"As your life unraveled, you thought I could be glue.
Let you move forward and let you be you.
And my only wish was for this to continue.
I only wish my wishes came true."  

Let me get this out of the way, this song is based on a true story.  It involves a real person who I care a lot about, despite not being able to show that the way she'd wish I could.  We spent a few weeks in a special summer thinking that maybe we could be something--and I guess we found out that we couldn't--at least with me being less than the ideal version of me.  She broke my heart and I broke her heart, and we haven't talked in years.  

And normally I'd worry that she might take offense to her being the subject of this latest Interbay track, but I know for a fact that she doesn't listen to them (I once sent her a song that meant a lot to me and she told me with surprising venom that she was not going to listen to it.)  

But, I'd like to think that if she did hear this song that she would understand that it is meant to express my admiration, my regret, my fondest wishes, and my wanting to rewrite history to change whatever I could so it didn't end up the way it did.  

In looking for a thumbnail image from that summer, I'm struck by how happy we were--each of us believing that something unexpected was happening and that we could help each other out of the situations we were in.  

I want everyone to like me, especially the people that I care about.  This is one of a few situations where I would love to try to fix things--not expecting a full do over, but at least allow us to talk to each other again...  But I've been told by so many people I trust that it might be kinder to both of us to let things be--which is not something I've ever been comfortable doing.  

The last thing she said to me was that she couldn't take this anymore...and I believed her, and I made a tough decision to not try to fix the boat.  If interacting with me hurt more than it helped, the best thing I could do for someone I still care about is to stay away.  

This track started out as a simple piano track, but the vibe of the whole track turned when I added some pedal steel guitar, for the first time ever in an Interbay track.  It is still a weird synth and effects laden Interbay track, because of course it is...but not only does the pedal steel bring a nostalgic and melancholy feel to the track, it fits the subject...who is a country gal through and through and when I picture her...I do so on a sundappled summer afternoon on her mom's farm, looking perfectly comfortable in every way.  

This might be the exact time I'd go back to if I could--to get the chance to do better.  

I complain about how isolated and lonely I've been after my wife died and I retired--but someone did want to be part of my life...even if sparks didn't fly for her the way we both wanted them to, and I somehow managed to botch that up.  

But I treasure the time where we tried.  (And I should have sung this one--perhaps I'll revisit this in some point and replace the vocals on this with my own.  I guess I botched this yet again.)  

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Interbay is the new project of Peter Greyy (previously of Cremation Dance and DangerScience), based out of Seattle and Phantom Laboratories West.