SadVibes ◊

original beat from Lil Peep’s “Waste Of Time” prod. Me

ghosts (ig: totaldespairr)

♥www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cp-Iett7q_M ♥
prod/mix/mastered: @twdutchman
bandcamp download - https://velvetqueen.bandcamp.com/track/will-i-ever-care

[lyrics]
i think my feelings are gone forever
i don't think i’ll ever get it together
i don’t even miss you anymore
i can’t find anything worth living for
i can’t remember if i ever cared
i can’t remember will i ever care
will i ever care
can i even care 
break me, break me outta here
take away all of my fears
show me, make it fuckin clear
tell me, tell me why I’m here
will i ever even care 
can i ever even care
will i ever even care
take away my fears

Will I Ever Care (prod. The Wild Dutchman)

darko.


flip of: https://soundcloud.com/therealbonjr - it's ok, you're ok

visual: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zn7nCzVVVnw

i wouldn't mind dying with you (visual in description)

nineteen - hearts sewn together with twine

@lilhappylilsad @teenpregnancy

lil happy lil sad:

imma break down soon
in the same old room
that i always do
i feel so alone 

make some beats and smoke
pray i make it soon
pray they buy my shit
cause im so damn broke

girl im so damn cold
i might freeze to death
rollin up some dope
smoking trees for stress

fuck the life i had
i dont want it back
fuck the friends i had
they just made me sad

now its me and her
bout to fuck the world
we dont need no help
we came up from dirt

i still hate myself
thats a side of me
wanna kill myself
and ive tried im weak

mom would drive me in
everytime i did
i would ask to leave
and theyd give me pills

that shit on repeat
every other week
they would numb me down
till i couldnt speak

teen pregnancy:

lay me down
i dont wanna die
i cant sleep alone
need u here tonight

you were everything
you were my god damn life
now its all fucked up
and i wont sleep tonight

i was snorting pills
you were up all night
i swear i couldnt feel
i was so damn high

liquor in my blood
you were all i want
i gave you everything
i feel so unloved

you finally got exactly what you want
you were off getting fucked and i was so fucked up
fuck the wedding ring fuck this life i lead
got me feeling numb doing bumps off keys

i dont wanna live
tried to kill myself
girl ill numb you too
take your life as well

i wanna watch you bleed
she gets numb for me
lets kill ourselves
so i can sleep

lil numb w/ Teen Pregnancy (prod. lilhappylilsad)

prod @notmorgn

listen on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gd_Xqqx_St8

whats wrong or whats right
im bouta take a flight like should i say goodbye 
fuck that imma hold onto my pride
momma raised a soldier so i can't afford to cry
lookin back i see the knife in my back now
lookin at life wishing i was in the background 
lookin back i see my future in the past now
90 in the whip like should i crash now

im so sick of this im so sick of shit nobody listening 
demons all around diamonds wet just like a christening 
wait why you always high when you call me
why'd u ask what's wrong when you saw me (X2)

chemicals running through my veins i just wanna sleep 
feelings bleeding out my brain but right now i can't feel a thing 
woke up late time to waste away
my favorite days are the rainy days
let it soak in then i throw it all away
i try my best but this feeling always stays
you know i try but you gotta gimme space
and i dont wanna hurt you if you get in my way

(hook)

reach out just to waste my time
its the young waste of space 
with his headphones on
call me when you need me baby
but i know im the last resort
you said that you love me
how the fuck could you just love a ghost
you said that you love me baby
i said we are not that close

(hook)

reach out just to waste my time
its the young waste of space 
with his headphones on
call me when you need me baby
but i know im the last resort
you said that you love me
how the fuck could you just love a ghost
you said that you love me baby
i said we are not that close

im so sick of this

castaway

Burgos - Step Of The Guey feat Lvcid

Artwork: Doug Keating
Ft/Prod/Mix/Master: @deviantraps
Ambient sample: Shtev
_____________________________
LYRICS

[HOOK]x2
Tonight
We're in the lost and found
We're sinking til we drown
And no one knows what you're about
Now was it really worth it?

[DEVIANT]
I'm just tryna hide out
Don't wanna be seen
I'm just tryna fly south
Spread these aching wings
Fuck it Ima slide out
Kick it with my brothers at the hideout
Fuck the in between
We all know it's ride or die now

Poison in my veins
I'll beat it hands down
Spit it in your face
Don't need a fuckin handout
Tryna pave the way
Yeah that's the plan now
Fuckin with the dream then its man down, man down

I don't need your help
I'm doing just fine
Snakes in the grass
Tryna take what's mine
Baku in the mist
Devouring my dreams
Fuck you and your clique, bitch
it's Lucid what I bleed

I don't need your help
I'm doing just fine
Snakes in the grass
Tryna take what's mine
Baku in the mist
Devouring my dreams
Fuck you and your clique, bitch
it's Lucid what I bleed

[HOOK]x2
Tonight
We're in the lost and found
We're sinking til we drown
And no one knows what you're about
Now was it really worth it?

