i don't see the world or my life getting any better and i have thoughts about how i would rather end it on my own accord

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lyrics: suicide on my mind
she smiles at me
she’s so kind
her pale skin
and green eyes
her black hair
and small thighs
angelgirl living online
i wish that she was mine
i want her i need her
but i’m too scared to go outside
my life is boring
i’m scared to go outside
my life is boring
i’m scared to go outside
my life is boring
i’m scared to go outside
always i know
you’ll be at my show
watching waiting
commiserating 
say it ain’t so
i will not go
turn the lights off
carry me home
keep your lips still
i’ll be your thrill
the night will go on
my little windmill

my cold heart reaches out for you
i’m so sick i’m turning blue
i hope you know how you make me feel
drawing my blood to know i’m real
i hope you know how you make me feel

always i know
you’ll be at my show
watching waiting
commiserating 
say it ain’t so
i will not go
turn the lights off
carry me home
keep your lips still
i’ll be your thrill
the night will go on
my little windmill

suicide on my mind
she smiles at me
she’s so kind
her pale skin
and green eyes
her black hair
and small thighs

lmfao im sorry

scars 4 u they're bleeding out scars 4 u need healing now

scars 4 u (xofilo)

instagram.com/kidsnrlxx
instagram.com/cholorofilm

leaking red glitter

leaking red glitter w/ cholorofilm 🩸🪖( ҂ × ཀ × )

skinny loser

✞✞✞
ft: @kidsnorlax + seraphim
prod: @pixelhood
follow my ig: https://www.instagram.com/cholorofilm/

(kidsnorlax)
rawrxd, come kill me
baby i don’t even think that you heard me
i’ve been up for 3 days i’ve been hurting
don’t you step into my life to just hurt me
blades thru ur heart i love it when you look dead
find me in the bathtub water colored red
murdering my trust with a bullet in my head
let me hold your hand i’ll lay with your skeleton

(cholorofilm)
chopping up her limbs
and eating them for free XD
mfs biting me u can never be me
RED GLITTER ON MY JEANS
GOT SUM BLUD ON MY STALL
RED GLITTER nail polish minds as well
call the cops :3
got a scar up alt bitch right on me
hopefully u will kill me join my fantasy 
lately has been so damn somber :(
lets jus bring back #emocowboysummer

(seraphim)
walkin round an im feeling like a zom b 
really hate these meds i jus wanna cut my body 
hate myself always got a razor on me 
string my veins and im lookin kinda gnarly 
these doctors making me live day by day 
if i tell the truth they might take me away 
mental hospitals won't take my grave 
fuck ur meds ill prolly kill myself

(kidsnorlax)
rawrxd, come kill me
baby i don’t even think that you heard me
i’ve been up for 3 days i’ve been hurting
don’t you step into my life to just hurt me
blades thru ur heart i love it when you look dead
find me in the bathtub water colored red
murdering my trust with a bullet in my head
let me hold your hand i’ll lay with your skeleton

come kill me

Spotify

come kill me w/ snor + seraphim (p. pixelhood)

manipulate & gaslight
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feat @luvwillow
@deadat18
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mixed + mastered by me & willow
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Stupid little liar w/ luvwillow

leaking black glitter ##gawthangelz 🖤🍷 w/ cholorofilm + keta

motorola ft. luvwillow

ft. @cholorofilm + @mezhaa
prod/mastered by me
www.instagram.com/kidsnrlax
www.instagram.com/cholorofilm
www.instagram.com/mmezhaa

lyrics:
(cholorofilm)
bby i cnt go on here without u
bby i cnt move on i need u
bby i cnt go on here without u
bby i cnt move on i need u

got her guts hanging out
bitch i might jus fuck her mouth
im a creep i walk around
bby pls dont make a sound
yea she took my heart
chewed it fucking spit it out
in the horror motel 
u can mutilate urself

got her guts hanging out
bitch i might jus fuck her mouth
im a creep i walk around
bby pls dont make a sound
yea she took my heart
chewed it fucking spit it out
in the horror motel 
u can mutilate urself

