Just..amazing. Cant wait to see you live someday!

this song means a lot to me thank you for listening
ill get better at music i promise
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i couldn't find myself
and life is around the corner
i could probably melt
and now that i am older

i see all my friends hated me
lived a lie just for my fantasy
oblivious in all these situations
but i think i can fix them
i think i can fix them

clovers on my face
im flying so i can't even feel them
you’re my everything
but flowers only bloom every season
i cant feel my breathin
feels like my life does have some meaning
my heart feels empty
but i cant fight with my reason
fight with my reason
(x2)

is it all my fault
i just cant evolve
all these cracks in my vault and
i dont understand at all how

im breaking so easily
my mind is confused
my soul has died lethally
but that isnt news
my temples abused
the angels are teasing me
and they all accuse
that what im saying isnt true

clovers
clovers
its not over til i say its over
gotta pressure on
cant give it the shoulder
clovers
clovers
i gotta overcome this boulder
im not getting in the eye of the holder
this worlds getting colder
but im still wrapped in my clovers
wrapped in my clovers

i thought they were my friends
but they told me to my own face that they werent
i thought that I could trust her
but she threw it all away in the dirt
feeling all these emotions
the anguish
the pain
the atonement
all of my fear
and my hatred
are bolded
my body its coded
but i cant let it control me

false promises were made about me
and my hands were scarred from the thorns
placed around me from all my fears
i can see through my eyes
but my eyelids still act as a blockade around my sea of tears
is this the first act or the finale
for my new life to have past all these years
as my old reality is crushed
i try to look to the future as my mind begins to clear

clovers

https://ffm.to/bleith 

cover art by noah greene https://temberl.in/

i'll be the first

pronounced "bləith, or blayeth"
_________________________________
guess it's been a long time
i don't even know
nothing left but splintered bones
and broken hope
walking down the road
we grew up on
choking on the roses 
but they're grown and gone

inhaling erosion i'm sinking i'm floating that
solemn corrosion i'll swallow the hope and i'll 
hold onto something and someone will hear the 
implosion aeolian sediments blowing away

maybe i won't miss those white halls and those silos
and your wide eyes

(do you remember me?)

all the pain went when you kissed me
but it was back when i woke up
winters always warmer when you're with me
caught a cross to call my own
in the inverted lattice beneath
i was just trying to calm you down
'cause this summer i'll be sixteen 
and i still wonder how
covered in clovers and i’m six feet
under now five leaves aren't enough
this september i’ll be leaving
throw the photos on the ground i should have known
i should have known

slipping through the cracks i'm calling it back on you
shadows shifting elisions i'm still in your arms
cosmic collisions it's crumbling falling through
scaffold splitting derisions i'm sealing the hearth

inhaling erosion i'm sinking i'm floating that
solemn corrosion i'll swallow the hope and i'll 
hold onto something and someone will hear the 
implosion aeolian sediments blowing away

one to many times i let myself slide
resin in the hide and it's hopeless
summit through the sides i thought of better ties
brethren tiled the pine on a pulpit
covered in the sines i coveted the lies
nolled up on a lyre a forfeit
lauded once or twice a strath that lead the line
straffed it to your silage and sold it

if you'd just lie awake 
i won't shear no shame

save me 
break me
save me
chain me

all the pain went when you kissed me
but it was back when i woke up
winters always warmer when you're with me
caught a cross to call my own
in the inverted lattice beneath
i was just trying to calm you down
'cause this summer i'll be sixteen 
throw the photos on the ground i should have known
i should have known

guess it's been a long time
i don't even know
nothing left but splintered bones
and broken hope
walking down the road
we grew up on
choking on the roses 
but they're grown and gone

bleith

@loginstrash
@brakence

Fall around
My instincts never kick in tryna calm me down
You can catch me in the wreckage where I'm far too proud
To look you in the eyes where I've lost your smile
(I am using my imagination)
Lost-lost your smile
Distant
Wings just lifted
Statue fixed here
I'm addicted
I could never trust you sincerely
Oh my god I don't think you love me
Be sure you sign your letters with tears please
My head is still abuzz, I breathe, I just hear

Catch me now
Would you bring me back the water if you touched the clouds?
The sunshine couldn't stop me from falling down
Oh Icarus just help me to sleep somehow
And I'll be waiting

Fall down
I had to run it back again
Fade when I cried out
I care for you I care for you
Far out, I have a choice to let you in
Not tryna fall out
(Patience, if I can't hold you, it doesn't mean that we're through)
Fall down
I had to run it back run it back run it back back back back
Cried out
I care for you I care for you
Far out, I have a choice to let you in
And bring the stars out
Think I'll find out who I am