[SLEEPYBOY HOMELESS]
I don't want a pass 
I don't need your fucking blessing
Keep it to yourself bitch
Ima keep em guessing 
Ima take a shot even if it fucking kills me 
Never been a cool kid never fucking will be 

Go ahead and judge me 
See how far it gets you 
I know you're a lame, I ain't even fucking met you
I know you're in pain, see us shining and it scares you 
Do it for the thrill, say you wanna, bitch I dare you 

Ima go insane from the shit I have to go through 
Poison in my brain, let me show you what this blow do 
You can keep the fame, I be smoking on that produce
Life's a fucking game, bitch I thought I fucking told you. 

Soon they're gunna wish that they didn't second guess me 
Ima blow a kiss to the ones who used to press me 
Sleepyboy and Devi gunna show em who the best be
That's the LUCID clique they'll be fucking with us heavy

[HOOK]x2
Tonight
We're in the lost and found
We're sinking til we drown
And no one knows what you're about
Now was it really worth it?

baku in the mist ft. DEVIANT (Prod. DEVIANT)

Artwork: Doug Keating
Ft: @slen_lb
Mix/Master: @deviantraps
Prod: @krowex
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LYRICS
[HOOK][SLEEPYBOY HOMELESS]
My life styles been getting the best of me 
But I just can't leave it alone 
I tried but now it's getting the rest of me 
Another night 
Maybe another life 
I'll come back home

[SLEN]
Take back every word you said to me
Can't sleep, can't eat, can't even breathe
Remembering how it all fell apart
Another chance, let's go back to the start
It's too late, can't wait, we were meant to be
You made a promise that you'd never leave
Leave me here to drown in my blood
Sippin on this liquor with a blunt on my tongue

Will you bleed for me?
I bled for you
You never bled for me
I still bleed for you

[HOOK][SLEEPYBOY HOMELESS]
My life styles been getting the best of me 
But I just can't leave it alone 
I tried but now it's getting the rest of me 
Another night 
Maybe another life 
I'll come back home

[SLEN]
Bleed(x4)

bleed 4 u ft. sℒen (Prod. mlody yerba)

Two paths diverge
I take the less traveled
My life’s submerged
It’s coming unraveled

Baby why you look so blue
No changing all the parts of you
Hearts broken? I’ll buy one new
Nothing for you I wouldn’t do

You ain’t gotta feel so blue
I can make you feel brand new
Make love all night with you
Without you


Don’t want to breathe
Without you
Don’t want to see
Without you
Do you feel 
The same as me?


The bad path I chose
Left me stranded alone
But I never answer
When you hit my phone


Oh yeah, fight through it
All, all that I do is
Not enough for you
It’s not enough

Two paths diverge
I take the less traveled
My life’s submerged
It’s coming unraveled

Baby why you look so blue
No changing all the parts of you
Hearts broken? I’ll buy one new
Nothing for you I wouldn’t do

follow fiftysix

unraveled - ft. guccihighwaters (prod. fiftysix)

Written & Performed by: @itsyungvan x @kaiyko
Mix & Master: @QAWIKAMRI
Production: @Xtravulous
Cover art: @itsyungvan x @GQHargis

Lyrics-

(Intro)

Yung van-

I’d sell my soul for you to be here
Hang me down like chandeliers
cut your name, till you appear
Ones we love don’t disappear
Watch me burn and turn to ashes
Let my name become a past tense
sell my soul so you can hear it
Ones we love don’t disappear

Kaiyko-

It's so hard to imagine it
both of us hand in hand hanging by a thread
And I dont wanna go home 
cuz im scared of the thoughts that come crawling when im all alone 
but everything leads back to you 
Why can't I unravel the truth? 
Can we just go back to the beginning 
Give me a reason why I can't leave things off like this 

I'm sorry I just seem to over complicate things
No I don't wanna let it die like this
Something beautiful is fading into the mist x2

Yung van x Kaiyko-

I’d sell my soul for you to be here
Hang me down like chandeliers
cut your name, till you appear
Ones we love don’t disappear
Watch me burn and turn to ashes
Let my name become a past tense
sell my soul so you can hear it
Ones we love don’t disappear

I’d sell my soul for you to be here
Hang me down like chandeliers
cut your name, till you appear
Ones we love don’t disappear
Watch me burn and turn to ashes
Let my name become a past tense
sell my soul so you can hear it
Ones we love don’t disappear

(outro)

Ashes and Chandeliers

OUT ON SPOTIFY NOW!!!!

ashes and chandeliers w/ Kaiyko (Prod. Xtravulous)

Go away.

