ultimate midwest emo mixtape

lyrics:
do you know how much i love you
i was down bad still put nothing else above you
i told you all my secrets know it cut through
told you all my moves even shit i could run through

i was in the dirt
picked me out the mud, its like no matter how it hurt
you was by side before i ended in a hearse
swear that you a angel cause you finally lift the curse

i was trippin just to live, you seen the hunger in my soul
you aint even need no diamonds just to say you played your role
loyal to the grave, swear that bond dont ever fold
now its foreign whips and flights, you the only one i hold

you was there when i had nothing
now we counting up in silence
had to hustle through the pain
but you the reason i aint wildin

gave my heart when it was broke
you aint flinch you just stood beside it
want to keep you to myself
but i swear my heart cannot hide it

gave my trust, you never folded, swear you never once denied it
i was lost, you showed the way, like heaven came and just provided
all the pain that we been through, swear we never got divided
you the one i prayed for, i swear this feeling been invited

how much

lyrics:
you probably ‘ready know this
but my soul is pretty ugly
that's why i never feel myself now
'less i'm leaning on a substance

everybody way too normal
i'm informal and i'm fucked up
and i hate to disappoint you
when i still cant get my bucks up

skin crawling out my flesh now
everything i learned to hate
i used to burn it in a blunt
and send it up to outer space

but i'm unstable and psychotic
way i'm feeling as of late
its like i'm stuck in Silent Hill
in here forever shall i wait

suicide when i think about my fate
i know its do or die if i still cant pull my weight
another stupid lie if i say ill be okay
i know its stupid i'm way too old to feel this way

you probably ‘ready know this
but my soul is pretty ugly
that's why i never feel myself now
less i'm leaning on a substance

everybody way too normal
i'm informal and i'm fucked up
and i hate to disappoint you
when i still cant get my bucks up

you probably ‘ready know this
but my soul is pretty ugly
and i ain't even mean to do it
i know its borderline it must be

everybody way too normal
when i'm dying on the inside
feel my skin is still on fire
end this quick dont need an invite

you probably already know this
but my soul is pretty ugly
i hope that God will still forgive me
i cant even ask him humbly
there’s a pit inside my chest
and i feel bad now if you love me
cause i'm sinking in myself
i need a substance, i need something

Ugly

lyrics:
well there's no saving me
if you think that i be trippin it's the same for me
when i die don't want no fame on me
i'm such a wreck that i feel guilty if you pray for me

i put the blame on me
and i think its necessary when i hate on me
cause myself is still the bane of me
the only enemy i have is all the pain in me

i gotta stop when i talk like that
i cannot break it in my mind and then it get right back
a ghost inside me that i cant fight back
i cannot change it any more than i can change my past

i'm everything i hate
i cant escape i hit the cart until i'm MIA
i know i sealed my fate
when i finally came to terms but now i'm not okay

like, who let me get this way
you don't know me i'm a bomb boutta go off
blue poison in my veins
left for dead i need a map now im so lost

Blame

lyrics:
nightmares in my brain but, its too late now to back out
tell me i wont make it, bet i'm still gon chase the bag now
ten years comin clutch, i swear that i'm gon get the cashout
hope i stay alive for all this shit if i don't crashout

if i die know they'll copy all my syntax
when i'm gone smoke a blunt for me, hit the Maui in some gift wrap
there heaven or a hell? or will it all just end up pitch black
i cant really tell, i just know people known to flip facts

i'm my biggest opp, i pull the blade out in a crisis
i'm still standing up, i'm still breathing all despite it
i move how i want, give a fuck if they ain't like it
i'm here to get this bag, i always knew i would i'm psychic

i will get this this shit solo, ion need no team
got a hundred ways to get it, know it simple as it seem
watch the world on fire, they said fuck my lil dream
but i still do this shit, while its tearing at the seams

ion even rap, i just speak how a demon move
cold hearted from the jump, ill probably leave you bleeding through
its me myself and i, when i face death and pay my due
'til then i still be grinding while i'm tryna make it through

ion hear the hate boy, i'm tuned into the bag now
stack it up in silence, all the talking get you dragged down
work until i make it, i wont stop until i pass out
i was born to be in front, i refuse to be the background

if i die know they'll copy all my syntax
when i'm gone smoke a blunt for me, hit the Maui in some gift wrap
there heaven or a hell? or will it all just end up pitch black
i cant really tell, i just know people known to flip facts

