
ive got a chronic migraine
sine waves in my brain

i want to apologize
to all the people that i've let down
the weight of my actions will not realize
until im six feet underground
so sad that everybody dies
it happens to all of us at some point in time
and one day i will have to drop this facade
and admit that i have a fear of god

Fear of God

Pity Party DEMO

howzit!! o(^_^)b
人人人人　へ( ﾟｪﾟ)＿ 人人人人

Fear of God

Pacific Purgatory

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