(snorlax)
hold my hand girl ion wanna let u go
ive been ghosting every hoe that is on my phone
speak to me bby i jus want this over
yea hoe i dont care anymore i dont want ur closure
bby i dont wanna die but u making me want it more
think abt my suicide i cannot do it but im torn
fuck dat bitch she gon see me when i hop on tour
looking to my angel wings bby like im the fucn lord

(mezha)
100 roses on my grave guess ill say goodbye
throwin up, my brain is rotting but im buried alive
i wont beg u stay i wont ask u twice
looks like ill b ending my life tonight
this is all ur fault all u do is make me sick
hope u trapped in the middle but if heaven forgives
every single dying action of sins
say ur sorry all u want but i wont forget

cnt live without u :c </3 w/ cholorofilm + mezha  #✞𝑜𝓇𝒜𝓃𝑔𝑒𝓁𝓏

prod me

𝐥𝐲𝐫𝐢𝐜𝐬://
let's go
wrists r sticking 2 my sleeves, i don't wanna go outside
i can't even interact it makes me fucking horrified
pale face, black dress bby can u be my bride?
i just wanna get worse, but i want u by my side

cuz it's me n u forever bby till death do us part
i told u i was so fucked up u should have listened from the start
i just wanna trauma bond like do u wanna see my scars?
everything i touch gets ruined but i swear i have a heart

suicidal love , suicidal love
i won't ever feel complete so can u tell me i'm enough?
suicidal love , suicidal love
omg i'm such a feen like bby will u be my drug? x2

omg she's picture perfect
pls tell me that ur worth it
idc if u hurt me bby ik i deserve it
and if i show u love idc if u return it
i'm so afraid of abandonment js don't leave me deserted

i got pretty lil styros i'm cutting js 4 u
omg i like ur barcodes babe they're such a pretty view
can we pls just fucking spiral cuz it's all i wanna do
self destruction's all i know it's all i'm going to persue

!!!
not everything that is dark is an invitation,
my music does not intend to advertise self-destruction.
i'm not promoting it, I'M SURVIVING IT.
if you cannot process that, just simply skip the song
take care<3

suicidal love

mistletoe w/ techna (6383)

went to ur house last week
u were in ur dress girl how sweet
but u didnt seem mad at me
so why'd u make me go
rosy cheeks and brown hair
nobody prettier out there
i know ur unhappy with how i am
but thats me

i know
that i
call at
bad times
but i
cannot
get over u


-requiem for you

cannot get over you - requiem for you

ive played these games before

prod me lol

@xannndera
yeaahhh huuuuhhhh
its never been the same x3

now its time to fall asleep
omg i feel so nauseous
nd i cannot evn think
taking pills till im gone
then i feel so slow
idk if its reality idk how to cope huhh

double suicide idk how to stop it
lets just kill ourselves
ill panic till i vomit
till i vomit idk how2 stop it
i took all the pills 
dont rmbr when i bought it
x2

yeaahhh huuuuhhhh (DJ PANCAKE)
its never been the same x3

i feel numb everytime i wanna give up
i feel regret everytime im insane
u a broke bitch u aint evn counting racks
i jus wanna be okay dont wanna take my meds
yeah ive never been the same
yeah its never been the same
yeah its never been the same
i should make amends
maybe that'd let go of this fucking pain
its never been the same
yeah its never been the same

now its time to fall asleep
omg i feel so nauseous
nd i cannot evn think
taking pills till im gone
then i feel so slow
idk if its reality idk how to cope huhh

double suicide idk how to stop it
lets just kill ourselves
ill panic till i vomit
till i vomit idk how2 stop it
i took all the pills 
dont rmbr when i bought it

yeaahhh huuuuhhhh
its never been the same x3

REALITY (@xannndera)