Delusion

lyrics:
summertime, orange skies lead me home
i been feeling like myself when i'm alone
i been working in my room with the lights down
oh my God
oh my God

summertime, orange skies lead me home
i been feeling like myself when i'm alone
i been working in my room with the lights ouy
oh my God, I been busy scheming every night now
tainted lips, never helps when I speak out
release my hips, all I wanna do is sleep now
feel the drug slowly spill into my brain cells
oh my God, I been busy smoking every night now

summertime, orange skies lead me home
i been feeling like myself when I'm alone
i try, try, try, with you I tried
but I will die, hollowed out inside

i try, try, try, with you I tried
but I will die, hollowed out inside
winter's in my bones, hatred in my brain
i will show no signs, I will show no pain
i lie, lie, lie
god, it's such a shame
everything has changed
i don't look the same
awake at 3 AM​​​
phone glow on my face
god, it's such a shame
everything has changed

everything has changed

arctic eyes (hkfiftyone cover)

yeah im sick of all the trying, im not getting any place
any time im feeling blue i put the cart up to my face
any time i cannot cope you probably catch me do the race
and i know you know im crazy get the bag like any way

fuck you if you doubt me you aint seeing how i move
i will never give this up i know i gotta see it through
know the skies will still be rainy for a while until they blue
then the snow will come again and make me sick i got the flu

swear its always something but i know its never ending
you can call me psycho and i swear it wont offend me
its probably just the truth when i say that i hope you end me
you can talk your shit behind my back, that shit send me

know you think you know me but you dont, hah, bitch
i dont even know me, borderline, hah, switch
maybe ill be stable one day, i wish
like if i is or if i aint, still ballin like swish

stack all my dreams at the top of the shelf
say that ill get to it but i cant tell
i wont sell my soul if it was mine to sell
i been around satan, dont want no more hell

got no more choice now, i go all the way
and i swear if you doubt me, like fuck what you say
ill pop off out of spite i aint playing no games
swear ill grind til i make it or i go insane

im so sick of trying im not getting anywhere
its black or white, you do or dont, i guess its only fair
ima get the bag and if it kills me thats okay
at least then i did something stead of rot the day away

All The Way Freestyle

lyrics:
im so fucking tired of the same thing
wrapped up in the moment, missed the main thing
think that im nearsighted and im hasty
wish i told you sooner that im crazy

but im back, on my shit
im a piece, that wont fit
i feel bad, when i split
im not sane, not a bit

honestly its the same
know you see it everyday
borderline, im clichéd

cause im broke, not fractured
all my pieces scattered
and myself is shattered
and now it doesn’t matter

cause im broke, not fractured
all my pieces scattered
you dont deserve the weight ive gathered
you tried to save me but the pain climbed faster

can’t improve this fate
when its caught too late
its a flaw in my traits

and ill take the blame
its my fault anyway
it ends up all the same

and i hate that the way that i deal with this fate
is to run, run, run
in the mirror there's no face, and no life in my case
when i come undone

broke, not fractured

lyrics:
say what you will say, but you dont know me, huh
switching every minute cant control me, huh
sippin on the whiskey while i roll me up
leaning on the bottle how i cope, its part of growing up

i cannot escape the torture deep inside my brain
do my favorite shit but i know now its not the same
devil eating at me and its turned into my bane
wanna blow my brains out but i know im not Cobain

honestly i just hope that ill be here for christmas
for xmas, for xmas, for xmas
honestly i dont wish this on my enemies
enemies, enemies, im my own enemy

if you knew how fucked that i really was
i know youd disappear second shit get rough
but i learned to ride alone when the road get tough
you say forever but deep down i know im not enough

you probably hate all the ways that im beside me
im distraught about the things that still inside me
so its whiskey to my gullet, way you find me
i know im passed out on the couch just dont remind me

honestly i just hope that ill be here for christmas
for xmas, for xmas, for xmas
honestly i dont wish this on my enemies
enemies, enemies, im my own enemy

you dont know me

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[HKFiftyOne]

So you’re forgotten
This beautiful cold and small planet
The pitiful metaphors for this feeling
They're all grieving while you’re believing

Already know how this goes
I'll float away on my own
I know that no one will know
Will know

And if I implode real soon
I hope you tell all my moons
I swear I didn't mean to go
I just can't do this all alone

[saturns construct]
So i lethe
Shelter
Me
Guide 
Me
Past this asteroid belt and beyond the stars

i promise that im better than mars
or on par with the one we call ours

[HKFiftyOne]

So I'm forgotten
I know I'll get lost in
The stars that I'm drifting far beyond
I'm just an asteroid
Unclaimed in the black void
Some planets remember you but Pluto can't

Just forget me
Just forget me like you do

Roam

Pale Lungs

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