So Help Me God

LYRICS:

You're my pain, and I
Can not take, I hate you

Wonder where I am?
Somewhere, far away new

So please stay away from me
I hate you

Please stay away from me
I hate you

So please stay away from me
I hate you

Please stay away from me
I hate you


Long life
Long life, I
Needed, l
Needed, I
You
Stay away
Stay away
Don’t, need the pain
Need the pain, you

So please stay away from me
I hate you

Please stay away from me
I hate you

So please stay away from me
I hate you

Please stay away from me
I hate you.




Stay Away

LYRICS:

And if it wasn’t for that
Moment, I cherish full of
Pain when I’m sickened by the
People I’m missing in time
I’m overthinking when I’m
Truly forgotten, one moment
Is that a sign I should think about what’s important?

I trust hard too hard to trust again, and I think that’s okay
I’m the wolf lead astray, but moving closer to closure
I handle days by the day, until they’re taken from me
The deeper lessons, I’m earning my eyes and trying to see

Time for fate to marry me
Heavy is the head that holds my name, and they won't bury me
Time for me to learn to lick my wounds, and let the jury sing
My back's against the wall, facing the world, and I'm not worrying

Wash my mind

Tomorrow is a new day
And if granted, it’s mine
Every time 24 hours, I may open my eyes
Lump of coal as my gift
But with some pressure it shines
Beneath the sky, the sun, and moon will recognize how I try

Life is consensual, 'till it screws you
Don't try to turn the story to Potter, it's written by Seuss
Don’t overcomplicate it, it’s not even complicated
You read too deep into it if the villain you chasing
With a taste for revenge, mixed with hatred

Crucifixion by fiction, but no one listens to the conversation
Giving you vision of what I’m dealing with
it’s your decision
To run with it, or run a scandal like Paparazzi
Even if I tell you the truth, you thinking there’s something 'bout me

That’s why I hate people
Hypocrite 'cause I’ll try to forgive with my wounds leaking
Sometimes I do hate existence
And if I’m going through some shit, I’ll probably keep my distance
Be understanding, don’t antagonize me
I’m in my feelings, but me feeling things won’t patronize me
Only god can save me
Maybe I can save me
Shadows from the fire leaving nothing shady 
Wash my mind

Tomorrow is a new day
And if granted, it’s mine
Every time 24 hours, I may open my eyes
Lump of coal as my gift
But with some pressure it shines
Beneath the sky, the sun, and moon will recognize how I try

Wash my mind

Tomorrow is a new day
And if granted, it’s mine
Every time 24 hours, I may open my eyes
Lump of coal as my gift
But with some pressure it shines
Beneath the sky, the sun, and moon will recognize how I try

Wash my mind


Wash My Mind

There’s a feather in the sky
Maybe coming from a night Angel
Eye for a seeing eye
Coming from an evil face, I know
God or I’m seeing good, I hope

God or I’m seeing good, I hope

There’s a feather in the sky
Maybe coming from a night Angel
Eye for a seeing eye
Coming from an evil face, I know
God or I’m seeing good, I hope

God or I’m seeing good, I hope

Yeah

I'm reaching for the sky
I'm needing you and I

I hope there’s a feather in the sky
God knows I need to cry, I know

God knows I need to cry, I know
	
I'm reaching for the sky
I'm needing you and I

I hope there’s a feather in the sky
God knows I need to cry, I know


There’s a feather in the sky
Maybe coming from a night Angel
Eye for a seeing eye
Coming from an evil face, I know
God or I’m seeing good, I hope

God or I’m seeing good, I hope

There’s a feather in the sky
Maybe coming from a night Angel
Eye for a seeing eye
Coming from an evil face, I know
God or I’m seeing good, I hope

God or I’m seeing good, I hope

Yeah

I'm reaching for the sky
I'm needing you and I

I hope there’s a feather in the sky
God knows I need to cry, I know

God knows I need to cry, I know
	
I'm reaching for the sky
I'm needing you and I

I hope there’s a feather in the sky
God knows I need to cry, I know

Feather In The Sky

LYRICS:

Praying on my downfall
Smile in my face and want to lie about it
The devil is a liar, full of mind games
Trust me, I knew for a while

Better hold on to your soul, look
If you’re standing near the edge, don’t bet it won’t push
The tricks they play, it’s evil hunting game
That’s a dead man walking, the price of wanting fame 

And as I pray to god I say
“Please forgive me, it’s not promised to finish today” 
The tricks they play, it’s evil hunting game
That’s a dead man walking, the price of wanting fame


And it’s not “holier than thou”
Look, I have my own problems moving through this crowd 
It’s problematic, I promise, try not to panic 
High-strung, feeling my most normal while manic 

Honesty, love, and loyalty taken for granted 
Something that you can’t buy, and rare if it’s handed
Thinking it’s too late to know me
That’s conditioning speaking, gifted in cold feet

Unlearning what I picked up as a child
Still growing as a grown man, it’s been a while, huh?
Can’t let myself down again
Life is a work in progress, until the end, my friend.


Praying on my downfall
Smile in my face and want to lie about it
The devil is a liar, full of mind games
Trust me, I knew for a while

Better hold on to your soul, look
If you’re standing near the edge, don’t bet it won’t push
The tricks they play, it’s evil hunting game
That’s a dead man walking, the price of wanting fame 

And as I pray to god I say
“Please forgive me, it’s not promised to finish today” 
The tricks they play, it’s evil hunting game
That’s a dead man walking, the price of wanting fame.

Dead Man

LYRICS:

Who am I without that mirror on the wall, that cost your soul?
Insecurities will call back
Still that child that’s inside, that lost all control
Deep inside, cannot unpack.

When you were my whole life, and my worse decision
The whole time I’m bound conditional love

Kind of convincing that it’s evil you trust

Has to be a way around it

Not running, not hiding, changing my surroundings
Find a way to spawn a drought, clean up what I drowned in
And don’t remind me when the ashes are done
Spiritual warfare, Omens thinking that I’m the one

Can’t blame them
Journal's sounding not the bravest
It’s always “cradle to the grave” like what stays in Vegas
Misconceptions growing deeper as you turn these pages
The killer is physical, crippled by imagination

Face values always taken
Resolutions worth nothing, selling complications

So is it

Better I run? Or, better I hide?
Hypocritical side, living, shrouded in doubt.

Listen

And may my mind be my best friend
That I'm paying for up until the end
And may tomorrow carry new wind
When I close my eyes and they again

Looking pass the mirror on the wall, that cost you soul,
Insecurities will call back
There's still that child that’s inside, that lost all control
Deep inside, cannot unpack.

Where You were my whole life, and my worse decision
The whole time I’m bound conditional love

Kind of convincing that it’s evil you trust.

Drought

Don’t give up on me God
I’ve been living so long
In pain I can’t describe, I told you
All those evil nights will hold you

Toss turn in my scars
I can’t sleep with this heart
The pain I can’t describe, I told you
Do I need to fly to hold you?

Shame on me, and you darling
Where did we go wrong? So disheartening
Why are so dearly departed?
Why can’t we go back where we started?

Maybe

I can find new life through the unknown
As a poltergeist, feeling someone
Dive through the air, I’ll dive with my head
Life is a fair full of unwanted guests

Wonder where my mind goes
Isolation, alone
I’m tired of the dawn, I’m tired of the end
Tie up my head, get lost in wind

Shame on me, and you darling
Where did we go wrong? So disheartening
Why are so dearly departed?
Why can’t we go back where we started?

Time change won’t change, for we are too
Heartless
We hold shame, new lives are new targets
Why are we so dearly departed?
Why can’t we go back where we started?

I say

Don’t give up on me God
I’ve been living so long
In pain I can’t describe, I told you
All those evil nights will hold you

Dearly Departed

LYRICS:

Refuse to live up to a last name
Taking pride in disappointment, look how far I came 
Conversations with a corpse, we relate in dreams
But realization setting in that we are not same, Yet

Russian roulette, who want to place bets?
Wheel Of Fortune the bullet, and give a taste test
Mind-blowing, a practice to see who knows best
So What’s matter? If matter scatters across flesh?

