i still humbly believe that im the reason for like 200 of these streams

this just came up on my soundcloud radio i forgot how much i love this whole project

opening 

written september 2021

lyrics
I guess I'm doing pretty well
For how much I hate myself 
I bet it'll pass pretty soon
let the storm roll by 
till my flowers have bloomed 

Feels like I'm running out of time 
but for the past 8 hours it's been 9
and I can't get in tune 
guess I'll wait it out 
till tomorrow afternoon 

Is it a waste to sit here waiting 
is it a waste to do
anything at all

and I wanna work but I'm too jaded 
and I guess all of it 
makes me feel so small 

I guess I'm doing pretty well 
Think I'm alright but I can't tell
I bet it'll pass pretty soon 
let the storm roll by till my flowers have bloomed 

Feels like I'm running out of time
but in about 8 hours ill be fine
and I can't get in tune 
guess I'll wait it out 
till tomorrow afternoon

bloom

19 and feeling blue, and i don't know whats gotten into you
so sick of all the bullshit and lies
so sick of all the fake love
so cry
i won't be there for you, even if you want me to
can't face the complications
i don't want negotiation
so

don't hold my hand when it gets rough
you know i'll just call your bluff
i know you'll just call it love
when hurt is all that is does

so hard to forget about you
why won't our plans go through
i know you wanted me
i know i wanted you

so hard to forget about you
why won't our plans go through
i know you wanted me
i know i wanted you

i'll light up a cigarette for us
is that your idea of love?
i just wish you'd pull me closer
cos' i'm only getting older
and it hurts to say you're fake
but i can't say it any other way
hope my memories fade
don't wanna see you today

don't hold my hand when it gets rough
you know i'll just call your bluff
i know you'll just call it love
when hurt is all that is does

bluff

lyrics:

Cause lately it feels like you're testing me
Just feels like im some sort of pest to you
I tried to show you the best of me
To see if i summon the rest of you
Cause lately its been 80 20
I'm petty cause I thought that you'd be invested too 
But I'm just another distraction
So apologies for my attitude 

And its started to feel like you actually stabbed my back
(Stabbed my back nah)
I always hated that you never just text right back 
(Like where you at nah)
Slipped thru your backdoor
Will this last or
Will you just use me
Still want you back though

Hey can you pause for a minute
Innit crazy how it is right now how it is right now
You're moving out of town hope you miss me
(Miss me)
I don't mean what I said
I got accustomed to leaving your message on read 
I confessed all of my feelings hoping that you were the person that you are in my head
I deserve the truth 
But for that I think i'll have to see the worst of you
yeah
Conversations overdue 
Look myself inside the mirror ask why she has fucking hold of you yeah

Fell in love in 22' for the second time
Swear to god swear to god i met you in a past life
(What do yall think)
Feels like im running in place
I cannot change your point of view
So i just lie to your face
Text you back I love you too

I love you too
Love you too nah
Love you too
Love you too nah
Love you too
Love you too nah
Love you too
Love you too nah

Cause lately it feels like you're testing me
Just feels like im some sort of pest to you
I tried to show you the best of me
To see if i summon the rest of you
Cause lately its been 80 20
I'm petty cause i thought that you'd be invested too 
But I'm just another distraction
So apologies for my attitude 

And its started to feel like you actually stabbed my back
(Stabbed my back nah)
I always hated that you never just text right back 
(Like where you at nah)
Slipped thru your backdoor
Will this last or
Will you just use me
Still want you back though




I miss it when we used to talk all the time
But now all you wanna do to me is lie
I’ve been working on myself
I’ve been going day and night
I’ve been working nine to five
But I’m working till I die
Sleeping in my empty bed
While you’re running inside my head
And I’m running out of breath
Maybe this will be my death
Two months go by
Now you wanna call me up
(Two months and you were never there)
Saying “Baby, maybe?”
But you know you fucked up
(Fucked up but I don't really care)
I don’t really care that you let me down
Cos I’m going up touring all around
Don’t tell me your worries
Don’t wanna hear you're sorry
Let you go, now I know
Let me go, now you know

(I couldn't take it 
I couldn't take it
I'm so
So sorry)

Fell in love in 22 for the second time
Swear to god swear to god i met you in a past life
Feels like im running in place
I cannot change your point of view
So i just lie to your face
Text you back i love you too