YOU CAN BLAME ME

fuck it
u can carve ur name right into my chest
if i die tonight at least i’ll die obsessed
we r both fucked up, yeah, that’s why we fit
hold my hand tight while we sink in this shit
slice n slice my fucking wrist
stalking me just stop it bitch
tell me that u love met too
tell me that u’ll bleed too
ur perfume's in my lungs while i'm choking on smoke
everything we do feels like some sick inside joke

cut my skin open just 2 see if i’m alive
u love the broken parts but i fucking hate this life
i’m throwing up blood, bathroom floor is my bed
u keep saying i’m dramatic but i just wish i was dead
razor in my mouth, yeah i wanna taste the pain
scream into the mirror, swear i’ll never b the same
u said “baby pls don’t” but u cut urself too
so what the fuck is love if it’s not me + u?

fuck it
u can carve ur name right into my chest
if i die tonight at least i’ll die obsessed
we r both fucked up, yeah, that’s why we fit
hold my hand tight while we sink in this shit
slice n slice my fucking wrist
stalking me just stop it bitch
tell me that u love met too
tell me that u’ll bleed too
ur perfume's in my lungs while i'm choking on smoke
everything we do feels like some sick inside joke

u say “ur fine” but ur eyes don’t match ur words
we both know u love me fucked up, in the dirt
shaking in the fucking bathroom, breaking bones that won’t break
fuck it, i’m done, i just scream at the walls

tired of bleeding
tired of screaming
tired of bleeding
tired of it all

slice n slice my fucking wrist
stalking me just stop it bitch
tell me that u love met too
tell me that u’ll bleed too
ur perfume's in my lungs while i'm choking on smoke
everything we do feels like some sick inside joke
cut my skin open just 2 see if i’m alive
u love the broken parts but i fucking hate this life
i’m throwing up blood, bathroom floor is my bed
u keep saying i’m dramatic but i just wish i was dead

hold my hand while I rot (decay)

produced by corpse disposal

featuring @cholorofilm & @yungketaslime

https://www.instagram.com/freakdiaryentry/
https://www.instagram.com/cholorofilm/
keta got no ig rip

lyrics:

(wintr)

kissing in my car
with ur blood spilling out of my heart
we can go far
ur the one ur a star
wishing for a better day
baby take it all away
yea, yea ha
baby ur violent
my bruises theyre violet
dont think its time yet
to say that ur mine yet
baby ur violent
my bruises theyre violet
dont think its time yet
to say that ur mine yet

(cholorofilm)
i be with the gang we be fucked up
til the violence went n took my heart out
i dont know where my home at
coke lines a bitch really love that
red wine feelin numb, do i cut myself
do i take the jump, everyday in hell
i dont need u fucking bitch
everything i said u would forget

(keta)

did you forget about the words you spoke to me
pass out drunk wake up with u holding me
im in love with what were supposed to be
im weak i let all these drugs control me
passion never goes away u never had it in the first place
faith i had in u was misplaced i am such a disgrace
fucked up everyday
drugs cover pain
i miss when youd say my name
for your love id trade every bit of fame
but itll never be the same 
forget about me while the drugs rot my brain

violent, but i love you w/ cholorofilm & keta

Look Back w/Luvhex (Pearlblade)

im not fixed im not better
i still feel like a ghost most days
but i know you saved me
in a hundred small ways
if i make it, it’s cause of you
if i don’t, i hope you knew
that i was thankful, even when i was gone
that you were the only one who kept me strong
you kept me alive when i hated my heart
i don’t got no answers, i don’t got peace, I dont got no nothing
i just got sum scars and broken sleep
but you sat with me when i shook apart
i can’t breathe half of the nights
my chest caves in and i think i’m done
shoutout onyx u were the only one
cuz im not here n ur not fucking far

onyx ashes (ldlad)

MESMERIZE [p6inkillr]

no one else but me and my music. 
i luv u xandera

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paper ☆