SELF SABOTAGE ft. LSC X (prod. anticøn)

stop waistin’ my time
its a test of why yeah
she’s stuck in my mind
cause i cant get over you
cant stay sober
my life is over
im shaking down my spine
im calling it quits
dont give a fuck
keep it the way it is
nothing ain’t simple
i’d rather waste the time
nothing aint worth my time
bottle of decay
smokin on thraxx
walk a mile in ma shoes
yeah i dont wanna do this
and i feel so useless
make a mil goin through this
stop waistin’ my time
its a test of why yeah
she’s stuck in my mind
cause i cant get over you
cant stay sober
my life is over
im shaking down my spine
im calling it quits
dont give a fuck
keep it the way it is
bottle of decay
smokin on thraxxx
walk a mile in ma shoes
yeah i dont wanna do this

bottle o' decay (prod. grayskies)

‘putting on paint’ W/ WakeUpCoy

prod grayskies


lyrics - 

I’m smoking cigarettes like it’s my time to go
the cold is closing 
their following your scent
I’m better then the men u texting so u best hit my phone 
This stress don’t do me good 
(I think I found me the one 
nothings better x2)

u don’t wanna be inside your home
alone 
u wear your sweater 

your weeks turn scenes that i won’t know 
your star burns skin to leather

200 degree’s on fire that’s fine 
by nighttime I’ll prolly wanna pick u up 
well breath in the leaves outside in style while the fog creeps and darling I’ve been saving up
(don’t u stay away 
cause I’ve been loving u 
I’m in love w u 
till the grave x2)
(slow down 
so drunk in the streetlights x2)

nothings better

show some love yall our times soon.
prod. nekogod

lyrics - 

 yea it started w the head trauma 
feel their words turn to dead omens
they’ll be dead for it
keep what’s special in your bed 
we been creepin through the night (‘what are y’all gone do x2)
Only feeding for themselves moving solo in this cell (what am I gone do x2)

yea I think about it every night 
All the these burdens but I swear to Christ 
think of the grifts n then I think it twice 
laying in the lake of your ideas lemme take control for a minute 
evil w a blade never find me lose me in a crowd in the city

I said I’ll arm the whole city make a whole mass taskforce 
climb the branch it’s all the same 
a vet to u casuals 
Manage what’s intangible 
Fantasy to cannibals 
telling u that ur foolish 
even tho ur bold
crush tree under roofs that no one has to know
bloody teeth w smoke 
sharper when were close 
I can’t hide your taste when I’m looking at a rose 

(dance through the course of our end x2)

PARIS - HEAD TRAUMA (PROD. NEKOGOD)

I just need a cure
Even if it's slow
Nothin' I would know
Rotten to the bone
Bullet to my dome
Got to let it go
But I don't want to go
I don't want to go back there for you
Shut up, don't talk to me
Please just leave me alone
Shut up, shut up, shut up, yeah!

Told myself, told myself
That it's all okay
Let it burn, watch it burn, burning all away
Scared to throw myself into the flames
Bet you hate me, bet you fuckin' hate me
Everything, yeah
Everything I did, yeah
Everything, yeah
Everything I did was wrong, and it breaks me
Yeah it fuckin' breaks my heart

But I just need a cure
Even if it's slow
Nothin' I would know
Rotten to the bone
Bullet to my dome
Got to let it go
But I don't want to go
I don't want to go back there for you

insomniac (prod. pharmacy)

[LYRICS]

[Me]
Maddie's gotta gun she's gonna kill herself
And daddy's not there It's only me to help her
And she tells me
Day and night
Hells deep
Heaven's bright
The bells ringing louder
Guess it's just for you 
Love

Tori's gotta gun and I'm the first to go
And life's not long unless you're burning slowly
Tell me
Love me not
Lead jacket, leather on her 
Pretty little face
Whats a place on this Earth, huh?

[Probation-Maso]
Doing drugs too long to miss it
She inherits Mom's addictions
Told her "STOP JUST FUCKING LISTEN,
KILLING YOURSELF WONT FUCKING FIX IT"

Way too many drugs up in my life,
But I be thinking all the time
It weighs too much up on my mind
I'm from the gutter, I'll be fine
I told my cutter "that's that 9"
I told my mother "I'm alright"
I told my brother "pass that wine"
I'm too fucked up then we gon' fight
223's, it gon' be on sight
Shoot at me that's gon be your life
Like my jeans with the dirty ass 3's
You can Bleeed
You can Bleeed
You can Bleeed all night

[Me]
Maddie's gotta gun she's gonna kill herself
And daddy's not there It's only me to help her
And she tells me
Day and night
Hells deep
Heaven's bright
The bells ringing louder
Guess it's just for you 
Love

Tori's gotta gun and I'm the first to go
And life's not long unless you're burning slowly
Tell me
Love me not
Lead jacket, leather on her 
Pretty little face
Whats a place on this Earth, huh?


[EX-LOST FILE]
Maso wanted me to record on this beat and he recorded his part in his room but never did anything with it, I found it later on and asked if i could mix and post it.

*+Bleeed,Maso+* maddie's gotta gun [6/...]

whats killing you, is killing me (prod. ekkstacy x manget$u)

Lyrics-

know my wrongs 
Couldn’t miss u 
Still believe me sometimes 
know my care is true

Downtown I’m in the back of the cab 
I’m on the way 
don’t brag less u bringin a rachet 
Lane dashing I won’t get to the pad too late 

u a lame im a lay low bastard
Prophecy seems so everlasting 
I’mma feed w the heart of dragon 

Smoke tree 
Puffin all of it 
All of it

Your one of us 
feeling there’s not enough feelings
I want it all 
Really it’s not enough 
Sitting here bottled up
killing the one i love 

Keep me in your mind I wrote mine on beat
just call back 

I’m onto u 
we’ll never see we’ll never see oh oh 
the Avenue where did we meet or was it just my thoughts

CARE

pasteldrip - skully

All music written, performed, mixed and produced by Tom Stuen
Except for Flute/ Clarinet on 'Evil Seagulls' by Scott Zimpel 
Mastered by Adam Ovoid 
Album Art by Jenny Biron 

4 greg, paul and eric

released February 26, 2023