no it's not to make you happy
that's not why i'm here
can you read me without asking?
can you see that i don't care??

was hopin' i could seeeee you
only if you need to come here if you wanna
baby take it farther
we touch, we turn into mirages no
i wasn't in the picture
was running from our issues
living in a bubble
we touch we turn into mirages

no it's not to make you happy
that's not why i'm here
can you read me without asking?
can you see that i don't care??

hey!
you say your fear is you won't see my face again
i swear that you're wrong
i promise this ain't the end
i told you how i see it all as just a mirage
it's just a mirage
it's just a mirage no

no it's not to make you happy
that's not why i'm here
can you read me without asking?
can you see that i don't care??

was hopin' i could seeeee you
only if you need to come here if you wanna
baby take it farther
we touch, we turn into mirages no
i wasn't in the picture
was running from our issues
living in a bubble
we touch we turn into mirages

Mirages

acetone

sydney 

a LUCA+THE CAT+QUARTERMOON story

circa december 2020

stream

sydney

The fractal song: love sex death & time travel 

circa April 2021

with artwork shot on location nearby Dickinson, North Dakota

the fractal song

The fractal song

thx mom and dad for helping with the cover art

Do you know how to be eighteen?
Do you know how to send your dream?
I'm talking schemes to the max, I'm talking all of your facts
I'm talking all of the time, I'm talking all of the time

We still got a summer to spend
Waste our fucking time, we're taking acid again
And everything I got it all belongs to my friends
Everything is love, but I can never commit

My old swiss army knife
Stem cells, nothing is direct
Everything is love, everything is love
Take the leap, welcome to the plant cell bath

It's bright white, a new kind of mindset
A little clinical, never cynical no
Remember getting your brand new phone?
Remember doing that on your own?

Like being in charge, and fucking it up
What was good became a mess and you thought giving up was
Inevitable, but suddenly...
You feel a supercharge of life

My old swiss army knife
Stem cells, nothing is direct
Everything is love, everything is love
Take the leap, welcome to the plant cell bath

REM, get it all in
Alex found a rabbit now she's wondering if
This world's the place for her
You gotta stop smoking this shit...

Don't be frightened you are in a car
You've just woken up from sleep
I imagine you were in a dream
You are in a dream

My old swiss army knife
Stem cells, nothing is direct
Everything is love, everything is love
Take the leap, welcome to the plant cell bath

REM, at the party last week
You're going off of the grid
I'm just pressing repeat
Cause and effect, building my flying machine
Take the leap, welcome to the plant cell bath

welcome to the plant cell bath

thank you to the awesome @patchymate for the cover art and help with arrangement and mixing! 

she'd go and take it, don’t reciprocate
end up feeling less sweet, opened wide
I’m dead in conversations, going to places i shouldn’t stay
real or on the line

feeling out of touch,
I can’t sense a numb feeling
state the obvious when I lose track of meaning
you keep on reading my mind when I don’t want you to
when I write about, write about, you
shit, go and take it, don’t reciprocate
even if it’s for the worse, I think I’ll be just fine

(patchymate)
don’t!
stop breaking your back for me
it isn’t worth the pain and the sense of a tragedy
it wasn’t no

don’t!
stop taking the edge out of everything i like
don’t!
keep me from friends ain’t like nothing that you had
don’t take it out on me, i’m your beauty queen
and i want everything you have
i want everything you have

still wanna show the do-si-do
show off the branches when the grow
and i want everything you have
i want everything you have
i wanna build an enterprise
co-divide and start to multiply and multiply and multiply and multiply

take it out of me to see the rest
lied about who lies with me in bed
fornicating on with someone else
and all my friends are getting used to it
all my friends are the best
believe me, to be the name i wasn’t then
it could have killed me in an instant
it could have got to my soul

and i love being all orderly
but it ain’t for me
i march to my own form
don’t you see?
i told you babe, it was an omen
and my friends are gonna love it when i cry

and you won’t
but you don’t have to believe me again

me/you feat. patchymate

||is this how it feels to take a life?||

~[track 3/?]

prod me
bg vox + additional prod @dramatrial
bg vox + additional writing @micahcallari

🦋 \\ lyrics // 🦋

[verse] ~ @jauntsen
the mess you made around can’t be undone
that’s what you think!
could the problem be what you’ve become
that’s what you think!
nothing that you’ll say to me 
that will help me ease my mind 
so listen what i’m saying please
you can’t ignore the signs!

[prehook] ~ @jauntsen
cause you couldn't be
(it's alright, alright)
what I thought you seen
(it's alright, alright)
just a subtle taste
(it's alright, alright)
that’s soon to turn to waste

{{tts}}
is this how it feels to take a life?!

[hook] ~ @jauntsen
she’s not bleeding out!
I swear I need a little more time
(she needs a little more time)
I’m not one for myself
I never asked for help
I’ll play the cards i’m dealt.