I- I- I-
love you too
Love you too nah
Love you too
Love you too nah
Love you too
Love you too nah
Love you too
Love you too nah

ily2 ft. Babebee

i just gotta stand out

produced by @johnkwondll

i cant fall asleep
lying cold on the floor i feel it all on me
i dont know any more about you than me
black screen on my phone i dont know what i see

i keep drawing on my face so i wont hate it
even when im telling the truth ill have to fake it
blacked out spend my night on the pavement 
staring at my face inside the mirror till i break it

no more staying in my mind you gotta move out
i couldnt think with you living upstairs yeah it was too loud
you really couldnt admit what you had done yeah it was all on me
i found way too many fake friends in my life i watched them all leave

every place that i go i just gotta stand out
theyre always staring at me
i guess im really in demand now
we were all in a room you spilled the truth then i ran out
now its all cause of you that we're through
im yelling man down

dont try to tell me youre a fan now
dont try to say you earned my love you want a handout
it never goes like how you planned out no shit
couldnt show you who i really was you never noticed

i tripped and fell on my wrist and now its broken 
cant ever tell when im sick i know its hopeless
your vision always held me back i didnt know it did
i really cut myself in half now we cant both live

no more staying in my mind you gotta move out
i couldnt think with you living upstairs yeah it was too loud
you really couldnt admit what you had done yeah it was all on me
i found way too many fake friends in my life i watched them all leave

every place that i go i just gotta stand out
theyre always staring at me
i guess im really in demand now
we were all in a room you spilled the truth then i ran out
now its all cause of you that we're through
im yelling man down

man down (p. typhoon)

produced by @johnkwondll

lyrics:

i dream of days that i wont wake up thinking of you
i see your picture every day it stays in my room
cant even take it off of my walls if i want to
i just keep on praying i forget the way i lost you

i got so many plans im not getting any done
got no job got no plans im already 21
take a shot aiming straight for my lungs
got a blue dot let it stay under my tongue
ill let it die fuck it fate already won
so dont lie to my face i said its ok
i still really miss the way that it was
but theres no turning back the days i gotta run

(yeah)
they always judge me
but then theyre lying to my face and say they love me
hide in the bathroom fuck it i cant stand this
its like they dont even try to understand me
(woah)

fuck
i got big dreams
i tried to tell you all about it you dont know what i mean
i cant stand to think youre walking round with memories of me
i only drive late at night when i cant see the road ahead of me

i got so many plans im not getting any done
got no job got no plans im already 21
take a shot aiming straight for my lungs
got a blue dot let it stay under my tongue
ill let it die fuck it fate already won
so dont lie to my face i said its ok
i still really miss the way that it was
but theres no turning back the days i gotta run

run (p. typhoon)

@cherryrizla

sleepy tapes is a community music event hosted on blisscord where everyone has 5 days to make a song based on a given cover art

sleepy tapes vol. 3 took place november 4 - 9 2022 with cover art made by @neverendingweekend

thank you everyone who participated <3
discord.gg/rxY6UKjWKM

starsbeforesunrise - misty skies

https://ffm.to/enchantedft4cf

Aras Moon x aesir collab ep "Arcane Love" dropping soon

ty 4cf <3

Lyrics -

(aesir):

pretty boy
u take my breath away
these words are hard to say
even tho i wrote them just for u 

(Aras):

pretty boy
my heart has been destroyed
but you're too hard to avoid
it'll be tough to fill the void

(aesir): 

passing by
u gave me butterflies
doing everything i can to be
the one to catch ur eye

(Aras):

we can fly so high
as we watch the stars align
your beauty is divine
but i'm alone here to survive

(aesir):

so just let me know
if u want
we can go all the way
to the top
 run away and never look back
we’ll leave that shit in the past
and we can take our time baby just to see if it lasts

(4cf):

You gon call me up then call my bluff 
I know you see it right
Tell me I’m enough, but I can’t trust it
I can see your eyes
Think I’m lesser
I don’t want no pressure 
Tell me she in love
I’m doing everything to get her
See you inside
I don’t wanna talk much
Made it through its all love
Careful with what you know and what you call trust 
In a worse time
Id see you as part of me 
I loved you from the first night 
And I don’t wanna take the worse side
(Know it hurts tonight)

(Aras): 

ill bloom for you baby 
but don't you say a word
your beauty is amazing
so forget what you have heard
about me
it's over
i ain't topping anymore

(aesir):

pretty boy
u take my breath away
these words are hard to say
even tho i wrote them just for u 

(Aras):

pretty boy
my heart has been destroyed
but you're too hard to avoid
it'll be tough to fill the void

