I wrote this before I knew what mastering or a de-esser was lmao

lyrics

all that I could ever see myself being
is a deadweight, a nightmare, 
vicious rapture born a heathen
and the marks upon my flesh 
are rendered old yet evident 
there's an illness in my head
ok hold up, hold up, hold up

can I have a little bit of time to rewind?
try to calibrate and focus up my mind?
keep my cool and try to straighten out my spine
while shes with other guys 
and she's telling me lies
so I called it quits and went to kick back with the guys for the night
Suicidal u can see it in our eyes its alright
we just trying not to die for the night 
so we poison the sprite
and we let our hearts die

what the jesus-fuckin-christ is this?
I tried to write this song 3 times I said I knew my shit
it's crawling up my walls this illness lies inside my head
but I could not not be bothered 
no this life I still resent 
all the wasted time
Could've made it mine
I know u ain't really fuckin with this voice of mine
I call it a paradigm 
I'm not a prodigy 
it's just a part of me
I tried therapy but I guess I just hate to breathe 
I cannot change the past
these years move lightning fast
I cannot deal with this shit in my head anymore 
look at the blood
oh the blood on the floor
Good god

I cannot change the past
these years move lighting fast
I wonder if I'll last
I'm guessing not 
just judging by my past

l05t 1n 7h3 54uce (jolst x cherry)

itsoctober 31st
 
aceyii

i dont concern u
nothing here menna last when i fall thru
i been bak on this bullshit to cu 
dont worry about me i gtta lot to prove
been of my food all week been of my fukn my phone
these drugs make me feel weak an im always alone
nothing here is meant to last, im gonna roll another one
might even finish another song there all about u its fukn dumb
wen u stop caring im fucking gone, feel so alive now the drugs in my lungs
aint got a conscience cos they fukn won, in my bed im snorrin oh fuck im dumb

i dont concern u
nothing here menna last when i fall thru
i been bak on this bullshit to cu 
dont worry about me i gtta lot to prove
been of my food all week been of my fukn my phone
these drugs make me feel weak an im always alone
livn my life like this when ur in my home
how can u go fuck me then leave me alone
on my journey without you, leaves falling to surround you
ur drinking ur life away, i got drugs in my fucking vveins

i dont concern u
nothing here menna last when i fall thru
i been bak on this bullshit to cu 
dont worry about me i gtta lot to prove
been of my food all week been of my fukn my phone
these drugs make me feel weak an im always alone x2

october

angels of porn II ( nicole dollanganger - cover )

i close my eyes
im too high i cant sleep
i was alive
but dead when u found me
u became friends with the enemy
i dont like the way that u do things
you wont change 
what the point in all of this?
talking to a wall
you dont give love its opposite
i dont like the way that u do things
i dont like the way that u do things

im jus speaking with my chest
i wanna runaway from this music
and one day go start fresh
cuz i think im starting 2 lose it
and my mind starts to forget
and idk if this music 
will make it any better

everyday im feeling less
got zero time and so much stress
i wonder when this all gon end
i hope that its soon idk tho
idk tho
hopefully my life gon change
where the lights go?

and im feeling so cold
and idk where 2 go
slowly losing home
so i got no hope

all them years have passed 
counting cash
im on the high road
i wish love would last
falling flat
girl im so done
ill have a heart attack
karmas back, give it to me
and ive been waiting for the day
but the days seem the same 2 me

i close my eyes
im too high i cant sleep
i was alive
but dead when u found me
u became friends with the enemy
i dont like the way that u do things
you wont change 
what the point in all of this?
talking to a wall
you dont give love its opposite
i dont like the way that u do things
i dont like the way that u do things

enemy [under the maple tree]

Written by: Kurumi Violet
Produced by: Rouz Haunted 
Mixed by: Kurumi Violet
Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork link: https://risibank.fr/media/314781-dark-sombre-emo-edgy-scaramouche-scara

Lyrics:
[Chorus: Kumari]
Did you ever notice
That the end is coming
& there's no way to
Escape it
Make it
Take it
& face it
Cause it's the end of your life

[Verse 1: Kumari]
Otherwise 
You'll never realize 
Your hidden potential inside 
Shadow you're the hero
Of this time line
Called you a joke 
but now they're the punchline
Teeth sinking through in the dark
Bloody streets and shuffled footsteps 
Shadows at the door step
While you concede to your desires
Everyone dies slowly

