As someone with BPD. I can tell exactly what this song is portraying and this is probably saving my life.

We can skip plans smoke thraxx head back laid back like that getting high all day 
I can write raps little sad how till I’m burnt out and wish to fly away 

I have told you when I write 
I picture you by my side 
I’ll hold you where it’s right 
Then hide away 
Time 
I wish I could stop time 
And mend you when you cry 
I fear I lost my mind 
It’s only Saturday 
We aren’t rivals 
This no dance recital
You will shine my idol 
I just hope you make it out okay 

Tears drops in the blunt 
Now you’re mad, Wtf
Do I got it still? Am I enough?
I never feel like I’m enough 
Raindrops summer nights 
Stay close by my side 
If ur alright then I’m alright 
Are you here for the ride?

I will uber home if that means that you’ll be alright 
I will take a knife and shove it till it reach my spine 
I like the way you call me, I like the way you hit my line 
Summertime is fading I hope you don’t fade with mine

its only saturday (prod.ayeon)

Shout out dash for making 10/10 beats 

Lyrics - 

No face
no case
 I be slidin through the night
All black blade tucked  ain’t lookin for a fight
30 on my clip turn his whip to a shrine
I don’t talk much I just creep when it’s time

Drip like the gutter ice look muddy
Hit your block once now the whole scene bloody
Don’t know names I just move how I move
Lost in the smoke ain’t nothin to prove

Ghost in the cut I don’t do no loud
Keep my head down but I still draw crowds
Lames talk slick but they all want clout
Slide through slow make the whole hood doubt

Tags on my toes not clothes that’s death
Ridin with a piece I don’t need no vest
Chrome on the hip make em freeze no flex
Came from the mud I ain’t pressed bout checks

No face
no case
 I be slidin through the night
All black blade tucked  ain’t lookin for a fight
30 on my clip turn his whip to a shrine
I don’t talk much I just creep when it’s time

Drip like the gutter ice look muddy
Hit your block once now the whole scene bloody
Don’t know names I just move how I move
Lost in the smoke ain’t nothin to prove

rise n shrine p. dash

lyrics:
summertime, orange skies lead me home
i been feeling like myself when i'm alone
i been working in my room with the lights down
oh my God
oh my God

summertime, orange skies lead me home
i been feeling like myself when i'm alone
i been working in my room with the lights ouy
oh my God, I been busy scheming every night now
tainted lips, never helps when I speak out
release my hips, all I wanna do is sleep now
feel the drug slowly spill into my brain cells
oh my God, I been busy smoking every night now

summertime, orange skies lead me home
i been feeling like myself when I'm alone
i try, try, try, with you I tried
but I will die, hollowed out inside

i try, try, try, with you I tried
but I will die, hollowed out inside
winter's in my bones, hatred in my brain
i will show no signs, I will show no pain
i lie, lie, lie
god, it's such a shame
everything has changed
i don't look the same
awake at 3 AM​​​
phone glow on my face
god, it's such a shame
everything has changed

everything has changed

arctic eyes (hkfiftyone cover)

she said that i need help like what abt it luv
better let her leave than watch it fuck me up
bruises under belt, you can see the swell
cause when i dwell in mirror never see myself

take me out this season
this sunlight never seep thru
my window, and rarely see it
same here, i'm barely bleeding
baby i really wanna leave to jus stay alone
cause if we take it slow i know my brain might make u home

sitting back in my room 
all I do is wrong
big bowl high asf
imma get me gone
I forget all the things
all the time that we lost
is it bad i dont care
I don't want this at all

ive been on the bench
I cannot play
I sit this out
my lifes been such a mess
I try my hardest to figure it out

part ways time to time
like we're old clothes
started off a secret
like nobody knew
frown on my face
when was this world so cold?

it was always cold
situation I froze
I don't know what to do
I don't know where to go
I feel like a burden I cant help this tho

she said that i need help like what abt it luv
better let her leave than watch it fuck me up
bruises under belt, you can see the swell
cause when i dwell in mirror never see myself

what_abt_it w/ yungcray (flyfx)

honestly never really processed you were gone, but day by day i get closer to accepting it.

