I Wish I Was
(c) J. Murdock McInnes Vasey

[instrumental]

I'm gonna sleep all through the day
I'm gonna waste my life away
I'd like to be a stronger man
But I don't really think I can

I really wish that I could fly
I thought that I would try
But I will sit down on the ground
The only safe place that I've found

[pre-chorus]
I would get up to the table
But I don't think that I'm able
I don't think I'll ever be
Anything more than plain ol' me

[chorus]
I wish I was
I wish I was
I need a good kick in the ass

[instrumental]

There was a time I would have tried
A time I thought I could
But I guess I must have lied
I am still here where I stood

Things did not go my way
Or maybe much too often
When you don't need to try
In time your will is bound to soften

[pre-chorus]
If I had put in some more effort
If I had done the harder work
If I had gone the way you went
If had turned left at the fork

[chorus]
I wish I was
I wish I was
I need a good kick in the ass

[instrumental]

I am doing what I've done
It has always been enough
Not enough to make a change
But I've never been that tough

Here I am, kicking the can
One more time, passing the buck
One more time, dreaming the day
One more time, waiting for luck

[pre-chorus]
I have a plan, that won't come through
Making plans is all I do
But here I am, here I am
I am not much of a man

[chorus]
I wish I was
I wish I was
I need a good kick in the ass

[instrumental]

[outro]

But here I am
Here I am
I am not much of a man

I wish I was
I wish I was
I need a good kick in the ass

I Wish I Was (348)

Quiet Storm - ISSAX

A cinematic French noir track that blends a tribal heartbeat with subtle pop-art sparkle. "Écho Rouge" (Red Echo) features an intimate vocal that glides from a breathy verse to a soaring, powerful chorus. The song’s soundscape is built on a haunting cello, a pulsing glassy pad. Lyrically, it's a defiant and dramatic journey through a dark urban landscape, using bold imagery of shadows, neon lights, and a "red echo" to symbolize an inner fire and unshakeable will to survive, even as the world crumbles.

Écho Rouge
[Verse 1]
In the alley, shadows dance,
A secret fire burns in silence.
Every step echoes like an oath,
The world collapses, but I keep moving forward.
Windows steam up, rain chases me,
A pounding heart hunts for shelter.
Between the walls I feel your voice,
A red breath guiding every choice.
[Pre-Chorus – tribal chant under lead]
Ouh-eh, ouh-ah, the night is calling me…
Ouh-eh ouh-ah, I’m losing my wings…
[Chorus]
Red echo in my chest,
A lost scream, a faint glow.
Even if the sky caves in,
I’m still burning, burning hard.
[Verse 2]
Golden masks on ice-cold faces,
Every smile hides a different law.
Vivid graffiti explodes across my skin,
Wounded colors, but I stay standing.
One more step, the crowd dissolves,
Neon screams, mirror made of ice.
Your shadow dances on the edge of time,
I grab the air, I run, I wait.
[Pre-Chorus 2]
Ouh-eh ouh-ah, my chains are falling…
Ouh-eh ouh-ah, I become myself again…
[Chorus]
Red echo in my chest,
A lost scream, a faint glow.
Even if the world collapses,
I still sing, I sing loud.
[Bridge – spoken-sung noir]
Red like fever,
Blue like absence,
Black like dreams,
And you inside the dance.
[build up with drums — tom rolls, handclaps, rising cello stabs]
[Final Chorus]
Red echo in my chest,
A lost scream, a faint glow.
Even if the night devours itself,
I’m still alive, alive harder.
[Tribal full percussion break]
[Outro – Chant Section]
Echo… red…
Fire… that… moves…
Dance… the night…
I live… I scream…
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Un morceau de French noir cinématique qui mêle un rythme tribal à un éclat pop-art subtil. "Écho Rouge" est porté par une intime dont la voix glisse d'un couplet murmuré à un refrain puissant et aérien. L'ambiance sonore est construite sur un violoncelle envoûtant, une nappe sonore cristalline pulsée. Les paroles décrivent un voyage dramatique et rebelle à travers un paysage urbain sombre, utilisant des images fortes d'ombres, de néons et d'un « écho rouge » pour symboliser un feu intérieur et une volonté inébranlable de survivre, même lorsque le monde s'effondre.