My right hand, cross chest, save the last breath
Inspiration from John Doe 'bout relocation 
And planting seeds 'till I’m sprouting trees of exoneration
Escape manifestation, with all these demons waiting

I use rebuke, until puke away the
Eyes that watch, and guns that talk for Satan 
Don’t get confused by lines I use, My stances not neutral
Name's not Judas

Not the “Bearer Of Light” seducing, hiding through music
Telling one truth, and nine lies
Capturing nine lives, of a cat's eye

A sacrifice to cut the ties, then close the deal
A wolf feeding on lambs wool for the last meal
Show the teeth to the boy who cried “Don’t Kill”

John Doe

LYRICS:

And this blood runs deep, trust me.
Never before have told you that my heart is pure this many times the dark is near me,
Whispering dreams that I know it won’t give me,
So caught up where I’m thinking you miss me.

Fakest feelings to, I guess you call a “real one”
A guessing game for validation, knowing I don’t need none.
Do please run away from me, and leave me unbothered
Leave me unslaughtered,
Don’t try to look at me as the martyr.

This picture is bigger than me,
And my soul I won’t offer for some people worshiping me
I’ve been walking with God, 'cause I noticed what follows me,
My back against the wall.
So I can see what’s in front of me, I know this can’t be all.

I know my callings reaching for me,
Time to answer calls
Keys to my freedom inside my hand, the engine trying to stall
The devils working hard
And that weapon formed against me couldn’t pierce my heart
I know that shit tears you apart, but you don’t know my battle scars.

The thickest heart from loving just too hard
You play your part,
As Judas, studying the art war and pulling out the loaded cards
The game fixed against me, serpent said “come as you are”

And here I am, here I stand, rooted.
Hearing fools gold, followed by the actions proving.
Or am I blinded by the past, thinking you would do this?
Is that a sign of disconnection? And I’m working through it?
I think I’m going through it.

I pray to God the light's gone
I'm coming home, hope the lights on
I hope the lights on

I pray to God the light's gone
I'm coming home, hope the lights on
I hope the lights on.

And no respect to suits getting paid,
Off the blood, and graves, where the children lay
Image was everything to them, choosing what to say
On the grandest stage, and platforms, day-to-day

American dream-rich, to get signed the only way.
Not from the heart, you writing down what they tell you to say.
They know exactly who’s gon' play the game
Place a noose around the neck and let the head hang.
When you don't know what's next
Wasting time out the neck
Missing life for a check
Losing friends by the second
Don't know what to expect
Don't know what to protect
Ask the world too many questions, now it's off with the head.

When you're just another image in their head
When you're only here to keep the ego fed
When you always feel like you're failing a test

The most support you’ll get will show up when you're dead.

Coming Home

LYRICS:

Is it me? Or is it,
Is it you? Or am I,
Inside my mind, when I can’t stop the heart from crying?
Time passing, am I losing time?
Or am I gaining life?
Double-edged sword, and I need to bring a knife to fight with
I know that you don't like this
But I'm just being honest
And if my feelings make you feel too much, I won't invite you,

To always be around me
They're going to try to hurt me
Make it my fault, the loyal dog will always try to bite me
“What did he do?” “What did he say again?”
“He’s a horrible friend”
“He’s never real, he only plays pretend”
Who’s gonna talk to me about how they feel?
Or it’s s better to run a rumor, while these niggas out here loading steel?

Showtime. Turning on the spotlight
Evil eyes are on me
Something doesn’t feel right
Y’all have me talking to God when I choose to step outside
For everything I do right, here comes another lie.

But if I am evil
Promise I will admit it
Why would I feel ashamed?
If that’s my truest image
Why would I give a fuck?
If it's just Judas spitting,
Learning from the snakes, and how it throws its venom.

The blood covers my hands, for my survival
Every weapon form against me, it shall never prosper
Choke on your blood, as the beheaded viper
Everyone pays the piper
So I think I’ll pull an all-nighter
Life of an outsider.

Hanging From My Own Thoughts

Paun Kacy

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