slow start

written september 2021

lyrics 
Don't wanna talk
don't try to force words out of me 
cause I don't want your attention and I really don't wanna speak 
I can't deal with the tension my body starts getting weak 
I always get so aggressive when my anxiety peaks 

I'll close 
my 
eyes
I can't breath 
I don't know why I'm so hard to see

But I was never there at all 
I was in my head 
I didn't listen to anything you said 
I'm just staring off
Ripping out my threads 
wishing I was dead 

And it's not that deep 
I'm just scared of going under 
Care way too much about internet numbers 
and all of my fucking thoughts are in a cluster 
I'm pissed I wasted every second of my summer

helix

opening 

written september 2021

lyrics
I guess I'm doing pretty well
For how much I hate myself 
I bet it'll pass pretty soon
let the storm roll by 
till my flowers have bloomed 

Feels like I'm running out of time 
but for the past 8 hours it's been 9
and I can't get in tune 
guess I'll wait it out 
till tomorrow afternoon 

Is it a waste to sit here waiting 
is it a waste to do
anything at all

and I wanna work but I'm too jaded 
and I guess all of it 
makes me feel so small 

I guess I'm doing pretty well 
Think I'm alright but I can't tell
I bet it'll pass pretty soon 
let the storm roll by till my flowers have bloomed 

Feels like I'm running out of time
but in about 8 hours ill be fine
and I can't get in tune 
guess I'll wait it out 
till tomorrow afternoon

bloom

produced by @01kon x @least_favorite

@staggyucrazy @luvkurtis @1sloan

gtfo [staggy + kurtis + 1sloan]

out 2.22.22
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/bassea/maniac-feat-captain-morg
self prod
@captain_morg

lyrics:
you ask me all the questions when the answers already there
and it may take corrections but i know what’s fair is fair
you’re smashing all the mirrors you know thats no way to act
but theres no sense of security when you’re in love with a maniac

you said you’d never really miss me
you said that right after you kissed me
now you’re blamin me for acting hella shifty
did you forget that you were never really with me 

now you’re falling through a spiral ive seen so many times before
and i think the shot i went for will just go falling to the floor

will you just be real with me
tell me how you feel with me

you ask me all the questions when the answers already there
and it may take corrections but i know what’s fair is fair
you’re smashing all the mirrors you know thats no way to act
but theres no sense of security when you’re in love with a maniac

the feeling rises in my chest
i’m only wishing you the best
i’ve tried my best to stay but you’re insane 
cause you’re a fuckin maniac 
you get the best of me sometimes
without a reason or a rhyme
but i’ll love you always and forever 
until the end of time 

it stays you change but im the same 
it stays you change in different ways
it stays you change but im the same 
it stays you change in different ways
it stays you change but im the same 
it stays you change in different ways

you ask me all the questions when the answers already there
and it may take corrections but i know what’s fair is fair
you’re smashing all the mirrors you know thats no way to act
but theres no sense of security when you’re in love with a maniac

and now im asking all these questions, was i ever really there?
and the feelings that i felt would make me feel like it’s unfair
a mosaic you created is still scattered on the floor
so maybe i’m the maniac, but now i’ll shut that door

maniac (feat. captain morg)

MUSIC VIDEO https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=92rTxEK2g_s

made in 24 hours for @snaresociety comp volume 2

https://stemmy.versary.town/a/blissom/when-im-older

ive been waiting
all this time for
you to see me
in the right your
voice is cold your
hands are colder
will i look right
when im older

and you wont 
see me again
the light in 
the tunnel grows thin

mirrors up my 
legs are numb 
balloons are on the 
makeups gone im
sound asleep
forgot the week left 
all my hope in 
rotten dreams its
getting late im 
here to stay the 
basement steps feel
cold today the 
dress i found is 
broken now its 
torn apart left 
on the ground

when im older

self produced 
mixed by me
mastered by @chriad
inspired by @clearlew
lyrics:

oh how i complicate the simple things
it’s got the best of me
now no ones listening
it’s the death of me
can’t dig me up from under.

how will i know?
if you don’t tell me
if i don’t notice
if you’re not sorry

how can i tell?
if you don’t love me
if it’s all my fault
my arms are burning

oh how i complicate the simple things
it’s got the best of me
now no ones listening
it’s the death of me
can’t dig me up from under.

how will i know?

how will i know?

how will i know……

Spotify

grief

prod. me
ft. @espresso5h0t
cover art by me

(me)
that's my name you heard it once again
bitches talking on my name i know im not one of them
im one of me
talking down get put to sleep
im the champ, VIP
switch my lane its RIP
to the top, imma win
no you won't get seen again
leave you tweakin on a whim
got metal armor, metal skin
bullets not gettin in
ill be tearing off your limbs
bitch your chances lookin slim
bitch your chances lookin grim
yeah his body's a bit a limp
time to drop em for a swim
yeah my visions a bit dimmed
i can't see the same as him
i can't go out like a wimp
yeah he floating like a blimp
and he swimming like a shrimp
you're lucky leavin with a limp

(@espresso5h0t)
it’s grim 
no it’s grim 
how you keep calling my name 
you’re not even real 
it’s grim the way you feel 
but if you said it then you’d do it once again 
I’d do it once again 
you don’t seem to understand 
run it back *5
run it back I don’t wanna see it now 
calling out my name you confuse me now 
run it back I don’t wanna see it now 
why you calling your mama?
why you cry it’s not even half past five? nah
you got everything you wanted money fame and all above it
why you cry it’s not even half past five? nah
you got everything you wanted
why you calling your mama?

(me)
everything i want and more
one wrong move and im on the floor
keep my eyes peeled know what im watchin for
the fake ppl walking round the store
i can see their eyes
i can see the lies
make up their names and stay disguised
im runnin won't get caught this time
stckshift keep it memorized

that's my name you heard it once again
bitches talking on my name i know im not one of them
im one of me
talking down get put to sleep
im the champ, VIP
switch my lane its RIP
to the top, imma win
no you won't get seen again
leave you tweakin on a whim
got metal armor, metal skin
bullets not gettin in
ill be tearing off your limbs
bitch your chances lookin slim
bitch your chances lookin grim
yeah his body's a bit a limp
time to drop em for a swim
yeah my visions a bit dimmed
i can't see the same as him
i can't go out like a wimp
yeah he floating like a blimp
and he swimming like a shrimp
you're lucky leavin with a limp

bloom

Patrick O'Neill