As someone with BPD. I can tell exactly what this song is portraying and this is probably saving my life.

Lyrics:

I could make room in the front seat
If you really want me
they ask me if i’m crazy
I don’t really know i might be
i think that she likes me
i don't even like me
i don't know no nothing
just a boy who chased a pipe dream

i'm never dipping
no i'm never leaving 
i got a feeling in my chest
i made a vow to all my friends
just like the last couple days im sleeping in again
i write a song for a mic test
i eat my feelings to crawl back
i'm always sleeping
and i'm never eating
xcept maccas and tacos in my bed

guess we're reverting the progress again
in some ways i think i could still call you a friend 
but you're still the same reason i wanna be dead
and you're still the same reason i'm fucked in the head
i'm angry the thought of you coming right back
might blow out my brains on the ceiling instead
after they're done on her new lovers bed
she'll swear me an oath with her palm on my chest

you're fucking me up been a year with you gone
are you proud of me now with the drugs that i'm off
do you act like a kid
do you act like my mom
i'm dying to know if you've grown and moved on

i cash me a check and i'm feeling my best
and i blow it on sweaters and things for my cats
might fuck around think i'll get me a tatt
got no more to say there's my thoughts in a wrap

wrap (whyke)

made 3 years ago so i’m dropping it by itself instead of in the collab ep 💕 s/o @user-411557229

nowadays ion go out
city look like a ghost town
3 digits on the dash
check my phone for the comedown
how it feel to be alone now

if i keep it down, never make a sound
call log empty but the bottle aint
staying quiet now, yet this silence loud
left the read receipts on my overlay
then act surprised when friends gotta leave
fuck it never said that you had to stay
in fact better yet fuckin hit the books
cuz it’s nothin left 2 say n drugs to take

she told me hop off the adderall
we just not meant to be after all
i’ll be somewhere in the night time
cause ur not urself when there’s alcohol
i got sum thoughts i aint said yet
swear this codeine got me touchin sunsets
i got purple stains all in the bedspread
and i’ll be by myself till i drop dead
baby i’ll get back 2 you in the morning
i know to you that my life ain’t important
took away shit that was making me numb
blade drip my blood and it paint in the portrait
nowadays when it’s dark out
see ur face with the same doubt
leave that bitch in the past
and leave my name out of ur mouth

nowadays ion go out
city look like a ghost town
3 digits on the dash
check my phone for the comedown
how it feel to be alone now

spectre w/ residential.

gummy bears

lyrics<3

girl you tore up that apartment
when we started growing cold

someones daughter, needs a father
but he left her all alone

left the bar when i was carded
wasent 21 years old

took my heart, now its discarded
whyd you use it as your own?

last ditch, i rest my eyes in a parked car
so sick i left my wine on ur bar cart
time ticks and love will leave u with a dark scar
words slip and i think you just took it too far

where do we go?
im stuck on the outside
been losing control
been losing my damn mind
but you’ll never kmow
our loves on a faultline
turn me to stone
when im gazing at ur green eyes

baby i think thats toxic
maybe you think im all wrong
one word and im changing the topic
suprised myself that im moving on

yet u coiodnt care less
7 days same clothes got a loose neck
i was down on my own like a reject
pardon my problems i feel like a nuisance

last month i saw your mom in that walmart
on lunch i shed some tears on my carhartt
as kids we measured heights and left a door mark
we grew quick it’s such a shane we didn’t go far

fault line [jacob vallen]

lyrics

soon ill find out this shit taste like water when its late
i hope you satisfied my face stuck gray
youre gold, but i wear silver chains
yall make sure my funeral dont happen in the rain
they counted forty arrows when they made the case
i swear these crows dont do nothing for you except get you stuck
baby my cart is low so when we chill can you bring the blunt
cause im tryna smoke
im tryna smoke so much
im not the same man that you thought you knew
how better i was