[verse 2] ~ @jauntsen
the silence is overwhelming 
I cannot believe the words you are telling me
cause i dont know what to do in this situation

I saw myself in her eyes
the blood on her hands was mine
she stood in for my demise
Is this how it feels to take a life!

Bury her soul in my mind
I push her off to the side
And hide the stab to my pride
cause now I shed the tears she used to cry

[bridge] ~ @jauntsen
cause you couldn't be
what you thought you seen
It will be her eyes next time you see me face to face
for now it’s just a taste
that’s soon to go to waste
remind me what could happen if I step out of my place

the blood’s dried on the floor
it's staining the decor
avert your eyes from me and I will not be that surprised
no matter what I try
my destiny’s to find
A brand new me to see a brand new outlook through my eyes

(It’s alright, alright, alright)
(It’s alright, alright, alright
(It’s alright, alright, alright)
she’s bleeding right out of her eyes
(It’s alright, alright, alright)
(It’s alright, alright, alright)
(It’s alright, alright, alright)
don’t think I’ll make it out alive

[hook] ~ @jauntsen
she’s not bleeding out!
(she needs some time to breathe x2)
she needs a little more time
I’m not one for myself
I never asked for help
I’ll play the cards i’m dealt.

spotify !

she's bleeding out!!

https://spiritofariel.com

@gordonsnyder thank you for believing in me

6.6.21

You (w/ Gordon Snyder)

[Intro: (Ethan Justice), (Ryan Hall), han.irl]
"Oh my God, that fucking sounded sick"
"Just, here, here ya go...
There's a different version of us that's also a different person"
"Ah this is so much fun now!
I just put my hydroflask down
And it feels like 20 pounds was just lifted off from my body
She's a runner she's a track star
If I had anything to say to my future self it would
Probably be... uhh fuck money... get bitches"

[Verse 1: Atlas in Motion]
You remind me of the sunrise
Only ever see you on a bad night
Interrupt my blue with your bright light
Creep in through my window
Everything’s alright
Gonna be just fine everything’s alright

[Chorus: Atlas in Motion & han.irl]
(Thought it would be fun but it fucked me up)
(Thought it was kinda fun but it fucked me up)
(Thought it would be fun but it fucked me up)

[Interlude: (Ryan Hall) & han.irl]
"I'll take a video I'll take a video for you for later"
"han what the fuck..."
"where'd the music go, wait?"

[Refrain: han.irl]
Shit how'd another summer end?
Can you hit me up I'm running out of patience?
Shit, maybe we could try again?
And I'll call instead of looking through your playlist

[Verse 2: han.irl]
Wait-wait–
How'd we fade out so fast?
Didn't think you'd leave me in the dark like that
Had me flying so high now my ego crashed
Staying up listening to Call Me Back
Thought it'd be fun, but it fucked me up
Now I'm running out of time
Running out of luck, but it's alright
Everything's alright... Everything's alright?
Alright? alright? al- al-

[Chorus: han.irl]
Thought it would be fun but it fucked me up
Thought it would be fun but it fucked me up
Thought it would be fun but it fucked me up
Thought it would be fun but it fucked me up
Thought it would be fun but it fucked me up

[Refrain: han.irl & Atlas in Motion]
Shit how'd another summer end?
Can you hit me up I'm running out
Running out of patience?
Shit, maybe we could try again?
And I'll call instead of looking through your playlists?
Shit how'd another summer end?
Can you hit me up I'm running out of pavement?
Shit, maybe we could try again?
And I'll call instead of looking through your playlists?


[Outro: (Ryan Hall) & han.irl]
"This is crazy"
"This is so weird cause like I can imagine myself in the future pressing play on this voice memo to listen to it and hearing myself say the exact things that i'm saying right now in sequence of the way that i'm saying them in this second. So if you really think about it" "Woah this is really pretty""The past and the present and the future are all like... the same thing... 'dude this isssss' maybe not, maybe it's just..."

fmuuu (with atlas in motion)

how much longer is this shit gon' last
call me up say you're glad that I'm well
but when my gaurd falls down 
and the truth comes out
you won't be too proud of me now

see I got blood stains on my white t shirt
and growing pains when I wake up
feeling like I just got hit by a truck
and just to spare you I won't mention what would scare you
if you could be me you'd see I'm shit outta luck

baby how much longer is this shit gon' last
call me up say you're glad that I'm well
but when my gaurd falls down 
and the truth comes out
you won't be too proud of me now

you say take your time but I've had mine
no I'm not asking for yours
(midnight, midnight, midnight, midnight)

all this smoke in my hiatus I'm disassociated
this intoxicant does more than relax
cuz now I'm fucked up thinking bout regrets and what I can't change
bound like tack to the past
no these pills won't make you happy your friends can make you laugh
and your perception's really all that you have
I'll see you when I land
see you when I
see you when I land
see you when I

yeah I'll see you when I land
see you when I
see you when I land
see you when I

perception's really all that you have

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