Let go of closure fall into devotion
Flowers in this garden, bees come form an ocean
Shots bounce, call it ricochet
(Where in the world did I go)
Arms out, hold your laughter in
Thought cloud made it rain today
(Go figure)
(We cry and laugh on the floor)
Clap, bow, I'll just take the stage
(I'm with you)
(You cannot catch me no more)
Shots bounce, call it ricochet
(Where in the world did I go)
Arms out, hold your laughter in
(Where in the world did I go)
Thought cloud made it rain today
(Where in the world did I go)
Clap, bow, I'll just take the stage
Shots bounce, call it ricochet
Arms out, hold your laughter in
Thought cloud made it rain today
Clap, bow, I'll just take the stage

Distant
Wings just lifted
Statue fixed here
I never left you
(Athena)
Distant
(And I can't wait another day and stay begging just to go back home)
(And I could never trust you sincerely)
Wings just lifted
(All my friends becoming royalty father help me watch the throne)
(Cause I don't think I thought through it clearly)
Statue fixed here
(Stars kill my anxiety I won't fight this all alone)
(Hold me there in your arms I'm dreaming)
I never-
Burning
Don't let me go

Login:

Being together ain't about
Being together
Girl I know I'm far
Yeah I know I'm far
Being together ain't about
Being together
Girl I know I'm far
Yeah I know I'm far
Being ain't about
Being ain't about
Being ain't about
Being ain't about
Being ain't about
Being ain't about
Being ain't about
Be-be-be-be-be

(Being togeth-th-th-th-th-th-)

Athena feat. brakence & login

Watch the music video at youtu.be/2REABpIQ0wI
https://evangeline.info
🔄

Performed by Evangeline and Self Discovery
Produced by Evangeline and Self Discovery
Written by Evangeline, Self Discovery and vai

contains sample from soundcloud.com/vai22/theaters

2/█

Cinemas (ft. Self Discovery)

Spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/track/7bN5R1Mdo8F6ok8lP0qGIK?si=d2cf7aaef42c49dd

Lyrics:
Sour
Just match the taste
Shower me with praise
Watch it only last an
Hour
No don't match the pace
Nothing's in the way but it seems I need to
[Slow] down let it be ok
That was all i said but now it's everything
It all tastes the same every day
I just wanna feel something

sour

Optifine

Census Designated but it's just my voice

https://www.pcrf.net/

https://bdsmovement.net/

Stagnant on morbid curiosity

To crystallize the feeling

Aglow, we flash to grey

And watch the soul deviate
 
Lately you’ve been staring at the corpse

Like there’s nothing left to see

Transfixed by the writing on the wall

Apathy is the disease

If you leave it alone, then somebody gets hurt

If you topple a tree, well the crash will get heard

The system's kinetic, the signal dispersed

I tried to hold the whole weight of the world

anti apathy song

https://ffm.to/alwayswere

cover art by noah geene https://temberl.in/ 

i think i see it in the distance 
___________________________________
always were, like you always were
its the rote screen door on your front porch 
where you fell asleep on the tile floor
but you've unstrung all your britching now

bite my tongue 'till it falls right off
its the tailgate on that fane barbwire 
trace the windshield as we drove for miles 
spurn the sauder on the backing line
and i swear i saw you standing at the edge 

and it was beautiful 
and it was beautiful 
and it was beautiful 
and it was beautiful 

forget it, forget it, the day is done
forget it, forget it, you saved it once
i get it, i get it, you've frayed and rubbed the velvet off your antlers

and it was beautiful 
and it was beautiful 

forget it, forget it, the day is done
forget it, forget it, you saved it once
i get it, i get it, you've frayed and rubbed the velvet off your antlers

always were

I ran home cuz I thought I was fired
And man all these joints are tired
And I said “wait” I was waiting for a serenade
Tell me everything about your damn day
Lay me out front if you threw a grenade
So why?
Do I seem distracted to you?
It’s beautiful to lay awake in my eyes

So watch it all be enough for you to take in
Watch it all be enough for you to let in
I tried to face the great divide
It only tired me out

11.6.23

The Great Divide

spent the summer of 2022 making this. wrote the original draft in 2021. not much compared to what i can do now, but i figured it was worth putting out since there's a bit of an emotional attachment for me. Represents a different era of my life

yes the export/sidechain is glitched because the file is corrupted and i could fix it by jumping through some technical hoops, but it's been like that for so long i kind of just consider it part of the song

ann j gardner canyon park 2012

avi's little ocean

member/cofounder @anythingcouldbehere

The Great Divide

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