I don't wanna share your dreams
I don't wanna wait for your team
I don't wanna care for those kids
I got nothing to give
I just wanna live

I don't wanna know about everything
'Cause everything is fake like you
Everything is stats and numbers, man
And I got zero fucks to give
I just wanna live

Yeah, I don't wanna be
On your right side of history
It's a mystery what all of that means
And I'm not all that intrigued about the fucking thing
I just wanna live

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Based on Shur and Segah modes from Iranian classical music

Just Wanna Live

In a world of over 8 billion egos all chattering away in over 7 thousand languages - we did this...

Sometimes Words Are Not Enough

Evening mood

My latest song, Empire, was born from the haunting Dunkirk beach scene—young soldiers lined up in silence under the blazing sun, waiting. No speeches, no music—just the weight of dread. Their stillness felt like bravery. Above, RAF pilots fought unseen, alone in the sky, risking everything for those below. The song emerged as a sound collage, built from simple chords and evolving textures that captured the quiet courage and tension I felt. It’s a sonic reflection of that liminal space—between fear and hope, action and stillness.


The Dock

Empire

In the desert

A feeling of waiting and going nowhere. Too much time to think as your regrets interfere with your thoughts.

Lyrics

And the reason that you thought you hadn't told me
The reasons that you said had gone away
I dreamed about chances and the answers
I never knew what happened anyway

As the reasons and the days pass. 
Everything seems to settle in my mind 
The reasons that I had I didn't tell you
I was fearing who I am

In many years I never thought about you
But that's a lie. I'm lying to myself
For the reasons try and lock away the answers
It took away my heart and something else...

A Song version of Patience I just had the idea for. Hope its an improvement. 

Please feel free to leave a comment as its really helpful. 

Hope you enjoy.

Patience and Regret

Written, Arranged, Performed, and Produced by Kyle Bolan
Art by Kyle Bolan

Citters

Scattered thoughts coalescing into disillusionment. 

A new idea i am playing around with.  I will be working on this and updating it and will put a note here when i do.

Please feel free to leave a comment

Contemplation

Yesterday this song painted a name change for me but after sleeping on it... TBD is too well established so I've reverted to my old artist name.

Call it a product of making songs in the moment all the time and trying to let my music own and reflect that...

all good!

I wrote the lyrics listening to this amazing track here:
Listen to Peaceful Lights by 𝐏𝐚𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐟𝐥𝐨𝐫𝐚 on #SoundCloud
https://on.soundcloud.com/UF7fdEtcveUR3a3blP Thanks a mill Passioflora 🌈🧬🪶🫶🏽

Lyrics
The label may changed
Like I said to Mark,
Should I shine my light just from the dark
My positive intent painted some negative scene
Let's let the school boy out to curate this dream

A beautiful lark
Just beautiful light
From the beautiful dark
New phase
See black hole bright

The intention the same
Just taking care by name
Through Peaceful Lights
We're sending love for sane
Transcendental meditation soothe our pain
Manifest our Lion's mane
As apex predators
Show Earth how we remain

A beautiful lark
Some beauty is saved
From the beautiful dark
New rays
Pure positive path we've paved

👨🏿‍🚀Luminous Lark🧑🏻‍🚀

Sonata No.1 Op.42

Index:
1. Songs by Lewis Addison Rudd Vol 1
1. Isolation Contemplation
2. Flashing before my eyes

Song produced, composed, Mastered & performed by Lewis Addison Rudd

1.1.2 Flashing before my eyes

Just messing around learning, experimenting, playing and expressing myself. My little collection of demos, songs, experiments and instrumentals. I hope you enjoy them. I'm a guitarist / Vocalist / Producer and enjoy learning to express my moods, emotions, dreams and thoughts as I go.

Thank you all for the likes comments and reposts.

I have added a support link as I am struggling to keep up my subscriptions here currently and it would help me keep on creating and posting more songs. Thank you if you read this far lol.

Patience and Regret

Dreaming on Another Distraction