(aesir): 

passing by
u gave me butterflies
doing everything i can to be
the one to catch ur eye

(Aras):

we can fly so high
as we watch the stars align
your beauty is divine
but i'm alone here to survive

(aesir):

so just let me know
if u want
we can go all the way
to the top
 run away and never look back
we’ll leave that shit in the past
and we can take our time baby just to see if it lasts

enchanted

aesir x Aras Moon - enchanted ft. 4cf (prod. aesir x Atheonix)

prod me, jake zweigbaum, easeupkid

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/corefish/split-2

Oh my God
I'm so goddamn anxious all the time
I think I'm out my mind a little bit
Sun's up I've been pacing around all night

I feel out of line all the time
Think I whine a little too much
It's all in my head
Guess I'm fine
Don't need to get out of bed
It's alright (Right?)
It's okay to leave yourself in the wench

Okay, alright, okay
Already over you anyways
I'll fight till my heart is grey
And you don't even know what to say
(Umm?)
I'm feeling like my own enemy
I'm locked in the Hennessey again
Maybe if I figure it out
Then I can be my only

Friendship down, I lost a couple pounds
When my ends fell out without me
And I could feel ten feet tall
And not be all talk
But the silence is overwhelming
Maybe I could get it in my head
If you tek a little less
Your protection wasn't healthy
All the little demons
That you keep under your bed
Things you could've never said
Oh my god! I feel I'm melting

The Alligator is coming for me
So tell me what I gotta' do
To prove that you're not all bad
You got my heart on a leash
You're only gonna disagree
When I explain the concept
Too many times I'm left on seen
Now it seems a little hard to process
Now I contest, I won't tell you what you need
And if it isn't obvious, Nothin's been what it seems

Friendship down, I lost a couple pounds
When my ends fell out without me
And I could feel ten feet tall
And not be all talk
But the silence is overwhelming
Maybe I could get it in my head
If you tek a little less
Your protection wasn't healthy
All the little demons
That you keep under your bed
Things you could've never said
Oh my god! I feel I'm melting

ALLIGATOR (project mix)

stream on all platforms: https://too.fm/vp8ryyk

produced by @prodgrayskies

lyrics:
"There's no good times left
No matter what you think
It's all in your head
You should see a shrink"
I don't give a damn
It's happiness she brings
Lead me to my end
That's the greatest thing

If there's darkness ahead
Then lead me to it
I don't care at all
No, I don't care at all 

So break my jaw
Rip out my spine
I would love to die
Inside your arms tonight
It's all my fault
Bring me despair
'Cause in the end you are 
The only one who cares

I won't leave your side
No matter what they say
'Cause you're all I have
At the end of the day
They say that you're messed up
I guess that I am too
We're the perfect pair
That's why  I'm sticking to you

stream

break my jaw (with love, my dear) (prod. grayskies)

no more marbles, no more mr nice dog 😠😠
prod me (28bigdog)

quickdraw

hi. happy v day, i hope u enjoy.  

if u didnt have a valentine this year, it's okay, fuck it. traxee will be ur valentine, stay the course. love  .  always 

<9 

rics:
it all ends the same
i was doing cartwheels 
playing a lil game
disassociate 
you thought you were a popstar
but i dont even know your name

it all ends the same
i had a chance but all i did was break
all i did was break
the feeling of success, it's hard for me to create

swear to god it feels like summer again
cuz i dont give a fuck about your name or your friends
and back then i couldn't be lost even with a gun to my head
and i cant bat an eye that would be a waste of regret

i swear to god
i swear to god
i swear to god that we were better off as


they said i wouldnt like the city
so i showed my claws im a fiesty little kitty 
all it did was fill me with self pity
love

show me love dont give a fuck about a check
close my eyes i dont know whos up next ( i dont care! )
he's a troubled soul
give the devil neck
(sloppy sloppy, i gave him sloppy sloppy)

it all ends the same
same blue sky
same pretty face
it all ends the

(subtle glance with those dark blue eyes
itd be a shame if we both wanted to die )

it all the same it all ends the same
it all ends the

im not thrilled and my hearts fortified
i told her im ready to die

so what if im not alright?
so what if im not alright.

its a shame that my dreams made me depressed
is it a shame that i fell in love with us
im a fiend! im a tyrant! wait no, im just a wreck. :(
i can never be focused on who you are 

and no matter what you'd say i always gave you all i had
itd be a foolproof if i got outside my head
ignorance is bliss until we all go to hell
maybe we were better off when we were ---- just for real.

bloom

Patrick O'Neill

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