produced by me

               
thank you for listening

I still haven't decided

ok,sure

i can't teach you how to be happy

liar

written september 2021

lyrics 
Don't wanna talk
don't try to force words out of me 
cause I don't want your attention and I really don't wanna speak 
I can't deal with the tension my body starts getting weak 
I always get so aggressive when my anxiety peaks 

I'll close 
my 
eyes
I can't breath 
I don't know why I'm so hard to see

But I was never there at all 
I was in my head 
I didn't listen to anything you said 
I'm just staring off
Ripping out my threads 
wishing I was dead 

And it's not that deep 
I'm just scared of going under 
Care way too much about internet numbers 
and all of my fucking thoughts are in a cluster 
I'm pissed I wasted every second of my summer

helix

opening 

written september 2021

lyrics
I guess I'm doing pretty well
For how much I hate myself 
I bet it'll pass pretty soon
let the storm roll by 
till my flowers have bloomed 

Feels like I'm running out of time 
but for the past 8 hours it's been 9
and I can't get in tune 
guess I'll wait it out 
till tomorrow afternoon 

Is it a waste to sit here waiting 
is it a waste to do
anything at all

and I wanna work but I'm too jaded 
and I guess all of it 
makes me feel so small 

I guess I'm doing pretty well 
Think I'm alright but I can't tell
I bet it'll pass pretty soon 
let the storm roll by till my flowers have bloomed 

Feels like I'm running out of time
but in about 8 hours ill be fine
and I can't get in tune 
guess I'll wait it out 
till tomorrow afternoon

bloom

Patrick O'Neill