Lyrics:

It's been a long time
Since I could smile like this
Man it feel so foreign
You really broke me
You really broke me, oh no

Cause I've been doing alright
I've been doing so fine
But you just had to show up
You had to show up
You had to bring me down

Go away, yeah
Go away, yeah
I don't need you anymore
Lost your chance girl you'se a hoe
Go away, yeah
Go away, yeah
I don't need you anymore
Lost your chance girl you'se a hoe

Cause I've been pushing through baby
I've been stacking up lately
I've been working hard
Tryna keep my mental state steady

And I know
This the life I chose

Cause I've been alright
I've been doing so fine
But you just had to show up
You had to show up
You had to bring me down

Go away, yeah
Go away, yeah
I don't need you anymore
Lost your chance girl you'se a hoe
Oh no

Go Away - [prod. by coldwintr]

hey guys !! i hope all of you are doing well 💙 i'm sorry for taking so long to post new music, but i've got lots of things in store for the near future. 💙

lyrics:

know that I'm gon hurt regardless
so I'm pushing through the pain, yeah
so I'm pushing through the pain

and I know inside my heart
that I'm the reason I'm insane, yeah
but I'm unsure of how to change

I can't see anyone's intentions
especially my own

sick of stressing and second guessing
never pick up my phone

lately I barely leave my house
but it's been a while since I've been home

it feels like 
everybody seem to want something from me
but I don't got much left for myself

push away tryna make room to breathe
but nothing seems to help

im tripping over everything
what's wrong with me

tell me why do I hate myself

running in circles until my knees weak
I just can't escape this hell

[chorus]

and I'm losing my hope
that things will ever change

cause I've been lost and alone
and afraid to change my ways

getting drunk on the low
shoulda known it would end this way

but now I know
that nothing good
is ever here to stay

[verse 2]

I'm all alone 
ain't nobody but myself to blame
still waiting for the day 
I make some new mistakes

cause I can't seem to change
it's driving me insane

I'm at the bottom
of a hole I swore
I'd never see 

again

where I can't tell the difference 
between enemy and friend

I guess it's all really just the same 
in the end

but maybe its all in my head
it's all in my
head

[chorus]

and I'm losing my hope
that things will ever change

cause I've been lost and alone
and afraid to change my ways

getting drunk on the low
shoulda known it would end this way

but now I know
that nothing good
is ever here to stay

Spotify

i've given up

IDontWannaWakeUp

a collection of music from the last 4 months w/ Zack

thank you for all your love & continued support.

special thanks to Reaper, Nadiak, Ten50, & Bonta for the production.
thank you to T. Aubrey for direction and keeping us on track.

Floating Away w/ SpaceMan Zack (prod. Nadiak)

I'm Wrong w/ SpaceMan Zack (prod. Reaper)

PRODUCED BY CHANDLER

LYRICS/
Haven't been my own
Haven't felt myself
Shove my feelings down
Think like no one else

The room is empty
Silent
I hear my thoughts
Just myself thinking
Over where I went wrong

Undertow (Prod. Chandler)

Original song "suffocate" written and produced by Days To Waste,
Mixed and Mastered by lifehold.

suffocate

youtu.be/-HaeMbV5UQU
Idleglance video <3

I’m fucked up 
In my room
All Alone
Where are you?
Guess you found out
They Always find out
That I’m fucked 
In the head
Think I’m better off dead
Nothing improves
Not even my mood
And this world 
Hates my guts
Always down on my luck
Maybe one day
I’ll find my way
But for now
I’ll just pout
Guess I’ll see you around
When the spring comes
I hope that spring comes

Da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da dum
Da da da dum

I’m fucked up
All alone
Broken heart
Broken home
Can you feel it
I want you to feel this
When I say you were loved
I know it’s not enough 
But I mean it
Just know that you’re missed
And i hate 
Everything
This life doesn’t mean a thing 
Far as i know
Just let me go
Cause the spring
Never comes
Frozen bones
Blackened lungs
Cause i can’t hide
From cold on the inside

Da da da, da da dum, no the spring never comes
Cause i can’t hide, cold on the inside

Da da da, da da dum, no the spring never comes
Cause i can’t hide, cold on the inside

SadVibes ◊

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