i been pouring up some purple potions gotta better my flaws
youre right that i aint get the notion but still i called you
i think you think i have it easy baby what would you do if you were me
but who is me
swear im better off writing my eulogy
im so full of me
at the same time felt a decline in the way that im viewing me
im scraping up rust off my armor maybe that way i could get clean
i feel the atoms that make my being whole just fold and rot and die
she pour out red wine but she rolling brown eyes
i cant fight this battle baby theres a thorn in my side
it feels like too much energy just to try to survivie
i got none left im giving out pieces of my soul for this shit but the songs dropping right?
the songs drop on time
i fought a hard battle but the sword has dulled through time
i put this lighter to the blunt and watch it shine
it look just like a shooting star when im passing by

soon ill find out this shit taste like water when its late
i hope you satisfied my face stuck gray
youre gold, but i wear silver chains
yall make sure my funeral dont happen in the rain
they counted forty arrows when they made the case
i swear these crows dont do nothing for you except get you stuck
baby my cart is low so when we chill can you bring the blunt
cause im tryna smoke
im tryna smoke so much
im not the same man that you thought you knew
how better i was

better i was

thought u knew how better i was

scraping off the rust (p. kaydo)

Lyrics <3 

Taylor - im sorry but I don’t relate , cause there’s no one to call when I break, they tell me im waisting my life cause I’m doing drugs til it rids me away, take a look at myself in the mirror I’m disgusted in everyway, my life full of stress and I’m so depressed , I wish you would pull me outta my brain 

200 the dash , took my pride and threw it in the trash, whole time I was wearing a mask , tryna be someone else didn’t last , 

but either way it goes , imma be alone until I’m bones , all I have is our memories , I’m sorry that I built a broken home ,I’m sorry I was never perfect and sorry I was never worth shit,  I just wanted you to love me and maybe realize I was worth it 

So if we’re being honest I’m a crumb , this ain’t moncler bro I’m a bum, I drink until I go numb , or I drink til I throw upppp , havent seen my daughter in a month , tryna hold it in and act tough , tears drain from my eyelids and nobody cares that I’m fucked

I’m walking in quick sand , sinking by the second , I keep coming back idk when I’ll learn my lesson


Swamp 🐍🐊- It’s muddy in my cup 
And there’s a forest in this blunt 
Ion got time for no bullshit so can we wrap this up
I’m just tryina catch me a buzz
but these Russians ain’t enough 
Should of filled em with more skunk
Instead we’re still here on this love shit 
Like do you even really want this 
Are you upset or just sinkissed 
Like my bad you’re feeling loveless 
I Gues ur skin ain’t the toughest 
Yuh yuh 
But I’m back in ball 
Blockin goofies like a prime Chris Paul 
Oh you wanna talk? Baby don’t hit call 
If your mission is to watch me fall 
Tell the truth, don’t lie to me 
It’s funny I can see the irony 
Let me take a page from Taylor’s diary 
learn to smoke away all my anxiety 
But it’s 
Tough luck 
No chance 
Ima surly fold again 
I’m fucked up 
Oh man 
Don’t leave me here alone my friend


Notahero 🚫🦸‍♂️— burberry glasses on but you’re not in the frame
i don’t wanna leave the house girl i ain’t pregame yet
this shit going back and forth like wii sports tennis
and i keep coming back don’t think i learned my lesson
i don’t wanna get to know you
i don’t even know myself
drunk as fuck in this function singing like alvin
simon on my belt
tommy keep me warm when it’s cold
wear that shit like pelt
if its bout my queen then im gon fold
that’s how the cards dealt
baby your so perfect
i can’t treat you wrong and if i do i don’t deserve it
i might be better gone lately i been feeling worthless
but you tell me that im wrong and swear that i have a purpose





