Dawg fucking jesus i Cant stop listening.

>>>\\\LYRICS BELOW

goodbye, Trophy! (45-53)

the final trophy song

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made in 24 hours for @artbyform 's All Nighter Vol. 7

In this song, clearlew's vocal performance embodies my two-year debate of being transgender. It's Canal Pride in Amsterdam as we're making this, and I'm sitting home writing a song with my best friend about being beautiful in my own way. However, given as to how clearlew sings my story and he doesn't represent the lyrics personally, we decided to write a song that can also be interpreted as a love song, about a girl named >>>"lola" - the name I would have given myself, if I would have decided to become a woman.

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Lyrics

I've gotta think twice
Because lola she's so beautiful
And I
I know it's gotta come from inside (yeah)
Girl this is ineffable
Girl I'm so irrational

I've gotta think twice,
Because lola she's so beautiful
And I
I know it's gotta come from inside (yeah)
Girl this is ineffable
Girl I'm so irrational

White heels, white skirt
I know I've never met her
But I can tell you that I know her more than anyone (oh yeah)
I'm such a perfectionist
But I dont know what perfection is
I'll tell you who I am
But girl I don't know who I am

Do you know how to do it like her?
Materialism, I think I'm falling for it all over again

I can't open my eyes
to see your face because I 
Just can't take another lie
(Give it time)

You always hide behind your actions like you know what's right
I'll keep hiding behind my eyes, 'till the time is right
You always hide behind your actions like you know what's right
I'll keep hiding behind my eyes, 'till the time is right

White heels, white skirt
I know I've never met her
but I can tell you that I know her more than anyone (oh yeah)
I'm such a perfectionist
But I dont know what perfection is
I'll tell you who I am
But girl I don't know who I am

Do you know how to do it like her?
Materialism, I think I'm falling for it all over again

I can't open my eyes
To see your face because I
Just can't take another lie
(Give it time)

You always hide behind your actions like you know what's right
I'll keep hiding behind my eyes 'till the time is right

I've gotta think twice
I've gotta think twice
(Yeah!)

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goodbye, Trophy! (45-53)

clearlew + TROPHYTROPHY - lola (51)

https://ffm.to/bleith 

cover art by noah greene https://temberl.in/

i'll be the first

pronounced "bləith, or blayeth"
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guess it's been a long time
i don't even know
nothing left but splintered bones
and broken hope
walking down the road
we grew up on
choking on the roses 
but they're grown and gone

inhaling erosion i'm sinking i'm floating that
solemn corrosion i'll swallow the hope and i'll 
hold onto something and someone will hear the 
implosion aeolian sediments blowing away

maybe i won't miss those white halls and those silos
and your wide eyes

(do you remember me?)

all the pain went when you kissed me
but it was back when i woke up
winters always warmer when you're with me
caught a cross to call my own
in the inverted lattice beneath
i was just trying to calm you down
'cause this summer i'll be sixteen 
and i still wonder how
covered in clovers and i’m six feet
under now five leaves aren't enough
this september i’ll be leaving
throw the photos on the ground i should have known
i should have known

slipping through the cracks i'm calling it back on you
shadows shifting elisions i'm still in your arms
cosmic collisions it's crumbling falling through
scaffold splitting derisions i'm sealing the hearth

inhaling erosion i'm sinking i'm floating that
solemn corrosion i'll swallow the hope and i'll 
hold onto something and someone will hear the 
implosion aeolian sediments blowing away

one to many times i let myself slide
resin in the hide and it's hopeless
summit through the sides i thought of better ties
brethren tiled the pine on a pulpit
covered in the sines i coveted the lies
nolled up on a lyre a forfeit
lauded once or twice a strath that lead the line
straffed it to your silage and sold it

if you'd just lie awake 
i won't shear no shame

save me 
break me
save me
chain me

all the pain went when you kissed me
but it was back when i woke up
winters always warmer when you're with me
caught a cross to call my own
in the inverted lattice beneath
i was just trying to calm you down
'cause this summer i'll be sixteen 
throw the photos on the ground i should have known
i should have known

guess it's been a long time
i don't even know
nothing left but splintered bones
and broken hope
walking down the road
we grew up on
choking on the roses 
but they're grown and gone

bleith

Spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/track/7bN5R1Mdo8F6ok8lP0qGIK?si=d2cf7aaef42c49dd

Lyrics:
Sour
Just match the taste
Shower me with praise
Watch it only last an
Hour
No don't match the pace
Nothing's in the way but it seems I need to
[Slow] down let it be ok
That was all i said but now it's everything
It all tastes the same every day
I just wanna feel something

sour

I ran home cuz I thought I was fired
And man all these joints are tired
And I said “wait” I was waiting for a serenade
Tell me everything about your damn day
Lay me out front if you threw a grenade
So why?
Do I seem distracted to you?
It’s beautiful to lay awake in my eyes

So watch it all be enough for you to take in
Watch it all be enough for you to let in
I tried to face the great divide
It only tired me out

11.6.23

The Great Divide

https://spiritofariel.com

@gordonsnyder thank you for believing in me

6.6.21

You (w/ Gordon Snyder)

https://spiritofariel.com

i can't be caught saying this with my boys in the room
but im never gonna let you go
a stupid thought's all it takes to devoid what you do
no im never gonna let you go
my love ain't the evil, i'd share my world between us
you're scared to lose that shit but i'm not
i'm yours don't you see that the space between us is killing me
i won't lose sight of my worth

full album may 21st

I won't lose sight of my worth

chasing cars

suddenly i'm drowning in water in the middle of the forest
and i'm the only one in harms way
i can't tell if i'm dreaming cuz i took another substance
was wondering if it could just give me a little guidance
and it did and it really helped me out
i was screaming in my room crying out
if there was someone here to save me
a huge pretty painting on my wall that could calm me down

you talk with lipstick and your chin up cuz you're fine
and in the winter you get cozy with the guys
look who ends up empty handed, take another candid
imma get shit from the guys but all the times i told you
i'm really on my side, but you're trying to keep my hand off from the trigger

isn't that crazy? you must really hate me? but when you paint me you say i look amazing, say i look amazing

you talk with lipstick and your chin up cuz you're fine
and in the winter you get cozy with the guys
look who ends up empty handed, take another candid
imma get shit from the guys but all the times i told you
i'm really on my side, but you're trying to keep my hand off from the trigger

it kills me even slower to know that he's below her
he fulfills the role she needs in her life

He's The Reason

Take In 'Reality'

Originally for performance purposes; as heard in Brooklyn, NY and Newark, DE

Now available as part of "breathing+", a Bandcamp-exclusive compilation with proceeds going to UNRWA + PCRF, which are organizations providing aid to those affected by the genocide in Palestine if you're unfamiliar

https://wishlane.bandcamp.com/album/breathing

If you don't have the funds for the whole thing, I encourage you to make a donation to any of these charities, as even $1 can go a long way:

https://unrwa.org
https://pcrf.net
https://linktr.ee/fundsforgaza
https://www.doctorswithoutborders.org/
https://support.anera.org/a/palestine-emergency

Thank you, and free Palestine 🇵🇸

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