[Chorus: Kumari]
Did you ever notice
That the end is coming
& there's no way to
Escape it
Make it
Take it
& face it
Cause it's the end of your life

[Outro: The Ghostly Shadow]
Have you finally waken up 
From your dream
Soon you will 
& you'll find out the truth

The End Is Coming (Prod. Rouz Haunted)

her cutlery is pit against the chest
the cavalry is strung about in red
oceans sing, the air it resurrects
confusingly, the liquid knows him best

give me something to feel yah
i just want this trust to inch it's way enough to heal numb
the battlefield he yield's enough to get him gone from being on
the acid turf is leaving burns, and passerbys see nothing wrong
injustified his tortured mind, and found recline in weaker ones
through divide and clouded sky, a destiny decayed
it's yesterday that local cat is no longer a stray
fallacy is brought upon erasure of the frame
you only wanna fuck him 'cause he calls you by your name
you only wanna fuck him
you only wanna fuck him 'cause he calls you by your's
called you by your name

love sores and scorn within yourself you'd deprecate
fed the source of everything you couldn't hear me say

her cutlery is pit against the chest
the cavalry is strung about in red
oceans sing, the air it resurrects
confusingly, the liquid knows him best

forging the ache in a cauldron of storm
there would lurk the accompany whispering war
the ecologies flood the industrial core
for the body is steel, but is still only armor

sacrificial departure (sorrow bringer)

hello? ... [nm4evr] (prod. branwen) what does it mean to truly feel safe

gummy bears

Vocals by @youngspazz123, @vito2300, @breckenford
Mix & Master by @youngspazz123
Produced by @prodcxrter & @itschrismarek
Cover by Amy Rose/safehaven.
YouTube Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N_ggkLZCXOI

lyrics:
Taylor's Diary:
do you fuck with me for real, or is this just some sick joke?
if you plan on leaving now, go ahead I’ll grab the rope
bet I jump right off this bridge while the rope digs in my throat
I just need you in my hands, swear to god, I won’t let go 

I need you right hear
you're my new chandelier
met that girl in Cleveland, now my team's the cavaliers 
tryna overcome these obsticals, I’m too filled up with fear
every girl I fell in love with made a ocean full of tears 

I fucked up when I looked in your eyes
my ex went away, I hate goodbyes
you gotta get used to days where I cry
you gotta get used to days where I’m fried
blue eyes, they fit you so very well
tell all of my secrets to the mirror he would never tell
it had to be some magic cause the love that you give is more then a spell 
I’m so glad that you pulled me outta hell 
blue eyes, blue skies, I can’t tell the difference
'cause I still hide behind despise
and when you find out, it’s good riddance, yeah

brecken:
why you tripping, baby?
I could feel the distance lately
listen what I'm saying when i tell you we could make it
you think that I'm crazy
i think that you way too dangerous 
and you been changing up the path that i thought we created

i've been defeated because i been tryin' my hardest
and you just never wanna see it i get pushed in the darkness
all my feelings i been grieving gettin' tossed in the garbage 
and i just can't explain the thought I'm seeing without you just dippin', departin'
yeah, you would wait where ever that i'm parkin at
now i feel like it really might be far from that
now i'd do anything to get that parking pass back
if i could just explain what you been disregarding
and thank god, that i ain't somehow have a heart attack
saw the dog tags from my brodies, and i thought it made my soul collapse 
i just used to think that I can't be a part of that
but i just gotta face my fears, and dying friends is part of that
lemme roll a wrap
i'm anxious with my peers I readjust my hard hat
i been stupid sad
when i'm at work i cannot focus i get sidetracked
i'm just in my head
i'm just tryna get out before friday hits
and if not i don't think i'll make it up to the weekend

VITO:
get you going
got you feeling right
and when you're coming down
I'll be there to hold you tight
and now you remember
i loved you forever
just call me whenever
and we'll be together

i don't wanna pick a side
don't know to play it tight
you been on my head tonight
i thought a lot about it
dude you can't change my mind
so come meet me on the outside, the ouside
hearts pierced through the middle
skin strung out and briddle
don't care about me a little
being up in the littles
dig my head in the pillow
i'm exchanged for the willow
man i cry till i'm mellow
comes back around, tell me "hello."

