made w michael ollin ♡

lyrics:

how do you do it all on your own
i want to be you, you always want to be alone 
starved for touch, you’re always off
i’ve been touched too much, now touch is all i’ve got
you keep a piece of everyone who’s died
so when you say you hurt, they can’t say you lied 
when you’re afraid, you put your fist through walls
you’ve got a hole for every time yesterday calls
cradle your face, ask is it worth it 
you say “i survived”, taping up your curtains 
“yeah it hurts but you wanna know what’s worse is 
they’ll all forget me on purpose”
i’m not like you, i’m more afraid 
spending every hour counting down my days
if i was you maybe i’d be taller
but you just rage til you get smaller
cause they don’t love you, rather what you give to them

i wish they knew you
how bad it threw you
talk about bad juju
but now you’re like them too
i loved you and i watched you
someone that i knew
you’re ruined and it’s cool
but i am not like you
i am not like you
i am not like you
you’re ruined and it’s cool
but i am not you

tentillforever

collab between me, salem, and 4 wine coolers in november 2021

new mexico dreaming

instrumental is sampled track 'Home' by Gustavo Santaolalla for "The Last of Us"

neighbor

Instrumental recorded by Vvya Melinkolya on December 27th, 2021 as an early version of Hard Times.

hard times (demo)

neptune creature

little cover of rangerover that salem and i did in 2020

Unreleased - EP

rangerover (porches cover)

come up

ethel cain - virginity (piano demo)

amber waves - ethel cain (live in paris june 3 2024)

me and kaylee tearing it up at the doubletree in london

for matt (forever ago) [prod. kaylee]

sample used is crying during sex (demo) by ethel cain
https://gomigirl.bandcamp.com/releases

neptune creature

dirt fight