Notcursed 🚫🧙‍♀️- i don’t feel much older
but i’m really worn down
wish i knew when i was younger this was how i’d turn out

cold room flooded out the summer
and i’ve been in this dark mood month after another
it’s been feeling daunting lately
no one here to shape me
yeah i could, i know, but my mental needs saving

i might feel better when the winter comes around
i’ve been finding lost letters that were better unfound
i stay locked in this house
the keys been buried now
you’d think i wanna get out
but i don’t know how

i might get better when i learn to love myself
i’ve been writing less letters to girl who never helped
she still looks like me now
down to the skin
i see you’re getting freaked out
should’ve never let you in

I’m sorry, but I can’t relate w/ safehaven , swamp , notahero & notcursed. (Prod by Cxrter)

lyrics:
im so fucking tired of the same thing
wrapped up in the moment, missed the main thing
think that im nearsighted and im hasty
wish i told you sooner that im crazy

but im back, on my shit
im a piece, that wont fit
i feel bad, when i split
im not sane, not a bit

honestly its the same
know you see it everyday
borderline, im clichéd

cause im broke, not fractured
all my pieces scattered
and myself is shattered
and now it doesn’t matter

cause im broke, not fractured
all my pieces scattered
you dont deserve the weight ive gathered
you tried to save me but the pain climbed faster

can’t improve this fate
when its caught too late
its a flaw in my traits

and ill take the blame
its my fault anyway
it ends up all the same

and i hate that the way that i deal with this fate
is to run, run, run
in the mirror there's no face, and no life in my case
when i come undone

broke, not fractured

prod everestdidthis

[HKFiftyOne]

So you’re forgotten
This beautiful cold and small planet
The pitiful metaphors for this feeling
They're all grieving while you’re believing

Already know how this goes
I'll float away on my own
I know that no one will know
Will know

And if I implode real soon
I hope you tell all my moons
I swear I didn't mean to go
I just can't do this all alone

[saturns construct]
So i lethe
Shelter
Me
Guide 
Me
Past this asteroid belt and beyond the stars

i promise that im better than mars
or on par with the one we call ours

[HKFiftyOne]

So I'm forgotten
I know I'll get lost in
The stars that I'm drifting far beyond
I'm just an asteroid
Unclaimed in the black void
Some planets remember you but Pluto can't

Just forget me
Just forget me like you do

lethe (feat. HKFiftyOne)

Love you all.

i swear im trying my best.
TY NEERDOWELL FOR THE MASTER <3
TY Hero for the public beat king <3
-----LYRICS-----

trees bend slow, they’re watching me in falter  
wind hums low, every gust like an altar  
mind drifts quiet, the mud grips my skin  
I move almost nothing, swamp pulls me in

"There are far worse things 
awaiting man
than,
Death"

break bones static
heart race panic
find myself in the bog saying dammit  
too much noise in the mud cant stand it
sink down now enjoy the panic

black rain  
hit the muck — I vanish  
numb voice in my gut say “can it”  
every thought I clutch goes rancid  
I don’t trust any wound that bandaged  

mud step, cold drip, throat’s clamped shut  
heartbeat thump like a rusted drum cut  
eyes go wide when the dark says “wake up”  
the whole damn world keeps swallowing me up  

left foot sinks and the right one trembles  
can’t keep pace with the thoughts I’m assembled  

can’t trace why my pulse frantic
thoughts bleed out in blur so graphic
chest so tight the air turns tannic
don’t know how to claw back, I manage yeah 

skies turns numb when my eyes lose focus  
blood drip slow like a ritual omen  
ground pulls tight when the tide keeps rollin’  
I’m swallowed again by the dark I’m holdin’  

hands shake soft but the night grows colder  
burden on my chest like a ghost on my shoulders  
try to stand straight but the world tilts over  
I’m slipping so deep I don’t think I’ll recover

mud. (hero)

message to my head

layying down (prod. Maximillian X Eric)

i hope you feel something
self-produced. hmu for beats/mixing/mastering

broke, not fractured

HKFIFTYONE

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