Taylor's Diary - some sick joke (ft. VITO & brecken) (cxrter & chrismarek)

Prod. michael harrison
go support me homie breck!
https://soundcloud.com/breckenford

Lyrics -

(Swamp)
I’ve seen him bare his fangs but it was all to much to take 
As he leached to everyone and everything that he could drain
Just a shell of one who once had all to give and never break 
I watch him cower at the slightest inconvenience every day 
Oh what a shame 
The man inside the mirrors who I speak of here today 
A monster in disguise who’s only purpose is to
Rob you of your o’ so precious life and dispose of anyone along the way
With us it’s never safe 

(Brecken)

they say i cannot behave i i push em out the way
theyre so used to yelling my name
when they don’t understand my pain
shame ,they can see it in my face
(why do i do this to myself ;( 
i know all i do been vague
just know its all for your sake

yea please dont mind my cane when im 75 yrs lame
look in the mirror and still feel the same
part of me happy but somehow im drained
yea wish i had strength not to feel like this 
(exhale, inhale)
take a deep breath and i still feel sick

(Swamp)

I’ve seen him bare his fangs but it was all to much to take 
As he leached to everyone and everything that he could drain
Just a shell of one who once had all to give and never break 
I watch him cower at the slightest inconvenience every day

(Brecken)

Everyday 
i look to the sky when ima pray
its okay
ima wait for better days
 theyre on their way
so they say

but i been feelin like this way since may, 2022 i knew that i had too much pain
but i stayed
cuz i knew that id make it out this stupid hole
ill drown myself in alcohol when i feel like i did wrong

see a crane in the swamp
Let the drain fill the rain when it fall
(let it fall)
its unlikely that ill make it out of this spot that i been in for way too long but i can hope that this this worth the while
It’d be horrible if i drowned out in the pond
in my socks 
in the swamp

(Swamp) 

Yuh 
Who would’ve thought 
You’d be the one to come in and try and to start playing a god 
I think not 
If I die it’s by my own hand quit trying to tempt me and all of my flaws 
I feel like crashing out, baring fang then returning to my calm 
Burn it all been the time that I’m on 
I’ll relapse and give Brecken a call 

What the fuck is wrong with me 
Like bro it’s good just feed me all this honestly 
And I won’t fight back
Just keep it real if it’s like that 
Am I the iissue like real talk 
I’m so stressed out I scratch at my flesh and pull at my skin till it peels off 
Does isolation really heal all?

(Swamp & Brecken)

Cause I’ve seen him bare his fangs but it was all to much to take 
As he leached to everyone and everything that he could drain
Just a shell of one who once had all to give and never break 
I watch him cower at the slightest inconvenience every day

I imagined worse

🍂
lyrics 
she wanna have picnic 
im tryna get my dick licked
she say ima bad vibe
fuckin up her business 

she gimme cold shoulder 
i brush it off like soldiers
we’re only getting olderrrr iiii

i only speak nonsense 
you got better options 
but you chose an artist boy 
leaves falling downhill
in springvillie i’ll cry 

you’re perfect baby i just been in a funk 
don’t wanna talk i been tired as fuck 
lay in my bed and im thinking bout us
you need anything shawty know i’ll be there
100p percent 
leaves falling off my tree feel like deadwood 
shoutout wraith that’s my homie he in deadwood 
i fuck her good yah she know i don’t got deadwood 


she wanna have picnic 
im tryna get my dick licked
she say ima bad vibe
fuckin up her business 

she gimme cold shoulder 
i brush it off like soldiers
we’re only getting olderrrr iiii

i only speak nonsense 
you got better options 
but you chose an artist boy 
leaves falling downhill
in springvillie i’ll cry

leaves (NE’ERDOWELL X 93FEETOFSMOKE)

I am a genderfluid artists who is 23 I  make music about my life whether it be literally about it or I use a fictional story to express my reality with metaphors and messages 

New Music Video out 
https://youtu.be/UhkCGzSZ1TA?si=bx29Ta8rYyVz9DPA

My former names include @kurama_sd , @kurama-sad , @reapers-shadow, & @reapers-remnants

My alt account is @kurumi-violet aka Violet Kurumi Alt It will be used for music I don't think is good enough for my main account but I think some people will still enjoy 

This account Will have endless amounts of styles Alt rock, Shoegaze, Dark hyper pop, Emo rap, Lo-Fi, Acoustic, Ambient, DNB & Much more 