Lyrics:

S/M, & NTR, this shit was far from proper love
you know i did some self reflecting and what i felt 
it wasn't lust
oh i been missing you and lately i can't even fill my cup
only upping
higher dosages i hope they fuck me up
don't even look at other women even now at 14 months
you've seeded so deep in my head i feel like i can't even drop
i've written many songs in past tense and i'll prolly write some more
maybe spend my whole life coping bout the girl i wanted more

i guess the chapter closed a while ago it's time to end it off
but i've got fear of letting go and i can't take another loss
i know you'll probably listen in
i know you'll probably hear this song
i'm taking something over nothing cuz your memory is all i got
a couple friends i made since knowing you could vouch
that i wasn't doing well for a while by myself
and even through it all i honest really wish you well
and if you haven't hope you get shit figured out <3

rumination (prod. whyke)

lyrics ⬇️ 


i like your lips my love but you dont talk
wont work at all i know im far from you
but please dont insult me
id rather you ghost me as you do
and its a shame that i cant trust a single thing you say

a dusty brain i can’t explain all of the stuff that i went thru
dropped from a crane
cant word this pain but i promise you its nothin new 
want me to blink
wake up to drink
i slowly sink i see its true
no saving grace thats all i’ll say
i cant escape when you dont prove
I know ill lose
theres no excuse 
cuz i cant shake this grave today

say it to my face
or ill be in your way for awhile girl
you dont want that for sure
yea you dont text back for hours at a time
lowkey it massacres my heart when you say that but never why

never wanna know how i feel i keep it in the back of my mind
runnin out cuz i know know that you think i wouldn’t see
but you don’t got a clue cuz you dont know me
Know i wish you could
i had all the time in the world

Dont cover your eyes
i wanna see them in the light
just once jus once
just one “more” time
i never expected you to feel like i was always what you want
know i never was know i never was
well i wish that you could see what i saw

as you do (everest)

whtvr u wnt

prod. @ffiftyzeros

lyrics
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and all my vices, they so lovely
they keep me inside this house
to where i make excuses subtly yeah
we’re inching towards my self destruction
i don’t have a lot of friends
so socially i do not function yeah

and all my days are spent recovering
i put spells upon myself and read my cards just like a coven
i don’t know what’s come of me
but it’s apparent that this chapter isn’t what it’s supposed to be
drown myself inside a bottle
but i never learned to swim so these controls are hard to toggle
and the outcome dances on the edge of death
so the world i’ve built around myself surrounds my final breath

and these breaths fall sacred given time
i’ve got chains around my ankles and these clocks inside my eyes
i don’t think i’m doing fine
all these tracers in my vision but they never show the signs
ripping moss off of my skin
and i eat the heads of the worms that slither silently within
my blood is poisoned full of sin
guess the mud in my abode is throwing punches towards my chin
crawling out of my own flesh
imma torch off all my ignorance and eat upon the rest
serotonin in his vest
whatchu buying whatchu selling said the merchant on my quest

and we hate the way we feel inside
so we hide away until we die
and think of it as time well spent
the fear of burdening a friend

IF YOU CAN HEAR ME, GET ME OUTTA HERE! (PROD. FIFTYZEROS)

lyrics:
im so fucking tired of the same thing
wrapped up in the moment, missed the main thing
think that im nearsighted and im hasty
wish i told you sooner that im crazy

but im back, on my shit
im a piece, that wont fit
i feel bad, when i split
im not sane, not a bit

honestly its the same
know you see it everyday
borderline, im clichéd

cause im broke, not fractured
all my pieces scattered
and myself is shattered
and now it doesn’t matter

cause im broke, not fractured
all my pieces scattered
you dont deserve the weight ive gathered
you tried to save me but the pain climbed faster

can’t improve this fate
when its caught too late
its a flaw in my traits

and ill take the blame
its my fault anyway
it ends up all the same

and i hate that the way that i deal with this fate
is to run, run, run
in the mirror there's no face, and no life in my case
when i come undone

broke, not fractured

IG: @frvrlol


[Chorus]
I don’t fall asleep, I black out
Wake up and I crash-out
Nightmares bring me back now
Yeah, I’m not coming back down

Bleeding on designer seats
Blood in the limousine
Mud on my Louie V
Fell in love and she killed me

[Verse 1]
Chasing halos, but when I pray it’s silent
In my head it’s violent
There’s beauty in this horror
There’s static in my eyelids

You can let me shatter
Cause I know it doesn’t matter
Girl I know I never mattered

[Chorus]
I don’t fall asleep, I black out
Wake up and I crash-out
Nightmares bring me back now
Yeah, I’m not coming back down

Bleeding on designer seats
Blood in the limousine
Mud on my Louie V
Fell in love and she killed me

[Verse 2]
Scar tissue
My skin remembers you
With eyes that look right through
Replaying damage that I’ve done

She rips me open till I’m numb
And all these toxins start to flood
In my head like a drug
In my head like a...

[Chorus]
I don’t fall asleep, I black out
Wake up and I crash-out
Nightmares bring me back now
Yeah, I’m not coming back down

Bleeding on designer seats
Blood in the limousine
Mud on my Louie V
Fell in love and she killed me

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DESIGNER SEATS (prod. Malcast)

Take Me Back to Saskatchewan

i hope you feel something
self-produced. hmu for beats/mixing/mastering

broke, not fractured

HKFIFTYONE

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