Écho Rouge (Red Echo)

A tender confession set in everyday rooms—coffee steam, checked door locks, and quiet reassurances. “I Hope You Know” is an intimate, breath-close ballad about seeing the strength someone can’t see in themselves. Warm baritone, felt piano, brushed drums, and hush-choir harmonies build from candle-quiet verses to a final chorus that opens like a window at golden hour. For anyone who’s ever loved a beautiful, imperfect soul through storms—and found home in their presence.

I Hope You Know

Intrus dans ma Tempête

In the hush after the storm, the forest begins to breathe again.
Northern Soul: November Air is a collection of songs about that stillness — when the air clears, the work is done, and mercy feels like wind through pine.
Written and produced in the cinematic folk-soul language of THOCE, these tracks blend acoustic guitar, felt piano, brass, nyckelharpa, and strings into warm, human stories of endurance and grace.
Each song is a reflection of quiet strength: the sound of light returning to cold air, of hearts mending in their own time.
No grandeur, no noise — just the pulse of the North rediscovering its soul.
Listen slowly.
Breathe.
November air is enough.

The Song I Knew All Along

When We Meet Again (Trap Door Remix)

“Dark Mind” is a heavy emotional track that dives straight into the thoughts you try to escape. It’s about battling the shadows in your head, the fear, the numbness, and the memories that won’t stay buried. The song captures the feeling of being trapped inside yourself with no clear way out.

Haunting vocals and a cold atmosphere make this one hit deep for anyone who’s ever felt their mind turning against them.

#darkmind #sad #emotional #dark #pain #raw #real #depressing #mentalhealth

Dark Mind

Fantasy

Without You.wav

A rainy room, two tired hearts, and one promise:
“If it’s too hard to breathe out there, come back here.”

숨 쉴 자리
[Verse 1]
Another day I barely survived, pretending I’m fine
Delivery bags and your slippers crumpled by the door
I leave the lights on without a word
And just place your sigh down next to them
You smile at me like everything’s okay
“It’s nothing, really,” brushing it off in one breath
But the trembling exhale caught on your collar
Makes even my heart hurt
[Pre-Chorus]
Words like “cheer up” feel too sharp right now
They only press yesterday’s weight down harder
So I just sit beside you in silence
And quietly rest my forehead on your shoulder
[Chorus]
If breathing gets too hard, I’ll breathe for you
You don’t have to speak, just lean on me
Even if the world drags you too roughly
Here, it’s okay to come down slowly
Sometimes you can cry like it’s nothing
Pour it all out, then smile when it’s over
Even on days you almost fell apart
I’ll leave a place for you to breathe in my arms
[Post-Chorus]
mm… it’s okay, rest here
la-la-la… la-la… I’ll share my breath with you
[Verse 2]
All the lights outside are rushing somewhere
Only the 24-hour convenience store sign keeps blinking
Thoughts ringing like endless alarms
Won’t even let me sleep
Stories I can’t easily tell anyone
I turn them into jokes and dodge away
But quiet rain spreads around your eyes
And my chest gets a little wet too
[Pre-Chorus 2]
If “I’m okay” feels too heavy to say
Just give me one word, “it’s hard,” that’s enough
I’ll gather every lacking comfort I have
So I can become your reason to be protected today
[Chorus – fuller]
If breathing gets too hard, I’ll breathe for you
Even if your throat closes up, just lean on me
Even if the world pushes you away too hard
Here, it’s okay to break slowly
Sometimes you can collapse and do nothing
Just fall into the space that’s already broken
Even on days you have no strength left to reach out
I’ll keep one breath empty for you in my arms
[Bridge – almost bare]
In this tiny room we live in
Even if we’re pushed to the edge of the universe
Even if all we can hold is each other’s backs
That one foot of warmth keeps the world turning
I’ll believe in tomorrow’s you for you
Today’s you just having endured,
That alone is already a miracle
So rest beside me a little longer
[Final Chorus – peak, soft ad-libs]
If breathing gets too hard, I’ll breathe for you
Even if you have no strength left to hide the pain
Even if the world pretends not to see you
Here, I’ll stay on your side until the end
Sometimes just being alive
Takes courage bigger than anything
All those days you endured until you almost collapsed
Let them go in my arms and fall asleep
[Final Post-Chorus / Outro – whisper]
mm… you did so well today too
la-la-la… la-la… let’s catch our breath now
Close your eyes, lean into me
Our two breaths… slowly becoming one
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비 오는 밤, 지친 두 사람, 한 가지 약속.
“숨 쉬기 힘들면, 여기 와. 내가 대신 숨 쉬어 줄게.”


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